東風吹斜雨絲，淡粉色的櫻花花瓣隨風盤旋飄落，鋪於石磚小徑上。男人穿著藕粉色的尖領襯衫，幾乎要被整片同色調的花海吞沒。他低低打著傘，視線貼著傘緣投來。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFymH5IDEcP
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「嘉鈞哥哥，下雨了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZVuet2Hqv
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男人聲音低沉，身材也相比過往厚實，卻又用往昔的暱稱叫他。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6q7EUSAh8y
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雨霧瀰漫的春。又是這樣的春日。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27XgVoH13n
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「吳詠青，你過來。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCz4MFOdcF7
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唐嘉鈞毫無緣由地害怕。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm2U59VszC
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一片沾著雨水的櫻花花瓣飄落，沾黏在唐嘉鈞的手背上。接著是第二片、第三片⋯⋯花瓣不斷落下，每當他伸手摘取，又有更多濕搭搭地貼著他不放。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp35snwW5r
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很快，唐嘉鈞便近乎看不見自己的膚色了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieuctEOQlf
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他心中頓感慌張，於是連忙朝吳詠青走近。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaM1KpSvhV0
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霎時，一陣狂風吹來，將吳詠青手上的傘吹落。他用傘遮著的上半張臉暴露在唐嘉鈞眼前，光潔飽滿的前額被一道醒目的傷口劃破，鮮紅的血液自裂縫湧出，啪嗒啪嗒地順著臉龐流下。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRemhCV1g6g
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他抬起雙手，手上濕潤的觸感不是什麼花瓣，而是滿手的血。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE1vs40nMF
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「靠⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kapBWhSVo
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床頭櫃上沒擰緊的保溫瓶傾倒，流出的水滴滴答答地弄濕枕頭，以及唐嘉鈞的頰側與掌心，他被驚醒，遂起身收拾水瓶和散落的安眠藥片。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkvRSb0wYW
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恐懼自夢裡蔓生，身旁似乎還纏繞著驅之不散的雨霧。唐嘉鈞坐在床緣，發覺自己的衣服也被浸濕了，是後背的冷汗所致。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oejo1opvg
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他拉開窗簾，天色尚未飽和。他放輕腳步走進客廳裡，將電視打開，熟練地一口氣將音量調到最低，避免吵醒他的同居人。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pzU3xuhOA
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唐嘉鈞，二十八歲，單身，立法委員參選人。他的同居人仍然是兒時的玩伴、他的好朋友吳詠青。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBf6wBl3VY
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「新換的安眠藥如何？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8gMYvItoh
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「很好，白天不再想睡了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5peNkg8oVL
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「那這次就開一樣的喔。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71kjdpVSYH
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唐嘉鈞坐在診間的椅子上，眼神不經意投向手錶數次，長期看診的心理醫生注意到他異常的舉止，開口問道：253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIDrUFVUoq
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「唐先生今天趕時間嗎？後面還有行程？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQknTBVwJiy
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「有，但是不趕，時間很充裕。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCynqKHVEEE
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唐嘉鈞默默將雙手擺到桌下，克制著不再去看手錶。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ja66cRo9S
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「白天不再想睡了，但是經常做夢。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkpOEB9ADx
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「做惡夢嗎？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnA0Bw5eG5j
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「也不總是惡夢。」但是都關於同一個人——唐嘉鈞沒有說出口。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxZwqbfrUO
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「這樣啊，有可能是藥物影響⋯⋯」醫生正思索著要不要再換藥，唐嘉鈞倒是先自己決定了：253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcbzh9BwXk
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「不是什麼大問題，請您照著上次的開就好了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvw8xQLrH6
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這房子裡住著兩個睡眠障礙患者，吳詠青是從小就有這老問題，唐嘉鈞則是從參選開始壓力遽增，而開始出現失眠的症狀。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O983IwoKR
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根據醫囑，要改善睡眠障礙，必須養成規律的生活作息，規律地每天在同一個時段就寢。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXphlsn6Cfe
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一點了，唐嘉鈞拆封剛拿到的藥袋，卻遲遲不服下安眠藥，只是坐在沙發上心不在焉地看著電視上重播的政論節目。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4bQx9YY9M
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因為吳詠青還沒回家，也不接電話。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix71ehyiqj
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直到一點半，門鈴響了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2nr4hlAOj
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門鈴？吳詠青是忘了帶鑰匙才按門鈴嗎？唐嘉鈞奇怪地想。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNdctVO6Wr
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「打擾了，唐先生您好。我是吳董的助理洪銘安，我送吳董回來，可以請您幫忙開個門嗎？」對講機裡陌生男人的聲音著急地說道。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiETykh3Cw
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對講機裡傳來另一個氣急敗壞的聲音。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtXPkZEGhn
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「唐嘉鈞這時間都睡了，我就跟你說我有鑰匙！」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41YWhGhdxv
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「吳董，這是車鑰匙啊⋯⋯插不進去的⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SSm9E9nsA
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唐嘉鈞急忙開了門，長相老實的陌生男人正聽話地用車鑰匙嘗試打開唐嘉鈞的家門，吳詠青滿臉通紅，站也站不直，只能勾著男人的肩膀，將整個人的重量倚靠於對方，臉則埋在對方肩上。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqM6dKmoLt
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門一開，唐嘉鈞黑了臉，但是洪銘安卻好像看到救星一般，雙眼發光。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo00cpKifRP
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「唐先生⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH1ec6vAs3
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「交給我吧。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbqx14eZ6W
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「銘安，我真的想吐⋯⋯」吳詠青還賴在洪銘安身上，睡眼惺忪地揉著眼睛，看到唐嘉鈞，居然變得橫眉豎目：253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3QytjtvOL
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「唐嘉鈞，都一點多了為什麼你還沒睡覺？你要學著規律作息啊！」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz48Y69yZQ1
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唐嘉鈞的太陽穴猛然一抽，他忍住揍吳詠青一頓的衝動，轉向洪銘安問話。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLd3Md7zwq
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「他吐了？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5EvwEO6tp
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「沒吐，就是一直喊想吐。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVdK1ECwBz
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洪銘安趕緊抽身，讓唐嘉鈞接手無法獨立站穩的吳詠青。唐嘉鈞雖然有禮貌地向他道謝數次，但眼神完全沒有笑意。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSwUAMMthj
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助理小洪好擔心吳董被家暴。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevjfPdjBIL
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事實上，唐嘉鈞並沒有家暴他的竹馬，反而小心地攙扶他坐到沙發上，再脫去他的鞋襪和西裝外套。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nXkWXkovn
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「我去給你泡蜂蜜水。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X3LjQjzEp
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「等等，我想吐⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHgDZtfASS
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「要不要我幫你催吐？吐出來會舒服一點。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6ug4nfwGV
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「好。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAklT2YSBq
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他倆剛移動到浴室，不必唐嘉鈞幫忙，吳詠青便自己爬到馬桶前，唏哩嘩啦地吐了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnANL9nwYyk
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「應酬需要喝那麼醉？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnVSzysGPu
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吳詠青手腳癱軟，倚靠在浴室冰冷的磁磚上，顯然很不舒服，眼框都紅了一圈，唐嘉鈞於心不忍地將他攬進懷裡。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKkZVKl5vc
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「需要啊，不然我又不喜歡酒精。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtxnS2QfdW
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唐嘉鈞背起癱坐的吳詠青回房，途中腳步踉蹌了一下。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Fhlv7L3PN
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「很重？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkudqHmzbO
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「你雖然很輕，但你肩頭上的擔子太重了。我們吳董真是太了不起了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YzWP4F2YA
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「哪比得上唐候選人呢？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6CKFhVoEc
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兩人一如既往地打著嘴砲。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oOWjUiKGN
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唐嘉鈞為吳詠青掖好被角，轉暗了檯燈，「好好休息。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0nHUOczH2
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「唐嘉鈞，小洪要結婚了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ1wdn1hXL
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在唐嘉鈞轉身離開前，吳詠青突然開口了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU26G9eTAPw
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「你記得雷品承嗎？他最近也要結婚了。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LrCjDgQKL
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「喔，記得啊。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVk2oWElQ80
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唐嘉鈞當然記得雷品承，記得十年前的春日去陽明山賞櫻，記得一個吻落在吳詠青眨動的眼皮——記得他親手拍下，然後吳詠青被迫出櫃，被砸得頭破血流。記得青春期，記得一切始末記得一切震顫，記得日子如何過。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLMHaT4tJk
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因為記得，所以夜夜在夢裡搬演。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLF5wwLMWyc
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「那你呢？你打算幾歲要結婚？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiyj8v02xt
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夜夜在唐嘉鈞夢裡出現的男人向他問。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBWcC2WanR
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「⋯⋯我不知道。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lQAmvjtoY
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他真的不知道。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzvATefJB6
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「什麼時候能輪到我結婚呢？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9h2bGX61c
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「同性戀又不能結婚。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbe0dRH04I
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「我知道啊。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF53BpHtoP
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喝醉的吳詠青彷彿特別脆弱，聲音已經染上了哭腔。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2SHfPmHzu
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「我以為小洪也是gay，但他今天跟我請了婚假。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKUlbQQ9RT
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說著，吳詠青的臉埋得越來越低，直到嗚咽聲也被埋進被子裡。唐嘉鈞則想起他打開家門，看到吳詠青把臉埋在洪銘安肩膀，像親人的貓咪一樣的蹭著洪銘安。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrGgpxYWDq
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「我不想找一個女人假結婚，我想要真的跟男人結婚。我也想要被愛啊。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0BMzX71fh
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吳詠青喜歡洪助理，然後他要結婚了，所以吳詠青才喝得那麼醉？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlCSJFfHZi
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唐嘉鈞知道自己應該拍拍他的背、溫聲安慰眼前的男人，但手腳卻因發冷而微顫，無法受到支配。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xBQ3Z1fMk
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他想回答，你的家人愛你，但又清楚吳詠青的家庭狀況太過複雜。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIwM5mFHKN
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於是他說了：「我愛你啊。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSKfJRQjQm
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「那不一樣啊，唐嘉鈞，那不一樣。」吳詠青的肩頭一抽一抽，「我們是最好的朋友。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1x91L1400
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唐嘉鈞只能乾巴巴地說，「有一天你會被愛，你可以辦婚禮，如果你們想要，你可以收養小孩。如果你收養小孩，我就當乾爸。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvpmewth9A
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吳詠青還是把自己埋在被子裡，悶悶地又問了一次。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG2KIqPrQG
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「那你呢？你想要幾歲結婚？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYM7VcStq8
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「我沒有結婚的對象。等我需要結婚的時候，就結婚吧。」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFIkJM9fg6
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唐嘉鈞苦笑，爾後沈默。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sVYk5vM3T
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半晌，吳詠青的呼吸漸趨平穩，他終於不敵酒意昏沉地失去意識。而直到唐嘉鈞的前襟也被浸濕了，他都沒有發出哭泣的聲音，只是任淚滴無聲地落下。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwDSXrVWjC
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【作者的話】253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcavTvcfbXw
順帶一提詠青現在是懷榮金控的子公司「懷榮創投」的董事XD（也有持股）現在兩個人已經28囉
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