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You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.107Please respect copyright.PENANAh2boLvmJiX
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.107Please respect copyright.PENANAHfHrLkrVpf
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWSPC1vLxqB
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA3o0W2ovtH5
"I just want to go home," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAD7tTGOgUNG
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4BBEEZmFjs
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2x0tAKpoJZ
Father sighs.107Please respect copyright.PENANAnEdtBpDw2G
I say "I don't want to stay here!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAyvO4zcRGZR
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEyZEgUnNoK
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.107Please respect copyright.PENANAF6gmCYXNts
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2ek9ZSvKfH
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4ACm5oGiQx
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.107Please respect copyright.PENANAuYPdQobdNT
"Pet, come down from the tree."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgvXeKnIkuA
I stay silent.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaZSZJu2n0Y
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmLsJ7E52ax
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.107Please respect copyright.PENANAa5gST9clGZ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.107Please respect copyright.PENANAF8QQ7yhN5R
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA80Rsah0YcC
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.107Please respect copyright.PENANATIVVcUzLl3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANA3SQcRaW36v
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAsZNvE74iVe
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..107Please respect copyright.PENANA6QqafeUSPf
I say, "Please don't hurt me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzQFlBnaW6g
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."107Please respect copyright.PENANASbw9eKF1b9
I say, "Please don't!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAy4N47FYXZT
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANAHWM6ASF2Ek
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPbwybP42xJ
"You'll find out soon enough, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANAn4XU7F6vaf
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.107Please respect copyright.PENANAoBazR27H7m
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..107Please respect copyright.PENANAKWmo0ZssI6
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAeA2sTScsNY
"Are you ready, child?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAJl9gNwvP6l
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANA30KKrGqOR0
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."107Please respect copyright.PENANARwgQ1XhzIT
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I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANASjGmORI9GR
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqEJW3IFtax
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.107Please respect copyright.PENANALqI3go5T82
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."107Please respect copyright.PENANAp1NX2ksLuM
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMwgVeMXPnI
Father says "Good. Stay there."107Please respect copyright.PENANAc2GwfvOphF
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.107Please respect copyright.PENANACIx3MqPIJP
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.107Please respect copyright.PENANAGDTR9WfWFU
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQugX2rwO2l
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAFztZgjtOlK
"Please!" I whisper.107Please respect copyright.PENANAagYtH1flYG
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.107Please respect copyright.PENANA6r0q1IBI4L
I scream loudly.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcyIZg3fTvb
My scream echoes throughout the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAB8adLXUw0Z
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.107Please respect copyright.PENANAo31U4v8sMv
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcIBofQrr9t
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.107Please respect copyright.PENANAvLhKPf4qvD
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqMoAXrG37v
I say "P-please s-stop.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAysJlH8C6x9
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYFSkaVI0w6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAwHKJIE8zvd
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZiaT45d1bS
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJALBgTvHcO
"Look at her," another says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA2xQuEtfQcG
I say "Please leave me alone."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVeeSePbw1K
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.107Please respect copyright.PENANATkFzcIp6eL
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYQltHjwO01
"We'll see. Let's see."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPeF1ScnJSU
I say "No no no.." They laugh.107Please respect copyright.PENANA33gFlJ8mTS
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaDqyk9LXhQ
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmWfkl04yKo
They untie me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAj2pZBAlQO2
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPDMYMGqIEO
"Ah... you're up," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXAxB4e8Afz
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA10viQuk0in
"Where were you?" he asks,107Please respect copyright.PENANAp4kwnnuTu1
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."107Please respect copyright.PENANAbIqkGQA6GW
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."107Please respect copyright.PENANADwmnnBO2nn
Father smiles.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcnGM6qnfqR
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAELnaNMum27
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."107Please respect copyright.PENANAoU0VF2W9Tv
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyoE6e54PmT
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAia4YWubL7M
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1N3q4xvhF
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqsp7D4R8OP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.107Please respect copyright.PENANAIUDgeaMAKT
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaacAeFfaK5
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."107Please respect copyright.PENANA6BxNDahHjJ
I say, "Please let me go!"107Please respect copyright.PENANA5H3a9lfISG
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQXlXi3qS4j
"You will," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAw0yYctquuh
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAa1ZKwLPElv
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.107Please respect copyright.PENANACkn3UoeztZ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ezb8dDuDf
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.107Please respect copyright.PENANASC0Gdmh05T
"Stop crying," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA5BIUIVGJkl
"I can't!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAcxHXRAGb5y
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmmF4uAE6Os
"Stop it!" I cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7RsYY55Kpt
"I said stop it!" he yells,107Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZMXzXNWft
"I can't," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAys4Wd0HPc1
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAMHJElV8tPy
"NO!" Father screams.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkj9y53MpA3
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXU5SxwFj3U
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."107Please respect copyright.PENANA6rHpnYMXXd
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAC475D0nzfN
"I would. I really would."107Please respect copyright.PENANAwN7abtScPZ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.107Please respect copyright.PENANAs7ZZ5PO0rM
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAohxGsv4GuC
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."107Please respect copyright.PENANAbVBVj92Cux
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgxfkKvmgq9
I say, "No I'm not!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAq5c5FgAn8c
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEhJ170kzF6
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJbzoJ5wwHy
I say "No I won't!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANASjEjDPyjKh
"You will!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAspODt8wHBM
"I said NO!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANADqZVQNo1xr
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAE9AXiQdb12
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAFezOt8ikfr
"I know you will," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMbJkZ4AYoR
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEETiaye50X
He says "One."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqfn3XVuIZy
I say, "I'll do anything.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAaDGIqQ5eoR
"Two."107Please respect copyright.PENANAI4gLzsQuj8
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANA1RuJMqEwfO
"Three."107Please respect copyright.PENANARmJDZ2D4bQ
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMlWetjXTdg
"No, don't do it," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEhAO1hDTMX
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."107Please respect copyright.PENANAnrzYvefSON
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.107Please respect copyright.PENANAgrmIEjR9kH
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAU4n5nleePD
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAqC5ttb26Cy
I say "Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAv2pti3LBzn
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."107Please respect copyright.PENANABWIJ6fKwxz
"Yes," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfVRq6qJ9oX
"Good girl," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3Pl4ElpF5K
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."107Please respect copyright.PENANARiCRQVIiRw
"I won't," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAtfZpkvQZgL
I stay tied up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA84H1Zys715
"Now," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANASGE6lCodqz
"Kneel."107Please respect copyright.PENANANLu4ocZxvG
"Please," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkNvLEBd9hg
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.107Please respect copyright.PENANAobraTNDG35
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.107Please respect copyright.PENANA5Fp4qpYaVn
I just know it.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW2trlG97rJ
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.107Please respect copyright.PENANArWjN4tnlCq
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA2OBdpoFkXE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqDVbr5lcYN
I'm all alone in the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAygMAVPxi3h
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I hear the door open. I look up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAyCSycT8TnS
"Hello," a man says.107Please respect copyright.PENANALQhExS9qYi
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAISy2rlJVGr
"Hands behind your back," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA0OzNHPcN5J
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEPDnlhoAjL
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANAm4AjSOUvJf
"Stay there," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA3cXlZkJgp1
I stay on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3OB5o8w66f
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.107Please respect copyright.PENANACtC8onjv8H
I say "No no no."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUEXAmWF2Ln
"Do it," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANACJSMi1uzE8
I say no. He pushes harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUrKm3LZ298
"Do it!" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXnIzpIqylN
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.107Please respect copyright.PENANABP7jXMjuaO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.107Please respect copyright.PENANAsc6Hwwon0m
"Stay there," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW6zcHxiLHy
I stay on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANAwXeiSBIKkf
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxrbNwxL7WG
"Stop moving."107Please respect copyright.PENANABwgbCPw87m
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEbYEJCBZWP
He pulls it out of my throat.107Please respect copyright.PENANAuQjkier5qm
"What's wrong?" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7IHPbUhRtk
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUzSZhPYwSc
"What?" he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlWqQXOpcUQ
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.107Please respect copyright.PENANAffwcaT7Hvp
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.107Please respect copyright.PENANA6Yw3eQUnZg
"Is this too big for you?" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAK6xrvNwRwg
I nod.107Please respect copyright.PENANARSFe1rb2s0
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUkbyc8dm9g
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.107Please respect copyright.PENANApqzS1pae4C
He shoves it back in.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQXtejoUkPS
I decide that vomiting once is enough.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxi9VMXx8k9
He shoves it in deeper.107Please respect copyright.PENANAiqXp12IEVW
I struggle and fight.107Please respect copyright.PENANA9bhQsP0vll
"Stop fighting me," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPAbBUJtGdf
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.107Please respect copyright.PENANAtWL1xMcgf2
"Get dressed," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJIbeTwnLfR
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYen4hMJFGE
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAC5tnwoKFde
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.107Please respect copyright.PENANAC1PK4nPRmV
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.107Please respect copyright.PENANATXZu6vcDRP
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA8oN4m1FEkT
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.107Please respect copyright.PENANAR1vOw7rlsh
I say, "Where's dad?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAxFEkdk3P30
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.107Please respect copyright.PENANAs6fSuIo5us
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.107Please respect copyright.PENANAghrkZwCasJ
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.107Please respect copyright.PENANAlqgnfeksqV
My father says, "Where have you been?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAXqhztrE0XP
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."107Please respect copyright.PENANAOM1S5dkXfn
"Did they hurt you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAOfEl2ZGnO4
"Yeah," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAhFQEya1eYX
"I'm sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5OmgIg78LW
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.107Please respect copyright.PENANAdb7AhUOEXA
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXFr4kmZmps
"Is Allie in here?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAmPEAZT5PCi
My dad says, "Yes, why?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAxAwtzwxz6e
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAa297aQOeE5
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAz4T4C3g9s7
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAz8xNWBREBv
"No." I respond,107Please respect copyright.PENANAS4EyLhiRUV
"Can we come in?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAstGnll6AQI
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.107Please respect copyright.PENANARXdWEj5iaI
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"107Please respect copyright.PENANASRzOUbSnqn
I say, "I don't know."107Please respect copyright.PENANANVadlswNnn
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAWdym7KarO2
"No." I say,107Please respect copyright.PENANA6J3BxX862Q
"Are you sure?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAMi4oq9EYna
"Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAy99GPCq06Q
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''107Please respect copyright.PENANA8WGjO1cSnx
"Did he give you any food or water?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAZwNImhzF2W
"No." I respond.107Please respect copyright.PENANASYqIf5zCEo
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"107Please respect copyright.PENANACVYDANDhAK
"No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAP6PABkV0Vd
"What did he do to you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAfl6KVzQNeV
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."107Please respect copyright.PENANABySoLZUQYR
"Did you fight him?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA014jlN6SXR
"I tried."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZhVK1X7p0X
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.107Please respect copyright.PENANAsVXr977Mrb
"I think I blacked out."107Please respect copyright.PENANABIDXbesaBa
"I see."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVcJKpfgeFU
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."107Please respect copyright.PENANA29l3lQRtKK
"And how long were you with him?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAvWbglZBr6v
"I think about ten hours."107Please respect copyright.PENANAvH51AjDFNg
"And you only just managed to escape?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAnWVRRjxvKB
"Yeah."107Please respect copyright.PENANAy6Rr9Mnkkv
"Do you know where you were?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA2z1qi0sBDH
I say "No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAE5xKMplKnM
"What is the last thing you remember?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAY27xlWly44
"I remember walking down the road."107Please respect copyright.PENANAwEgSNKZF7q
"And then?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAVbUw0JvYA7
"I don't remember."107Please respect copyright.PENANAAXeOOVkIE2
"Do you know how you got away?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAYTOxm47QNG
I say, "I just ran,"107Please respect copyright.PENANABEpzJUAHMc
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXCZ0WIZZd1
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.107Please respect copyright.PENANA35HJCWq2bC
I say, "So that's how it all happened."107Please respect copyright.PENANAu49USPHORt
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAlVDDvKj6ME
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAG6CieTf720
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,107Please respect copyright.PENANAnOdk7noSlx
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2kgbOtRlUK
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAhhfDzVhqtQ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYYlIEYMJwd
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.107Please respect copyright.PENANALIZ0lFkjfP
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.107Please respect copyright.PENANABcBBUiUGLi
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.107Please respect copyright.PENANAH1iFAXA1Wd
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXVWj0MBE3M
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxhRviqCAXx
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"107Please respect copyright.PENANA37qCq5dLKI
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAVMGp9X4Pkt
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.107Please respect copyright.PENANAT2xqU1ox2R
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4fD8g47dLx
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.107Please respect copyright.PENANATrColwzkwW
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.107Please respect copyright.PENANALuwEDtLih0
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"107Please respect copyright.PENANApD3WEy8G1F
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."107Please respect copyright.PENANA49LSWfKjAb
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkhEei6wmxI
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."107Please respect copyright.PENANAp7W3zT8O9k
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3CZQPlwEVp
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAymL6GrkJuI
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWChlqFjR04
"Get up." he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANATqf4DxiTM6
"Why am I here?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhMvhCDbE75
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."107Please respect copyright.PENANAYX7w434be9
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAZyu5hPCCaL
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."107Please respect copyright.PENANAxMrQTDxRTZ
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPowfOHshvY
I sit down.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkGs4WdHCvr
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYtgZzSlL1l
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."107Please respect copyright.PENANAGE9Sz7RHqp
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"107Please respect copyright.PENANACEgZe3zfQ1
I say, "No."107Please respect copyright.PENANApOtGur9rHP
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAOVH3KF3ruA
I respond, "Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAdyJfHnmopa
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAplaQpgsAt9
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAu31viFSKB5
"Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzVHI5P572C
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."107Please respect copyright.PENANApMtNdZ4dfK
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlsHqLXrMfX
I say, "Hi."107Please respect copyright.PENANAiOM93CbORO
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMolY7o4aok
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAyHBkFOrITV
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJvbh2ZXR2Q
"Right away," says the woman.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQgEvfi0xYM
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."107Please respect copyright.PENANALWlazBhgtA
I say, "Okay."107Please respect copyright.PENANAxxAqViwNQ9
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAb8cjCTrQo0
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJzqDwv9Q1Q
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2WVbkG6FUR
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAXYKHAGr0np
"He kidnapped me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA3cs17PDzcG
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAtsLj3E8a8t
I say, "He tried to stab me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAs1QNSwtDqL
"Who was he?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAblfHkCQFug
"I don't know."107Please respect copyright.PENANAv9di2qlSWA
"Where did you get the knife?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAjGkv7fHPKQ
"He had it in his pocket."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQag3m8GTYE
"Did he threaten you in any way?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAfn8T9QCVs4
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEz3ZumpvZe
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0Yxeh7rFs
"No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAmq0KE2cnY9
"You sure? Think hard."107Please respect copyright.PENANAGPTmAEsXRo
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.107Please respect copyright.PENANAIZjcYGIQRd
I say, "He killed my father."107Please respect copyright.PENANARz2sv3tkCL
"What?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAqwMGUYyjqz
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4qSlghFLII
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeLGEeCHl
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW4XEZqRGqm
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfy8Gx4tKak
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZNM5o13jVm
I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANA0oycQoBmzq
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.107Please respect copyright.PENANA8nsvys18DI
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAEtTW5b4OxE
I follow him.107Please respect copyright.PENANAGtJZAeuebT
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAZVxjqMCE1c
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA3u2oEy69Z5
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4rcl2OI07R
"Alright. Take a seat."107Please respect copyright.PENANASmgFkjQzcX
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.107Please respect copyright.PENANAdTMz53RJwo
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAuMCAqhkFiA
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA34aJiW91A3
"Yes.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVjBu8MBbrK
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAlMMnXwfrA6
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."107Please respect copyright.PENANAOItDgl7RP4
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUKyXgxrIPY
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.107Please respect copyright.PENANA78RN4EElq3
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.107Please respect copyright.PENANAy3IREZ0vn1
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXDVQcsRwm1
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"107Please respect copyright.PENANApLXEoue5g4
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUA6O2lxr5U
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAct6lv4EqG9
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAX09J5NO4lc
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANArh9HBrfGkU
"What is it?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0aD09qoEo
Doctor Kessel says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAvvcTuiT5CZ
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.107Please respect copyright.PENANAFuDKEmhTW7
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWEUQthUhGu
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAOxzEDG4UEm
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA96pGASzXZh
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"107Please respect copyright.PENANAows46TIEgs
The nurse shakes her head, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANASIFA4ZBzyg
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMxmBUhxPrm
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4cjLxxQ2dm
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,107Please respect copyright.PENANApqoR0IiQBA
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.107Please respect copyright.PENANAI7ShNE9qiJ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAFeBJxrEtRd
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.107Please respect copyright.PENANACyvOMJL5vP
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAww4cU5HeR1
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.107Please respect copyright.PENANABVujeHTySG
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZK9qgyHWmt
I say "Where am I?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAzWNXG7O2Qa
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."107Please respect copyright.PENANASJSBx452k9
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAjgT67P1lXj
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ57QTA2GEe
I say, "I want to see my mom..."107Please respect copyright.PENANA2XsJEjjUv9
The nurse interrupts me and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlKVbekmgU0
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."107Please respect copyright.PENANAhFNx6cY83K
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfJLzTfBkDx
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2aFnknjzPS
"M-mom.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAY5IZ5BugRq
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.107Please respect copyright.PENANADiMqoSAQAF
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."107Please respect copyright.PENANABu15KlqRU6
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAsmuwlVOF53
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5FRdCvFJKv
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANA9Q7H6vy1wo
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAdl0p9T5OoS
"Yes.." I say quietly.107Please respect copyright.PENANACJaaqw3hBx
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMMTyPAAqSS
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.107Please respect copyright.PENANA1xht38PlA8
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyP4H73Jx9T
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPJa023eiKb
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA2osPDCOlLP
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5ODNZw3b32
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAaXGiP7TDP0
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4dehqACcOX
I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEeoGHmeKfR
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.107Please respect copyright.PENANATqsmOtWnbn
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqVYaWTRSPT
I wipe the tears off my face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPRKMAQmZvB
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAn3Xk8nUnSe
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."107Please respect copyright.PENANARFaakX3vgl
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAGizxTa78UN
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAoYhnw5yqb7
I say, "Tell me!"107Please respect copyright.PENANACAY1KEDZbP
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."107Please respect copyright.PENANAMMLMDgfwFu
My heart drops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZax0jTEhrY
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcYkluNch9d
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In the morning, I get my visitors.107Please respect copyright.PENANAA0DpPY6bNG
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAh16npQ6Avz
I say, "Wait!" She stops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkAB5uEn0Zn
"What is it?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA9EnRQddVLH
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAP7i5Wywyfz
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaj0hLJL3St
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPufzE9hCHO
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANAX1gfyzSoBq
I cry myself to sleep.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ25mxkvSr
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfFOR9Z26Aw
"How are you doing, honey?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAwsQz0Pn4Iw
I say, "Horrible.."107Please respect copyright.PENANADGfHryaIRx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJu5iv9bNXw
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyIOT8U5DLb
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAYFchUjWXDB
"It's not your fault, honey."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZDRlhoPNed
I start crying again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAOGyPoQ0Ob1
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgwHhN20NKm
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.107Please respect copyright.PENANAc7fLVOZuRC
Maybe I'm dead after all.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkJslRAFLfh
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7LxoyWEs7O
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."107Please respect copyright.PENANADbINzL2xRG
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.107Please respect copyright.PENANAo61ka2LieC
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEQywJ9lAOd
I say, "I still want to win this."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzLaOzfiDDw
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXVh7pUZbWp
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."107Please respect copyright.PENANAcYGAIPrzPj
"Really?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhETngaNN35
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."107Please respect copyright.PENANAMFb2DtQzVB
I start crying, and I can't stop.107Please respect copyright.PENANAbe3cOwBgRp
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.107Please respect copyright.PENANALag7JgTFFX
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.107Please respect copyright.PENANAFqGMVFLhYe
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4Gg9woGzwZ
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.107Please respect copyright.PENANAObrxE8CVdM
"I wanted to see the flowers."107Please respect copyright.PENANAh8OYbj1CaG
"Why are you out of your room?"107Please respect copyright.PENANABfXI2EjYGE
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."107Please respect copyright.PENANADmBfIu42nB
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."107Please respect copyright.PENANACOogYM30ud
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.107Please respect copyright.PENANAVOu4330rje
"Thank you for being you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA7BZCguhf0e
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4k1r96cxOy
I make a decision.107Please respect copyright.PENANASlVUTuepAN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAD8MkQFpmHh
"What's your name?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAVm1iapWQr8
"Allisa," I say, smiling.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3SoobmCWRG
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAiqpya4NLHj
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."107Please respect copyright.PENANA0dAtfF6AWz
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7C1vXmH8gN
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2vQv3FVHCo
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.107Please respect copyright.PENANAHfHrLkrVpf
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWSPC1vLxqB
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA3o0W2ovtH5
"I just want to go home," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAD7tTGOgUNG
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4BBEEZmFjs
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2x0tAKpoJZ
Father sighs.107Please respect copyright.PENANAnEdtBpDw2G
I say "I don't want to stay here!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAyvO4zcRGZR
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEyZEgUnNoK
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.107Please respect copyright.PENANAF6gmCYXNts
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2ek9ZSvKfH
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4ACm5oGiQx
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.107Please respect copyright.PENANAuYPdQobdNT
"Pet, come down from the tree."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgvXeKnIkuA
I stay silent.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaZSZJu2n0Y
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmLsJ7E52ax
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.107Please respect copyright.PENANAa5gST9clGZ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.107Please respect copyright.PENANAF8QQ7yhN5R
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA80Rsah0YcC
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.107Please respect copyright.PENANATIVVcUzLl3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANA3SQcRaW36v
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAsZNvE74iVe
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..107Please respect copyright.PENANA6QqafeUSPf
I say, "Please don't hurt me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzQFlBnaW6g
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."107Please respect copyright.PENANASbw9eKF1b9
I say, "Please don't!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAy4N47FYXZT
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANAHWM6ASF2Ek
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPbwybP42xJ
"You'll find out soon enough, child."107Please respect copyright.PENANAn4XU7F6vaf
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.107Please respect copyright.PENANAoBazR27H7m
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..107Please respect copyright.PENANAKWmo0ZssI6
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107Please respect copyright.PENANAePWtNHxTYvI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAeA2sTScsNY
"Are you ready, child?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAJl9gNwvP6l
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANA30KKrGqOR0
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."107Please respect copyright.PENANARwgQ1XhzIT
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I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANASjGmORI9GR
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqEJW3IFtax
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.107Please respect copyright.PENANALqI3go5T82
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."107Please respect copyright.PENANAp1NX2ksLuM
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMwgVeMXPnI
Father says "Good. Stay there."107Please respect copyright.PENANAc2GwfvOphF
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.107Please respect copyright.PENANACIx3MqPIJP
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.107Please respect copyright.PENANAGDTR9WfWFU
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQugX2rwO2l
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAFztZgjtOlK
"Please!" I whisper.107Please respect copyright.PENANAagYtH1flYG
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.107Please respect copyright.PENANA6r0q1IBI4L
I scream loudly.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcyIZg3fTvb
My scream echoes throughout the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAB8adLXUw0Z
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.107Please respect copyright.PENANAo31U4v8sMv
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcIBofQrr9t
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.107Please respect copyright.PENANAvLhKPf4qvD
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqMoAXrG37v
I say "P-please s-stop.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAysJlH8C6x9
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYFSkaVI0w6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAwHKJIE8zvd
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZiaT45d1bS
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJALBgTvHcO
"Look at her," another says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA2xQuEtfQcG
I say "Please leave me alone."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVeeSePbw1K
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.107Please respect copyright.PENANATkFzcIp6eL
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYQltHjwO01
"We'll see. Let's see."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPeF1ScnJSU
I say "No no no.." They laugh.107Please respect copyright.PENANA33gFlJ8mTS
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaDqyk9LXhQ
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmWfkl04yKo
They untie me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAj2pZBAlQO2
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPDMYMGqIEO
"Ah... you're up," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXAxB4e8Afz
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107Please respect copyright.PENANAx4RGSHUm7X"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA10viQuk0in
"Where were you?" he asks,107Please respect copyright.PENANAp4kwnnuTu1
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."107Please respect copyright.PENANAbIqkGQA6GW
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."107Please respect copyright.PENANADwmnnBO2nn
Father smiles.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcnGM6qnfqR
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAELnaNMum27
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."107Please respect copyright.PENANAoU0VF2W9Tv
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyoE6e54PmT
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAia4YWubL7M
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1N3q4xvhF
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqsp7D4R8OP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.107Please respect copyright.PENANAIUDgeaMAKT
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaacAeFfaK5
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."107Please respect copyright.PENANA6BxNDahHjJ
I say, "Please let me go!"107Please respect copyright.PENANA5H3a9lfISG
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQXlXi3qS4j
"You will," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAw0yYctquuh
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAa1ZKwLPElv
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.107Please respect copyright.PENANACkn3UoeztZ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ezb8dDuDf
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.107Please respect copyright.PENANASC0Gdmh05T
"Stop crying," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA5BIUIVGJkl
"I can't!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAcxHXRAGb5y
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAmmF4uAE6Os
"Stop it!" I cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7RsYY55Kpt
"I said stop it!" he yells,107Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZMXzXNWft
"I can't," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAys4Wd0HPc1
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAMHJElV8tPy
"NO!" Father screams.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkj9y53MpA3
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXU5SxwFj3U
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."107Please respect copyright.PENANA6rHpnYMXXd
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAC475D0nzfN
"I would. I really would."107Please respect copyright.PENANAwN7abtScPZ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.107Please respect copyright.PENANAs7ZZ5PO0rM
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAohxGsv4GuC
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."107Please respect copyright.PENANAbVBVj92Cux
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgxfkKvmgq9
I say, "No I'm not!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAq5c5FgAn8c
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEhJ170kzF6
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJbzoJ5wwHy
I say "No I won't!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANASjEjDPyjKh
"You will!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAspODt8wHBM
"I said NO!!!"107Please respect copyright.PENANADqZVQNo1xr
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAE9AXiQdb12
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAFezOt8ikfr
"I know you will," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMbJkZ4AYoR
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEETiaye50X
He says "One."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqfn3XVuIZy
I say, "I'll do anything.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAaDGIqQ5eoR
"Two."107Please respect copyright.PENANAI4gLzsQuj8
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANA1RuJMqEwfO
"Three."107Please respect copyright.PENANARmJDZ2D4bQ
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMlWetjXTdg
"No, don't do it," Father says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEhAO1hDTMX
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."107Please respect copyright.PENANAnrzYvefSON
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.107Please respect copyright.PENANAgrmIEjR9kH
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAU4n5nleePD
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAqC5ttb26Cy
I say "Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAv2pti3LBzn
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."107Please respect copyright.PENANABWIJ6fKwxz
"Yes," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfVRq6qJ9oX
"Good girl," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3Pl4ElpF5K
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."107Please respect copyright.PENANARiCRQVIiRw
"I won't," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAtfZpkvQZgL
I stay tied up.107Please respect copyright.PENANA84H1Zys715
"Now," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANASGE6lCodqz
"Kneel."107Please respect copyright.PENANANLu4ocZxvG
"Please," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkNvLEBd9hg
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.107Please respect copyright.PENANAobraTNDG35
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.107Please respect copyright.PENANA5Fp4qpYaVn
I just know it.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW2trlG97rJ
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.107Please respect copyright.PENANArWjN4tnlCq
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA2OBdpoFkXE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.107Please respect copyright.PENANAqDVbr5lcYN
I'm all alone in the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAygMAVPxi3h
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107Please respect copyright.PENANAUURdGjcbgBI hear the door open. I look up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAyCSycT8TnS
"Hello," a man says.107Please respect copyright.PENANALQhExS9qYi
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAISy2rlJVGr
"Hands behind your back," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA0OzNHPcN5J
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEPDnlhoAjL
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANAm4AjSOUvJf
"Stay there," he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANA3cXlZkJgp1
I stay on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3OB5o8w66f
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.107Please respect copyright.PENANACtC8onjv8H
I say "No no no."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUEXAmWF2Ln
"Do it," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANACJSMi1uzE8
I say no. He pushes harder.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUrKm3LZ298
"Do it!" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXnIzpIqylN
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.107Please respect copyright.PENANABP7jXMjuaO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.107Please respect copyright.PENANAsc6Hwwon0m
"Stay there," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW6zcHxiLHy
I stay on my knees.107Please respect copyright.PENANAwXeiSBIKkf
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxrbNwxL7WG
"Stop moving."107Please respect copyright.PENANABwgbCPw87m
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.107Please respect copyright.PENANAEbYEJCBZWP
He pulls it out of my throat.107Please respect copyright.PENANAuQjkier5qm
"What's wrong?" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7IHPbUhRtk
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUzSZhPYwSc
"What?" he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlWqQXOpcUQ
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.107Please respect copyright.PENANAffwcaT7Hvp
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.107Please respect copyright.PENANA6Yw3eQUnZg
"Is this too big for you?" he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAK6xrvNwRwg
I nod.107Please respect copyright.PENANARSFe1rb2s0
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUkbyc8dm9g
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.107Please respect copyright.PENANApqzS1pae4C
He shoves it back in.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQXtejoUkPS
I decide that vomiting once is enough.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxi9VMXx8k9
He shoves it in deeper.107Please respect copyright.PENANAiqXp12IEVW
I struggle and fight.107Please respect copyright.PENANA9bhQsP0vll
"Stop fighting me," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPAbBUJtGdf
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.107Please respect copyright.PENANAtWL1xMcgf2
"Get dressed," he says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJIbeTwnLfR
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYen4hMJFGE
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAC5tnwoKFde
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.107Please respect copyright.PENANAC1PK4nPRmV
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.107Please respect copyright.PENANATXZu6vcDRP
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.107Please respect copyright.PENANA8oN4m1FEkT
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.107Please respect copyright.PENANAR1vOw7rlsh
I say, "Where's dad?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAxFEkdk3P30
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.107Please respect copyright.PENANAs6fSuIo5us
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.107Please respect copyright.PENANAghrkZwCasJ
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.107Please respect copyright.PENANAlqgnfeksqV
My father says, "Where have you been?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAXqhztrE0XP
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."107Please respect copyright.PENANAOM1S5dkXfn
"Did they hurt you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAOfEl2ZGnO4
"Yeah," I say.107Please respect copyright.PENANAhFQEya1eYX
"I'm sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5OmgIg78LW
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.107Please respect copyright.PENANAdb7AhUOEXA
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXFr4kmZmps
"Is Allie in here?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAmPEAZT5PCi
My dad says, "Yes, why?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAxAwtzwxz6e
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAa297aQOeE5
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAz4T4C3g9s7
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAz8xNWBREBv
"No." I respond,107Please respect copyright.PENANAS4EyLhiRUV
"Can we come in?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAstGnll6AQI
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.107Please respect copyright.PENANARXdWEj5iaI
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"107Please respect copyright.PENANASRzOUbSnqn
I say, "I don't know."107Please respect copyright.PENANANVadlswNnn
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAWdym7KarO2
"No." I say,107Please respect copyright.PENANA6J3BxX862Q
"Are you sure?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAMi4oq9EYna
"Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAy99GPCq06Q
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''107Please respect copyright.PENANA8WGjO1cSnx
"Did he give you any food or water?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAZwNImhzF2W
"No." I respond.107Please respect copyright.PENANASYqIf5zCEo
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"107Please respect copyright.PENANACVYDANDhAK
"No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAP6PABkV0Vd
"What did he do to you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAfl6KVzQNeV
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."107Please respect copyright.PENANABySoLZUQYR
"Did you fight him?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA014jlN6SXR
"I tried."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZhVK1X7p0X
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.107Please respect copyright.PENANAsVXr977Mrb
"I think I blacked out."107Please respect copyright.PENANABIDXbesaBa
"I see."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVcJKpfgeFU
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."107Please respect copyright.PENANA29l3lQRtKK
"And how long were you with him?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAvWbglZBr6v
"I think about ten hours."107Please respect copyright.PENANAvH51AjDFNg
"And you only just managed to escape?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAnWVRRjxvKB
"Yeah."107Please respect copyright.PENANAy6Rr9Mnkkv
"Do you know where you were?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA2z1qi0sBDH
I say "No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAE5xKMplKnM
"What is the last thing you remember?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAY27xlWly44
"I remember walking down the road."107Please respect copyright.PENANAwEgSNKZF7q
"And then?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAVbUw0JvYA7
"I don't remember."107Please respect copyright.PENANAAXeOOVkIE2
"Do you know how you got away?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAYTOxm47QNG
I say, "I just ran,"107Please respect copyright.PENANABEpzJUAHMc
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXCZ0WIZZd1
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.107Please respect copyright.PENANA35HJCWq2bC
I say, "So that's how it all happened."107Please respect copyright.PENANAu49USPHORt
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAlVDDvKj6ME
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAG6CieTf720
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,107Please respect copyright.PENANAnOdk7noSlx
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2kgbOtRlUK
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAhhfDzVhqtQ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYYlIEYMJwd
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.107Please respect copyright.PENANALIZ0lFkjfP
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.107Please respect copyright.PENANABcBBUiUGLi
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.107Please respect copyright.PENANAH1iFAXA1Wd
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.107Please respect copyright.PENANAXVWj0MBE3M
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAxhRviqCAXx
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"107Please respect copyright.PENANA37qCq5dLKI
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAVMGp9X4Pkt
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.107Please respect copyright.PENANAT2xqU1ox2R
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4fD8g47dLx
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.107Please respect copyright.PENANATrColwzkwW
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107Please respect copyright.PENANA462fAusRolAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.107Please respect copyright.PENANALuwEDtLih0
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"107Please respect copyright.PENANApD3WEy8G1F
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."107Please respect copyright.PENANA49LSWfKjAb
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkhEei6wmxI
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."107Please respect copyright.PENANAp7W3zT8O9k
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3CZQPlwEVp
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAymL6GrkJuI
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWChlqFjR04
"Get up." he says,107Please respect copyright.PENANATqf4DxiTM6
"Why am I here?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhMvhCDbE75
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."107Please respect copyright.PENANAYX7w434be9
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAZyu5hPCCaL
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."107Please respect copyright.PENANAxMrQTDxRTZ
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPowfOHshvY
I sit down.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkGs4WdHCvr
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAYtgZzSlL1l
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."107Please respect copyright.PENANAGE9Sz7RHqp
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"107Please respect copyright.PENANACEgZe3zfQ1
I say, "No."107Please respect copyright.PENANApOtGur9rHP
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAOVH3KF3ruA
I respond, "Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAdyJfHnmopa
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.107Please respect copyright.PENANAplaQpgsAt9
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAu31viFSKB5
"Yes."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzVHI5P572C
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."107Please respect copyright.PENANApMtNdZ4dfK
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlsHqLXrMfX
I say, "Hi."107Please respect copyright.PENANAiOM93CbORO
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMolY7o4aok
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.107Please respect copyright.PENANAyHBkFOrITV
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJvbh2ZXR2Q
"Right away," says the woman.107Please respect copyright.PENANAQgEvfi0xYM
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."107Please respect copyright.PENANALWlazBhgtA
I say, "Okay."107Please respect copyright.PENANAxxAqViwNQ9
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAb8cjCTrQo0
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJzqDwv9Q1Q
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2WVbkG6FUR
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAXYKHAGr0np
"He kidnapped me."107Please respect copyright.PENANA3cs17PDzcG
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAtsLj3E8a8t
I say, "He tried to stab me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAs1QNSwtDqL
"Who was he?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAblfHkCQFug
"I don't know."107Please respect copyright.PENANAv9di2qlSWA
"Where did you get the knife?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAjGkv7fHPKQ
"He had it in his pocket."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQag3m8GTYE
"Did he threaten you in any way?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAfn8T9QCVs4
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEz3ZumpvZe
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0Yxeh7rFs
"No."107Please respect copyright.PENANAmq0KE2cnY9
"You sure? Think hard."107Please respect copyright.PENANAGPTmAEsXRo
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.107Please respect copyright.PENANAIZjcYGIQRd
I say, "He killed my father."107Please respect copyright.PENANARz2sv3tkCL
"What?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAqwMGUYyjqz
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4qSlghFLII
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeLGEeCHl
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.107Please respect copyright.PENANAW4XEZqRGqm
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfy8Gx4tKak
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZNM5o13jVm
I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANA0oycQoBmzq
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.107Please respect copyright.PENANA8nsvys18DI
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAEtTW5b4OxE
I follow him.107Please respect copyright.PENANAGtJZAeuebT
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAZVxjqMCE1c
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA3u2oEy69Z5
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4rcl2OI07R
"Alright. Take a seat."107Please respect copyright.PENANASmgFkjQzcX
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.107Please respect copyright.PENANAdTMz53RJwo
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAuMCAqhkFiA
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA34aJiW91A3
"Yes.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAVjBu8MBbrK
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAlMMnXwfrA6
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."107Please respect copyright.PENANAOItDgl7RP4
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUKyXgxrIPY
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.107Please respect copyright.PENANA78RN4EElq3
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.107Please respect copyright.PENANAy3IREZ0vn1
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXDVQcsRwm1
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"107Please respect copyright.PENANApLXEoue5g4
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."107Please respect copyright.PENANAUA6O2lxr5U
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAct6lv4EqG9
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAX09J5NO4lc
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANArh9HBrfGkU
"What is it?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0aD09qoEo
Doctor Kessel says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAvvcTuiT5CZ
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.107Please respect copyright.PENANAFuDKEmhTW7
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANAWEUQthUhGu
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAOxzEDG4UEm
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA96pGASzXZh
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"107Please respect copyright.PENANAows46TIEgs
The nurse shakes her head, and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANASIFA4ZBzyg
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMxmBUhxPrm
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4cjLxxQ2dm
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,107Please respect copyright.PENANApqoR0IiQBA
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.107Please respect copyright.PENANAI7ShNE9qiJ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAFeBJxrEtRd
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.107Please respect copyright.PENANACyvOMJL5vP
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAww4cU5HeR1
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.107Please respect copyright.PENANABVujeHTySG
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZK9qgyHWmt
I say "Where am I?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAzWNXG7O2Qa
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."107Please respect copyright.PENANASJSBx452k9
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAjgT67P1lXj
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."107Please respect copyright.PENANAQ57QTA2GEe
I say, "I want to see my mom..."107Please respect copyright.PENANA2XsJEjjUv9
The nurse interrupts me and says,107Please respect copyright.PENANAlKVbekmgU0
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."107Please respect copyright.PENANAhFNx6cY83K
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfJLzTfBkDx
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107Please respect copyright.PENANAGdpC9222DEA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2aFnknjzPS
"M-mom.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAY5IZ5BugRq
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.107Please respect copyright.PENANADiMqoSAQAF
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."107Please respect copyright.PENANABu15KlqRU6
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAsmuwlVOF53
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5FRdCvFJKv
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.107Please respect copyright.PENANA9Q7H6vy1wo
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAdl0p9T5OoS
"Yes.." I say quietly.107Please respect copyright.PENANACJaaqw3hBx
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.107Please respect copyright.PENANAMMTyPAAqSS
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.107Please respect copyright.PENANA1xht38PlA8
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyP4H73Jx9T
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPJa023eiKb
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA2osPDCOlLP
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."107Please respect copyright.PENANA5ODNZw3b32
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAaXGiP7TDP0
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."107Please respect copyright.PENANA4dehqACcOX
I say, "Okay.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEeoGHmeKfR
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.107Please respect copyright.PENANATqsmOtWnbn
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."107Please respect copyright.PENANAqVYaWTRSPT
I wipe the tears off my face.107Please respect copyright.PENANAPRKMAQmZvB
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAn3Xk8nUnSe
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."107Please respect copyright.PENANARFaakX3vgl
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAGizxTa78UN
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."107Please respect copyright.PENANAoYhnw5yqb7
I say, "Tell me!"107Please respect copyright.PENANACAY1KEDZbP
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."107Please respect copyright.PENANAMMLMDgfwFu
My heart drops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAZax0jTEhrY
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAcYkluNch9d
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107Please respect copyright.PENANAuEAkps0X58In the morning, I get my visitors.107Please respect copyright.PENANAA0DpPY6bNG
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.107Please respect copyright.PENANAh16npQ6Avz
I say, "Wait!" She stops.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkAB5uEn0Zn
"What is it?"107Please respect copyright.PENANA9EnRQddVLH
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.107Please respect copyright.PENANAP7i5Wywyfz
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.107Please respect copyright.PENANAaj0hLJL3St
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAPufzE9hCHO
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANAX1gfyzSoBq
I cry myself to sleep.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ25mxkvSr
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.107Please respect copyright.PENANAfFOR9Z26Aw
"How are you doing, honey?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAwsQz0Pn4Iw
I say, "Horrible.."107Please respect copyright.PENANADGfHryaIRx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.107Please respect copyright.PENANAJu5iv9bNXw
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."107Please respect copyright.PENANAyIOT8U5DLb
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."107Please respect copyright.PENANAYFchUjWXDB
"It's not your fault, honey."107Please respect copyright.PENANAZDRlhoPNed
I start crying again.107Please respect copyright.PENANAOGyPoQ0Ob1
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."107Please respect copyright.PENANAgwHhN20NKm
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.107Please respect copyright.PENANAc7fLVOZuRC
Maybe I'm dead after all.107Please respect copyright.PENANAkJslRAFLfh
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7LxoyWEs7O
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."107Please respect copyright.PENANADbINzL2xRG
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.107Please respect copyright.PENANAo61ka2LieC
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."107Please respect copyright.PENANAEQywJ9lAOd
I say, "I still want to win this."107Please respect copyright.PENANAzLaOzfiDDw
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."107Please respect copyright.PENANAXVh7pUZbWp
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."107Please respect copyright.PENANAcYGAIPrzPj
"Really?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAhETngaNN35
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."107Please respect copyright.PENANAMFb2DtQzVB
I start crying, and I can't stop.107Please respect copyright.PENANAbe3cOwBgRp
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.107Please respect copyright.PENANALag7JgTFFX
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.107Please respect copyright.PENANAFqGMVFLhYe
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4Gg9woGzwZ
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.107Please respect copyright.PENANAObrxE8CVdM
"I wanted to see the flowers."107Please respect copyright.PENANAh8OYbj1CaG
"Why are you out of your room?"107Please respect copyright.PENANABfXI2EjYGE
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."107Please respect copyright.PENANADmBfIu42nB
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."107Please respect copyright.PENANACOogYM30ud
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.107Please respect copyright.PENANAVOu4330rje
"Thank you for being you."107Please respect copyright.PENANA7BZCguhf0e
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.107Please respect copyright.PENANA4k1r96cxOy
I make a decision.107Please respect copyright.PENANASlVUTuepAN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"107Please respect copyright.PENANAD8MkQFpmHh
"What's your name?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAVm1iapWQr8
"Allisa," I say, smiling.107Please respect copyright.PENANA3SoobmCWRG
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"107Please respect copyright.PENANAiqpya4NLHj
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."107Please respect copyright.PENANA0dAtfF6AWz
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7C1vXmH8gN
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.107Please respect copyright.PENANA2vQv3FVHCo
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