Feeling the loneliness inside was so bad and my brother felt the same way to I know i felt like the outsider because i knew i was different and i even got made fun of in school and i know my brother did to for being over weight but i felt different and so out of place really did not feel loved at all from both of my parents i wanted to learn how to play the piano and my dad told me no but yet he had the money and my dad did not like music that much where it was in my blood from my mom side of the family. As a little girl i did not feel pretty enough or smart enough well i had a learning issue and i had a hard time learning and i could not say certain words right but in are family my mom older brother looked down on me when i became a teenager and into adult hood as well. I could not understand why until i got older what was happening but it still did not make any since to me still to this day.
I feel like i been through enough pain in my life to last a life time i do not need no more at all i just want to heal and move on with my life and better my self. and just have my brother alive and healthy and my husband to and that is all i care about at tis point in my life and maybe my son will come back in my life one day since he is doing his own thing but i doubt it tho.
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