Lucy?" I raise my head in alarm. "Lucy!" I turn to the familiar voice. "There you are!" I feel warm arms engulf me, pulling me, soothing me.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhG6BgPPQVU
"Ray…" I choke out. Ray releases me and looks at my tear-stained face. He takes my hand and slips the blade from between my fingers, his eyes never leaving mine.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtFlIFCJPr
"Lucy," his voice is broken. "Please tell me you didn't."979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHf5P6TjUR
"I-I didn't." I take a deep, shaky breath. "But I almost did." He turns his head and shuts his eyes.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrmb8nc39B
"Promise me something, Lucy." He looks back at me. "Promise me that you'll never cut again, OK?" I nod. "If you ever fall back to this place again, call me over. I'll help you, Lucy." He grabs my hands. "Promise me."979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxwVRf7W6T
"I promise, Ray." I whisper, tears leaking out of my eyes. He pulls me into a tight hug, breathing out a sigh of relief. He kisses the top of my head and then moves back…979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLA9babOmP
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I open my eyes and stare at my wall, but it's not there.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaqLXGgHlc
My blanket is hanging off my bed, my clothes are strewn across the floor, my hair is sticking to my wet cheeks and the window is shut, enclosing me in darkness.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimrhORGki4
I feel nothing but pain and agony. A dark cloud is filling my head, making me seem heavy.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn12o41DZ3
Fake.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqvJcDN0O
Not myself.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmk2nl4tJB
The silver blade is shining, piercing the darkness with an evil light. It taunts me, challenges me, dares me to touch it, to pick it up and to use it.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBQIB283yp
Oh, Ray. Where are you?!979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQqEcA4Afs
"I'm going somewhere with my parents and we won't be back until Friday. Call me if you need anything, OK?"979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyF9nqSAFe
Help me, Ray! Help me!979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKAw1ZIr8s
I punch in his number and put the phone to my ear.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFFaFnl9ER
Voice mail.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKpfB8Axgx
I try again.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR8Khoi4et
No answer.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYD9V3Cktb
I frantically pull at my hair, curling into a ball. I shut my eyes but a few lone tears escape. I shake my head, trying to pull myself out of my despair and trying, somehow, to pull myself together. I'm falling apart, breaking down.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWw8tv0kQEx
I can't. I must stay strong.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IM8aSuqJ0
My tears come faster.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09GuABRx6Y
Keep it together, Lucy. Keep it together.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfQzuFmdUn
"Ahh!" I scream, pushing myself back. I lose my balance and fall off my bed, crashing to the floor. I cover my face with my hands, shaking, sobbing.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSM6CNoWdPD
"Ray!" I cry out. Please…979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXxaPgfGm7
My hands fall to my sides, my hair a knotted mess. I stare silently at the ceiling.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXcOQfMFtp
Is it really that high?979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8W1kdXe4O
I curl up on my side, staring into the black nothingness under my bed.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELPnkI4BUu
I must move… I need to move.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4kgAg8L2U
I eye the door.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDEM6gVMzr
I will myself to sit up.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr7tjoi8Dd
My room turns upside down and goes blurry, my vision faltering. I still and wait for the dizziness to pass.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHUCAlRgSg
I blink once – twice- and then sit on my knees.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaM61bu4LUl
I focus on the door.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19OinTOIbV
I crawl forward.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXc3fIvzk9
I need to get there.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrBFJBorKz
I slowly try to stand up. I advance, pushing one leg forward and then the other, and repeat.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUI1EneOcQ
My legs are wobbly, broken.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPLBYqRaNs
Just a few more feet…979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgJryYylK4
I reach out my hand and take another step-979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpar03vIZIw
and collapse to the ground.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvdTjA2cAa
"No…" I try to stand again, but I can't get up.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0QduySxD0
I grab at my bed sheet, trying to pull myself up. I feel around, grabbing at anything I possibly can. I grasp closer to my blanket and freeze as I touch something cold. Sharp.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfvXC1Fbq0
I suck in a breath.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJEpFHfF08
A chill of excitement and fear shoots up my arm, down my spine and spreads through my body.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFLU1dzOpX
I bring the blade closer to me, another thrill flowing inside me.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTrHs2nhoJ
Just once.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pqBfrMw5T
"Promise me."979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwRgayOAxq
"I promise, Ray."979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrVahHeyZV
No, I can't. I promised him.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjNEHwvUJa
But it'll feel so good…979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAB4Js68QX
I study the blade, turning it around in my hands.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqrkmtu2Xu
It'll be quick. Just one cut.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOOQHsWzXn
It'll heal quickly, faster than normally.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajtkTMwQ21
Now's your chance, Ray… I look at the door, waiting for him to walk through and stop me.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQjdiVRhyt
Anytime, now…979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡandjujxQ2P
My vision blurs. I feel drops on my skin.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC98wegD5QP
Is it raining?979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKoHTNb0VL
No, that’s impossible.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAiTDJ9yxJ
I can't see.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7LvYLEAdB
I try to take breath but I choke up, a heavy weight sitting on my chest. A rock is stuck in my throat.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUjQqYWa96
I can't breathe.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoezJTWz8Z
I thrash around, clawing at my throat. I make a gurgling sound, trying to swallow.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAPwabAXJe
What's poking my leg…?979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPZ86GbnBv
I look down, choking on air, and spot the blade.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZnEiGJkvQ
How did it get there?979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3BrhSwBlF
I take it and hold it closely to myself.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4cD905Nyg
How can something so evil look so beautiful?979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1COtgUtQb
I bring it down to my wrist and shiver.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBiGjjSwdP
So cold.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWnlAuJTiv
I press down and drive it across my skin.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc2BYmXt1r
I let out a shaky breath that I didn't know I was holding. My blood drips warm and red down my arm.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFLAKQxOGp
I take another breath.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEzfGd8LYJ
Another.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2h59fxyvQ
My breathing comes harder, faster.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHV4Bzpu75
I slide the blade and cut again, slicing more of my skin. I gasp, my arm stinging. A groan escapes my lips as the pain takes its place, the sick pleasure mixing in.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHNhDhSLum
I lean back, resting my head against my bed.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVutIFDDZA
I shut my eyes tightly.979Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2H58b5InRF
I should not have done that.
Penana
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