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「現在天時暑熱，為何要吃糉子？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tFITkGv1b
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「紀念屈原。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpI5VCPgBe
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「為何要紀念一個自殺的人？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAvN0oddkg
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「大家的著眼點不在於他的自殺行為，而是讚揚他以身殉國的高尚情操。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSTSeLBMdj
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「你認同他？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtWEz5TzbH
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「不認同——怎麼可以放棄生命？萬事該以自己為先！」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡss0plWH7xp
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我不敢回話，低頭吃糉子，邊吃邊從廚門隙縫瞥望媽媽。只見她的雙手於不銹鋼煲與砧板之間忙碌來回，間中搞拌煲內食物，偶爾從雪櫃拿出食材。無論怎麼移動，她總是背對著我。憑這不著跡的刻意舉措，我斷定她正在流淚。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmz9Uo3LWto
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我的目光不期然往下掃，落在她的左小腿——一隻人造義肢……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDKTrVTNuN
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忙碌以後，媽媽端著她自己那份糉子，坐在梳化上收看龍舟比賽，看得出神。聽說她自小是運動健將，婚後繼續參與多項運動比賽，在龍舟比賽的戰績尤其彪炳。爸爸反倒是個文藝青年，不擅運動，卻總會抵著日照高溫到比賽場地為媽媽打氣……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1sgUgXXJE
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冒著被罵的危險，我上前拿走電視遙控器：「我想看周星馳。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77OqLRwONA
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媽媽沒反對，依然安坐梳化上。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFByXftmzg
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又是《西遊記第壹佰零壹回之仙履奇緣》。我對早已滾瓜爛熟的橋段不感興趣，但為了媽媽，只得勉為其難看下去。電影接近尾聲，紫霞仙子為救至尊寶而被牛魔王刺死當刻，媽媽突然失控痛哭起來。哭著哭著，她又無故笑了。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucfJ2WJgFg
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我沒有安慰她，氣沖沖擸起遙控器，將頻道調回龍舟比賽那邊。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHfZhgl1XE
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「隨你喜歡。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCnlugaHJv
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沒待媽媽回話，我回睡房上網去。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPQP5UaxaF
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萬事該以自己為先，不是嗎？396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznTfHaGMxL
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日落西山。肚子餓得咕咕作響，我才記得自己還沒有吃完午餐。惟想及面對媽媽時的尷尬，我不禁猶豫起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1obnAWgR9
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湊巧，媽媽敲門示意晚飯已然備好。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1mqMyE7n5
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「不了。我剛剛約了朋友。」我撒謊。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDZUexR3Ix
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媽媽非但沒有如常斥責我交待不清楚，甚至輕易放行。這讓我感到意外。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEcFMWe7fr
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更衣，套上波鞋，步出大門之際，我瞥見飯枱上的碟子放有兩隻不完整的糉子——午餐的剩菜。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWEr6ZOuAq
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我下意識假裝看不見，低頭轉身離開。漫無目的慢步大街上，心念在今午的事情上打圈轉……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9rLRO5vDD
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我提著兩個外賣飯盒趕回家。一個留給自己，一個遞予媽媽：「別吃糉子。已放涼了一整個下午。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyl1UL0vk2l
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媽媽接過飯盒，默默低頭吃飯。我也保持沉默，靜靜享用飯盒。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZneDFOKTFb
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飯後，我和媽媽齊齊坐在梳化上看電視新聞。新聞提及今午的龍舟比賽。這無疑再次挑動媽媽的神經。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVi2OiGAi1I
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三年前的龍舟比賽結束後，爸媽在巴士站排隊候車。誰料在巴士抵站之際，媽媽突然中暑失去意識，往馬路那邊倒下。爸爸不顧一切衝前推開她。收掣不及的巴士輾過爸爸，停車一剎車輪剛好壓住媽媽的左腳……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGhphNg6sx
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我無法回應媽媽的悲傷，正如她無法放下爸爸。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIIJxwnMQY
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可以怎麼辦？不知道。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZAcqMwZCJ
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我全身突然乏力，有意無意輕倚媽媽身上。媽媽沒有迴避，抵著悶熱，任我靠依。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd02Votm8c8
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聽嫲嫲說，媽媽曾因爸爸離世生起自殺念頭，惟念及家中尚有我這個乳臭未乾的十歲女兒而堅強活下去……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYakgwWF6Vg
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「媽媽，明年端午節，我不要再吃糉子。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGe7ZL8VP8
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「為何不想吃？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnIubxRO3M
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「不想紀念屈原。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrm7hf1frDM
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「好的——其實我也不想紀念屈原這傢伙！」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzl6GiTqCq
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我和媽媽相視而笑，笑看新聞報導裡每名熱情參與端午節慶祝活動的市民。
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