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一睜眼,周圍的景象變成了充滿青春氣息的校園,這是李暦軒過去的記憶。8964 copyright protection279PENANAYtameyV4Cv 維尼
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雙子此刻化作一片殘影跟了在李暦軒身後,在這裡他不但可以親眼目睹李暦軒的過往,更能透過運用第一視角閱讀他的心聲來了解他自殺的真正原因。8964 copyright protection279PENANAcrRAIvIYJ5 維尼
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「軒,一起放學吧,我今天沒有社團活動。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAvZMApP5VuF 維尼
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搭話的是個五官精緻,散發著活力氣息的男生。根據李暦軒的記憶,他名叫庭俙,是打小就認識的髮小。8964 copyright protection279PENANAok4ZRcLsKT 維尼
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「哦,那去吃拉麵吧。」8964 copyright protection279PENANArYaWLDaLWq 維尼
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一路上,兩人談起了學校的事。8964 copyright protection279PENANAKSCvaBuGYA 維尼
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「你之前不是說去申請加入校園音樂祭卻不知為何被自己班拒絕了嗎?」8964 copyright protection279PENANAOf3NZhkleE 維尼
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「嗯,但也正常啦,我本來跟自己班的就沒兩句,被拒絕了也沒有辦法吧。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAqRrzxjEkGI 維尼
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(我明明已經很努力嘗試跟他們打好關係了……為什麼……)8964 copyright protection279PENANA1fgWhFxYSc 維尼
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「嘛,這也是好事啦,我們平常不都說這種活動很浪費時間能躲掉就躲掉嗎~你這次會去主動報名,我反倒覺得奇怪呢。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAKiRL0Y641Y 維尼
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(那只是我為了掩飾自己對被拒絕這事的尷尬,才順勢編造出來,用作逞強的話罷了……)8964 copyright protection279PENANAMNBfRuIM6m 維尼
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「也是啦,我也不知道自己在想什麼~那你呢,你有參加嗎?」8964 copyright protection279PENANA973gAPfO9u 維尼
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李暦軒皮笑肉不笑的回道。8964 copyright protection279PENANAcWa4Gqbi2H 維尼
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「我被拉著去了呀,就因為我會鋼琴,才會被逼著參加……真倒楣。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAoVaOeQmEaI 維尼
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(有才華的人果然不一樣呀。)8964 copyright protection279PENANA1kRwVwvX1C 維尼
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「哈,誰讓你存在感這麼高呀,活該啦~」8964 copyright protection279PENANAgarCkxVbAb 維尼
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(哈……這要是能分我一點,那該有多好呀。)8964 copyright protection279PENANAbiimLYHLAP 維尼
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「真的!我其實寧願自己能像軒你一樣享受自由自在的私人生活。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAiktS87G9vY 維尼
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「是哦,哈哈。」8964 copyright protection279PENANA3UZi6TGMIp 維尼
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(像我一樣哦…哈…俙,你應該也清楚吧,這不是什麼自由自在,我呀,只是被人討厭罷了……)8964 copyright protection279PENANAl0vasmdlmN 維尼
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看到這裡,這段記憶似乎暫時告一段落,於是雙子被轉移到另一段記憶繼續閱讀。8964 copyright protection279PENANAjuSJyj7igl 維尼
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這一次,雙子來到李暦軒的房間,時間亦來到了一年後,此時的他已經是高三生了。8964 copyright protection279PENANA7diPouih3I 維尼
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他一臉呆滯的躺在床上,手中還握著手機。8964 copyright protection279PENANARnc6NdBiWn 維尼
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『叮噹~』8964 copyright protection279PENANAJfVk8fssfR 維尼
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李暦軒抬起手查看手機,但看的那雙目透露著無比的空洞。8964 copyright protection279PENANA697T5bMkRh 維尼
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『軒,這周的學習資料我跟往常一樣放在你家信箱了。』8964 copyright protection279PENANATivscVM4k8 維尼
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『你要記得讀呀。』8964 copyright protection279PENANA5o8SUc0hjE 維尼
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是庭俙發來的訊息。8964 copyright protection279PENANANyDHDUPgqm 維尼
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在這兩則訊息背後,雙子看到的是李暦軒現在的慘狀。8964 copyright protection279PENANANuThGq5Oti 維尼
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他已經輟學半年以上了。8964 copyright protection279PENANAoMykfDQobU 維尼
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(你這種活得一帆風順,人生總是閃閃發亮的人,少來關心我這種凡人吧!)8964 copyright protection279PENANALPZWvk3F7l 維尼
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李暦軒內心下意識跳出的這句話甚至震驚到他自己,使他陷入了自責與更多的不甘之中。8964 copyright protection279PENANA6ne0GKZrdP 維尼
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他用力咬著自己的下唇,到幾乎要受傷出血的程度,又狠狠的捶打自己的大腿來責怪自己那嘔心的嫉妒感。8964 copyright protection279PENANAlNmD7EaRE2 維尼
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(我這是怎麼了,這莫名的心悶又是什麼……也許,我其實很討厭他。)8964 copyright protection279PENANACmPZJPbxKV 維尼
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這一切,在旁的雙子都看得,聽得一清二楚,也明白他為何會有這般心境。8964 copyright protection279PENANAjFEJYVNbBu 維尼
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嫉妒,劣等感,是無可避免的,不論彼此是再友好,再熟悉的友人,更甚到最親密的家人亦如是。8964 copyright protection279PENANAOoqe4S9pI0 維尼
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那種只要站在某人身旁,自己所作的一切努力都會被其光芒覆蓋,尤如白費氣力的無奈感受,再繼而不知不覺地衍生出的恨意。8964 copyright protection279PENANADq0XAhzRnx 維尼
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對李暦軒來說,庭俙正是那個某人。8964 copyright protection279PENANAOcaUWA5AeZ 維尼
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幾天後,李暦軒照常滑著手機,讀著幾篇有關學生為學業,為情自殺的文章。8964 copyright protection279PENANAv8VcWSIy7p 維尼
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到此刻,雙子貌似已經找到李暦軒自殺的契機,卻對下一秒聽到的某些東西產生了違和感。8964 copyright protection279PENANAtboBmaAvsy 維尼
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思來想去,最终得出了一個結論,而這個結論足以令他瞪大了雙眼,擺出咬牙切齒,兇狠的表情。8964 copyright protection279PENANA4m4gYyW4TR 維尼
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此時,手機又再傳來通知音。8964 copyright protection279PENANANU2Jkwmw8I 維尼
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『今天要回校取升學文件,別忘了!』8964 copyright protection279PENANAPWdHdo7ZJE 維尼
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『還有,我們都很久沒一起吃飯了吧,要不取完文件後聚一下?』8964 copyright protection279PENANA67kz3rlgxj 維尼
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李暦軒握著手機遲疑了一下,最終還是選擇了回覆。8964 copyright protection279PENANAP8NHmjOltF 維尼
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『嗯,我會去的。』8964 copyright protection279PENANAwGAJBz9tlR 維尼
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回覆完的瞬間,一手不斷撓著烏黑的頭髮,露出緊咬的牙齒,盯著自己剛回的訊息,李暦軒心頭一酸地發出「嘖」一聲。8964 copyright protection279PENANAYtnaLpjI7K 維尼
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真是無比矛盾呢。明明已經對庭俙產生出恨意,但面對他的邀請,卻還是有種不願意拒絕的感情。8964 copyright protection279PENANAhN6wJfotOn 維尼
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一方面討厭對方的光芒過盛,另一方面又害怕傷害跟失去唯一關心自己的同輩。才會像如今這樣,嫉妒著對方又離不開對方……8964 copyright protection279PENANAcfLNnXfFzu 維尼
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(我真噁心呀……)8964 copyright protection279PENANAyq5ZqX3H2R 維尼
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這種該死又複雜的情感,既難受,又扭曲,諷刺的是偏偏擁有著這些感情,才構成了「人類」這個物種。8964 copyright protection279PENANAM2pZPLAyfW 維尼
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從房間離開,下樓跟自己的母親和妹妹擦身而過,李暦軒如常的跟她們打了招乎。8964 copyright protection279PENANA5zBlkTltr6 維尼
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「我有事出門一下,晚飯不回來吃了。」8964 copyright protection279PENANAXB6j2TFRLU 維尼
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母親和妹妹都微微笑著點頭回應。家庭關係似乎沒有像其他類似個案般糟糕。8964 copyright protection279PENANAokiV39ijIx 維尼
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……雖然是來到了學校,卻沒有想過陌生感居然如此強烈。李暦軒光是站了在校門前,就是沒有踏進去的勇氣。8964 copyright protection279PENANA2kwE5jMLEG 維尼
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過了良久,李暦軒總算平復好心情,進到校內亦順利拿到了升學文件,以為告一段落的他恰巧見到迎面而來的同班生。8964 copyright protection279PENANAFRkDOZLqsh 維尼
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李暦軒心知先自己在他們眼中是個怪異的人,所以刻意低下頭躲開對方的視線,只是這並不能避免別人議論自己。8964 copyright protection279PENANABEqhdHNoRf 維尼
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『那不是李暦軒嗎?他出現在這幹嘛呀?』8964 copyright protection279PENANAEuqrqF8iCb 維尼
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『他這半年來不是一直杳無音訊嗎,怎麼突然就回來了。』8964 copyright protection279PENANA8a9qZfyNRk 維尼
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倆人似是在說悄悄話,聲音卻大得足以讓李暦軒咬緊牙全聽進耳裏。8964 copyright protection279PENANAldFc5vnCd5 維尼
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對方話中隱含著自覺優人一等的蔑視及嘲弄,卻又試圖用粗劣的手法把其隱藏,李暦軒感到甚是噁心。8964 copyright protection279PENANA4nn2GNH5fK 維尼
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(……)8964 copyright protection279PENANAKTu4OqCYIH 維尼
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打破沉默的是褲襠的一震,李暦軒從口袋掏出手機瞄了一眼。8964 copyright protection279PENANAaSeVPn0bYD 維尼
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『我在室內體育館外面,你好了就過來吧。』8964 copyright protection279PENANAEqlRTWmX42 維尼
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隔了一陣子,李暦軒來到體育館附近,心裏是有點忐忑不安,一直想到彼此已經半年多沒見面,自己又該如何面這段友情。8964 copyright protection279PENANAXQoNj3y1m3 維尼
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找了一會,終於是看著了庭俙的臉,可他好像正跟什麼人在說話。李暦軒也只好靠近一點。8964 copyright protection279PENANAqse0SaOP0V 維尼
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然而下一刻,他徹底後悔了。8964 copyright protection279PENANA7RtUIWNKvl 維尼
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「庭……俙……?」8964 copyright protection279PENANAqVbsVs9x4S 維尼
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「庭俙!……無論如何我都想在我們畢業前告訴你……那怕只是走個流程,我也想好好跟你說聲,我喜歡你!」8964 copyright protection279PENANA8PfejPP0aq 維尼
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一個相貌平平的女孩,但明顯經過精心打扮,微曲的髮尾,淡淡的紅唇,通透的雙眸,為她提高了不少的氣質。庭俙的對面正站著這麼一個女孩。8964 copyright protection279PENANAP69uvDJFeF 維尼
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李暦軒剛好在這尷尬的節點出現在倆人面前,這仿佛校園偶像劇才會出現的一幕讓他又一次回憶起一個沉重的事實──他們活在不同的世界。8964 copyright protection279PENANAsV10j2th2E 維尼
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(!@#!*@#&*#&@!&!#!*#^#&@)8964 copyright protection279PENANAith5udEmKu 維尼
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一股自卑感又湧上心頭,侵占了李暦軒的腦袋。眼看這時的庭俙隨便的回應了眼前那女生一句「抱歉。」,就朝自己招手而來,更令他多了一絲怒氣。8964 copyright protection279PENANAbJHGRGh9Un 維尼
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因為該女生那快落淚的表情,李暦軒感覺她跟一直以來的自己很像,鼓足了勇氣向人展示自己的內心,卻不被當一回事的感受。8964 copyright protection279PENANA64Dg1ldn6g 維尼
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(別過來呀!回去把話好好交代清楚呀!不要就這麼無視了別人的心意呀!)8964 copyright protection279PENANA2XTbA9ljtJ 維尼
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此時他仿佛看到自己的身影跟女孩重疊了,望著庭俙如今否定了女孩,在李暦軒眼中猶如自身都一并被否定了。8964 copyright protection279PENANAeKw07a2fVe 維尼
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(就到此為止吧。)8964 copyright protection279PENANAC6jI1995qI 維尼
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帶著悲憤的李暦軒握緊了拳頭,將其打在了庭俙臉上。話雖如此,他在最後一刻還是於心不忍,控制住拳頭的力道,讓庭俙的臉只是稍稍腫脹了。8964 copyright protection279PENANA7CwxT86Vcd 維尼
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一旁的女孩見狀,人都傻住了,表情夾雜著不久前的熱淚盈眶,和現在張著口表示的不解。8964 copyright protection279PENANANVFwLrkder 維尼
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李暦軒也知道,這一拳不單只是替那女孩感到不憤而打的,更多是自身的自私,想要發洩這些年來的不甘。8964 copyright protection279PENANAH6pEEPUNch 維尼
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雙子默默的看完這一切,他亦無意對他們任何一人作出批判,他曾說過,自己的目的是見證和理解死亡,所以過多的個人主觀,雙子並不需要。8964 copyright protection279PENANAvgXIaL8SgD 維尼
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