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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH5brkRz3D
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBf66IOmTz
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsSqIkpMEh
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNKmuOQQ2q
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IoDZsvTYh
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HeiPa6voc
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUufUVTxM8L
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRUihy2EGm
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6dtbr5WYM
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmtoKT0azo
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYZCECfVMV
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67UJNqQ3Q7
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3dAGzRk5F
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1d5yV9jjb
Alas... all he had was just his hope303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPMRinmfRS
Alas... & what he got was a nope...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURQsvVkwh4
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKT1fPwxAq
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoJPk4uRoC
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eEbrvvLTq
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJpH8JNzLj
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbrFbkseTA
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5bMcfWPjv
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRtWnsebn5
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiJaReFXk0
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Chapter II: When it all began303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzklqGTJs2
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgo3KfrLEp
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqMhsEo6o9
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcDaA8eKVg
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPexQw2I6i
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupMBiwGnGP
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lmR2RVTtp
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHEIcscOct
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVJWVQ1nMM
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February 2018303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDpuvfS0Hy
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOd55X2r6gm
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhRwyj8NDO
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yprjCFE5T
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Zw5OklgrO
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2TFjWpInO
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June 2018303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2qNKRjOsp
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77YfBnIJXd
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuosnJSSlZr
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December 2018303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQzuGi9P6z
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5S6WxJkgF
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21APTtPcnY
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v5hYYgNQe
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfisIsAv3P6
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhYNZygJL9
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ312gkVYeqH
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October 2019303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooIt7y5DEY
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7DPduhrhp
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnffcwnRpCC
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFC9finMm01
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowH5vdLwwh
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3Eg6YlMvF
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November 2019303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2299CH54Y
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbpxE27Uw5
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5GNMzgY9c
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm2PETZJx3
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGwX7nmgfT
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsdmJWDhhs
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRoYlcvsX5
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJMY4lCZbN
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfCfzOHuo6
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHB06scfLQ
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKU77CJ6HV
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTisEy2VDc
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkycQbp25u8
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yKt8B2gEb
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January 2022303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdbTAGZSbD
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzso0lbNcS
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXxLzXk444
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March 2022303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2yGM2Q3MK
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4EouAT8yS
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68YbbVL1gq
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGG9hFt1Lu
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4F6PYxnAYR
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIPGHknoW9
Stay safe, Sandra!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryyeLSD2n3
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April 2022303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF4UVurttL
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTIgRIWyQF
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNX7Khqr1uE
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP32cYEN4Cd
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0W9dWP1OlD
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Chapter V: The End of an Era303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC224eJTeRf
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWOQYgZk11
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmUj6dhJKQ
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQbI9jCtjX
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaECDhxk6ZC
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhSIAK7C01
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1ez7UR3YS
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOT8Wd2pRCX
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1CcJs6CC7
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8LwTQpFgX
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgviSXs05Rr
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWVsjfyDTq
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0L84uZvHP
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7luge7bDk
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7O0kfp3er
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God be with you303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwGNph2oJP
Kaduk"303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhpHsykLKH
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00NvKuRmmJ
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkmSOYyT5Z
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