AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrMzFRJZPo
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLHp3zSWR7
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLLsDKImCX
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4cDaSzTOC
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTT55yhqqg
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZxR6ilOlw
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllte7DmSGm
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoypllrCkM5
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6IzeqO4tC
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWrtLQGG0l
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbhplAjQpL
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XDUxrlzX2
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G4GiXwGH3
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1EVD0huaQ
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8EQrmtcY8
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1u3KFOmzUi
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxw6yBmodm
On the last bench, near the window.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjOdIcSuin
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdZYRwk1RG
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5cHTiccET
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjYXbQ1Njf
I barely exist in the noise.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrrRElXmmr
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8FsGqoDbR
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmtJ08f36j
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RamGbcqxp
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3eLSkEqJX
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9THMUfbhz
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoaH4vdoxm
People talk like they've figured it all out.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV39xabJ1Wd
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprAXVzwhsj
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr0KHtNCXr
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb48aF0D94I
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7YGc2YFxt
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla8QdIFzBg
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTbClxREN0
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7rAIqsdBy
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvgnuLpMMx
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNSWYz550a
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUVVIpjIGM
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfhU2RM9Yi
She was kind.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylloudO2zT
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wU05v78Et
The way the football kept rolling.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrXq2onDTo
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhNdyCpLfL
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAyNp8r8Ep
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxzHblX84B
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73LLjrXqAu
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtlC8TnkzD
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdv7RzKmVId
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDeJoXkgvA
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzS9qQXKzoM
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7T8GtQwAE
Like they've seen your heart before you did"21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt2lYCJ5AI
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WhljAgEAP
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLubiWftKo
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YEZ2Art9H
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW5EhU2m55
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHSgAz6dqv
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXw4Fr8Su1h
Changed out of my uniform.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBc6PHyNpR
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8NNo3GeuN
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