剛洗完澡，電鈴就響了。有人今天沒帶鑰匙？509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiCPvSRax7
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我開門，花豹站在外頭。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwF9OhEUrQq
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我先是一愣，趕忙開門讓牠進來，進到我擁擠的小房間。花豹沒有坐下，牠開口：「我拿這個來跟妳交換。」邊遞出了一個緞帶綁的蝴蝶結，我接過來，滿臉疑惑。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMw31TFWV01
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「我要妳幫我保管的東西。」牠提醒。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFSY3p3pNw
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「啊！喔…好，等我一下。」我翻找自己放飾品的小盒子，拿出牠的領結。自然又順手的就幫牠繫上，調整好位置。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BLr6MaW5K
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牠盯著我，幾秒後，牠垂下頭，摸了自己的領結…然後是好長一陣沉默。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW560d67Xax
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這個動作……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHLCUp0Epv
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我瞬間明白了牠來找我的原因。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhxQCbsCXH
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等牠抬起頭時，我忍不住擁抱了牠。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbb6EUbu7g
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然後牠說「妳記得『哀悼的原因』嗎？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxebwe2eTK2
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「我記得。逝去的不會重生，所以哀悼是為了…感謝他們曾經出現…」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx8vsw1n4P
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花豹對我微笑。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJqW8FmWqA
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然後牠在我旁邊坐下，和我說了那條緞帶蝴蝶結的來由。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquLvSrR8X1
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「幾個月前我不想再繼續哀悼了，就去做別的事。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvY2Co72B2
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「『哀悼』如果是一份工作，那『慶祝』就是另一份工作。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j8M4ek3Ap
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「這條緞帶，就是『慶祝』時必須用到的。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ak2ZAfcOA
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「『慶祝』的內容是什麼呢？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvs5yNhRlc
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「哀悼為失去，慶祝則是為收穫。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xQicML0Id
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牠說牠為懷孕的母親慶祝、為考滿分的孩子慶祝、為成為新嫁娘的女孩慶祝、甚至只是幫一隻餓壞的流浪貓得到晚餐而慶祝。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8Fll8ps4E
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「然而，不是每種收穫都值得慶祝。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtsPHUGPMh
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牠為分到遺產的人慶祝、為詐騙集團得手而慶祝、為走紅卻變壞的藝人慶祝、為一個吵鬧不休而得到玩具的孩子慶祝…509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsAGFNC1nN
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「『慶祝』根本不管收穫的原因、得到的是好是壞…『慶祝』只為了當下的『得到』與『擁有』。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNIR0OZC5R
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「有時候我才剛慶祝完，就看見負責『哀悼』的在外頭等了…」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDVDaPhffa
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我聽牠說完，點點頭，手中捏著那個蝴蝶結。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMqMIDV7Fg
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「所以，我也許不適合『慶祝』。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7xjkqsQu6
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「那你為什麼要把這個給我呢？只是為了換回你的領結嗎？」我問。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfRY9dS3MY
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花豹搖搖頭。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98Zne7wnhA
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「我拿回領結，重回我負責『哀悼』的身分，回來第一個哀悼的對象，就是妳…」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEKZDYQkoG
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「但是，妳應該收下這份『慶祝』。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jI6E3JwWQ
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「妳得到了些什麼，對吧。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAPlmoQJZb
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……我點頭。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFOqdVbxNe
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前幾天，一個重要的傢伙過世了。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSbEvTQfrz
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我在失去的同時，得到了……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22Rdy4eJ07
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我想，花豹想說的是，509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr4IFE5S9f
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有時候，不是「得到」或「擁有」，只是「學會」罷了。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdXMnwuYbc
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難怪我們常常覺得快樂很假、難過很真，因為慶祝不分快樂的來源，只為了當下的快樂，而哀悼卻不是為了當下的難過。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWhVHLlb0z
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「逝去的，就不會再重生，唯一能做的就是哀悼，感謝他們曾經出現。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFAeFmFDJL
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花豹走後，這句話還在我腦海裡繞。
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