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我的名字是，羅倫佐‧李杜斯。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR3Dju2qbF
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曾住在艾德菲市，因為在九歲時遭人性侵，所以全家搬到平克斯鎮上。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8tTRb3oq4
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在那裡，我展開新的生活。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhTyd0eLmX
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因為我異樣的眼睛，所以總會引人注目。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiWVo20EdD
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我試著將自己隱形，不讓任何人發現我，然後平安度過小學階段。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnYbt72nUr
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到了初中，我的眼睛吸引了女孩們的注意，她們會來包圍我，問我一些沒有意義的問題，那時，我才開始注意到自己有些問題，無法對女生有感覺。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIXbk3vNt2
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我試著遠離她們，躲到美術教室，至於原因嘛！美術老師是男的，而且有一頭耀眼的紅髮。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DV7efYd5L
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不知為何，紅色總能吸引我的目光。因此，我向老師學習繪畫，學習畫出，紅髮的男子。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTSOGb0rmj
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到了高中，我進了私立美術學校，原因是這裡的師資優秀，我打算一路走向藝術大學，當一位畫家。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf96DFXJLa7
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總是在繪畫比賽擁得第一名的我，在這裡戀愛了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUce9fLJJU
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愛上同班的他，艾瑞克‧阿爾瓦。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5NCE9tRMQ
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我好喜歡他，每次他坐在我旁邊，我都無法專心上課。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkAl0bbRcy
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他比我高，總是喜歡逗我，他在籃球場的英姿，不只吸引女孩子的喝采，也吸引著我的目光。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd5AicYtAf
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他英俊，聰明，是全班的焦點，如此優秀的他，願意和這樣的我做朋友，當我受到欺負時，他總是挺身出來保護我，當我受挫時，他也在我身邊安慰我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i77vxNCEo
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這樣的他，叫我怎麼不去愛。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlAWCNlbEf
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暗戀著他，整整三年，一直試著當他是朋友，好痛苦，這種感覺好痛苦。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFgCxPkQys
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好想牽住他的手，好想被他擁抱，好想告訴他，我的感覺。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEwglk4AHj
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總算在畢業前夕告白了，原本以為會被當眾羞辱，但他只是吃驚了一下，然後笑著抱住我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBctHCxDME
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「我也喜歡你。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbshmKAOTI
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聽到這句話，我哭了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIbkB0EKmu
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當天，他拉著我的手，在深夜的美術教室，做了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYByt0eqi3
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之後的我們會一起去圖書館讀書，準備大學的考試，休息時間，他會牽著我的手，緊緊抱住我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB9QQ55FaX
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接著，我們的事瞞不過彼此的父母，我們的父母要我們分手，但是我們不願意，然後艾瑞克就帶著我離開，離開平克斯鎮。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyf2z6eZok
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我們的新生活在一個破小的租屋開始，我們去找了工作，半工半讀，日子到這裡都還很美好，雖然每天都很疲憊，但我們還有彼此，我是這麼想的。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9wEYLNBaG
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直到艾瑞克的學校將他退學，艾瑞克白天上課晚上當酒店的服務生，在店裡，他與某位客人發生爭執，那位客人舉報到學校去，校方因此將他退學。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76BEiKdfEo
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我可憐的艾瑞克，他開始一蹶不振，不再去找工作，整天待在家喝酒，我試著勸他，安慰他，起出他還會有反應，會去試著找工作，但是每每都碰壁，於是他放棄。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo2mgoX4mU
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他開始拿我的錢，不只這樣，他還會責怪我，嫌棄我，抱怨我，有時喝脆了，他甚至會毆打我，強行侵害我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8B0TTxXokM
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我是否該離開他，但是是我先愛上他的，是我讓他離開家，是我讓他與家人分開的，所以我休學，把時間投入在工作和他身上。他偶爾會在睡夢中哭泣，他會跟我道歉，我怎麼捨得他。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBexYr2vvj
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然後，我把自己推向惡夢的牢籠，承受著他的毆打，默許他拿我的錢去喝酒，獨自，清理家中一切。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9NtqeJPKc
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這是愛嗎？660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFs4tJVl1FK
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我自問著，我還愛著他嗎？660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCN4n6Gfc1
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他還愛我嗎？660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfqpwzLOzB
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這個問題在不久之後得到答案。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kTIQL5m5D
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當工作一整天的我，拖著疲憊的身體回到我們的租屋，卻發現家裡多了其他人。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAUIMT1XRo
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「李杜斯，接工作了。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxUMn3wHxO
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他這麼說，然後那群男人逼近我，我試著掙扎，哭喊他的名字，而他卻只是抽著菸冷冷的在一旁看。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9zL1Dk6tY
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沒了，什麼都沒了，不管是他對我的愛，還是我對他的愛，全都沒了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6fO0eO7pc
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留下的，只有憤怒。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgPssLlVmT
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於是我，殺了他。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yZH8F0BJY
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