It all begin when i was still a toddler and i had both parent's who both worked at a company let's called it 'Pronencel', oh and plus i had a big brother that's 9 year's older than me and was at school. That time i was a toddler well a really mischievous toddler i say, also my parent's was so busy with their work so they hired like 4 to 8 babysitter's to watch and take care of me when they were out with work stuff. While my big brother was at his dorm and was in another place, so i was left alone with my babysitter's. It felt like i was left out by everyone and was alone, um okay i was 'a little overstate' that but hey it's not my fault that i felt like 'kay. Back to that since i was left out i alway's make trouble so that i can had their attention (POV: yup i'm a attention seeker okay deal with it), at that time i was feeling so lonely and to cover it up i was once taught that i need to be happy, energetic, to be expected as what everyone around me will, etc. And let me tell you that it was "Exhausting"!!! Like you literally need to be another person all the time and it just "So Annoying"!!!
Sigh~~~ it just like that all the time with everyone that was around me neither it's from my neighborhood or even at the place where my parent's building work is or even my aunt place to be i keep smiling, then when i was at the kindergarten i maked friend's and that somehow gave me a feeling that to be honest was empty. So i started to open up with them a little with them. After that i was happy that i can be myself and that i had somebody else beside my nephew, but my parent's suddenly dropped a bombshell on me when were having a family time (I still remembered it clearly). That we will moving to the village so we can always meet my grandparent's more freely also my parent's retired from the company and that means i need to changed school also said goodbye to my friends and my partner in crime (technically my nephew) and that's when i was still at the age 6,5 years old (LIKE I MEAN LITERALLY!!!). That's how my life became even more hollow and practically empty, because even tho i had the attention from both of my parent it just felt weird plus my big brother was pretty much the same just having more tantrum and a lot harder anger issue to control. All of that happen when i was still 6,5 years old and was in kindergarden, and at that time i don't know that i was heading towards my most hated and even more lonely situation than i had ever exprience than this that i could'nt even imagine.
(yawn) oh boy that was quite long huh guys, alright this is the end of chapter 2 i hoped you guys enjoyed it see you in another chapet guys ~~~~
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