You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGs8GByfT3
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCbGPzviPQ
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8S50zcTxp
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYg15ISzWH
"I just want to go home," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjfNUMZsd7
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkacSDvTFdG
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1OFhvelSy
Father sighs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu3XpMi5s8
I say "I don't want to stay here!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmy08Gxd9Wj
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8uh4t6cK5
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKi2MYU8Po
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBvzcjTja4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTaOytpdBp
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGY5ANs5G8
"Pet, come down from the tree."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKZRMBtDP1
I stay silent.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR34suJt5u
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bcUF1IgbP
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cJaqe3W0K
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwSxUlI4I5
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uoynOhpOc
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEykSAy1as
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4v210UiQV
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnFjMMauUr
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QQMzH0Sk6
I say, "Please don't hurt me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmxXZymiZl
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzIUEtk9Qp
I say, "Please don't!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEx6rVkGH2
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ2sjaL71o
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv5cVUByJn
"You'll find out soon enough, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVTPTpnNe7
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOR7O3s3slr
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWIprwEPXO
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNCua0mkhz
"Are you ready, child?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4tvjhiO0Z
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4eOWwBdBq
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypAhKkiQeX
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I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgA1HFQ9Ts
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51IcwRET2v
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpwg0wO8x8
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2gUTkby9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlBCXxswUR
Father says "Good. Stay there."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS9ekYX9GX
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqv0SMYseM
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb5042R4Nz
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzURlWP8I77
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMVGwmxvep
"Please!" I whisper.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JDuOSyQro
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1JBkQcq9g
I scream loudly.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaStXByX80F
My scream echoes throughout the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ30sDeq1k
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zJSjbiwil
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCzNknkFFF
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE3DPwaE0m
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSt6yoFojh
I say "P-please s-stop.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuVSeRPFG6
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzUQ2bm7R4
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAPaMXSZh7
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7nYHmNo3D
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAOVtp3Sab
"Look at her," another says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS6tSaON7Z
I say "Please leave me alone."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3coLmOt9xc
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EaiP9Yq9C
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCXylRPMDi
"We'll see. Let's see."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrfP48oGxt
I say "No no no.." They laugh.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRh5pcK03Z
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31O6qFzN3a
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ldF7RvdB7
They untie me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjBkNGA80Q
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO866ScD3Y0
"Ah... you're up," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q33Xe2WnP
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqVIYrsyG4
"Where were you?" he asks,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ0yOaZtMO
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkKHopGP4A
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvFdumTt11
Father smiles.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AlnEmDV1t
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDI8bU9SDCv
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y9FXXjY0d
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaHOv7eIi9
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoprrwFy8r2
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkemPZAhVyL
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RmXJemt7w
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluHK5K8bFn
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1cKFjJaZH
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4BI1KoMwm
I say, "Please let me go!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsBbNRwSEw
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZTlyYUUOg
"You will," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffDv5xBTPU
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGygE1brS7
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMazWdkDcG
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNlkRcqeFS
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetV9lKWyYg
"Stop crying," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGusAb62xh0
"I can't!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfnNSaKFqP
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7ER0L4eSt
"Stop it!" I cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLLCViKiU7
"I said stop it!" he yells,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvCVEHLmsS
"I can't," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKughIny0h
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpjm8qCCHd
"NO!" Father screams.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sJsgWHY4j
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6pt3Ngo73
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h38jMBgxr
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVc7B5EUnq
"I would. I really would."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtFsVH6tSy
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG5YNDBfSQ
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobTgzqzRkU
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHYh8KYkyX
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZteQIkSZnU
I say, "No I'm not!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvArr91fLr
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tmu4AUXFq
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCnheQunpU
I say "No I won't!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS764cDIkws
"You will!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDixFLHxUj
"I said NO!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRAPrjoeTY
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreHW0w8nQM
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJeTJsP9hB
"I know you will," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrVujaiayR
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48zlESuImq
He says "One."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSC06LPrZ4E
I say, "I'll do anything.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk3J7UmgtY
"Two."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTlzRTYFgo
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0vo5Fl8Ta
"Three."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xQ6UcYCOt
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2syjhf5is
"No, don't do it," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RE3iN3R69
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqpIWKMj0O
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWZExVbibo
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh586BsVqvn
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUgoF4DHfU
I say "Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uVWn18phH
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfVlzxR9cd
"Yes," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdhWqOGCUx
"Good girl," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzPifzWm6U
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTCmPlGZ6b
"I won't," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQBgJYDgeu
I stay tied up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlR2rS4swG
"Now," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYlA75qu3h
"Kneel."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FEAOLvy5U
"Please," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchsdadLEWx
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocgn5NBIG
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaCOIOx9B3
I just know it.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzj4E5m3rrl
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyg2vs3Yuy
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2RFTdPKK5
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61NxE0YaGU
I'm all alone in the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKCbZlzxBx
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I hear the door open. I look up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4D7kylUj1
"Hello," a man says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf8OT4qmaT
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EA6sdgbUn
"Hands behind your back," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwU2tAVENj
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapZH1gcuug
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdKOR1qOmu
"Stay there," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KI5fZ4v1E
I stay on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDj5hFnEkb
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4rZv9LJLG
I say "No no no."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1wcCwGd6U
"Do it," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzoOqlJK77
I say no. He pushes harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrPEB54lzU
"Do it!" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXggDTkKV4S
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCVIpZmx5I
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUnz7NYBFl
"Stay there," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlITO10qPv
I stay on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfRWES4ctx
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TsYeLyP5q
"Stop moving."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QFKwOeJBL
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGJPYluWv8
He pulls it out of my throat.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVpHUSiGco
"What's wrong?" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXif6k5CiEO
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Asc8eEpsC
"What?" he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zQbTu1WFd
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavR1HToxmk
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLQ66gZVX4
"Is this too big for you?" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwNZNXRmoK
I nod.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAke0G71CfM
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfBSQqGkxb
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4n6Uznm5GD
He shoves it back in.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeNNxpX1Mj
I decide that vomiting once is enough.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAMDVlEiKS
He shoves it in deeper.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWALhfP0G0
I struggle and fight.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH5fnut4cJ
"Stop fighting me," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiulQaTIoUm
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y59iCbooh
"Get dressed," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1ZLVBIMCT
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAnnw9KUq3
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ejaALjaqr
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF3bAyP6qF
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOE0n9NecM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUuvNat1S3
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmow06SSBG
I say, "Where's dad?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwDzDu8WQ4
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ygmG5xSA5
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgWL8lQqy8
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lNsZ8M4X4
My father says, "Where have you been?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bYbbDqzrM
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNUYKc8BtX
"Did they hurt you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHTO6T4BSM
"Yeah," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFUy32T3yI
"I'm sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerpbdDetYf
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqExDgY0X7
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaTozScUEl
"Is Allie in here?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf9UVeBMk8
My dad says, "Yes, why?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiV9jCohg2
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl8xd0DxlD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjkDIhDQ4B
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6gMjxJ2M6
"No." I respond,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8TD8uhYah
"Can we come in?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5xn4JxwnW
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfWnkhRmhF
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPvgKVKqAg
I say, "I don't know."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVt4RgLyQr
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yCLhpJeEg
"No." I say,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB37uEydfR
"Are you sure?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GGxE4nBVF
"Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqS449ymqEM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9jitUyDgl
"Did he give you any food or water?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6rekfKxJb
"No." I respond.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxapMF8oHY
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkQFp3IJXu
"No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUMy47P9C7
"What did he do to you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v21FoCfOG
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rYoWNS17E
"Did you fight him?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs3juJNb84
"I tried."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrxrJuRf4z
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESKbBbogf0
"I think I blacked out."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lfUJiPfDg
"I see."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtBhhOF6LL
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyMDNjGHoE
"And how long were you with him?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvHDTLn77n
"I think about ten hours."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvH5EF9jAt
"And you only just managed to escape?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEns3bNcPK
"Yeah."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Nw3AxxnI
"Do you know where you were?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJbDPc7pW5
I say "No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zKmGHl5ns
"What is the last thing you remember?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvIQvePWlE
"I remember walking down the road."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I0ttjCjol
"And then?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKof9YQ1WfH
"I don't remember."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGePOiSQ6o
"Do you know how you got away?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmK1ASSv9a
I say, "I just ran,"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0AMun3RiM
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgECicd9wg5
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIN5C09fmZ
I say, "So that's how it all happened."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA4aZfNnOO
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP50RqsTr5R
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI3XoHlTsI
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYLZ3pCKeE
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0qkLPcwW1
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT1a9gGi6v
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLSSNAcrvf
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfKaSm1fjY
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHChMOij1Tg
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO316oQ2RW
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8drcRcAEf
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsdLzR5bE9
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPoX4yeoOQ
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsAwYMTlwz
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStrN2sZyan
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7jYbltyD6
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEOCwLOJL9
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyoO0xhNvG
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOdAh1UhI7
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7DNhRA1Q6
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJpGqwtOXp
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqfrhS7uVG
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWmpNlaLhq
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaukHdnQ2EQ
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OsK3Tp7RA
"Get up." he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf02MdPMExy
"Why am I here?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMLqYtnWxv
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoCtFD3qIm
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh214VNmcH
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOsIr6ZCPn
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5J0waNWuG
I sit down.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3d2ThKdig
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2sIjQxujc
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZoXn3Yvdx
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjST60jQbE
I say, "No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRrnIMwEBt
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMODEChEttI
I respond, "Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyT3y1GoOG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PUt2f7sUA
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeRU9Ickpz
"Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE29euU80nh
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5ZvO7mKSF
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3csCsiaivC
I say, "Hi."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0fWlyEgb5
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ637tZJrj2m
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2o1eGZ4jP
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1j1DbPPrVc
"Right away," says the woman.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBBxZOMOVl
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NRqqlNktK
I say, "Okay."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLlQ3b995Q
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8q5MpGXja
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0MtJO3wmg
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOE3pHL7dh
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0epPyCQD
"He kidnapped me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRvJO6pSZy
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEos2xlQxU
I say, "He tried to stab me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbdluRCLrC
"Who was he?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRHDSoFIUZ
"I don't know."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtwvS4mran
"Where did you get the knife?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPiYrzv8zk
"He had it in his pocket."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4mXQsWmzE
"Did he threaten you in any way?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa18BHu622
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghDwkfy4eI
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XXj8MeaiX
"No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIGhETic2Z
"You sure? Think hard."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgheA8wMvl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0srqySRDUg
I say, "He killed my father."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqRi5YPzYa
"What?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJJMs8FEqH
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CloyxQ3I7
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ861qJoSsaE
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2iJdnaBPF
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7wfOkA5I2
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxr930XV2Cu
I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZuSBMRHVo
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfuLm4SrSg
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vxKvyteYf
I follow him.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT6373LlFo
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAGmCxwCNG
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUQNaWzNRv
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPTJO3DJ1W
"Alright. Take a seat."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAJshPyRUZ
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHHKygFiB6
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczXsJ6y5Cq
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6vENQDDHZ
"Yes.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCwNEwfTyY
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJMAoZ2MDg
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyCVe2Qa7C
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXsDFGrxzG
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeCFIWNoaQ
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwEzEQ3C9K
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUx5etmoBK
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9WdlCuLaf
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHi45xOdrH
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRu3pIYH0j
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQoAkahrew
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9079Gm46O
"What is it?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQBKE99Kdk
Doctor Kessel says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToLLVFstB5
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS3l6wyB0s
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WCbw7zWO7
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AvI5Kb7QI
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP2KrQKqeE
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36utRsAiKt
The nurse shakes her head, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eZvL9WlMv
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjzCzWj2zx
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrRlVy95da
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbANlnLIu6
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaLodKYDfn
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6wTQyhDzT
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzOGY7QfTq
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQnwXC6maX
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7swLHx2T8
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWX7a6naDTq
I say "Where am I?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Sc3Ot51f9
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jlMKLYt52
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWKbtwPSbk
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv8tSCIuTT
I say, "I want to see my mom..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATWGPkVmZe
The nurse interrupts me and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwo9V2IYHi
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKwm1C1rqL
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCaXPKtcpS
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8mz45FNP4
"M-mom.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIwqso9qo1
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEvuMD4uXi
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2kRryY3VJ
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSvYuSbnUk
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1ygRbyBpQ
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrBIExmI1q
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2osIe50eae
"Yes.." I say quietly.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFjU6SGhsG
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxBrGaicJp
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSSvVd0wcg
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51PtE3OKZq
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDUyYAo8jr
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLTZLNmxoL
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml3oOueYZ1
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCI9ItNMaV
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNoy2gUQUo
I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv3FeNHr4o
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtuzrXQgYv
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0C6FAg8qC
I wipe the tears off my face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pY6tGwDFi
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gXkMFMoVd
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHcI4vCkBe
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaypUxMOvb
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHXAp1ISS8
I say, "Tell me!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08QPusFxL5
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuOM5U6Meq
My heart drops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJLkTXGHgy
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu9gAqJlFq
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In the morning, I get my visitors.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1ZSTYB1ZB
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGA1bBkdcX
I say, "Wait!" She stops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7ukZdKyIu
"What is it?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlK5KlaRUqx
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXFu7Jn1sp
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhjjleuEkG
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyLYb69sib
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CdClbYgtt
I cry myself to sleep.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4UTDk9GU5
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaPV69mezy
"How are you doing, honey?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMcgkozd3C
I say, "Horrible.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rvC2Y2kYx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VY11kVqZ8
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1kqCvb0sN
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tPttd6EU3
"It's not your fault, honey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWLYt0KlOY
I start crying again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8P3rPUsX8J
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAT324iEKiA
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKkGr0ZCjG
Maybe I'm dead after all.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT36PAoDyxH
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGnNGNRVpX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnATZS8ULsC
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaSa3feFeh
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8EqtLzXnl
I say, "I still want to win this."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAw60fPyEG
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7iqXfjihP
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynQiv8PieM
"Really?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNtJfrWm2R
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrGB85z7TA
I start crying, and I can't stop.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKGuVgYeUE
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0eszeJmJ5
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp9vfew3GX
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T6culHD90
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGMEJhZ7XL
"I wanted to see the flowers."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHrCzph54n
"Why are you out of your room?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KLTVhvNAr
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJt21TCpRPa
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcvJcMx5Sc
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9ctc8JFuF
"Thank you for being you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr7zyWltU7
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBJ7c5j9It
I make a decision.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtILV914hI
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wYYxYbusS
"What's your name?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1gDpcL3xa
"Allisa," I say, smiling.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTls3K1jCX
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzR9avJjloN
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTw1bT021X
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9B5aCM4Yj
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx5BX2J5Z6
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCbGPzviPQ
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8S50zcTxp
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYg15ISzWH
"I just want to go home," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjfNUMZsd7
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkacSDvTFdG
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1OFhvelSy
Father sighs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu3XpMi5s8
I say "I don't want to stay here!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmy08Gxd9Wj
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8uh4t6cK5
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKi2MYU8Po
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBvzcjTja4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTaOytpdBp
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGY5ANs5G8
"Pet, come down from the tree."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKZRMBtDP1
I stay silent.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR34suJt5u
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bcUF1IgbP
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cJaqe3W0K
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwSxUlI4I5
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uoynOhpOc
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEykSAy1as
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4v210UiQV
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnFjMMauUr
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QQMzH0Sk6
I say, "Please don't hurt me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmxXZymiZl
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzIUEtk9Qp
I say, "Please don't!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEx6rVkGH2
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ2sjaL71o
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv5cVUByJn
"You'll find out soon enough, child."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVTPTpnNe7
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOR7O3s3slr
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWIprwEPXO
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfXbiFWtvcI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNCua0mkhz
"Are you ready, child?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4tvjhiO0Z
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4eOWwBdBq
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypAhKkiQeX
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I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgA1HFQ9Ts
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51IcwRET2v
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpwg0wO8x8
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2gUTkby9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlBCXxswUR
Father says "Good. Stay there."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS9ekYX9GX
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqv0SMYseM
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb5042R4Nz
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzURlWP8I77
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMVGwmxvep
"Please!" I whisper.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JDuOSyQro
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1JBkQcq9g
I scream loudly.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaStXByX80F
My scream echoes throughout the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ30sDeq1k
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zJSjbiwil
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCzNknkFFF
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE3DPwaE0m
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSt6yoFojh
I say "P-please s-stop.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuVSeRPFG6
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzUQ2bm7R4
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAPaMXSZh7
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7nYHmNo3D
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAOVtp3Sab
"Look at her," another says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS6tSaON7Z
I say "Please leave me alone."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3coLmOt9xc
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EaiP9Yq9C
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCXylRPMDi
"We'll see. Let's see."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrfP48oGxt
I say "No no no.." They laugh.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRh5pcK03Z
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31O6qFzN3a
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ldF7RvdB7
They untie me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjBkNGA80Q
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO866ScD3Y0
"Ah... you're up," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q33Xe2WnP
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJ8o0hu5fr"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqVIYrsyG4
"Where were you?" he asks,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ0yOaZtMO
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkKHopGP4A
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvFdumTt11
Father smiles.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AlnEmDV1t
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDI8bU9SDCv
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y9FXXjY0d
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaHOv7eIi9
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoprrwFy8r2
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkemPZAhVyL
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RmXJemt7w
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluHK5K8bFn
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1cKFjJaZH
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4BI1KoMwm
I say, "Please let me go!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsBbNRwSEw
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZTlyYUUOg
"You will," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffDv5xBTPU
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGygE1brS7
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMazWdkDcG
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNlkRcqeFS
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetV9lKWyYg
"Stop crying," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGusAb62xh0
"I can't!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfnNSaKFqP
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7ER0L4eSt
"Stop it!" I cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLLCViKiU7
"I said stop it!" he yells,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvCVEHLmsS
"I can't," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKughIny0h
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpjm8qCCHd
"NO!" Father screams.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sJsgWHY4j
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6pt3Ngo73
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h38jMBgxr
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVc7B5EUnq
"I would. I really would."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtFsVH6tSy
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG5YNDBfSQ
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobTgzqzRkU
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHYh8KYkyX
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZteQIkSZnU
I say, "No I'm not!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvArr91fLr
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tmu4AUXFq
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCnheQunpU
I say "No I won't!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS764cDIkws
"You will!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDixFLHxUj
"I said NO!!!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRAPrjoeTY
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreHW0w8nQM
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJeTJsP9hB
"I know you will," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrVujaiayR
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48zlESuImq
He says "One."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSC06LPrZ4E
I say, "I'll do anything.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk3J7UmgtY
"Two."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTlzRTYFgo
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0vo5Fl8Ta
"Three."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xQ6UcYCOt
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2syjhf5is
"No, don't do it," Father says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RE3iN3R69
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqpIWKMj0O
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWZExVbibo
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh586BsVqvn
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUgoF4DHfU
I say "Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uVWn18phH
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfVlzxR9cd
"Yes," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdhWqOGCUx
"Good girl," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzPifzWm6U
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTCmPlGZ6b
"I won't," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQBgJYDgeu
I stay tied up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlR2rS4swG
"Now," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYlA75qu3h
"Kneel."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FEAOLvy5U
"Please," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchsdadLEWx
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocgn5NBIG
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaCOIOx9B3
I just know it.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzj4E5m3rrl
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyg2vs3Yuy
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2RFTdPKK5
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61NxE0YaGU
I'm all alone in the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKCbZlzxBx
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhWYNVjYMcI hear the door open. I look up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4D7kylUj1
"Hello," a man says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf8OT4qmaT
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EA6sdgbUn
"Hands behind your back," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwU2tAVENj
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapZH1gcuug
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdKOR1qOmu
"Stay there," he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KI5fZ4v1E
I stay on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDj5hFnEkb
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4rZv9LJLG
I say "No no no."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1wcCwGd6U
"Do it," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzoOqlJK77
I say no. He pushes harder.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrPEB54lzU
"Do it!" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXggDTkKV4S
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCVIpZmx5I
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUnz7NYBFl
"Stay there," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlITO10qPv
I stay on my knees.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfRWES4ctx
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TsYeLyP5q
"Stop moving."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QFKwOeJBL
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGJPYluWv8
He pulls it out of my throat.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVpHUSiGco
"What's wrong?" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXif6k5CiEO
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Asc8eEpsC
"What?" he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zQbTu1WFd
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavR1HToxmk
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLQ66gZVX4
"Is this too big for you?" he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwNZNXRmoK
I nod.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAke0G71CfM
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfBSQqGkxb
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4n6Uznm5GD
He shoves it back in.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeNNxpX1Mj
I decide that vomiting once is enough.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAMDVlEiKS
He shoves it in deeper.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWALhfP0G0
I struggle and fight.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH5fnut4cJ
"Stop fighting me," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiulQaTIoUm
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y59iCbooh
"Get dressed," he says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1ZLVBIMCT
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAnnw9KUq3
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ejaALjaqr
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzKL8Bf9ls274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkfWiI37cG
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF3bAyP6qF
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOE0n9NecM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUuvNat1S3
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmow06SSBG
I say, "Where's dad?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwDzDu8WQ4
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ygmG5xSA5
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgWL8lQqy8
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lNsZ8M4X4
My father says, "Where have you been?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bYbbDqzrM
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNUYKc8BtX
"Did they hurt you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHTO6T4BSM
"Yeah," I say.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFUy32T3yI
"I'm sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerpbdDetYf
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqExDgY0X7
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaTozScUEl
"Is Allie in here?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf9UVeBMk8
My dad says, "Yes, why?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiV9jCohg2
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl8xd0DxlD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjkDIhDQ4B
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6gMjxJ2M6
"No." I respond,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8TD8uhYah
"Can we come in?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5xn4JxwnW
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfWnkhRmhF
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPvgKVKqAg
I say, "I don't know."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVt4RgLyQr
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yCLhpJeEg
"No." I say,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB37uEydfR
"Are you sure?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GGxE4nBVF
"Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqS449ymqEM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9jitUyDgl
"Did he give you any food or water?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6rekfKxJb
"No." I respond.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxapMF8oHY
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkQFp3IJXu
"No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUMy47P9C7
"What did he do to you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v21FoCfOG
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rYoWNS17E
"Did you fight him?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs3juJNb84
"I tried."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrxrJuRf4z
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESKbBbogf0
"I think I blacked out."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lfUJiPfDg
"I see."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtBhhOF6LL
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyMDNjGHoE
"And how long were you with him?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvHDTLn77n
"I think about ten hours."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvH5EF9jAt
"And you only just managed to escape?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEns3bNcPK
"Yeah."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Nw3AxxnI
"Do you know where you were?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJbDPc7pW5
I say "No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zKmGHl5ns
"What is the last thing you remember?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvIQvePWlE
"I remember walking down the road."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I0ttjCjol
"And then?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKof9YQ1WfH
"I don't remember."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGePOiSQ6o
"Do you know how you got away?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmK1ASSv9a
I say, "I just ran,"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0AMun3RiM
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgECicd9wg5
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIN5C09fmZ
I say, "So that's how it all happened."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA4aZfNnOO
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP50RqsTr5R
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI3XoHlTsI
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYLZ3pCKeE
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0qkLPcwW1
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT1a9gGi6v
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLSSNAcrvf
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfKaSm1fjY
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHChMOij1Tg
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO316oQ2RW
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8drcRcAEf
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsdLzR5bE9
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPoX4yeoOQ
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsAwYMTlwz
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStrN2sZyan
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7jYbltyD6
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEOCwLOJL9
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgZVi7mP0VAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyoO0xhNvG
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOdAh1UhI7
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7DNhRA1Q6
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJpGqwtOXp
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqfrhS7uVG
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWmpNlaLhq
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaukHdnQ2EQ
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OsK3Tp7RA
"Get up." he says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf02MdPMExy
"Why am I here?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMLqYtnWxv
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoCtFD3qIm
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh214VNmcH
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOsIr6ZCPn
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5J0waNWuG
I sit down.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3d2ThKdig
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2sIjQxujc
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZoXn3Yvdx
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjST60jQbE
I say, "No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRrnIMwEBt
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMODEChEttI
I respond, "Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyT3y1GoOG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PUt2f7sUA
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeRU9Ickpz
"Yes."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE29euU80nh
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5ZvO7mKSF
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3csCsiaivC
I say, "Hi."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0fWlyEgb5
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ637tZJrj2m
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2o1eGZ4jP
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1j1DbPPrVc
"Right away," says the woman.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBBxZOMOVl
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NRqqlNktK
I say, "Okay."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLlQ3b995Q
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8q5MpGXja
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0MtJO3wmg
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOE3pHL7dh
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0epPyCQD
"He kidnapped me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRvJO6pSZy
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEos2xlQxU
I say, "He tried to stab me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbdluRCLrC
"Who was he?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRHDSoFIUZ
"I don't know."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtwvS4mran
"Where did you get the knife?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPiYrzv8zk
"He had it in his pocket."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4mXQsWmzE
"Did he threaten you in any way?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa18BHu622
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghDwkfy4eI
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XXj8MeaiX
"No."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIGhETic2Z
"You sure? Think hard."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgheA8wMvl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0srqySRDUg
I say, "He killed my father."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqRi5YPzYa
"What?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJJMs8FEqH
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CloyxQ3I7
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ861qJoSsaE
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2iJdnaBPF
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7wfOkA5I2
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxr930XV2Cu
I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZuSBMRHVo
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfuLm4SrSg
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vxKvyteYf
I follow him.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT6373LlFo
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAGmCxwCNG
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUQNaWzNRv
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPTJO3DJ1W
"Alright. Take a seat."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAJshPyRUZ
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHHKygFiB6
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczXsJ6y5Cq
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6vENQDDHZ
"Yes.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCwNEwfTyY
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJMAoZ2MDg
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyCVe2Qa7C
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXsDFGrxzG
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeCFIWNoaQ
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwEzEQ3C9K
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUx5etmoBK
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9WdlCuLaf
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHi45xOdrH
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRu3pIYH0j
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQoAkahrew
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9079Gm46O
"What is it?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQBKE99Kdk
Doctor Kessel says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToLLVFstB5
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS3l6wyB0s
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WCbw7zWO7
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AvI5Kb7QI
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP2KrQKqeE
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36utRsAiKt
The nurse shakes her head, and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eZvL9WlMv
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjzCzWj2zx
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrRlVy95da
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbANlnLIu6
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaLodKYDfn
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6wTQyhDzT
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzOGY7QfTq
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQnwXC6maX
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7swLHx2T8
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWX7a6naDTq
I say "Where am I?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Sc3Ot51f9
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jlMKLYt52
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWKbtwPSbk
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv8tSCIuTT
I say, "I want to see my mom..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATWGPkVmZe
The nurse interrupts me and says,274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwo9V2IYHi
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKwm1C1rqL
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCaXPKtcpS
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOVCypexWWA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8mz45FNP4
"M-mom.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIwqso9qo1
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEvuMD4uXi
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2kRryY3VJ
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSvYuSbnUk
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1ygRbyBpQ
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrBIExmI1q
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2osIe50eae
"Yes.." I say quietly.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFjU6SGhsG
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxBrGaicJp
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSSvVd0wcg
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51PtE3OKZq
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDUyYAo8jr
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLTZLNmxoL
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml3oOueYZ1
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCI9ItNMaV
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNoy2gUQUo
I say, "Okay.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv3FeNHr4o
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtuzrXQgYv
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0C6FAg8qC
I wipe the tears off my face.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pY6tGwDFi
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gXkMFMoVd
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHcI4vCkBe
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaypUxMOvb
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHXAp1ISS8
I say, "Tell me!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08QPusFxL5
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuOM5U6Meq
My heart drops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJLkTXGHgy
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu9gAqJlFq
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274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZPDRqFUHEIn the morning, I get my visitors.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1ZSTYB1ZB
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGA1bBkdcX
I say, "Wait!" She stops.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7ukZdKyIu
"What is it?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlK5KlaRUqx
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXFu7Jn1sp
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhjjleuEkG
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyLYb69sib
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CdClbYgtt
I cry myself to sleep.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4UTDk9GU5
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaPV69mezy
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I say, "Horrible.."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rvC2Y2kYx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VY11kVqZ8
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1kqCvb0sN
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tPttd6EU3
"It's not your fault, honey."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWLYt0KlOY
I start crying again.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8P3rPUsX8J
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAT324iEKiA
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKkGr0ZCjG
Maybe I'm dead after all.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT36PAoDyxH
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGnNGNRVpX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnATZS8ULsC
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaSa3feFeh
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8EqtLzXnl
I say, "I still want to win this."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAw60fPyEG
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7iqXfjihP
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynQiv8PieM
"Really?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNtJfrWm2R
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrGB85z7TA
I start crying, and I can't stop.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKGuVgYeUE
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0eszeJmJ5
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp9vfew3GX
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T6culHD90
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGMEJhZ7XL
"I wanted to see the flowers."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHrCzph54n
"Why are you out of your room?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KLTVhvNAr
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJt21TCpRPa
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcvJcMx5Sc
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9ctc8JFuF
"Thank you for being you."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr7zyWltU7
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBJ7c5j9It
I make a decision.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtILV914hI
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wYYxYbusS
"What's your name?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1gDpcL3xa
"Allisa," I say, smiling.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTls3K1jCX
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzR9avJjloN
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTw1bT021X
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9B5aCM4Yj
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.274Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx5BX2J5Z6
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