No Plagiarism!kWZqs4jSJRhHI241pGUhposted on PENANA 我第一次正視林婉的衣櫃,是在找外套的時候。45Please respect copyright.PENANABRpenIjvoG
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思源說晚上天氣轉涼,提醒我要多穿一點。我走進房間,打開她那座純白木質、鏡面滑門的衣櫃,想拿件大衣。8964 copyright protection41PENANA62ol10cgGX 維尼
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結果門一拉開,我整個人僵住了。8964 copyright protection41PENANAOXRhdEv67m 維尼
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裡頭擺滿了衣服,一件一件整齊排列、分色、分類——左邊是襯衫與針織,右邊是裙裝與洋裝,下層是摺疊整齊的居家服與內衣抽屜。8964 copyright protection41PENANAojltQ7evrl 維尼
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整個衣櫃像是精心維護的紀念館,每一件衣服都在訴說:「這不是你的世界。」8964 copyright protection41PENANANLj1yl1EDL 維尼
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我原本只是想拿件外套,卻不自覺地,一件一件翻看起來。8964 copyright protection41PENANAAVQ9L6yq5E 維尼
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有一件灰白的開襟針織衫,袖口磨舊了些,但被洗得很乾淨。我拿起來靠近鼻尖聞了聞,乾燥、柔軟,有淡淡的香氣。8964 copyright protection41PENANAuftYH2VO7W 維尼
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那香氣不是香水,而是某種……她的存在。8964 copyright protection41PENANALSEeVZ5xF2 維尼
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我不是變態,我只是——不知道怎麼定位自己。8964 copyright protection41PENANAv59fVwh5QI 維尼
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我住在她的房間,穿她的衣服,睡她的床,和她的男朋友說話,卻永遠不是她。8964 copyright protection41PENANAmCnCmTTeJR 維尼
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我不應該開始習慣這些。8964 copyright protection41PENANATAaIsogazp 維尼
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但我已經習慣了。8964 copyright protection41PENANAF4fH3zWU9v 維尼
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衣櫃裡還有一件紅色洋裝,明明不是太暴露的款式,卻讓我不敢碰。8964 copyright protection41PENANAZPEQHnBTyp 維尼
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我知道她穿這件出去約會過。8964 copyright protection41PENANAXH3Dxh0uiI 維尼
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因為思源的手機裡,有一張她穿這件的合照。他當時發朋友圈寫著:「幸好是妳。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAIsePzmFijN 維尼
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我記得這句話,我還回他:「放閃死全家。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAA0V8P7lHqp 維尼
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現在想起來,只覺得可笑。8964 copyright protection41PENANAYcPyFaeKGV 維尼
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我站在衣櫃前,握著那件洋裝,心裡忽然出現一個荒謬的想法:8964 copyright protection41PENANAKR4moJQ5x0 維尼
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——如果我也穿上它,他會發現嗎?8964 copyright protection41PENANAdtl7yNJ9kQ 維尼
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會發現我不是她?還是會繼續說:「妳穿這件也很好看」?8964 copyright protection41PENANABy2CpZ5JGj 維尼
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到底是哪一部分吸引了他?是這個人,還是這副軀殼?8964 copyright protection41PENANAJQYaJFPehO 維尼
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我放下衣服,關上衣櫃,像關上一扇讓我窒息的大門。8964 copyright protection41PENANAmhmfzVBdJN 維尼
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晚餐時他問我:「最近要不要換點穿搭風格?我朋友說公司要辦個派對,妳如果想去,我們可以一起。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAaoxy6qH51G 維尼
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我咬著筷子愣了一下。8964 copyright protection41PENANAVB1xCR23pz 維尼
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「……你確定我可以去?」8964 copyright protection41PENANAU8aluZWxBc 維尼
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「怎麼不行?妳可是我女朋友啊。」8964 copyright protection41PENANA1VNlZ9U1ad 維尼
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那一刻我差點沒噎到。8964 copyright protection41PENANAB0j43juQXj 維尼
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他說得太自然,太順口,像一個確認過無數次的事實。8964 copyright protection41PENANAFPxAnB4ZYK 維尼
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「……我最近不太想見人。」我低頭說。8964 copyright protection41PENANATJYbM8spNV 維尼
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「妳以前超愛社交的,怎麼忽然宅起來了?」8964 copyright protection41PENANAT7mCA23aMN 維尼
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我勉強笑笑:「可能年紀大了。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAjB9K4T4Xyq 維尼
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他沒說什麼,只是夾了塊豆腐放進我碗裡。8964 copyright protection41PENANA1RrTDGuocU 維尼
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那是我以前最討厭的菜。8964 copyright protection41PENANAiBe2VLjKOI 維尼
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可我還是吃了。8964 copyright protection41PENANA4Q3JO82F9H 維尼
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這不是我第一次強迫自己接受她的喜好,但這次,特別難以下嚥。8964 copyright protection41PENANAeg5IVarQTb 維尼
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因為我忽然發現,我在消失。8964 copyright protection41PENANANsMa7BRFjI 維尼
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消失在林婉的生活裡,消失在思源的溫柔裡,消失在一套又一套不屬於我的衣服與習慣裡。8964 copyright protection41PENANA49BFsnVax0 維尼
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我漸漸成為她,卻再也找不回自己。8964 copyright protection41PENANAS7HnhpJhhR 維尼
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晚上洗澡時,我看著鏡子裡的自己,忽然脫下睡衣,從衣櫃裡翻出那件紅色洋裝,穿了上去。8964 copyright protection41PENANAiUDayQGDGX 維尼
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拉鍊有點緊,這具身體腰很細,但胸口比我原本的還要豐滿,我得稍微用力才能拉好。8964 copyright protection41PENANAHJ6Xpu1PsP 維尼
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我站在鏡前,像個旁觀者,看著那個女人的身影逐漸浮現。8964 copyright protection41PENANAYHKPatiLQ9 維尼
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她不是我。但她的衣服,正包裹著我。8964 copyright protection41PENANAlth3bzoG2x 維尼
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我不知道自己站了多久。8964 copyright protection41PENANAfItgminHIo 維尼
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直到思源敲門:「妳在裡面嗎?洗好了沒?」8964 copyright protection41PENANAV8TwcTQATY 維尼
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我回過神:「快好了,等我一下。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAwywdFA6NCp 維尼
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我慌忙脫下那件衣服,重新穿上睡衣,把洋裝摺好塞進抽屜深處,像在藏一件罪證。8964 copyright protection41PENANASGax5MlFcQ 維尼
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心跳還很快。8964 copyright protection41PENANALksRN5cWNg 維尼
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我不是因為怕被看到,而是因為——8964 copyright protection41PENANAnZuxV83t25 維尼
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那一刻我突然發現,我並不抗拒穿上它。8964 copyright protection41PENANAKQQEsANnfk 維尼
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我甚至,隱隱地期待,他會說一句:「妳穿這件很好看。」8964 copyright protection41PENANAq6abZ0u4Fd 維尼
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那不應該是我的願望。8964 copyright protection41PENANANHMWI22Y3L 維尼
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我早就不該擁有這種期待。8964 copyright protection41PENANA4uc8bPxtdg 維尼
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