「我回來了。」232Please respect copyright.PENANAHpyozzWVGK
想當然地沒有任何回應。232Please respect copyright.PENANABlMn7r6l2A
滿是酒氣的客廳隗羽一刻都不想多待,放下書包換好拖鞋,她繞過沙發,臨門前拿掃帚挑開堆積成山的衣物,順脚踢走酒瓶。232Please respect copyright.PENANAUqKRN5mNld
回到房間,恢復清净的空氣終於令眉眼彎了起來,打開空調,她有條不紊地將課本塞進書櫃提前預留好的隔間,整理完,又從背包掏出幾封信件。232Please respect copyright.PENANAeVsjCYTq1k
每人一份的紀念冊,以及群體合照右下角的自己。232Please respect copyright.PENANA5QBXLBLgFS
難得的同框相片,連假笑都像是透著喜悅。232Please respect copyright.PENANAeuLNXH4Fem
輕輕伸手撫摸,保護層粘附在指尖,最後一天就這麽溜走了。232Please respect copyright.PENANAbY6sbCdTKo
以後再也見不到了吧。232Please respect copyright.PENANAfeNEwf39XF
儘管與他們並不熟悉,隗羽還是難免有些感慨。232Please respect copyright.PENANAQMFSfMg5Tm
接下來離成年又近一步,千萬不要成為父親那種人了。232Please respect copyright.PENANA8WB2KIkweg
暢想著未來,少女腦中脹滿憧憬。232Please respect copyright.PENANA3IP8alJtI8
國中會很不一樣吧,新校園、新朋友、社團活動,再幾年之後,自己很快就可以獨立了!232Please respect copyright.PENANAlwrYAhVVHe
到時候趕緊離開父親……232Please respect copyright.PENANAYMzWPsB0rS
開門聲赫然響起,隗羽一驚,反射性地想要躲進書桌底下,可已經太遲了。232Please respect copyright.PENANAS9VyathdPr
綠酒瓶憤憤在木地板砸出一個坑,發泄充斥酒精味的怒意。232Please respect copyright.PENANA3nUhMPGkZw
「你他媽沒長記性是不是?酒呢?冰箱裡的酒呢?」232Please respect copyright.PENANAFst0FoC0bn
少女回身,單膝跪地懇求饒恕。232Please respect copyright.PENANAMzsYx8zEcz
「對不起,阿爸,我不記得了。」232Please respect copyright.PENANA2oYttikdym
興許是長年纍計的不忿,又或是少年人零星閃耀的勇氣,隗羽努力抬起雙眼,頂撞向上方的高大人影。232Please respect copyright.PENANAVsFmhMaJ2t
「今天畢業典禮你沒來,每次要喝酒了才會想起我……阿爸,你當我做跑腿了,對嗎?」232Please respect copyright.PENANAlM1oFhDUSf
魁梧的身軀俯身靠近,陰沉的深藍色帶有醉意,仔細打量幾下隗羽,認定她的不孝。232Please respect copyright.PENANAlZkMPN79ao
房間四壁震顫起來,他冷冷叱喝,「長大了?學會頂嘴了?」232Please respect copyright.PENANAGcjA4rHUsT
時鐘邁步跨越了分界綫,與孩子們最後的玩樂時光道別。232Please respect copyright.PENANAF59kqcOly9
破空聲向隗羽襲去,下意識的格擋永遠是徒勞,一齣劇場重複著上演,悶哼聲,隨即是倒地的脆響,再然後是掌摑,抬手猛烈砸向太陽穴,無塵的書架在陽光下熠熠生輝,沉默看著眼前無力反抗的求援者。232Please respect copyright.PENANAiC0kgQpbOe
停頓意味更凶悍陰鷙的施暴,雷擊一般的揮打劈頭蓋臉彌天蓋地,脅從拔高音量的咆哮,「怎麽跟你父親説話的,啊?你指教甚麽?你懂甚麽?你懂甚麽啊?」232Please respect copyright.PENANAhYlm9UDfGt
手沒力了就用脚踹、踢,直到少女蜷縮起身軀,放棄躲閃,展露認命的畏怯姿態。232Please respect copyright.PENANASvfwwzQlwB
血液湧入酒醉的頭腦,早見慣的這副模樣是如此令人憎恨,念到這些年來浪費的錢與精力、公司中的不如意、親戚間的譏誚話,卻換來個懦弱無能的窩囊廢,一點小事都做不好,手臂頓時青筋暴起,還不解氣,沉聲駡道:「我付出了那麽多,你就這樣對我?」232Please respect copyright.PENANAtrJtZF9YKa
視綫移向地上的酒瓶,沉吟半響,往倒在地上的瘦弱身影狠狠一砸,隗羽愣怔住想要逃,身體卻不聽令,紋絲不動,深入骨髓的痛楚連綿迤邐戳進肉裡,悶響與碎裂像一隻大手要將她捆住,腦海眩暈無章,木板反射出的那身影越來越陌生,父親被來歷不明的靈魂奪捨了。232Please respect copyright.PENANAyZjwgN6UjE
明明是親骨肉,傳入體内的恨意卻如此清晰,在耳邊炸裂,將少年人未曾表露的棱角一并摧毀得不成形。232Please respect copyright.PENANAMA4bzgT3B5
「是你!都怪你!好人從來就沒好報,生出你這種東西來!」232Please respect copyright.PENANA1ktfASmLN3
怒火仍不停歇,一下又一下隨著四散的酒液在後背劃出幾個口子,頓時一片血肉模糊。232Please respect copyright.PENANAPjQlprn2JB
沒有尖叫,沒有淚水,只有隱忍的急促喘氣慢慢變為不可置信的啞聲。232Please respect copyright.PENANA1tN8zDHgys
血流沾到他滿手都是,發泄得酣暢淋漓,心中忽而痛快極了,踹門離去。232Please respect copyright.PENANAyYged0ij9H
窗戶敞著風,將七月遙遠的潮濕空氣吹拂在少女額前。232Please respect copyright.PENANABF7CFQ7pYY
炎炎夏日頻繁的雨腥氣,帶她墜入冰窟,四肢順著生命力散去而發冷。232Please respect copyright.PENANAFVAUW8eane
虛幻的輕柔觸感將她包覆,全身似乎被某人擁在懷中。232Please respect copyright.PENANA1VHutZUR0X
啊。232Please respect copyright.PENANAM8LvBsaNUD
要是能永遠感受這樣繾綣的溫度,那該多好?232Please respect copyright.PENANAHuPJUo2m92
既然是幻覺,自己也有資格緊握不放吧。232Please respect copyright.PENANABtm4GFW1HI
她想要睜眼,又深怕這是情緒激動下的假象,只能任由意識隨著痛覺飄散、昏去。232Please respect copyright.PENANAYGbADpOzYk
鈴蘭花香繚繞了來,一親芳澤,睡夢中的少女埋向西裝的腰綫之間,緊抓不放。232Please respect copyright.PENANAuw4zYqYZTP
怕這股好聞的味道,鬆開就全散了。232Please respect copyright.PENANAn4vQgOB7tZ
***232Please respect copyright.PENANAuqY1Ov7lFW
一直以來,隗羽都曾這麽幻想過。232Please respect copyright.PENANAjmwpiLr82o
生命中有一位在乎她的人,不論外表,不論性格。232Please respect copyright.PENANA3AHz9TuoEK
就算捨去皮囊,就算捨去靈魂。232Please respect copyright.PENANAG0emPZFhpT
奢望有人愛她,無論是酗酒的父親也好、還是無法融入的同學群體、抑或是素未謀面的陌生人。232Please respect copyright.PENANAkQvS2PSBwm
母親曾這麽愛過她。232Please respect copyright.PENANAhLoDd0SA7l
要是能回到從前。232Please respect copyright.PENANAMO5zDnjZtO
要是能被在乎。232Please respect copyright.PENANAX9exVcwMI8
要是能被注視。232Please respect copyright.PENANAxVOfmmDyqb
要是,自己的存在是有意義的。232Please respect copyright.PENANAVJvBu26qfU
……232Please respect copyright.PENANACMs812o4C6
但這種愛不存在。232Please respect copyright.PENANAD9gvwfmAYq
也對,九年了,内心腐爛得七七八八,又有甚麽可吸引人的?232Please respect copyright.PENANAJKqU8l7Cv5
索愛之前必須放大雙眼,先看自己配不配。232Please respect copyright.PENANARM6nzog6tW
現在,隗羽發現,這也是她自找的。232Please respect copyright.PENANAzF8ATSmpOq
***232Please respect copyright.PENANAAhzfmNtzki
步伐不穩地來到走廊,海鴒並未將書櫃移除,反而在旁放置了飯盒。232Please respect copyright.PENANArp1ro7sTew
一看時間,已經是下午一點,整整睡了大半天,頭卻暈得嚴重,大概是缺氧的後遺症。232Please respect copyright.PENANAF4lnPRGel8
拿起精緻包裝的便當,標簽昭示著這並非海鴒親手製作,從外買來,大概價格不菲。232Please respect copyright.PENANAgIKRWrVSKC
飯盒與瓶裝水均未拆封,似乎沒有下藥的可能。232Please respect copyright.PENANAwrW0MxWxDW
要吃嗎?232Please respect copyright.PENANAXPsiJhYmxs
脖頸滯留幾塊淤青,脹痛感後浪推前浪,隗羽如暈船一般,只能尋找最近的依靠,挨蹭在墻上,才能免於被折磨得胃部翻騰。232Please respect copyright.PENANApoxMJUjwAn
她輕輕撫摸咽喉,想要緩解痛楚。232Please respect copyright.PENANArS8PmLKZFA
海鴒真的起了殺心嗎?232Please respect copyright.PENANAlW0EKOybkQ
還是藉著恐懼的須臾侵犯自己?232Please respect copyright.PENANAxHsta2pjP7
木製書櫃頂端失去逃脫的可能,不遠處是幽幽紅光反復地亮。232Please respect copyright.PENANAgJ4HSI8xPz
也不知海鴒是躲在門後,還是正透過螢幕監視著她。232Please respect copyright.PENANA1guSjAHTor
東搖西擺靠近那扇通往外界的上鎖出口,隗羽眼瞳微閃。232Please respect copyright.PENANAqsFZClv2ro
反正到頭來也是無意義的反抗,不如痛痛快快地成全海鴒,免得再受這些折磨。232Please respect copyright.PENANAtSivt5od8z
鬼迷心竅正伸手要敲,她又驚悟過來。
……算了。232Please respect copyright.PENANABHk9AfsBBN
回到書櫃旁,拿起一本未讀過的小説,在老位置打發起時間。232Please respect copyright.PENANAWp1qwMrCC0
刷刷地翻頁,漫不經心地調整為踞坐姿態,牢房内的寒氣飄入走廊,隗羽不禁打了個冷顫。232Please respect copyright.PENANAYp4fqY4ytB
已經聽慣的時鐘聲響,導向長久以來堵塞的思緒。232Please respect copyright.PENANAU4vgxMEomw
不對。232Please respect copyright.PENANAIDYH8U3Q6D
她應該沒説過自己喜歡小説吧?232Please respect copyright.PENANAavMfPmoEyG
海鴒是怎麽知道的……靠觀察?232Please respect copyright.PENANAhVeHBH1ono
不對。232Please respect copyright.PENANASLdb2II4wN
分針轉動的細微變化,只有小孩子閑得慌了才會盯上整天。232Please respect copyright.PENANA6I971SYLvl
嘀嗒。232Please respect copyright.PENANA77iKWaoWP6
馬達操縱輪軸,鋸齒的每一次跳躍敲擊在心中掀起巨響。232Please respect copyright.PENANA7Vm6CN5Jz9
嘀嗒。232Please respect copyright.PENANAjSB47ajS57
隗羽發覺自己總是在看時鐘。232Please respect copyright.PENANAO0VptjRqmY
錶盤平面的數字符號成了露珠,刻度劃分開不連貫的人生,後又被針尖掩蓋。232Please respect copyright.PENANA0VHrO65912
就像小時候每個樹蔭下的獨行。232Please respect copyright.PENANArIIDcao4y5
隗羽忽然瞪大眼。232Please respect copyright.PENANAbkJYrYuWTH
多像那對錦鯉的眼睛啊。232Please respect copyright.PENANADBWr5djCpD
書頁啪嗒落地。232Please respect copyright.PENANAGpvjinxElu
「開門!開門!」232Please respect copyright.PENANAhxQ3TjzTEY
拍擊無法引起注意,於是就用肩膀撞,再然後整個身子都搭了上去。232Please respect copyright.PENANAMj0aCZyaFv
心中猜測逐漸清晰,但她就是不願相信。232Please respect copyright.PENANAxPQWg5dWXZ
撕啦!232Please respect copyright.PENANAOshrBYsvct
房門似乎沒上鎖,隗羽反應不及,順著勢能摔倒在地。232Please respect copyright.PENANAv5E6shLbso
神經叫囂著喊痛,傳入大腦的訊號卻盡是怔忡,將五臟六腑竄起酸澀。 232Please respect copyright.PENANAwhuVD8xKZN
沒有找到預料中的人影,隗羽早已無法顧及這些。232Please respect copyright.PENANA5YfyZupkac
整潔的白床單其上,排山倒海的照片壓潰最後一絲理智。232Please respect copyright.PENANANMmmmmqwt3
這不是真的。232Please respect copyright.PENANAYTguqD9oQx
隔著窗戶發瘋的父親、書桌作業旁的睡顏、獨自穿校服踏著單車的偷窺視角。232Please respect copyright.PENANAaWIjcS0ADm
墻上一個個精心裱起的相框,一個個再熟悉不過的場景。232Please respect copyright.PENANAdr41HN2Teo
全都是她的樣貌。
232Please respect copyright.PENANAGrXu7RwNz6