You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIaJq3or67
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHTG0FZ0ac
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y25CvFbtN
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8nq4VuCtv
"I just want to go home," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz72fVzqWw
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMWzi5UusH
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKkkSmRZOz
Father sighs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkQ9NKtDkC
I say "I don't want to stay here!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctFQUwaSKl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkzViMxMtR
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr06qGi2k2
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72jtC44FrN
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdB92NPFPV
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYojLhvbLPQ
"Pet, come down from the tree."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrKqcATOxQ
I stay silent.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRrV0h8lth
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQOG6CQMgR
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M1criWZoi
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsAt2AaXmD
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3jCGKtcEF
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgS0viM8hP
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RRvHj3mp8
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQjW5zgQe2
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmfYXdZ1wu
I say, "Please don't hurt me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9JJB0p4au
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFUhbW3Xd
I say, "Please don't!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglJP6fq8Tn
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIeYT7DihR
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM7VKkFJy4
"You'll find out soon enough, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkgY4e1Nbn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfeq4fBmS3
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw0zuukO8b
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4afgdwXo2
"Are you ready, child?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEGOAr8Uug
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE9dVwLdU7
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVk3DCFKr3
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I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwXB4CrLiM
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUualqG6nh
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2YTYX15nH
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4vd3pCkLt
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubslGNdLt8
Father says "Good. Stay there."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGweAesVrm
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ilPE9qhDs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHX0CYokeK
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGNHxlOrOJ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NDGXHJkln
"Please!" I whisper.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK4Kd7kIHY
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBchWP031W
I scream loudly.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NskHzhOCO
My scream echoes throughout the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ4aZptQWu
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA6wIk5Jws
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVwMiUHK0x
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWrUcPdZ0D
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKmEI6oUv9
I say "P-please s-stop.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7wIWC4rfF
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy15rEAiV40
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz7LxWEAgJ
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mfdhNWRJv
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcWWF7jcsO
"Look at her," another says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB92xH5B58U
I say "Please leave me alone."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD5oBNPaaq
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCB9hmFyjt
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNKm99yzym
"We'll see. Let's see."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFjFY6VLTW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGbQZ0usbx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzFV1Zuczp
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn2t90oeKu
They untie me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjTIRksL2s
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHwl3Jzndo
"Ah... you're up," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSm1BvAl5XF
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUhsdBFYAh
"Where were you?" he asks,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8GRaFMvKn
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfLJ1q1nCA
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMBHJtcNmq
Father smiles.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlhIxesbqs
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHCGdUFJ1A
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4jb4j0Z5E
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEL1lkIbREA
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rtIsd0rGe
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgqeFmj1Ul
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb009MpkjP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCHzSGCK3e
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mp4aGBBjk
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMErV5QUgt3
I say, "Please let me go!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHpwejfNCl
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QEoiPjSkS
"You will," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbwHeGnSyv
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehkmLkxeTS
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJBYImZC2Q
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLeUzbPR6G
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQE4HzMadh
"Stop crying," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnYUchNR2F
"I can't!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveKT8cn94G
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKF4udXnJj9
"Stop it!" I cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjTYpjeFJt
"I said stop it!" he yells,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeFGD7D8OM
"I can't," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaBHSKPyew
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnsgm8ihsO
"NO!" Father screams.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX16I8tvsT
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXhHg28B0j
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDXPFarOCU
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCK2ZIhrnF
"I would. I really would."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ahM8S5gA4
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3oLMkqOkb
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxDhWQrC7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmJrKTaBrF
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAvW04vuu1
I say, "No I'm not!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuVc8DxHRo
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwNG9PwS0U
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJcn5ZR3hY
I say "No I won't!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIbJ8mrZw8
"You will!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OizVvmEgz
"I said NO!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgk3V6njKW
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrAsuH11ml
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgXkEPjooC
"I know you will," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcs28uBh1b
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgnt274K4D
He says "One."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LqqZvlHhP
I say, "I'll do anything.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv28b4uj3F
"Two."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRlE2JmWtm
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3lghMdxvh
"Three."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbQ2Hccr28
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDCErcxDow
"No, don't do it," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzICVOCB1n
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgli4WBZID
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrTL8nM1UP
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn0EXnbqBX
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55buAbJ2IC
I say "Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjniBkoHlvN
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKkNAswdcq
"Yes," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJQe3riEO4
"Good girl," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKxN3sHnbl
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDa63xdZq5
"I won't," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNVNVy1Cdw
I stay tied up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloBGto8pMs
"Now," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVlQFaeOSt
"Kneel."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1HMGIHrN5
"Please," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLK9jkRBbH
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7QU8xDRej
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBNjXTnUXL
I just know it.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefrbv1Jd6Y
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGJtVICPAQ
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJzTy2wmDt
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukXJbRCbQW
I'm all alone in the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkwjV0FLXw
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I hear the door open. I look up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1eVNEKEtC
"Hello," a man says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGnPMGomNM
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4rJ9pYDE1
"Hands behind your back," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCbUZYKZ20
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3zZd3VeJz
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYUA6FYcFX
"Stay there," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e5kfu9dHy
I stay on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4Y62sdhPo
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXKDAXOw94
I say "No no no."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2Wbype2oZ
"Do it," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJtbfBMGRv
I say no. He pushes harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRluEPYZOMY
"Do it!" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcGfGxpZPD
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMsKLYJKda
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWqijk4EME
"Stay there," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHxX1g9ItH
I stay on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW73gyFf357
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDjdTuVw56
"Stop moving."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tFqKENfAk
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5wjHYyE9R
He pulls it out of my throat.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb9iOOuG2V
"What's wrong?" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48JIPNE0MW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P5eMSIUPp
"What?" he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05lIXETbKO
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjyLlJD3Bk
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWasPZU8XTZ
"Is this too big for you?" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA42bvfFK8H
I nod.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQAnDiXxnC
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAib76dobqX
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60DfMQwgig
He shoves it back in.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAYBBKgeYO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSV4Z0m5Wp
He shoves it in deeper.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3I4L6JzGd
I struggle and fight.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf8C0GBiOM
"Stop fighting me," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqbYfkZif0
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwz0g4y8e7
"Get dressed," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4xkILsGY4
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwWkcBI6S7
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ9auIuEZY
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGvmSjbRnI
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UHAyDYDqG
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS9EJNIyxu
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5mNo2LzjD
I say, "Where's dad?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FuV9xzzcN
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVubfVPPgSk
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA8KqOwmN5
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXTHCyP7zF
My father says, "Where have you been?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ie8UNW8Yh
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPrs6wVCn7
"Did they hurt you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPehcMLtbHN
"Yeah," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTXL9iqTb4
"I'm sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1sTsVZxoG
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXOVV3byVB
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtCCZbIuto
"Is Allie in here?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIwM6L2ZjB
My dad says, "Yes, why?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbE1l8vjQL
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka8GlkQJFD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjdyNxGUro
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsuQFXoF8K
"No." I respond,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvIRin9ovU
"Can we come in?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRcw0KavY8
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxtMvbqkFU
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqY0dyGGpO
I say, "I don't know."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1hJjjV8u6
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoCq6NN5Jv
"No." I say,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZOkmunX9V
"Are you sure?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKFVzyPQII
"Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDErMHSZWLZ
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ACUvHUg4a
"Did he give you any food or water?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ4VnUe2nx
"No." I respond.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5Xy9SScQv
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YsI00BbgT
"No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgWc6jQGdP
"What did he do to you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mKpmLJUiU
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWNA1OPKUH
"Did you fight him?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs58N28Vk9
"I tried."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsdoBLkX34
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFCv7EFaH9
"I think I blacked out."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aIMHbkTq7
"I see."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6gTvvZYIQ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAT9ccBLup
"And how long were you with him?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCz79RTWfU
"I think about ten hours."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCQMQ7qc69
"And you only just managed to escape?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULhk7Zk4qy
"Yeah."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXKfWs5kw3
"Do you know where you were?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl24wKBggku
I say "No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPX74GaXPl
"What is the last thing you remember?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXJMznuyxt
"I remember walking down the road."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3A6RJrA2P
"And then?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeCGZp21Iw
"I don't remember."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHKuBjF9zX
"Do you know how you got away?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnV0NFclsQ
I say, "I just ran,"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXzwSQL4hF
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lBonR1rqA
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla4WzT5ppm
I say, "So that's how it all happened."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NZwZ6L44W
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlXMIToGun
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnJLIMEcqr
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NqytzB5uB
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxImwV0yD83
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9hbNwkuxq
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqOqaUZMXz
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdX2RgsGGo
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTznkxayRK
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpsz6AtrTI
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0R0nxX7Cp
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkRbVUHASo
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnRd0ZWQMQ
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMprqCvvvF
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJchWZWtX4
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckN2I8IbUX
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tsfLVKerT
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCVGZdnd2N
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0InbITfHk
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYuJGUksnq
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ2Gp0pggd
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQAitsDAHz
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzr324I40y
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CtlZYboLd
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VQQoIHq7L
"Get up." he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D8acSJ9qN
"Why am I here?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1H4eMencU
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUM2QxmIJ7
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrn8xtxpnV
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MUvWa1Dus
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJjqLtYDcg
I sit down.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XGeFnHPqf
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQtF8iQYQb
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhwxYFJ3UZ
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw4Q4m4IfX
I say, "No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HcFFZPzK2
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Hxsf70VKp
I respond, "Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmhmzbkEFF
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GCXEfBja7
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeanHbDNfHf
"Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NZ9lNNcZG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPydngQTuYT
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0824P5Vom
I say, "Hi."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIW0VusdFU
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRv9X4xk3wm
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCXvtaJvXv
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY0AcssB9g
"Right away," says the woman.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMa4XEZiXS
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3ajNFdEMK
I say, "Okay."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ70m5JfrA
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobHsampJ0v
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXOljzATYh
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUMsnArPtT
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiubMmDCtI
"He kidnapped me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYfQV4saLG
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyjMrBA7df
I say, "He tried to stab me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzHXGzlgLS
"Who was he?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwdMnJeDIY
"I don't know."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPaACFsj3x
"Where did you get the knife?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKZRZLHY8V
"He had it in his pocket."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg3FJFetdJ
"Did he threaten you in any way?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9dTbyjFpC
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQIh1ujB1z
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUau1x3Cdr
"No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1TW0RoqJ4
"You sure? Think hard."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIK4BY1bJL
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq0erpg7dp
I say, "He killed my father."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNNrt0EX10
"What?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRBunbzJoc
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzLcdeUWKt
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJUULK8UwB
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGv0ze0dp6a
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPhBwTqG9P
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemTA06JLlu
I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIoKpJPIjt
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLot0mLKeG
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVy4SVx9RN
I follow him.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56gHUAfDnA
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDXk0ZVbgA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXCN1ngosl
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISd3cZa7e3
"Alright. Take a seat."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jcaTMsDZd
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ038Mh8GamS
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w65oHE1is
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBld8R2oPy
"Yes.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrezOgHzZ0X
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDGnLbC7Rh
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YxPcaWOzS
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb2QSrCpKh
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pKPy1qOHG
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzfX4k6WxZ
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7737zOJHDw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm6ffAA37W
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eZf6o5mfC
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNMJry5bzr
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9P1N0d4tPp
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lFrs0Rb28
"What is it?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOMaKcLPAT
Doctor Kessel says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfwEviQFFF
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZch9GEIHj
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ758Ktvri2H
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Z9XUMmu8
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfeL01X9E0
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhx22qPkPGj
The nurse shakes her head, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnKDmUCoWy
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuOIMRIFWH
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwoaZwWvFC
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRiXc1p1f0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwBZkNL6D9
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dZWPkjQw3
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTr1Jt7yqR
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNBbFklK6b
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhL7nhfpiV
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoD0SLuBJt
I say "Where am I?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7eZNyhzxz
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M9TVCoFfS
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAofrZQbwj
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbEADJ5sR1
I say, "I want to see my mom..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzFxI1cCwf
The nurse interrupts me and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6ROIBCHun
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAQlRXRe3k
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5lMKXodIU
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCNZEyxBD2
"M-mom.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n8vZwltaA
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQp8QN5bP2
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xaasH3owu
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBZwpWswP8
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo8uTLZQe0
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAQC34WKnj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TOztobXxv
"Yes.." I say quietly.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTtN1HB6jc
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nbqBW1Bbe
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0AwxYUVqH
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpW7bZwQDMY
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl5Gy1UCq0
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6FodNiWUy
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5j7oYZTgV
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0wN5wTjBM
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV5Yx6AFXm
I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBhKcwHXYq
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgFrTySDlw
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHaULXU4os
I wipe the tears off my face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiQqSm177Y
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhHprzH7Fu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VXWr0Q9mX
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpX1496CKX
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xB4Prvquo
I say, "Tell me!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIqPc4PJTF
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjclhBD9t5M
My heart drops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LDpVu6XJj
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tQwxoeNkX
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In the morning, I get my visitors.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNLNXwroRW
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RpE4a6ULC
I say, "Wait!" She stops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kk5m4U0XA
"What is it?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eNqsGYqnv
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3IoUCIQRE
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmInZapYrPj
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YqQOfa1H7
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEm6uCLBxy
I cry myself to sleep.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HwZbt3FPe
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnEYZpAw0n
"How are you doing, honey?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGPVOPdvOn
I say, "Horrible.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzcGubNjrT
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEXT4hJeDD
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOQqreOQSc
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOrEuqSiPo
"It's not your fault, honey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrmHSrk4dI
I start crying again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W0O91Gb9H
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2UvYDXtvQ
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubZVaw7WPu
Maybe I'm dead after all.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8dL2gH9k0
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgmhey64y6
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFakx8QVx4
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlqROuiHvH
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8XYsBcKDG
I say, "I still want to win this."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aHvXVe5hJ
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVSUEhsiw7
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWf5AW4I0B
"Really?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71MTOgAKSF
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9OSOk2ZRg
I start crying, and I can't stop.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDb2K38xm1
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvxoro8VtM
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLJjdVUwcd
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ3s2yjQ0V
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oqZDKadKP
"I wanted to see the flowers."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAG9XXZa86
"Why are you out of your room?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXBC2P5b1e
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhfzjK3KH3
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGzAlpeOjw
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvh3vPdH1Q
"Thank you for being you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRi84PLNUEl
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu6O5HwF1A
I make a decision.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLj1caOGGN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgDeMHP4k2
"What's your name?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitQ4jaUu9R
"Allisa," I say, smiling.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFImmtfq5z
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs2C0Xyrhk
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgEv9mvC3y
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo037gO27z
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxbnCkGG77
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHTG0FZ0ac
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y25CvFbtN
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8nq4VuCtv
"I just want to go home," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz72fVzqWw
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMWzi5UusH
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKkkSmRZOz
Father sighs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkQ9NKtDkC
I say "I don't want to stay here!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctFQUwaSKl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkzViMxMtR
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr06qGi2k2
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72jtC44FrN
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdB92NPFPV
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYojLhvbLPQ
"Pet, come down from the tree."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrKqcATOxQ
I stay silent.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRrV0h8lth
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQOG6CQMgR
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M1criWZoi
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsAt2AaXmD
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3jCGKtcEF
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgS0viM8hP
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RRvHj3mp8
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQjW5zgQe2
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmfYXdZ1wu
I say, "Please don't hurt me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9JJB0p4au
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFUhbW3Xd
I say, "Please don't!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglJP6fq8Tn
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIeYT7DihR
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM7VKkFJy4
"You'll find out soon enough, child."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkgY4e1Nbn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfeq4fBmS3
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw0zuukO8b
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4kO3AWm8ZI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4afgdwXo2
"Are you ready, child?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEGOAr8Uug
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE9dVwLdU7
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVk3DCFKr3
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I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwXB4CrLiM
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUualqG6nh
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2YTYX15nH
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4vd3pCkLt
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubslGNdLt8
Father says "Good. Stay there."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGweAesVrm
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ilPE9qhDs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHX0CYokeK
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGNHxlOrOJ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NDGXHJkln
"Please!" I whisper.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK4Kd7kIHY
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBchWP031W
I scream loudly.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NskHzhOCO
My scream echoes throughout the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ4aZptQWu
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA6wIk5Jws
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVwMiUHK0x
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWrUcPdZ0D
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKmEI6oUv9
I say "P-please s-stop.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7wIWC4rfF
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy15rEAiV40
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz7LxWEAgJ
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mfdhNWRJv
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcWWF7jcsO
"Look at her," another says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB92xH5B58U
I say "Please leave me alone."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD5oBNPaaq
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCB9hmFyjt
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNKm99yzym
"We'll see. Let's see."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFjFY6VLTW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGbQZ0usbx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzFV1Zuczp
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn2t90oeKu
They untie me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjTIRksL2s
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHwl3Jzndo
"Ah... you're up," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSm1BvAl5XF
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApqUrJkEil"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUhsdBFYAh
"Where were you?" he asks,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8GRaFMvKn
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfLJ1q1nCA
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMBHJtcNmq
Father smiles.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlhIxesbqs
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHCGdUFJ1A
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4jb4j0Z5E
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEL1lkIbREA
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rtIsd0rGe
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgqeFmj1Ul
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb009MpkjP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCHzSGCK3e
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mp4aGBBjk
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMErV5QUgt3
I say, "Please let me go!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHpwejfNCl
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QEoiPjSkS
"You will," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbwHeGnSyv
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehkmLkxeTS
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJBYImZC2Q
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLeUzbPR6G
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQE4HzMadh
"Stop crying," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnYUchNR2F
"I can't!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveKT8cn94G
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKF4udXnJj9
"Stop it!" I cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjTYpjeFJt
"I said stop it!" he yells,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeFGD7D8OM
"I can't," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaBHSKPyew
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnsgm8ihsO
"NO!" Father screams.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX16I8tvsT
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXhHg28B0j
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDXPFarOCU
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCK2ZIhrnF
"I would. I really would."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ahM8S5gA4
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3oLMkqOkb
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxDhWQrC7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmJrKTaBrF
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAvW04vuu1
I say, "No I'm not!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuVc8DxHRo
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwNG9PwS0U
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJcn5ZR3hY
I say "No I won't!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIbJ8mrZw8
"You will!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OizVvmEgz
"I said NO!!!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgk3V6njKW
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrAsuH11ml
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgXkEPjooC
"I know you will," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcs28uBh1b
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgnt274K4D
He says "One."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LqqZvlHhP
I say, "I'll do anything.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv28b4uj3F
"Two."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRlE2JmWtm
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3lghMdxvh
"Three."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbQ2Hccr28
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDCErcxDow
"No, don't do it," Father says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzICVOCB1n
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgli4WBZID
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrTL8nM1UP
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn0EXnbqBX
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55buAbJ2IC
I say "Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjniBkoHlvN
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKkNAswdcq
"Yes," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJQe3riEO4
"Good girl," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKxN3sHnbl
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDa63xdZq5
"I won't," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNVNVy1Cdw
I stay tied up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloBGto8pMs
"Now," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVlQFaeOSt
"Kneel."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1HMGIHrN5
"Please," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLK9jkRBbH
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7QU8xDRej
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBNjXTnUXL
I just know it.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefrbv1Jd6Y
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGJtVICPAQ
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJzTy2wmDt
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukXJbRCbQW
I'm all alone in the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkwjV0FLXw
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnWFAe44g3I hear the door open. I look up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1eVNEKEtC
"Hello," a man says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGnPMGomNM
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4rJ9pYDE1
"Hands behind your back," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCbUZYKZ20
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3zZd3VeJz
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYUA6FYcFX
"Stay there," he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e5kfu9dHy
I stay on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4Y62sdhPo
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXKDAXOw94
I say "No no no."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2Wbype2oZ
"Do it," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJtbfBMGRv
I say no. He pushes harder.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRluEPYZOMY
"Do it!" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcGfGxpZPD
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMsKLYJKda
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWqijk4EME
"Stay there," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHxX1g9ItH
I stay on my knees.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW73gyFf357
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDjdTuVw56
"Stop moving."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tFqKENfAk
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5wjHYyE9R
He pulls it out of my throat.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb9iOOuG2V
"What's wrong?" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48JIPNE0MW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P5eMSIUPp
"What?" he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05lIXETbKO
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjyLlJD3Bk
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWasPZU8XTZ
"Is this too big for you?" he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA42bvfFK8H
I nod.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQAnDiXxnC
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAib76dobqX
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60DfMQwgig
He shoves it back in.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAYBBKgeYO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSV4Z0m5Wp
He shoves it in deeper.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3I4L6JzGd
I struggle and fight.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf8C0GBiOM
"Stop fighting me," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqbYfkZif0
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwz0g4y8e7
"Get dressed," he says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4xkILsGY4
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwWkcBI6S7
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ9auIuEZY
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eNrPaFyRI228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjkTisGF9s
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGvmSjbRnI
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UHAyDYDqG
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS9EJNIyxu
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5mNo2LzjD
I say, "Where's dad?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FuV9xzzcN
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVubfVPPgSk
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA8KqOwmN5
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXTHCyP7zF
My father says, "Where have you been?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ie8UNW8Yh
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPrs6wVCn7
"Did they hurt you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPehcMLtbHN
"Yeah," I say.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTXL9iqTb4
"I'm sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1sTsVZxoG
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXOVV3byVB
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtCCZbIuto
"Is Allie in here?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIwM6L2ZjB
My dad says, "Yes, why?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbE1l8vjQL
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka8GlkQJFD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjdyNxGUro
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsuQFXoF8K
"No." I respond,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvIRin9ovU
"Can we come in?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRcw0KavY8
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxtMvbqkFU
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqY0dyGGpO
I say, "I don't know."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1hJjjV8u6
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoCq6NN5Jv
"No." I say,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZOkmunX9V
"Are you sure?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKFVzyPQII
"Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDErMHSZWLZ
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ACUvHUg4a
"Did he give you any food or water?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ4VnUe2nx
"No." I respond.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5Xy9SScQv
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YsI00BbgT
"No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgWc6jQGdP
"What did he do to you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mKpmLJUiU
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWNA1OPKUH
"Did you fight him?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs58N28Vk9
"I tried."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsdoBLkX34
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFCv7EFaH9
"I think I blacked out."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aIMHbkTq7
"I see."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6gTvvZYIQ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAT9ccBLup
"And how long were you with him?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCz79RTWfU
"I think about ten hours."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCQMQ7qc69
"And you only just managed to escape?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULhk7Zk4qy
"Yeah."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXKfWs5kw3
"Do you know where you were?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl24wKBggku
I say "No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPX74GaXPl
"What is the last thing you remember?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXJMznuyxt
"I remember walking down the road."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3A6RJrA2P
"And then?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeCGZp21Iw
"I don't remember."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHKuBjF9zX
"Do you know how you got away?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnV0NFclsQ
I say, "I just ran,"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXzwSQL4hF
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lBonR1rqA
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla4WzT5ppm
I say, "So that's how it all happened."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NZwZ6L44W
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlXMIToGun
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnJLIMEcqr
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NqytzB5uB
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxImwV0yD83
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9hbNwkuxq
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqOqaUZMXz
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdX2RgsGGo
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTznkxayRK
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpsz6AtrTI
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0R0nxX7Cp
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkRbVUHASo
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnRd0ZWQMQ
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMprqCvvvF
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJchWZWtX4
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckN2I8IbUX
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tsfLVKerT
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HkJI8TVuJAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCVGZdnd2N
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0InbITfHk
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYuJGUksnq
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ2Gp0pggd
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQAitsDAHz
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzr324I40y
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CtlZYboLd
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VQQoIHq7L
"Get up." he says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D8acSJ9qN
"Why am I here?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1H4eMencU
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUM2QxmIJ7
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrn8xtxpnV
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MUvWa1Dus
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJjqLtYDcg
I sit down.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XGeFnHPqf
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQtF8iQYQb
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhwxYFJ3UZ
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw4Q4m4IfX
I say, "No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HcFFZPzK2
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Hxsf70VKp
I respond, "Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmhmzbkEFF
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GCXEfBja7
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeanHbDNfHf
"Yes."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NZ9lNNcZG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPydngQTuYT
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0824P5Vom
I say, "Hi."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIW0VusdFU
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRv9X4xk3wm
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCXvtaJvXv
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY0AcssB9g
"Right away," says the woman.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMa4XEZiXS
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3ajNFdEMK
I say, "Okay."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ70m5JfrA
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobHsampJ0v
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXOljzATYh
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUMsnArPtT
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiubMmDCtI
"He kidnapped me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYfQV4saLG
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyjMrBA7df
I say, "He tried to stab me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzHXGzlgLS
"Who was he?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwdMnJeDIY
"I don't know."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPaACFsj3x
"Where did you get the knife?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKZRZLHY8V
"He had it in his pocket."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg3FJFetdJ
"Did he threaten you in any way?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9dTbyjFpC
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQIh1ujB1z
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUau1x3Cdr
"No."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1TW0RoqJ4
"You sure? Think hard."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIK4BY1bJL
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq0erpg7dp
I say, "He killed my father."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNNrt0EX10
"What?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRBunbzJoc
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzLcdeUWKt
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJUULK8UwB
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGv0ze0dp6a
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPhBwTqG9P
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemTA06JLlu
I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIoKpJPIjt
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLot0mLKeG
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVy4SVx9RN
I follow him.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56gHUAfDnA
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDXk0ZVbgA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXCN1ngosl
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISd3cZa7e3
"Alright. Take a seat."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jcaTMsDZd
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ038Mh8GamS
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w65oHE1is
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBld8R2oPy
"Yes.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrezOgHzZ0X
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDGnLbC7Rh
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YxPcaWOzS
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb2QSrCpKh
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pKPy1qOHG
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzfX4k6WxZ
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7737zOJHDw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm6ffAA37W
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eZf6o5mfC
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNMJry5bzr
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9P1N0d4tPp
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lFrs0Rb28
"What is it?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOMaKcLPAT
Doctor Kessel says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfwEviQFFF
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZch9GEIHj
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ758Ktvri2H
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Z9XUMmu8
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfeL01X9E0
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhx22qPkPGj
The nurse shakes her head, and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnKDmUCoWy
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuOIMRIFWH
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwoaZwWvFC
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRiXc1p1f0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwBZkNL6D9
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dZWPkjQw3
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTr1Jt7yqR
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNBbFklK6b
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhL7nhfpiV
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoD0SLuBJt
I say "Where am I?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7eZNyhzxz
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M9TVCoFfS
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAofrZQbwj
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbEADJ5sR1
I say, "I want to see my mom..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzFxI1cCwf
The nurse interrupts me and says,228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6ROIBCHun
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAQlRXRe3k
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5lMKXodIU
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwx3AAsd3SA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCNZEyxBD2
"M-mom.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n8vZwltaA
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQp8QN5bP2
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xaasH3owu
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBZwpWswP8
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo8uTLZQe0
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAQC34WKnj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TOztobXxv
"Yes.." I say quietly.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTtN1HB6jc
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nbqBW1Bbe
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0AwxYUVqH
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpW7bZwQDMY
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl5Gy1UCq0
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6FodNiWUy
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5j7oYZTgV
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0wN5wTjBM
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV5Yx6AFXm
I say, "Okay.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBhKcwHXYq
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgFrTySDlw
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHaULXU4os
I wipe the tears off my face.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiQqSm177Y
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhHprzH7Fu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VXWr0Q9mX
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpX1496CKX
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xB4Prvquo
I say, "Tell me!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIqPc4PJTF
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjclhBD9t5M
My heart drops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LDpVu6XJj
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tQwxoeNkX
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228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40sMDvSC9mIn the morning, I get my visitors.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNLNXwroRW
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RpE4a6ULC
I say, "Wait!" She stops.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kk5m4U0XA
"What is it?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eNqsGYqnv
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3IoUCIQRE
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmInZapYrPj
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YqQOfa1H7
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEm6uCLBxy
I cry myself to sleep.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HwZbt3FPe
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnEYZpAw0n
"How are you doing, honey?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGPVOPdvOn
I say, "Horrible.."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzcGubNjrT
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEXT4hJeDD
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOQqreOQSc
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOrEuqSiPo
"It's not your fault, honey."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrmHSrk4dI
I start crying again.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W0O91Gb9H
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2UvYDXtvQ
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubZVaw7WPu
Maybe I'm dead after all.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8dL2gH9k0
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgmhey64y6
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFakx8QVx4
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlqROuiHvH
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8XYsBcKDG
I say, "I still want to win this."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aHvXVe5hJ
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVSUEhsiw7
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWf5AW4I0B
"Really?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71MTOgAKSF
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9OSOk2ZRg
I start crying, and I can't stop.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDb2K38xm1
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvxoro8VtM
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLJjdVUwcd
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ3s2yjQ0V
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oqZDKadKP
"I wanted to see the flowers."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAG9XXZa86
"Why are you out of your room?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXBC2P5b1e
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhfzjK3KH3
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGzAlpeOjw
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvh3vPdH1Q
"Thank you for being you."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRi84PLNUEl
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu6O5HwF1A
I make a decision.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLj1caOGGN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgDeMHP4k2
"What's your name?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitQ4jaUu9R
"Allisa," I say, smiling.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFImmtfq5z
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs2C0Xyrhk
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgEv9mvC3y
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo037gO27z
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.228Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxbnCkGG77
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