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「你離開後,我才知道自己真的在等你。」
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格雷爾從拘留室出來的那天,倫敦剛下過一場濕冷的細雨。死神局並未公開懲處,只是將他降職、剝奪了一切外勤資格,名義上是「靜待調查」,實則……是監視與流放。
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他沒有抗爭。
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也沒有辯解。
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他甚至沒有對威廉撂下什麼狠話。
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因為他的腦海裡,只剩下那句話——35Please respect copyright.PENANAzl2DY462xj
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「那就讓我們,一起墮落吧。」
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他想笑,可喉嚨卻緊得難受。
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格雷爾搬進了倫敦西區一間老舊公寓。牆角漏水、窗邊結霧,每天醒來只有死神局送來的冷餐和失效的任務通知。
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第三天,他開始夢見葬儀屋的聲音。
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第四天,他發現自己的鏡子後藏著一封匿名信:
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「不見面,不代表不想你。35Please respect copyright.PENANAX3lWdPpMpk
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只是現在,還不能讓你看到我選擇的模樣。」
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筆跡熟悉,紙張略帶木香氣息。
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格雷爾盯著那封信看了很久很久,最後才緩緩地抱著膝蓋坐在窗邊,一根根塗著紅漆的指甲在冷窗上劃出一串孤單的節奏。
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幾日後,格雷爾接到了一個非正式消息:35Please respect copyright.PENANAAr7Yk2NjnC
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在約克郡東北的遺棄療養院,有人目擊到疑似死神的身影,深夜潛入舊病房中,並帶走一具無名屍體。
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他不該管這些。
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他已經不是執勤人員。
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但他還是收拾行李,趕往那個地點。
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車廂內滿是霧,車窗外的農田被夜色吞噬。他的腦中反覆盤旋著一個問題:
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「我這麼做,到底是因為任務感,還是……因為我再也受不了沒有他的日子?」
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舊療養院像一具死去太久的巨獸,鋼筋裸露、屋頂崩落,只有地下層還有火光微弱閃動。
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格雷爾小心翼翼地潛入。
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他看見了那熟悉的背影。銀髮披散,身披破舊黑袍,正在為一具病人屍體蓋上白布。
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「你還是來了啊。」葬儀屋輕聲說,沒有轉身。
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「你知道我會來?」
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「我不知道……只是希望。」
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格雷爾站在門邊,沒有立刻靠近。他想衝上去擁抱他、吻他,甚至痛罵他,但最終只是靜靜開口:
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「你離開後,我才知道自己真的在等你。」
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這句話讓空氣凝結了一秒。
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葬儀屋終於轉身,眼底沒有戲謔,只有深深的——疲憊。
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「我太久沒有相信過誰了,小格雷爾。我怕……一旦我相信你,也許我就沒法再對這個世界冷漠下去了。」
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「那就不要冷漠。」
格雷爾走近一步,手指輕輕碰上對方的額角,紅髮垂落
「你明明那麼溫柔,卻用棺材把心鎖住……」
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「我為太多死者安排過葬禮,但從沒有人,替我安排過——哪怕一次活著的開始。」
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「那現在就開始吧。」格雷爾低聲道
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那一夜,他們沒有說更多話,只是坐在殘破的床邊,並肩而眠。
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「我夢見……我們在下雪的街道上開一家花店……」
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格雷爾勾起嘴角,輕聲應著:
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「那我就每天早上都給你一朵玫瑰……讓你記得,我還在你身邊。」
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〈第四章完〉
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