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No Plagiarism!caGw1gJ0DuIDhHrTDd5jposted on PENANA 也許我做得過頭了,但是我不想要孩子步入跟我一樣的後塵。8964 copyright protection152PENANAVuGgPCL2F2 維尼
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國中時,我十分熱愛音樂,下課時會跟樂團的朋友一起創作音樂,一起參加各種音樂活動。8964 copyright protection152PENANAnq3L67QGJn 維尼
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那時的我們沒有對未來有任何考慮,整天創作,投入於音樂的世界之中。8964 copyright protection152PENANAVmPLDjw9Kl 維尼
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我還記得當時我們甚至上了展演廳去演唱,那時候只要有人看著我,就覺得好快樂,所以一直持續創作。8964 copyright protection152PENANA55jxiHxIS4 維尼
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從早到晚,有時會去樂團朋友家過夜,一起聊天、寫歌,那時候總覺得,我一定是世上最幸福的人8964 copyright protection152PENANAyHXrVyx9Ya 維尼
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國三時,大家都忙於準備大考,但我們仍沒有放棄創作,當晚自習結束後,在放學的路上我們還是忙於討論歌曲之類的。8964 copyright protection152PENANAvwzoNfQ53k 維尼
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當時我們還一起討論著要出道,加入哪間經紀公司,舉辦哪裡的演唱會,真是充滿天真的童言童語。8964 copyright protection152PENANAhd4kOA2e1F 維尼
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既便如此,那時候的我是對夢想懷有憧憬的。8964 copyright protection152PENANAjQkNUDYiPr 維尼
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到了高中,雖然我們分到不同學校,但是假日時我們仍會相約出來,一起討論關於音樂、樂團的種種事。8964 copyright protection152PENANAgCjKshMjVy 維尼
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可是上了高二之後,大家開始有各自的社交圈,我們也越來越少約出來玩,團隊在此時已經漸漸分崩離析。8964 copyright protection152PENANASMpVuxRvFE 維尼
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我雖說有在這時加入高中的及他社,不過卻沒有辦法像國中時玩得一樣盡興,也許是因為我有點放不下國中的朋友。8964 copyright protection152PENANACPMzyfLpRL 維尼
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總之過了不久之後我就退出及他社了,對那裡沒有任何留戀,我時常在想,如果我當初也能融入其中,是不是現在的情況也會截然不同呢?8964 copyright protection152PENANA709Sdh6pfB 維尼
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高三大考時,我們已然完全沒有連絡,當初要一起出道的諾言也蕩然無存。8964 copyright protection152PENANAhD24azXJts 維尼
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我心中仍掛念著那份諾言,相信將來的某一天,大家一定會重新聯絡,然後再一起往曾經的夢想邁進。8964 copyright protection152PENANAlvS6xVJfOZ 維尼
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因為我心不在學習,所以只能填一間勘看的大學入學,科系也不是我喜歡的,所以我學得相當痛苦,每天都想休學。8964 copyright protection152PENANAqhZ2aakTvV 維尼
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大學時,我仍舊再堅持創作,但當某次國中同學會大家一起約出來時,我才發現,原來已經沒有人在創作音樂了。8964 copyright protection152PENANAo6dYItruZW 維尼
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突然間,世界剩我一個人,我知道要回到當初那樣已經事不可能的了,但我仍保有期望,希望我們能再次回歸以前的光景。8964 copyright protection152PENANAKRotUOsfX3 維尼
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「對阿,寫歌又賺不了錢,寫什麼歌阿。」8964 copyright protection152PENANAkShGLZnvbA 維尼
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我頓時無言以對,這群人已經不時當初我所認識的朋友了,大家都變了,變成我不認識的陌生人。8964 copyright protection152PENANAu8idYC5XeL 維尼
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在那次聚會之後,我就再也沒有參加過國中同學聚會。8964 copyright protection152PENANA84GMouD9ED 維尼
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為了不成為跟它們一樣放棄夢想的人,我一次次投稿,卻一次次碰壁,轉眼間,我就大四了。8964 copyright protection152PENANA04GDfgpvFg 維尼
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這四年中,有迷茫,有戀愛,對於這四年,我覺得我並沒有虛度光陰,而且由於每天創作,寫得歌也一天比一天好。8964 copyright protection152PENANAKhMcJVeoSp 維尼
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但現實是殘酷的,我必須賺錢養活自己,不能再靠爸媽的資助了。8964 copyright protection152PENANAT9HkfjnSkT 維尼
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【沒有辦法用音樂賺錢】,我那時萌生出這樣的念頭,所以我選擇畢業後就找一份工作,但在閒暇時間還是繼續創作。8964 copyright protection152PENANA0HkGdF3yid 維尼
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也就是在那間公司,我遇見了現任丈夫,我把這段時間相處的喜、怒、哀、樂,寫成一首曲子【甜蜜時光】。8964 copyright protection152PENANAJ3KFXfYm2q 維尼
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雖然【甜蜜時光】有成功獲得編輯青睞,但在市場上卻賣得不盡理想,這並不是壓倒駱駝的最後一根稻草。8964 copyright protection152PENANAwbp91uHwPz 維尼
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壓倒我的是當我在電視機前看見曾經的國中同學,她正宣傳著自己的新單曲,那張單曲索然無味,卻又能得到曝光。8964 copyright protection152PENANAOzAUKypzwg 維尼
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並不是我單個人覺得這首歌很無趣,當時大多媒體都評分這首歌為無趣之作,所以我堅信她一定有特殊管道。8964 copyright protection152PENANAS9VbXSdPVt 維尼
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我很不服氣,憑什麼擁有這機會的不是我,但我理解這不過是無意義的忌妒罷了,那天之後,我就再也沒有創作過歌曲了。8964 copyright protection152PENANAxwhzU3dTeT 維尼
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「完成了,銀的大冒險第一話!麻麻你看!」8964 copyright protection152PENANAfx2ZpgeDvL 維尼
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當兒子給我看他畫的漫畫時,歷史似乎就要在我面前重演,雖然如此擔憂,但我決定先觀察一陣子。8964 copyright protection152PENANAJHUItvoeIc 維尼
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果然,不出我所料,晴寧跟我踏上了一樣的旅途,開始廢寢忘食的畫,他的成績也開始每況愈下,這樣下去是不行的。8964 copyright protection152PENANAOQ39G5evRF 維尼
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我被恐懼所覆蓋,害怕孩子受到跟我一樣的痛苦、創傷,所以我必需先行斬斷這條路。8964 copyright protection152PENANAeEAIeLUgzz 維尼
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但我做得太過頭了,將他寶貴的漫畫給撕個粉碎,他憎恨的眼神,令我愧疚不已,儘管如此,我還是不想要他步入我的後塵。8964 copyright protection152PENANAldoETvb8Hb 維尼
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第二次模擬考時,晴寧的發揮得相當出色,我有點心軟想要打破約定,不過不行。8964 copyright protection152PENANA9MEjKMrj44 維尼
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突然,晴寧的發言卻令我不知所措。8964 copyright protection152PENANA8THQ4zgI87 維尼
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「對了媽,幫我把樓鄉箱子裡的東西都丟了吧。」8964 copyright protection152PENANAvOJtIBTp18 維尼
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這應該是我所期待的結局,放棄夢想回歸現實。8964 copyright protection152PENANAsj8k0ncfKX 維尼
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心中卻癢癢的,同樣身為追夢人,夢想該就這樣輕易放棄?可是這是我一手造成的,我沒有資格進一步說話。8964 copyright protection152PENANAJ2D8eL1TxO 維尼
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我的心在追夢與現實之間來回搖擺,年輕時所遺憾未完成的夢,至今仍影響著我。8964 copyright protection152PENANAA5re4okvqc 維尼
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我是否太過自私,既使身為母親,也不該擅自決定孩子的人生,下次一定要跟晴寧好好談談。8964 copyright protection152PENANACfsYPNSi9t 維尼
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有一天,我在玄關等待晴寧到家, 等他到家後,再一起商討關於她畫畫的問題,我想要作為一個過來人,跟他分享我的經驗。8964 copyright protection152PENANA8QQqMPPGIj 維尼
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太過於壓抑孩子是件不好的事,我到如今才察覺到,或許已然太晚,但是不行動是絕對沒有改變的。8964 copyright protection152PENANAPzceXXB7Pe 維尼
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仔細一想,那晴芯是否也有屬於她的夢想呢?我是不是害她喪失了自己的夢想。8964 copyright protection152PENANAEo1BSFEVXq 維尼
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玄關傳來聲音,是晴寧到家了。8964 copyright protection152PENANAlUgS9oghMl 維尼
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晴寧的臉沒有一絲情緒,與以往活躍的神情有相當大的區別。8964 copyright protection152PENANAD0X7iFw6AR 維尼
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「晴寧,你......」8964 copyright protection152PENANAg5ModnQuWt 維尼
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「怎麼了?」8964 copyright protection152PENANANYmYh5YiEb 維尼
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回話也如機器人一般,沒有絲毫情感,就只是把話說出來,僅此而已,我沒有辦法進一步說明我想說的,只能逃避。8964 copyright protection152PENANAz9iwhNxPbD 維尼
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「沒有,你趕快去洗澡吧。」8964 copyright protection152PENANAP0QybSz70k 維尼
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樓上傳來很大的關門聲。8964 copyright protection152PENANA0z6lM7TitQ 維尼
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晴芯似乎也發火了,這一切都是我造成的,我真是位不稱職的母親。8964 copyright protection152PENANAfA6h1K93wk 維尼
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當晴寧走下樓,看見他將原本珍藏的畫筆隨手仍進垃圾桶,我才發覺,一切有可能為時已晚。8964 copyright protection152PENANAFWABp0NiGs 維尼
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走向回收場,想找尋晴寧一箱箱的漫畫,然而即便找了許久,我都未能如願以償,晴寧的寶藏全部消失了。8964 copyright protection152PENANAU8fPnEZHpk 維尼
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我唯一能夠保留的,只有晴寧方才丟棄的畫筆,如果有一天晴寧重拾夢想,我一定要親自將畫筆遞給他。8964 copyright protection152PENANAlzGoawwCPj 維尼
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並跟他說【不要再放棄夢想了】8964 copyright protection152PENANAzWi7DOhI4b 維尼
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