人生有幾個十年?
不知道大家幾歲情竇初開?336Please respect copyright.PENANAVcH2OGHnfD
以我的年紀往前推10年,大概是11歲336Please respect copyright.PENANAfv867aIGbJ
就是這麼早,可能從小就是電視兒童,偶像劇看太多了,336Please respect copyright.PENANA7uwqjix2cI
沒錯,接下來是我的故事。
我是個蠻內向的人,有了喜歡的人只會偷偷暗戀著,336Please respect copyright.PENANAsNdvNYEppb
和對方一句話都都不敢說336Please respect copyright.PENANAHxfFBfIlPm
所以我只經歷過暗戀,從來走不到曖昧。336Please respect copyright.PENANA7meCR1u8yJ
國小五年級下學期,班上轉來了一個男生,336Please respect copyright.PENANA6kZuoXep7M
他的頭髮以男生來說留得長長的,有著厚厚一片劉海336Please respect copyright.PENANAPoKhf4uDeJ
別覺得髮型好像很怪,他的臉真的長得不錯,336Please respect copyright.PENANAwrwnJHHHp6
我很羨慕那些能和男生走得近的女生,336Please respect copyright.PENANAvYz3ENGcMZ
但我不是,我就看著他每天跟班上其他女生說話,336Please respect copyright.PENANAFFwVmJZdLg
當時班上很流行傳紙條,336Please respect copyright.PENANAK7pgaquTsz
別以為當工具人在小孩的世界裡就不會發生,336Please respect copyright.PENANAYsNfZJ6g4k
我還當過中間人幫忙接紙條再傳給另一個女生呢。336Please respect copyright.PENANAj55SSV1qcm
快畢業的時候大家都會取買一本像通訊錄的冊子,互相交換寫。336Please respect copyright.PENANAVZMIj7Dv8B
我鼓起勇氣和別人一樣壓在他的桌墊下,傳回來的只有幾格有填,剩下的只有滿滿的「同上」兩個字。336Please respect copyright.PENANAYHc9G4YEOr
大家簽名在衣服上留念時,他在我衣服上簽的不是名子,是髒話,336Please respect copyright.PENANA1H0NIhg7vV
我知道他是開玩笑不是故意的;幾年後看到那件衣服覺得自己真傻,就把它給丟了。
國中的時候比較神奇一點,我喜歡上一個女生,336Please respect copyright.PENANAkkV55RxxKq
我是個異性戀,但就剛好對她有感覺吧。336Please respect copyright.PENANAxxib3rF6oR
她是補習班聘來的數理輔導老師,是個大學生,336Please respect copyright.PENANAntbUuyfFmj
補習班是分班教課的,她通常待在成績好的那一班,而我是在普通班;336Please respect copyright.PENANA2peZxNshTB
從那時開始,我學會在喜歡的人面前保持形象336Please respect copyright.PENANAyaPEjyM3jV
偷看她的打卡單,想知道她星期幾會來,336Please respect copyright.PENANAMIzhiAmzhi
在她上課的時候從外面玻璃窗看著,336Please respect copyright.PENANA1wgxwTz1WI
小心翼翼地從別人那問出她的名字,336Please respect copyright.PENANAerEnmTEBPF
不過很快的,也從別人口中知道她早就有男友了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAEL01eBcbIo
從那時開始我的身上就有了奇特的魔力,336Please respect copyright.PENANABQ8r6ouAf6
只要被我喜歡上的通常都有另一半又或著很快就會交到另一半;336Please respect copyright.PENANATMILB3X4hu
我自己都開玩笑地想著,誰想脫單的,快來吸引我的注意吧。336Please respect copyright.PENANAcc46tFVsPa
幾個月前不知道哪根筋不對,去看了她的FB,336Please respect copyright.PENANA3xMkw4ejhq
她結婚了,看著她婚禮的照片,看了好久,336Please respect copyright.PENANAidRKd0kbtI
她,一樣很美,真的。
高中的一次英語歌唱比賽,練習時一次不經意的轉頭,336Please respect copyright.PENANAVRncq0Lepy
感覺我們對到眼了,我喜歡上班上的一個男生,336Please respect copyright.PENANAM1hJjWCteX
我鼓起勇氣加了他的IG,通過好友申請時覺得自己有機會了,不是我自作多情了吧。336Please respect copyright.PENANAtDhiS0rvjd
點進去一看,他有女朋友了,不同學校的,336Please respect copyright.PENANAkDLH48l5W3
果然真的只是「我的」感覺。336Please respect copyright.PENANAC85FnY7kFP
不過也不是很久,他分手了。336Please respect copyright.PENANArKVcPTpyCW
但我也沒有任何行動,現在想想應該要好好傳訊息安慰趁虛而入才對😂,336Please respect copyright.PENANA7zzX0gXp9a
當時迷上了一部甜劇,不過現實中卻處在暗戀,對自己又很沒自信,336Please respect copyright.PENANAhswDqdKkzj
開始每天胡思亂想,搞到後面有點輕微憂鬱症的狀態,成績掉得很嚴重。336Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7fiN7XG6u
而之後他又交到女朋友了,是班上的女生,336Please respect copyright.PENANASddDcxgZLn
接下來的日子就是看他們放閃一直到畢業。336Please respect copyright.PENANAImn1ye6Uwm
後來加過他帳號的IG好像被我弄丟了,畢業後就沒他的消息了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAfni0Wag3lq
去年幾個高中同學吃飯我才知道這對班對分手了,336Please respect copyright.PENANA7RWCaskKfv
不過事過境遷,也沒見過面,只感到有點唏噓。
現在大學了,班上有個幽默風趣的男生五官也好看,整個就是我的菜!336Please respect copyright.PENANAwmZfLL5q2Y
但這次,我一直告訴自己,336Please respect copyright.PENANAIpACcwwrE3
「別動心,不會是你的」336Please respect copyright.PENANAQmEZrejGWV
「別動心,不會是你的」336Please respect copyright.PENANAf6BldQl1i6
糾結了一年,我還是栽進去了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAP7Vlqo52n8
但這次我努力讓自己不一樣,336Please respect copyright.PENANAaTzfcnAPRF
回他的現實動態,找機會搭個一兩句話,他都會回,也許出於禮貌吧。336Please respect copyright.PENANAeGF9WIWJsv
不過現在還是平行線,336Please respect copyright.PENANAcIU9kt78vo
我不知道我在掙扎甚麼,336Please respect copyright.PENANAxfc6fSFRLi
一直找自己的缺點,想讓自己更完美。336Please respect copyright.PENANAsXZWEZikSb
弄得又痛又累,卻不知道為了甚麼336Please respect copyright.PENANAFSa2cm3KS6
也許我只是想證明,336Please respect copyright.PENANATbJBfkDs01
我不是上帝在指派邱比特時,336Please respect copyright.PENANA7xAfqJlHd4
被忘掉的那個。336Please respect copyright.PENANA5TpZ1nhFWI
人生有幾個十年?336Please respect copyright.PENANASzUqFJcWVV
我這個十年已經走完了,來不及了,336Please respect copyright.PENANA6ouZsnWjJF
人生真的沒幾個十年,336Please respect copyright.PENANAjinuFlbSVm
我還在努力愛上自己336Please respect copyright.PENANAAgz4HwafMo
只要記住,別和我一樣336Please respect copyright.PENANAs7CLEyE6yV
真的,太累了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAHU9pKAQG9f
336Please respect copyright.PENANAx0ABqqN7vt