AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPBVpMSO05
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLoM7jzuch
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL5448QiGi
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATrCInwrDx
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7UET7PIdm
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5mAOWngCg
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fR6hFNyvJ
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSQlQYonKs
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2F3fBP6vhb
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAZHPWBGro
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlf9h5jBN0
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoSNvSH4ac
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoXwiOPG04
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaac4GkBgd
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01iLSD9f8C
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9gGN5KScJ
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMAwBjwOS1
On the last bench, near the window.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG80Zb6hkx
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH5w3gXyCD
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3nhTub6o4
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR7dYhOfpA
I barely exist in the noise.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqjeQMtqLI
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgLrKbqTRE
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwKiRvwCgh
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IAdjCD5lL
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPvZ7HGChw
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IaDC5z8lx
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNPA5JIW2h
People talk like they've figured it all out.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CV3Mh4SOj
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMDhf3deAo
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpn08IrI46G
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0e8KuK2Bn
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rIIFulNyG
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpvyyjDwYa
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMHr1sXxq4
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhTCaxgqoP
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGhd2xvPNM
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UEXREZSY3
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5jq1LXys5
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIzVkfhH77
She was kind.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokUvAGzPfR
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzK8cw1qq2g
The way the football kept rolling.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiHCVourrj
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw69sYxAzf0
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRt3uGElg0
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhsrNnpeuh
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZ2z31OkV7
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5L4VDhKst
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvxKsDsm6b
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEk9sVqqOCe
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosPzwxZO5t
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGosJDgwNAr
Like they've seen your heart before you did"20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFCB6CGFM2
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQzYwPsU7U
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYKTNSZl2B
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzDoKvlsAb
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmo8gaajfe
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3nCSwX69x
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpCwYaxL92
Changed out of my uniform.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylbTI59jFl
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lLIsuDaNi
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