夜已深，整條街區陷入幾近死寂的靜。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfFD690sHz
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星野莉奈拿著包，轉頭對司機道了聲謝，下了車。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gPvDmZVCR
一身車燈的暖色光線，落在她身後，彷彿在為她驅逐黑暗。 她拿出鑰匙打開大門，腳步一側、轉身走進家門。身後的保母車慢慢掉頭，駛離靜謐的住宅街。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsv9chci6aj
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⋯⋯喀。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuHKUvOObd
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那聲音輕得像幻聽，卻又真實得讓她停下動作——太溫柔了，跟落在地板上的雪花一樣。不仔細注意，根本不會發現。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAKBTlyMcG
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正要轉身關門的時候，眼前的光忽然被一片黑影遮住。她本能抬頭、卻還沒反應過來——那個人就站在門口。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVssRZHp7R
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「啊⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE9AoJDcdG
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星野莉奈嚇了一大跳、馬上捂住嘴巴以免叫出聲——不用半秒她就認出對方身份。她急忙東張西望，接著用最快的速度，把他拉到身後、拉進大門內的小庭園中。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFSjms8T1Q
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星野莉奈又朝門外看了一眼，才輕輕帶上門。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMkakbmxte
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「——你怎麼⋯⋯在這裡？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKSYg9NnjB
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與其說驚喜，她根本是驚嚇——她沒想過、也不敢再想，會在這樣一個夜晚、這樣安靜的家門口，又見到他站在光線邊緣。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWvBsfU5Hz
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「我沒走。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQb9wpG11Gn
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糸師冴說，看似沒想過要遲疑什麼，也沒有想過現在多晚了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTtLM5QxN0
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有點不真實。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46rYVVb6Hu
這麼晚了，連附近的商店都關了燈，只有他還像某種錯置的錯覺一樣，站在那裡不動。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaLE7MAba6
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星野莉奈整個人都停下來了。除了一直握著手機的手，現在抖得有點明顯。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uG2bu0bHF
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她真的——真的好想見他。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1QbgQA6VG
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgylTVFxKk
那種想念不是為了擁抱或安慰，只是想確認，他真的還在她觸碰得到的地方。哪怕只是遠遠站著，哪怕什麼都不說，她都會覺得——撐得下去。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktejbzP73J
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可在昨晚收到他簡單的行程告知後，她早就說服自己：這次見不到了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zVqf2MD6v
——他應該早就走了，回到屬於他的節奏，他自己的軌道裡。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy26P15qBp
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmmKayzuSf
她早準備好，把『好想他』這句話藏在心裡——可他現在，竟然真的站在這裡。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEJyTbFRkw
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他真的站在這裡。真的沒走——6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eRfPTN77P
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心底有股緩緩竄升上來的喜悅，連心跳都因此變得更真實——可她從未預期過這個片段，連下一步該做什麼都沒有頭緒。最後還是只能再回頭問他：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ089sf5eYBK
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「⋯⋯不是要回西班牙嗎？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPo2UW7gLW
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「本來要回去。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabOcxyOExv
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糸師冴做了個短暫的答覆。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwFXduKTRj
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「今天在酒店看到一場說明會，一個叫『藍色監獄』的計畫。滿有興趣。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt73m5a0pUd
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沒說太多細節，也沒說什麼媒體、記者會、緋聞、風波。他說完後，靜了一下。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxIRASJKyb
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她沒什麼表情，只是輕輕笑了一下，很簡單。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡberdmgCnlP
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「你決定留下來？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VnjjaOnLH
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「嗯。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5PlL83yNQ
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糸師冴頓了一下，才補了一句：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzLKdgSzI9
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「如果妳有什麼行程，不用改。也不用等我回去。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLv9p1S0syo
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星野莉奈還是微笑著。想嘆氣，但沒真正吐出來。有些無奈，有些好笑，又有一點⋯⋯說不出的委屈。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fw5nQdWRg
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「冴⋯⋯這個時間點，你可以傳訊⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5Ke7ZVZ4A
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「我不想讓妳從新聞上知道這件事。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhp8Po5DAg
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她停了一下，看著他。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3M1UhbAqf
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「剛好回家吃飯。就順路過來。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLkv7xhIlj
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糸師冴把臉偏向一邊。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1tCzvJUcs
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「我不確定妳會不會想聽⋯⋯所以沒先聯絡。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cEDhMPP47
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原來他也會想，自己說的話她會不會想聽啊⋯⋯星野莉奈苦笑了一下。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQdDWr4CbH
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他說要留下來，她是真的開心的。能見到他一面，已經夠幸福了。何況他還特地來說明這件事——難得先來找她，難得到讓她差點想笑。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkBbdAlCgT
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她原本那麼想見他，卻只能一個人想念。結果在放棄之後，他竟然就這樣活生生站在她面前。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7A2YiiGlp
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星野莉奈低頭看了看自己仍在顫抖的手，忍不住笑了笑。明明只是順路說一句話而已⋯⋯她卻差點感動到不知所措。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7794JxESSm
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可，那股躲不掉的疼痛感，還是很真實。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnvOzRR8Jz
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——他一向是這樣的。說走就走，說留下就留下，理由永遠不是她。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgkxC7xa7t
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5e2ZMWbkQ
她不是不痛，但他也不是第一次這樣了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYOKGOZQV1
她告訴自己，沒那麼意外——因為十三歲那年，她哭得那麼大聲，都沒能讓他停下腳步。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj5jq0EGHY
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那時候她就知道了，她留不住他。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06hjBjk55p
而現在，只是又一次被確認而已。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi53gXfhKe
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終於嘆了一口氣。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhr5nXEHK1d
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「⋯⋯謝謝。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgyMHOpjLW
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星野莉奈輕聲說。不是不懂，因為她也做過類似的選擇——當初為了巴黎Ｃ牌的試鏡，留下他一個人在日本，獨自面對YIPS。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktMS4caL8k
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這樣的選擇⋯⋯或許，並不是因為真的不在意吧。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEj0T95uPW
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIwyGWzEfO
糸師冴沒回應，只是看著她，像在確認什麼，又像沒想那麼多，只是單純站在這裡。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGwIOUTZcw
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「你今天有看新聞嗎？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGITFmwXo0
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語氣像是隨口問的，但星野莉奈的眼神卻沒有移開他。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLoMaAWcE1
糸師冴還是看著她，沒有立刻回。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVRDdzdyBJ
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「我是說⋯⋯有記者說你回來，是為了誰誰誰——什麼C牌的代言人啦，什麼模特啦。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lFzyXYDIe
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她笑了一下，語氣輕得像沒掛心。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWOTpqcJYg
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jDSceZl3S
糸師冴的表情沒變，只是像掃過背景雜訊那樣，簡單丟出一句：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiu8lnEr9iw
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「那些會降低智商的東西不用看。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLGplFagMC
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她愣了一下，早該猜到這個答案——卻還是被什麼刺了一下。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BTY1sELNx
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVdqAxIGAO
「我就知道你不會在乎。」星野莉奈勉強笑著，沒說可是「那些」東西裡有她，「⋯⋯你一向都不理這些人。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUTUgBfJrG
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4r4WlAFbcV
糸師冴點了點頭，連一句都懶得多說。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHY4QVreck
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她早就知道了。可驗證的那一瞬間，還是⋯⋯會痛。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCmOKt8T8k
——他不是不知道。是從頭到尾，真的，都沒打算為這些事，說一句話。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWMeg8eZUV
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所以⋯⋯她才必須親口問他。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1scMQHVg0W
否則，她永遠不知道，自己到底是被回應過，還是只是被忽略。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdrOUKdzi1
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她眼神收回，像鼓起什麼：「可以問你一個問題嗎？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJTcsvUfEv
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KmPhsxkZW
糸師冴望著她，她沒等那聲「可以」，就輕輕開口：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlc62XHF69
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「那時候⋯⋯我問你，能不能當我男朋友的時候。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNU6kycVsf
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她語調平穩，卻藏不住一點點太久沒說出口的濕氣。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UAkmSWfoW
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「你為什麼，什麼都不說？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnegpg64EX
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她要的，不是澄清，不是安慰，也不是公關措辭——6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlJMiatiMt
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只是想知道，他當時，為什麼不說話。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntJjLig8pH
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她眼神乾淨，語氣也很平靜，看起來做了很多次心理預演。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSh48yWhjP
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjqkJ6qiv4
糸師冴的眼睫微動，卻沒說話。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOb34AZjfK
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYklzGsO4L1
「你那時候什麼都沒說。」星野莉奈語氣不重，但每一個字都像在敲門，「所以我一直以為，你是在拒絕我。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDG8m3qIQc
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYRJ0RHdH1
她沒打算哭，可眼睛就是酸了。不是情緒失控的那種，只是覺得——終於到了該問的時候。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhT1Gr4Zzl
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「現在可以告訴我了嗎？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLfwL9BepL
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她問得很輕、很平靜，跟在問一個已經無關痛癢的往事一樣。但她眼神裡的那一點閃動，出賣了她。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFDfZrHYAG
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她可以接受他完全不想搭理記者，也可以接受他對輿論嗤之以鼻。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNcx54qfIY
但她需要知道——真正的答案。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yHO3uC1SB
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她只是想有足夠的底氣，在所有喧嘩之中，繼續站穩自己。就像客廳那張媽媽的模特照一樣，最後走進聚光燈下，用優雅沉靜的笑容穿透一切喧囂，眼神仍然明亮。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpwBfdN7FD
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她不是做不到——6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFDY9bfNK0
是⋯⋯她太累了，不想再自己猜。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9u9gop6RZU
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她想知道，不是只有她自己一個人；就算他不願意公開也沒關係。至少⋯⋯她得知道，她不是一個人。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt9qZK0X3i
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糸師冴沒有立刻回答。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVKRomCymu
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObE0dYTXpr
他只是站著，靜靜看著她，視線像是停在一個太久沒觸碰的名字上。喉結動了一下，似乎有什麼卡住了，然後才說：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyLqYJ0f8p
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「⋯⋯因為妳太喜歡我了。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrwY8QUpEr
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她沒說話，只看著他，眼神在等一個更具體的解釋。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYgR5xw5ps
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「妳太用盡全力了。」他的語氣一貫冷靜，沒有任何責備，卻也沒有溫度。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmP5hvqwLM
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她盯著他，手指緊了緊。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhALFKFEIBF
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qqQDF2r1T
糸師冴繼續說下去，語速不快，說出那個早就壓在心底的結論：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrbh5iZU3k
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「妳總在等我開口，連我沉默的時候，妳也會自己幫我把話説完⋯⋯妳知道我喜歡什麼口味的飲料、哪雙球鞋壓腳、哪天睡不好，什麼紅茶我不會喝第二次。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Mm7TGo7Zz
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他眼神沒動。她指尖掐緊了一下，但沒有插話。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjHXlzLU8h
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「妳連我哪天打噴嚏、早上挑哪條毛巾、哪一場比賽後不想講話——妳都記得，比我還清楚。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jg5wEHR2i
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYyeY8TKPH
他停了一下，終於碰到心裡最難說出口的那句：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1Xo9sVsbm
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ntB0ekZe4
「——『這些，真的是妳該做的嗎？』」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cBNvWhU7e
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM1hMTPwJW
糸師冴冷靜到近乎空白。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYzcnQvxnL
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2FvLnmEuJ
「每次妳把所有細節記得清清楚楚時，我只想問這句話。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0ePELqcwB
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNQPoSmrsU
她抿唇，眼神裡的光開始慢慢往下沉。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDmur1xzNq
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMsm0bLfPl
「所以你就選擇，不回應？」她問，聲音輕得像風。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6heoh9lkIf
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他眼中有什麼微微動了一下，好像想說什麼，卻又收了回去。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7vzukTmiB
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1yALEG4dl
糸師冴靜了太久，久到她以為，那份沉默也是一種回答。她點了點頭，像理解了什麼，又像終於累了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLH74D9cAb
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「原來我這麼努力地喜歡你，在你眼裡——只是努力過頭了？」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJIK8jrDeV
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「不是。」糸師冴皺眉，「我只是覺得——妳不該這樣。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oVjyyFHFw
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIinfIXaMJ
「所以是我錯了？」她輕聲問，語氣仍然平穩，卻穩得連自己也不太確定。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdqcJxDrdR
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j5hXxCvPb
「妳把所有事情都預先設想的太多了。」他停了一下，像在調整什麼似的：「多到讓我懷疑，妳是不是連受傷，都提前準備好了。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFvf320oAU
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOIiSZ31lR
他一直知道她的付出，他不是看不到；他一直都知道她很好，只是希望她知道，她真的不需要為了他這麼拚命。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUpwM8tsQQ
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——不需要因為他，失去自己原本的樣子。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0168MqIvmf
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rYBTVGvV5
星野莉奈沒再開口，只低頭看著地上的影子。站太久了，腳也有點麻了，但她還沒有轉身。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI1rK4Z6XC
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「⋯⋯不管我在不在日本，妳都會是這樣吧。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibeKMEmO95
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他說，聲音很低。像在問她，也像在說服自己。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nBEquu75P
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PS90xwGdQ
他知道她會一直努力，無論他在不在場。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXspZOEQ4Iu
她本來就會閃閃發光，本來就能站在那裡，讓所有人看見她。從來不需要靠誰。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHWKhSUUGg
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機場的迎賓大廳裡，還掛著她和神谷美咲的海報——那個位置，本來就應該屬於她。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGIoXKad9h
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和他，一點關係都沒有。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU82vPJqQO
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBnDFZHw86
她聽著，忽然笑了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ppI8LE2F9
很輕微的一個動作，像終於解開了什麼。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalDw91QueR
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原來，自己所做的一切，以為那些「不可取代」的位置，對對方來說，都只是——一種過分殷勤的工作。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInAYy1ZAen
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那些最美好、最溫暖也最真實的時刻，其實都是她一個人瞎忙猛竄，還低下頭，把它們收藏到內心最深的地方，珍惜保存。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITrlldT7Wg
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK0iHG9ByI
突然想起小川鈴很久以前和她說過——她的一切都必須跟鏡頭前一樣「剛剛好」。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZR159EeP5
動作剛好、語言剛好、行為舉止剛好⋯⋯6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlRvtBaWWM
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連情感都要，剛剛好。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4XM9K0iXB
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Awjf5RqbT
她的身體可以在零點三秒內調整角度，但她的情感沒辦法「剛剛好地愛」；「鏡頭精準」是職業訓練，專業可以掌握，但感情——不是工作。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMIePjmMB9
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不是。一直都不是。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhm9O8KPOm
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「⋯⋯你放心吧。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeS4dvZkk8
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星野莉奈輕聲說，像在宣布一場溫柔的退場。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUUe6i67Ts
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0rPWo5zv8
「你穿哪雙鞋、喝哪個牌子的運動飲料、喜歡哪種戰術、哪場比賽得幾分⋯⋯那些四年前的事，我現在都忘得差不多了。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfXmO6yAAg
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4Nsrq5bhh
她說得不快，每一個字都刻意放慢，用來割自己一刀。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqUcjv4wtW
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurIv0apouC
「這樣⋯⋯就不會太不像戀愛了。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0fH1BBhPm
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCWpX76kgF
她輕笑一下，對那個拼命記住所有細節的自己，說了一句告別。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVa1bC8Itf
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「太像，求職準備了⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM3NPRZLe8
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她真的太用力了。用力到，忘記自己其實也需要被回應。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybgGj0sp9p
她以為自己的愛是無條件、是輕盈、是足以支撐這段關係的——而現在，終於證明了，自己只是個過度消耗的機器。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOMq4Pvzis
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說完，她轉身面向家門，手搭上門把，語氣輕到像是在結束一場不會錄取的面試：6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulK22HwoE9
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhb1Uv51ibu
「我會學著，怎麼『不那麼喜歡你』——我學得很快。放心吧。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0iNHC0jfg
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtYQysj5BA
腳步沒停，她往屋子裡走去。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXslb2VV1O
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「莉奈——」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpnFwHUII6
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糸師冴下意識叫住她，腳步剛動了一下，手也抬了一寸，卻還是差了半步。他原本伸出的手，就停在門把的高度，離她不到五公分。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eTYBCLHeR
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門「喀」地關上。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutA9RFdL4h
那聲音落下的瞬間，像什麼被剪斷了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbccYWdERPh
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「我會調整成你認為『適合』的樣子。那個剛剛好的樣子。」6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUU6IFxYnf
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她最後的聲音在空氣裡散開，帶著幾乎聽不見的顫抖。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbCqGG2UIj
6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1fZvX01IH
——她那麼努力地喜歡他。不是一天，不是一句話，而是幾年來，心甘情願學著怎麼靠近他、照顧他、讀懂他——6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgn3re8KItE
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她用盡全力在風暴中站穩，繼續溫暖自己的初心，就是為了不辜負所有的真心、她感受到真切的每一刻——她以為，她不是一個人。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG4pfnY1ox
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而他，只用一場冷靜的風，把她所有的熱度吹散了。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWJ8B2mxm3
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門關上的瞬間，他站著沒有動。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2qC7YX2dB
他知道她誤會了，卻一句解釋也說不出口。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGz1XXVVDn
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他不是不在意她。6Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc8HboVX5M
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而是，他已經用盡全力，回應她的每一句話了。
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