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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmLLSvDS6j
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvHBeNCHzw
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7E6fn3nOC
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtk5FY4aSG
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwrUjAaUTq
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1aZe1lgyl
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFbljyRLZ2
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezimtq6I6V
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLEvaAgXbJ
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbAua1xaB5
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD2o1nq7Ks
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPxTATwZ3e
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM5cVrThkX
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UsrhzHNN8
Alas... all he had was just his hope249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI31WA10hV2
Alas... & what he got was a nope...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerbvjG96MX
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLNTvMKBxV
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmf6pratUD
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB68dznJgob
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy41wyUO4o
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbZ2IjQyg4
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikDEokExSG
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOFhfkkZ3C
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQxJy8IBZl
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Chapter II: When it all began249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOq85MobZa
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2wnwwYtBv
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpzNHGkrov
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuryot6so9r
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkO6BmTLA8
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W22hsHF3x
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpyQYptSra
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IeG4K0R8T
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6TmJZ55Sb
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February 2018249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9OQPzHaMk
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbzzC5o03X
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqBB7mR16F
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12HT9CHYhr
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iMU0eRjcc
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyg6wSuDNTS
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June 2018249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ0GajoTPI
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6b7QTfxXA
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9mkrEePbf
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December 2018249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2uaMwuqWi
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWaqDH0Jpi
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTDAC1jss9
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYP6qIcS2F
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July 2019249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwymVpEvCT
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kWVySSNEw
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGkYpD5DoO
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6w6Br0gsi
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October 2019249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hr7EhvVor
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq2HfPot06
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHaHuc1v67
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bOjna6009
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwE7APf2eQ8
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdikebkFW8a
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November 2019249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIQaJLaKj9
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPj2Q4kTqr
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLwOQtXccB
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGTA55cQA9
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Eko3sJuOl
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6kbZlJ0Cr
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBXM7FDOF2
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K8DZdRe06
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeT7eMluuG
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9yAPuUZem
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTl4N5ZOvs
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgIqmoaJ62
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsRyPQiGcx
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4FrZXD1Qm
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January 2022249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFM0uMvNAJG
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfrzvpFN1o
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuljPxFBQ0C
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March 2022249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0RT45YjIE
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dv3WCEcow
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZ9B3Kbtj8
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzNoKqhz2g
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1ddLR8kxM
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxkvpzmdWa
Stay safe, Sandra!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNenEjMl1X
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSsMCBq2ij
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ7JAjDtWU
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaGNxohKsX
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GHA7ReNGk
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Chapter V: The End of an Era249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cEmR2ZYnl
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ysa473s7m
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvXuuoq6yh
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Nwe6iEXVH
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SD1gS9NC0
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjyOV7ObCm
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiY4jQdqhd
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7DrxDxPIG
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBEA4E5x2U
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIXfoQFWEK
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg9Phqvbcq
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfEVYOguhM
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuSjXHyyG0
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEy63YohLA
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHKeXz8Mj2
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God be with you249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt90w7lR1N0
Kaduk"249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyrku5sOZd
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6WV5Oa56p
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...249Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSpp2BJMal
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