離開同志遊行的人潮道路,走到另一邊人潮較為少的巷弄,林志林難得再一次跟藤毅騰在多年後又重新在台北遇見。藤毅騰表示想陪他走這一段到捷運的路途,林志林沒有拒絕,看著旁邊藤毅騰本以為他依舊沒變,但細看之後卻也看得到一點點小小的變化。43Please respect copyright.PENANAkRE2M4SUkp
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先撇開林志林看不懂的刺青,頭髮應該也有稍微整理過,抓過造型,身上還有一種男性爽身噴霧的味道。看來這幾年藤毅騰身上似乎也產生變化,不過最讓林志林在意果然還是那位在麥當勞等藤毅騰的女性。43Please respect copyright.PENANAh97Ls9xD2O
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「你不陪你女朋友好嗎?」43Please respect copyright.PENANA2RSMpuN8y5
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林志林問,藤毅騰卻露出不知道他在說什麼的表情,等到林志林說起速食店的女生,藤毅騰才喔喔的明白林志林口中的「女友」,尷尬摸摸頭說:「那個是阿諾的女朋友,我沒有女朋友。」43Please respect copyright.PENANA1Xqt0H3QyK
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「喔,這樣啊。」林志林說,但腦袋卻根本想不起來誰是阿諾。43Please respect copyright.PENANAo2Ghb8wML8
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「那你怎麼會到同志遊行來?」林志林問。43Please respect copyright.PENANA4i7cDASH42
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「就……想來看一下,同性戀遊行。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAPM0NTrpUvk
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藤毅騰說,表情普通就像在敘述一件稀鬆平常的事。43Please respect copyright.PENANA3XAqagXihO
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「從你口中聽到這樣的話有點不習慣。」林志林說。這句話沒有貶意,但面對可以說出「同性戀」三個字的藤毅騰,林志林實在有點不習慣。43Please respect copyright.PENANAwogXvBXGvQ
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「恩,我自己也這樣覺得。」沒想到藤毅騰同意林志林的說法:「雖然可以說,但是心裡還是會有種很違和的感覺。」藤毅騰皺眉頭,就像過去在煩惱如何跟林志林抱持那安全距離一樣。但如今他們肩並肩的距離也只不過一個拳頭寬。43Please respect copyright.PENANACdwGU29koV
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「我到現在還是不懂,自己是不是已經不恐同了?」43Please respect copyright.PENANAAhuz3TRi01
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藤毅騰說,邊說邊看著前方的表情,讓林志林感覺眼前的藤毅騰似乎像是一個有著成熟思維的男人。說出來的話、現在的表情,就算只有這一瞬間是這樣,林志林就覺得是這樣了。43Please respect copyright.PENANAIpUbjc82WP
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昏紅的夕陽落在兩旁大樓之間,將地面瞬間染成了橙色,藤毅騰的臉呈現出有點模糊不清的棕黑色調,從髮絲中透出微微刺眼的陽光,將髮絲一條條照的清晰。43Please respect copyright.PENANAWELDSRVGQZ
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「那種事情不搞懂也沒關係。」林志林說,臉上掛著笑臉。43Please respect copyright.PENANAXenuWblfdA
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「我還是會在意。但……」藤毅騰轉頭,背著陽光看不清臉上的表情,但可以從語氣聽到這話是這樣說的:「我想一直困擾下去,然後每次困擾同性戀的問題時,我就會想到你。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAm31PnO9KtH
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「我?哈哈,這樣我該高興嗎。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAak1ruQpTzC
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聽到藤毅騰說的自己的林志林有點意外,同時又覺得好笑。就算多年不見,藤毅騰所想所做的事情,總讓他這個同性戀感到意外。但是在恐同的問題想到自己這點,林志林還是有點好奇:「我該問為什麼是我嗎?」43Please respect copyright.PENANAMhklj4HJXC
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「因為你跟我說過我可以討厭同性戀。」藤毅騰這樣說,後面又接了一句……43Please respect copyright.PENANAjr4UFvJqvB
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但是,我不想討厭你。43Please respect copyright.PENANAQ61EV27nqS
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這句話是林志林沒有料到的,而且也不知道該怎麼回覆。43Please respect copyright.PENANASykFSP0dew
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老實說藤毅騰這個直男,用現在的樣子還有這種表情、一派輕鬆的口吻對他這個有男友的同性戀說出這種話,有點太過於犯規了。林志林嘆口氣對著藤毅騰說:「你以後有女朋友,可不能跟你女友說這種話。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAHwP7Zt0IM5
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「疑?為什麼。」藤毅騰不懂想問林志林,但林志林卻表示要他不要問。43Please respect copyright.PENANAogNY0PLslV
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「我還是想知道,藤毅騰你真的沒有女朋友嗎?」林志林問。43Please respect copyright.PENANAvHUwd014eA
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「恩…………沒有。」藤毅騰想了一陣子,搖了搖頭,說:「我不知道女生在想甚麼,而且沒有辦法像其他人那樣,那麼會哄女孩子開心。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAMVSF0IOC2Q
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「那我覺得你該擔心不是恐同,先交一個女朋友吧。」林志林說:「聽你這樣說,應該是有喜歡的對象吧?我說得對吧?藤毅騰。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAtUqADkXpHk
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林志林的話,讓藤毅騰有點吃驚,耳朵也紅了起來,看來是被林志林猜對了,就算多木訥的直男,還是會想要戀愛,這是人之常情。看到藤毅騰害羞的模樣,林志林覺得自己也應該在以後咒罵直男行為之前先想想藤毅騰在自己心裡的印象,他也想留一個美好的樣子,放在自己心裡。43Please respect copyright.PENANAU3MErpgVSO
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「那、那個,那你覺得我應該……」43Please respect copyright.PENANAT9ZA37sVNO
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「藤毅騰,我是同性戀只知道怎麼跟男人交往,不是戀愛大師。」43Please respect copyright.PENANAzeMDtxT6QJ
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林志林堵住藤毅騰的問題,而藤毅騰也在聽到後識相的不繼續問。兩人分手在那捷運進站月台前,沒有交換電話、沒有轉身再看一次對方、沒有交換之後聯絡的訊息。他們就這樣自然的各自離開,林志林覺得這樣子最好。43Please respect copyright.PENANAN2IGakz2hX
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有個直男,煩惱著恐同問題而變得有點怪。43Please respect copyright.PENANAjfsqutOztZ
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但是林志林想,到最後自己可能會永遠記著藤毅騰這個健身教練的名字。43Please respect copyright.PENANA64YcyDoNIf
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然後在不一定的時間點又想起……43Please respect copyright.PENANASzxJi9ltpJ
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想起這個恐同的小故事。