You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DdtoTBEzI
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpkO52R6cI
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhbAsixIa6
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g7Annin5v
"I just want to go home," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0MogVGxd5
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwknqp37vf
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2otQp2TFsa
Father sighs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOoDzsgfBD
I say "I don't want to stay here!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8alAvek1Ei
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnt8G2sQER
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJD3nGZetyG
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VYyMVX1DN
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjfcxMalJh
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCq9Nxk95f
"Pet, come down from the tree."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1bJ7OdffD
I stay silent.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuunaiUzb5m
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQWlZ2AIEQ
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNXaOwbQzz
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHiY3KY4Bq
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekyJGUHcWM
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20jU0pObDj
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA097QHwzU
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl5fXBYpUl
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEiYqvBT8A
I say, "Please don't hurt me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXoa0x3jXI
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpge4DqK7U6
I say, "Please don't!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgVKGfvu9G
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bwB4XMF7Q
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMHiC4FnCI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1OKQPf8hc
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboSsmHd909
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5BIQQLZTX
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50l2IzZcQa
"Are you ready, child?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhLFRSYWjA
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpG28uL9wJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpyiGLmb2q
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I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkTWxkv5Pq
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJqJqIbh4P
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2mIBK8w3O
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6HmiojP5v
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Fji56KluO
Father says "Good. Stay there."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfuI3caqmj
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vnV3UT9ot
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4YXaGKtYO
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8GMMqOG68
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySClERPmTy
"Please!" I whisper.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWDD9WJDYH
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjKbODbxaA
I scream loudly.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6cSoK9xXf
My scream echoes throughout the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5dNYwS7q3
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVM3Mz7Vhw
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBxaMoNUoj
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAn1aDIDaH
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGaV6Rnr1y
I say "P-please s-stop.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQoKSO9Gip
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwwvBI710R
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmZN1NTFY3
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7zZQeLZow
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxz9bWaLq6
"Look at her," another says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oqArBQBN2
I say "Please leave me alone."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrs2DIPsJQ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWhvWasAEC
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMI4v6k5Ar
"We'll see. Let's see."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9GiTwQKq1
I say "No no no.." They laugh.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQMl0Yu0Mx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK0j3PNpZH
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7l5Hk7jZc
They untie me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWUTZmYPJY
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEi30hJguT
"Ah... you're up," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkTPXVYK7t
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHASW7SFlJ
"Where were you?" he asks,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO7mAwLwSD
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xu25LxmBj
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9v5b2IuSao
Father smiles.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3JyfR1F4S
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyS6sGHLqR
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMeMI8g9GU
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjj8vnB2ax8
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2Zdf15BN2
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7HBvTvg3q
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZsfIy92tM
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGtvzdDhAf
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhMK1mrwNS
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkG8UO3kKz
I say, "Please let me go!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJG46UqxIF
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6NFqNALHx
"You will," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0wmELhwWy
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60ZkqBo0KC
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsISOFUQEPB
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAOQOviD6G
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YrHsCKeMG
"Stop crying," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqp0D3niHy
"I can't!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fCZk9lUt3
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZioJPDsVyf
"Stop it!" I cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk0gOoF02d
"I said stop it!" he yells,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UmtjTAJxI
"I can't," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZ1FzVjjC2
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIl3wTofAQZ
"NO!" Father screams.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMG5SZSwg5
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw1U20Sebm
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsjrdH8VpW
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vqPKWmY7J
"I would. I really would."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszhfAL78xQ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVHLl2AyPv
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KBU4OEBNc
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva8AsVcvvc
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulOoJoLA0a
I say, "No I'm not!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbotUwCmHG5
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4Zl0Urbnt
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8FYEjbaZ4
I say "No I won't!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcgDM7kbwn
"You will!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaLGMcH8Wo
"I said NO!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt2a7k2x4e
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqxJnEMOQS
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tgHMHdzwC
"I know you will," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CT414va40
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1uJlnoHAk
He says "One."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJu7ro9OwKE
I say, "I'll do anything.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6pBUzQtCO
"Two."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN7z9OIpwQ
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1oqYOVgie
"Three."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94LSwHheGZ
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVTgTOdBL6
"No, don't do it," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7Bozuegl6
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSKd6Vhc8k
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ4Vykf7aY
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNkjVaEEhY
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkccvO76Lr
I say "Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiOwmwAhc9
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcmo0DeiE1
"Yes," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTg8BZpbBw
"Good girl," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zxbbA9Ks6
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A2IkLRsTy
"I won't," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FYJvsGivV
I stay tied up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiJ3AWouAG
"Now," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJuZrP1ukL
"Kneel."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhZAOBIPaU
"Please," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vaT1RQrnE
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KwzqtmzC8
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbcsdNaHHx
I just know it.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl2BleLaF0
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteUmcwilHh
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd6Ykc4w9Y
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOBb0TZBjg
I'm all alone in the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRNhKgX2Jg
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I hear the door open. I look up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdJvLI6wuD
"Hello," a man says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNqXOsIoVh
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9YFmnTjTb
"Hands behind your back," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHvV6uEU6j
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgXAqRewP4
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvYxqd03fB
"Stay there," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTlPrcXHnL
I stay on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGzGsOYcYE
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMYvUvYNZz
I say "No no no."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPT48WM2a9
"Do it," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrq1CWqYYAv
I say no. He pushes harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVHHcrMxci
"Do it!" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnSnDPbJmB
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTbr5FolKb
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVEvknipjz
"Stay there," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmT8YOwuLw
I stay on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14ojBxMPO4
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROCzzp0Cv7
"Stop moving."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWrWZzw08m
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8q9hpwZR1H
He pulls it out of my throat.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91dDxOc654
"What's wrong?" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn0tha12G9
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cgsmr3B2U
"What?" he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa7wfyMICN
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnvkpUZ7xY
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yCUWGR0yk
"Is this too big for you?" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bVQpOPjOy
I nod.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn21Urbyi6h
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JdFz51NKC
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MxjaI9qEB
He shoves it back in.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxjMksCK8i
I decide that vomiting once is enough.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5uVgkQnCX
He shoves it in deeper.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRWG0R9luR
I struggle and fight.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfYGmcjdGX
"Stop fighting me," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3j9yzRq8K
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEYRGg6ZpF
"Get dressed," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULUTpmdR9N
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHFB4DazQi
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFR39klDJWQ
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QKEt9xjOM
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQinZG9s6V
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFT3f5uoLi
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXwYlQSl5z
I say, "Where's dad?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcJXAumjr0
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf3SbWWHeV
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywBeNIis8j
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWRzt1Mm6I
My father says, "Where have you been?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmjeiEp1Op
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCFo8cngzC
"Did they hurt you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83vWPxlYbH
"Yeah," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztdUJOTcOK
"I'm sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYN5IsCXqyn
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxwqfNE0fz
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wdMX6SqGv
"Is Allie in here?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKlogc2BCy
My dad says, "Yes, why?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHFr9yII6A
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtaIVKi0y3
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pd6ceGhVv
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny2msFoaoL
"No." I respond,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYXndOoapB
"Can we come in?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUyplLsztP
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrUVCKKKxR
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmqmdiOtNw
I say, "I don't know."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUOoefJsOS
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHQfEdzMTR
"No." I say,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21glGHoBTT
"Are you sure?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUNv8OMi6e
"Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9UchnfpQE
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTrs84GneZ
"Did he give you any food or water?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG43avvTtx
"No." I respond.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmrA84PgIp
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMArXIPYSHm
"No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbzhUb8dPw
"What did he do to you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbGWp8lu4p
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKONgEpjhW
"Did you fight him?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFXTtLx8Jc
"I tried."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTYFxRzeei
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrGZYNGr4P
"I think I blacked out."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfk5bYN7Z7
"I see."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSj9rcByIZ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdmj6kyMEC
"And how long were you with him?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMxpMfR6MX
"I think about ten hours."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFmGZ3SfiY
"And you only just managed to escape?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ4s92HDfZ
"Yeah."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI2mzqcsdd
"Do you know where you were?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3rhEsxSim
I say "No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPzfoLZ46Y
"What is the last thing you remember?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCpLMtpHos
"I remember walking down the road."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY1lAtX9RP
"And then?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfnLwIN5GN
"I don't remember."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oVQ1TDI62
"Do you know how you got away?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa7cXfHYBz
I say, "I just ran,"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgM39RzbnsZ
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgkMCfs0Ru
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6zrdRsHmF
I say, "So that's how it all happened."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPW9732b6D
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡte07cm5wdh
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoGAf5ulBJ
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLdwcH0oPM
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxZUDRltgm
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEIDeNGf0j
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0c66UDRa0
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmBZiD0QJh
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZq8nNs9Fr
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5KGXmmxOy
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXZGMWN8u8
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNTddRDhLQ
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FEfH2FU3F
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCDsfZM8rx
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29saHUMCcx
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLJ1ALMMTz
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB84v8MLWl
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNr8jP3u7D
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MeRKwOEMB
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtf6TTyBFe
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0ylzNoPwL
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnf6ZNzVJod
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ8fiYCG2u
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWfSq4UPEc
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciRihfpIAC
"Get up." he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJstjXS3dk
"Why am I here?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Tp3yTGR3g
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAKWIKncC4
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVGpRTjqzO
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8MiJhCBBc
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDwA1d0k9N
I sit down.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4Nm4EcNVT
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjSoKf5Iku
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjGb7X1Wds
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhF0PkuJLa
I say, "No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOEmIPuoXP
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXCglHthBY
I respond, "Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVzaOg1SRA
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdWvsvzcxC
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvBw9JOGZZ
"Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXEZUrYq1s
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiNoGfc1cd
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmncfg4w1t
I say, "Hi."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfdnFNfeVz
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3SDVutErw
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHUTXSzbg5
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDlpKY0yo9
"Right away," says the woman.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXPITS5sNs
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcph91fvNd
I say, "Okay."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnUoU3qi5D
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlgaHF0FZ2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvV3OQz0jY
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYoh60mKyg
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCeINMWcH7
"He kidnapped me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoGdEwO8sa
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOAqNudmAx
I say, "He tried to stab me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnenVhjq5D
"Who was he?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv7P0EmEWa
"I don't know."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3QjcNH8xk
"Where did you get the knife?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i4CL6Drk5
"He had it in his pocket."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rnul3f8k7
"Did he threaten you in any way?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKnj5KSspe
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQNVmdihJP
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFrELT72QI
"No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlvuzCPV3k
"You sure? Think hard."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJswePckb5M
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgLx06nX4K
I say, "He killed my father."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaOjdFj2TZ
"What?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvxU9D5bm0
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWrfwQ9fqd
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfaPi9FSNU
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis9NILJqZZ
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTipfPsirlA
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfPiJ2VfRL
I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvD2aY8Nc1
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PTEbnuqw9
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUsIxWsX3Q
I follow him.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDZzJY5id8
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RpnbTAvwg
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBiw6JdIHd
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk1wpMd4Ly
"Alright. Take a seat."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Exhcu2SI
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT8bthzqjo
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtevP8mTrE
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtT9arHVQwu
"Yes.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4oKkSso38
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGwh9G5j00
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D3S8bxa3t
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1bPXsHv4d
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TvL2wm4AX
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhl18fUvYn
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7f1u7M6ln
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvllKs3nxj
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHRQ3oUaQx
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOHStvAsJV
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLq6vA44ps4
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGsfIyhUrL
"What is it?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR7CHokKK4
Doctor Kessel says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeBwIp2UnR
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7NZ0fJJ6r
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgqnKlcHpm
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKWvwreRmV
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9kXW6ECqu
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzn2uxsAIU
The nurse shakes her head, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL6KFyKca0
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DHf6gUHcQ
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshTQdhOZTa
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex5PlXYFZe
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1tJJJYnye
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSooJw2oMu9
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2hdsuc6Wd
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnr9MBYocs
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsEaQKE6rK
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9Q5AGywqM
I say "Where am I?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk3mH7OAuj
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6PHEQeuJK
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z3aM22pQw
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4POzOknuW
I say, "I want to see my mom..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfSlOIw2zK
The nurse interrupts me and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXqannRcjp
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqfK4ZSOXU
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ndQm9Epx6
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYtydjqPeL
"M-mom.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdlsCoF152
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa0J8wXjLh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAG3l8pmS2
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDG4HTty6X
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhr0q33A1t6
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0n8pyrSq4
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibWMtAf0Nv
"Yes.." I say quietly.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpptcu4Slai
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyu0wNz0N8
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEMTPetSAI
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe87MSmhMpm
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh1EHgKiDC
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0FrxzWPuX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA97jw8rXM
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjM03URaZ3m
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq52rVfq43S
I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD0Ujyx6uj
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu46qw09O7V
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zyFiX2Mxu
I wipe the tears off my face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3EMNOnM4Z
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoQqdmauRj
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBXNs9KDYM
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70gpQFGI9x
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpC9xWZ5pcY
I say, "Tell me!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzOQ2OC4zy
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zyttERRUR
My heart drops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JtA3utWxs
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP5zfiyoGZ
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In the morning, I get my visitors.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaXXHaD8KU
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf8P2LsqFu
I say, "Wait!" She stops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ667ngoc6HZ
"What is it?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt49IMNQvWz
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgXyfpyMpb
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquilxCPFPm
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzzMMgWAua
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpNOcQ7MsS
I cry myself to sleep.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O2trW1eks
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFGuipzoRw
"How are you doing, honey?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Fdar8VuzU
I say, "Horrible.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXfqLoBKWc
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAfxQns8p1
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXAo8czUlB
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yUJGuf4su
"It's not your fault, honey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMDPDa51dl
I start crying again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs7UhsIbJO
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E8hZWHto2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8DLRpwAzr
Maybe I'm dead after all.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHL83Okrkm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTC2IxgJCbi
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ935ZBrcVVV
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjb4wvEw5Ps
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BqOP156LI
I say, "I still want to win this."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCOMV4wbdr
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvpn4tfpo6
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrL6kKt1fy
"Really?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDzJXig3PL
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4q4Sj3Tii
I start crying, and I can't stop.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFC7PzrDje
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlatozyhBk
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHpU970a5W
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECIGSRqQ49
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtynlWM9yoP
"I wanted to see the flowers."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPNqbabEUk
"Why are you out of your room?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLScoIqEDXC
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc9BfhrEhr
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvzePTtxzt
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEh55NBkXDm
"Thank you for being you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhfFoPOyIf
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MDOKtx4o1
I make a decision.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOqqxaaTWT
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMWJO7mrOX
"What's your name?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthGZ47Rbgb
"Allisa," I say, smiling.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNHgInsfsW
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOSkJl2vPw
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNGg3O0pet
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgbR82Q712
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qNTPua23h
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpkO52R6cI
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhbAsixIa6
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g7Annin5v
"I just want to go home," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0MogVGxd5
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwknqp37vf
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2otQp2TFsa
Father sighs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOoDzsgfBD
I say "I don't want to stay here!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8alAvek1Ei
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnt8G2sQER
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJD3nGZetyG
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VYyMVX1DN
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjfcxMalJh
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCq9Nxk95f
"Pet, come down from the tree."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1bJ7OdffD
I stay silent.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuunaiUzb5m
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQWlZ2AIEQ
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNXaOwbQzz
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHiY3KY4Bq
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekyJGUHcWM
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20jU0pObDj
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA097QHwzU
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl5fXBYpUl
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEiYqvBT8A
I say, "Please don't hurt me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXoa0x3jXI
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpge4DqK7U6
I say, "Please don't!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgVKGfvu9G
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bwB4XMF7Q
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMHiC4FnCI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1OKQPf8hc
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboSsmHd909
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5BIQQLZTX
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZloY1orjsaI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50l2IzZcQa
"Are you ready, child?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhLFRSYWjA
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpG28uL9wJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpyiGLmb2q
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I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkTWxkv5Pq
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJqJqIbh4P
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2mIBK8w3O
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6HmiojP5v
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Fji56KluO
Father says "Good. Stay there."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfuI3caqmj
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vnV3UT9ot
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4YXaGKtYO
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8GMMqOG68
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySClERPmTy
"Please!" I whisper.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWDD9WJDYH
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjKbODbxaA
I scream loudly.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6cSoK9xXf
My scream echoes throughout the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5dNYwS7q3
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVM3Mz7Vhw
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBxaMoNUoj
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAn1aDIDaH
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGaV6Rnr1y
I say "P-please s-stop.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQoKSO9Gip
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwwvBI710R
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmZN1NTFY3
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7zZQeLZow
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxz9bWaLq6
"Look at her," another says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oqArBQBN2
I say "Please leave me alone."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrs2DIPsJQ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWhvWasAEC
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMI4v6k5Ar
"We'll see. Let's see."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9GiTwQKq1
I say "No no no.." They laugh.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQMl0Yu0Mx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK0j3PNpZH
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7l5Hk7jZc
They untie me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWUTZmYPJY
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEi30hJguT
"Ah... you're up," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkTPXVYK7t
177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoR3pQ3TuB
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKePKG1DyMH"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHASW7SFlJ
"Where were you?" he asks,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO7mAwLwSD
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xu25LxmBj
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9v5b2IuSao
Father smiles.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3JyfR1F4S
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyS6sGHLqR
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMeMI8g9GU
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjj8vnB2ax8
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2Zdf15BN2
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7HBvTvg3q
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZsfIy92tM
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGtvzdDhAf
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhMK1mrwNS
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkG8UO3kKz
I say, "Please let me go!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJG46UqxIF
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6NFqNALHx
"You will," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0wmELhwWy
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60ZkqBo0KC
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsISOFUQEPB
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAOQOviD6G
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YrHsCKeMG
"Stop crying," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqp0D3niHy
"I can't!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fCZk9lUt3
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZioJPDsVyf
"Stop it!" I cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk0gOoF02d
"I said stop it!" he yells,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UmtjTAJxI
"I can't," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZ1FzVjjC2
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIl3wTofAQZ
"NO!" Father screams.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMG5SZSwg5
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw1U20Sebm
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsjrdH8VpW
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vqPKWmY7J
"I would. I really would."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszhfAL78xQ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVHLl2AyPv
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KBU4OEBNc
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva8AsVcvvc
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulOoJoLA0a
I say, "No I'm not!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbotUwCmHG5
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4Zl0Urbnt
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8FYEjbaZ4
I say "No I won't!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcgDM7kbwn
"You will!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaLGMcH8Wo
"I said NO!!!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt2a7k2x4e
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqxJnEMOQS
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tgHMHdzwC
"I know you will," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CT414va40
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1uJlnoHAk
He says "One."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJu7ro9OwKE
I say, "I'll do anything.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6pBUzQtCO
"Two."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN7z9OIpwQ
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1oqYOVgie
"Three."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94LSwHheGZ
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVTgTOdBL6
"No, don't do it," Father says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7Bozuegl6
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSKd6Vhc8k
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ4Vykf7aY
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNkjVaEEhY
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkccvO76Lr
I say "Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiOwmwAhc9
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcmo0DeiE1
"Yes," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTg8BZpbBw
"Good girl," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zxbbA9Ks6
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A2IkLRsTy
"I won't," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FYJvsGivV
I stay tied up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiJ3AWouAG
"Now," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJuZrP1ukL
"Kneel."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhZAOBIPaU
"Please," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vaT1RQrnE
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KwzqtmzC8
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbcsdNaHHx
I just know it.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl2BleLaF0
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteUmcwilHh
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd6Ykc4w9Y
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOBb0TZBjg
I'm all alone in the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRNhKgX2Jg
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzuya9IbOoI hear the door open. I look up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdJvLI6wuD
"Hello," a man says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNqXOsIoVh
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9YFmnTjTb
"Hands behind your back," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHvV6uEU6j
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgXAqRewP4
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvYxqd03fB
"Stay there," he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTlPrcXHnL
I stay on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGzGsOYcYE
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMYvUvYNZz
I say "No no no."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPT48WM2a9
"Do it," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrq1CWqYYAv
I say no. He pushes harder.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVHHcrMxci
"Do it!" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnSnDPbJmB
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTbr5FolKb
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVEvknipjz
"Stay there," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmT8YOwuLw
I stay on my knees.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14ojBxMPO4
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROCzzp0Cv7
"Stop moving."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWrWZzw08m
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8q9hpwZR1H
He pulls it out of my throat.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91dDxOc654
"What's wrong?" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn0tha12G9
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cgsmr3B2U
"What?" he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa7wfyMICN
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnvkpUZ7xY
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yCUWGR0yk
"Is this too big for you?" he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bVQpOPjOy
I nod.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn21Urbyi6h
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JdFz51NKC
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MxjaI9qEB
He shoves it back in.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxjMksCK8i
I decide that vomiting once is enough.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5uVgkQnCX
He shoves it in deeper.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRWG0R9luR
I struggle and fight.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfYGmcjdGX
"Stop fighting me," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3j9yzRq8K
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEYRGg6ZpF
"Get dressed," he says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULUTpmdR9N
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHFB4DazQi
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFR39klDJWQ
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ITQ9uicGW177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf6cgPjPgE
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QKEt9xjOM
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQinZG9s6V
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFT3f5uoLi
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXwYlQSl5z
I say, "Where's dad?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcJXAumjr0
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf3SbWWHeV
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywBeNIis8j
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWRzt1Mm6I
My father says, "Where have you been?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmjeiEp1Op
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCFo8cngzC
"Did they hurt you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83vWPxlYbH
"Yeah," I say.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztdUJOTcOK
"I'm sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYN5IsCXqyn
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxwqfNE0fz
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wdMX6SqGv
"Is Allie in here?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKlogc2BCy
My dad says, "Yes, why?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHFr9yII6A
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtaIVKi0y3
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pd6ceGhVv
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny2msFoaoL
"No." I respond,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYXndOoapB
"Can we come in?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUyplLsztP
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrUVCKKKxR
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmqmdiOtNw
I say, "I don't know."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUOoefJsOS
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHQfEdzMTR
"No." I say,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21glGHoBTT
"Are you sure?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUNv8OMi6e
"Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9UchnfpQE
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTrs84GneZ
"Did he give you any food or water?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG43avvTtx
"No." I respond.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmrA84PgIp
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMArXIPYSHm
"No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbzhUb8dPw
"What did he do to you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbGWp8lu4p
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKONgEpjhW
"Did you fight him?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFXTtLx8Jc
"I tried."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTYFxRzeei
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrGZYNGr4P
"I think I blacked out."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfk5bYN7Z7
"I see."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSj9rcByIZ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdmj6kyMEC
"And how long were you with him?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMxpMfR6MX
"I think about ten hours."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFmGZ3SfiY
"And you only just managed to escape?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ4s92HDfZ
"Yeah."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI2mzqcsdd
"Do you know where you were?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3rhEsxSim
I say "No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPzfoLZ46Y
"What is the last thing you remember?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCpLMtpHos
"I remember walking down the road."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY1lAtX9RP
"And then?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfnLwIN5GN
"I don't remember."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oVQ1TDI62
"Do you know how you got away?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa7cXfHYBz
I say, "I just ran,"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgM39RzbnsZ
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgkMCfs0Ru
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6zrdRsHmF
I say, "So that's how it all happened."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPW9732b6D
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡte07cm5wdh
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoGAf5ulBJ
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLdwcH0oPM
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxZUDRltgm
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEIDeNGf0j
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0c66UDRa0
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmBZiD0QJh
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZq8nNs9Fr
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5KGXmmxOy
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXZGMWN8u8
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNTddRDhLQ
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FEfH2FU3F
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCDsfZM8rx
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29saHUMCcx
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLJ1ALMMTz
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB84v8MLWl
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmrs5HKkNJAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNr8jP3u7D
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MeRKwOEMB
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtf6TTyBFe
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0ylzNoPwL
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnf6ZNzVJod
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ8fiYCG2u
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWfSq4UPEc
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciRihfpIAC
"Get up." he says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJstjXS3dk
"Why am I here?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Tp3yTGR3g
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAKWIKncC4
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVGpRTjqzO
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8MiJhCBBc
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDwA1d0k9N
I sit down.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4Nm4EcNVT
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjSoKf5Iku
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjGb7X1Wds
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhF0PkuJLa
I say, "No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOEmIPuoXP
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXCglHthBY
I respond, "Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVzaOg1SRA
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdWvsvzcxC
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvBw9JOGZZ
"Yes."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXEZUrYq1s
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiNoGfc1cd
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmncfg4w1t
I say, "Hi."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfdnFNfeVz
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3SDVutErw
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHUTXSzbg5
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDlpKY0yo9
"Right away," says the woman.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXPITS5sNs
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcph91fvNd
I say, "Okay."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnUoU3qi5D
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlgaHF0FZ2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvV3OQz0jY
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYoh60mKyg
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCeINMWcH7
"He kidnapped me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoGdEwO8sa
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOAqNudmAx
I say, "He tried to stab me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnenVhjq5D
"Who was he?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv7P0EmEWa
"I don't know."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3QjcNH8xk
"Where did you get the knife?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i4CL6Drk5
"He had it in his pocket."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rnul3f8k7
"Did he threaten you in any way?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKnj5KSspe
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQNVmdihJP
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFrELT72QI
"No."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlvuzCPV3k
"You sure? Think hard."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJswePckb5M
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgLx06nX4K
I say, "He killed my father."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaOjdFj2TZ
"What?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvxU9D5bm0
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWrfwQ9fqd
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfaPi9FSNU
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis9NILJqZZ
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTipfPsirlA
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfPiJ2VfRL
I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvD2aY8Nc1
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PTEbnuqw9
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUsIxWsX3Q
I follow him.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDZzJY5id8
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RpnbTAvwg
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBiw6JdIHd
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk1wpMd4Ly
"Alright. Take a seat."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Exhcu2SI
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT8bthzqjo
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtevP8mTrE
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtT9arHVQwu
"Yes.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4oKkSso38
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGwh9G5j00
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D3S8bxa3t
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1bPXsHv4d
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TvL2wm4AX
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhl18fUvYn
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7f1u7M6ln
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvllKs3nxj
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHRQ3oUaQx
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOHStvAsJV
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLq6vA44ps4
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGsfIyhUrL
"What is it?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR7CHokKK4
Doctor Kessel says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeBwIp2UnR
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7NZ0fJJ6r
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgqnKlcHpm
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKWvwreRmV
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9kXW6ECqu
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzn2uxsAIU
The nurse shakes her head, and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL6KFyKca0
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DHf6gUHcQ
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshTQdhOZTa
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex5PlXYFZe
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1tJJJYnye
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSooJw2oMu9
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2hdsuc6Wd
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnr9MBYocs
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsEaQKE6rK
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9Q5AGywqM
I say "Where am I?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk3mH7OAuj
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6PHEQeuJK
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z3aM22pQw
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4POzOknuW
I say, "I want to see my mom..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfSlOIw2zK
The nurse interrupts me and says,177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXqannRcjp
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqfK4ZSOXU
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ndQm9Epx6
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6PKmDDI3RA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYtydjqPeL
"M-mom.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdlsCoF152
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa0J8wXjLh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAG3l8pmS2
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDG4HTty6X
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhr0q33A1t6
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0n8pyrSq4
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibWMtAf0Nv
"Yes.." I say quietly.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpptcu4Slai
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyu0wNz0N8
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEMTPetSAI
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe87MSmhMpm
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh1EHgKiDC
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0FrxzWPuX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA97jw8rXM
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjM03URaZ3m
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq52rVfq43S
I say, "Okay.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD0Ujyx6uj
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu46qw09O7V
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zyFiX2Mxu
I wipe the tears off my face.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3EMNOnM4Z
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoQqdmauRj
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBXNs9KDYM
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70gpQFGI9x
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpC9xWZ5pcY
I say, "Tell me!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzOQ2OC4zy
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zyttERRUR
My heart drops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JtA3utWxs
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP5zfiyoGZ
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177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthjmP2Yf47In the morning, I get my visitors.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaXXHaD8KU
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf8P2LsqFu
I say, "Wait!" She stops.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ667ngoc6HZ
"What is it?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt49IMNQvWz
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgXyfpyMpb
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquilxCPFPm
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzzMMgWAua
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpNOcQ7MsS
I cry myself to sleep.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O2trW1eks
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFGuipzoRw
"How are you doing, honey?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Fdar8VuzU
I say, "Horrible.."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXfqLoBKWc
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAfxQns8p1
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXAo8czUlB
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yUJGuf4su
"It's not your fault, honey."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMDPDa51dl
I start crying again.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs7UhsIbJO
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E8hZWHto2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8DLRpwAzr
Maybe I'm dead after all.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHL83Okrkm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTC2IxgJCbi
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ935ZBrcVVV
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjb4wvEw5Ps
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BqOP156LI
I say, "I still want to win this."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCOMV4wbdr
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvpn4tfpo6
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrL6kKt1fy
"Really?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDzJXig3PL
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4q4Sj3Tii
I start crying, and I can't stop.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFC7PzrDje
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlatozyhBk
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHpU970a5W
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECIGSRqQ49
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtynlWM9yoP
"I wanted to see the flowers."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPNqbabEUk
"Why are you out of your room?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLScoIqEDXC
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc9BfhrEhr
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvzePTtxzt
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEh55NBkXDm
"Thank you for being you."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhfFoPOyIf
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MDOKtx4o1
I make a decision.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOqqxaaTWT
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMWJO7mrOX
"What's your name?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthGZ47Rbgb
"Allisa," I say, smiling.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNHgInsfsW
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOSkJl2vPw
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNGg3O0pet
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgbR82Q712
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qNTPua23h
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