You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlETz5Y41UN
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJawawHWm4i
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2MnfVcSiq
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT5sRJlJkT
"I just want to go home," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGQLMD4QE0
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDcykpBmZL
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU56vYwV5BO
Father sighs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ArAZoDOJA
I say "I don't want to stay here!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIxaGW3I5l
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVgiwG6Gdv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pRlFKxDuh
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHpNOAlZUu
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9CRmcAXmh
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsSAmiXZ4b
"Pet, come down from the tree."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrStgPyoHR
I stay silent.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Dz25FWnJM
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwslVSGDe20
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0WYlt6YwA
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ356pFF4yV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhyxz4JkNT
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUjmCzr3R3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHK1M3ktFqA
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVLtaweBT5
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLE7bjiSaH
I say, "Please don't hurt me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxArRZswvS
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXPGKEj5a3
I say, "Please don't!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgupfr7vHPL
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkN0mc1fs7
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5g4pIeB1u
"You'll find out soon enough, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZYXnRTNFW
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJukjSp24oT
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpbWhn7l6A
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ggMVdrTRZ
"Are you ready, child?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwON26C0ku
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zby0wFMNB
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetkwmgZdTB
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I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzW4XTDnZ9
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUJ1mqGiy7
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbSsx63CiA
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftTIZN0lGI
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBpSoFjMak
Father says "Good. Stay there."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvOSR8OOzD
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iBurnxeZV
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPMgw6ddxO
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrg01HFjkd
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8YpT2z72k
"Please!" I whisper.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHvCxfYy7b
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm7ymQ7PWm
I scream loudly.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Oh4d9pwa
My scream echoes throughout the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhRtCy4A5n
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkAnm0STPt
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1nGx2KGoq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LznNn79ie
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteioPjPPhz
I say "P-please s-stop.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhRiIzhydo
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk4j9uhbap
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7w51Dd5IU
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyCkaNmONj
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLelePKChP
"Look at her," another says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd1LlZ1EGX
I say "Please leave me alone."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3kMtpBQr2
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiWYtJIXoB
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtlgdKjltf
"We'll see. Let's see."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKg4nlGqqgV
I say "No no no.." They laugh.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWxLumM5eb
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwAkDOtUZS
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIXHpOJnEg
They untie me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR8uKgrVI9
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP5GhfYkZ3
"Ah... you're up," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElt3BIhqD3
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzMyY44DU0
"Where were you?" he asks,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmXbFqGLEe
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1uUy1KKbC
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyQmfn0AAK
Father smiles.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG09VIkR1f
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3igP7rrWxc
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMuwTC7rPu
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhecb5n6LJ
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5ivpNbX4T
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvvmxEYcbY
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPmjx4OF0M
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o1Ohmsm8W
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7oqO5U4kq
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXO5soBnUD
I say, "Please let me go!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIx50j9EWk
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV057NlJa7
"You will," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4nDRynO5O
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEtrrZUu8u
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4q4DyWYkW
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV3hT5y1ia
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55Rx5D6C6x
"Stop crying," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡws8XnSEoXV
"I can't!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiA6G2IUTm
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1lL5aiv8v
"Stop it!" I cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJSafmJ1Jo
"I said stop it!" he yells,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmK5sJU3Yq
"I can't," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgkpJ5FvOT
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8jkdkN4Di
"NO!" Father screams.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyNTgGaQba
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VifkeIELc
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKBP1j0GFP
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZiE7nQ2Un
"I would. I really would."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqAvlWb3Db
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgiAf4oNTA
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EBK74Ge5W
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwsgvIK7eH
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiO7TVv04e
I say, "No I'm not!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1pqVXbLLd
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3D2oYmqZTU
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyiYABtqx8
I say "No I won't!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTkLwxrMTR
"You will!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPBB0S9a7A
"I said NO!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n0gpqNmUv
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLwZ8udiPa
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi1GLGnMbJ
"I know you will," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEC6CL7bWw
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYv4agnLhR
He says "One."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdrEDRCMgw
I say, "I'll do anything.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6er9Ywrieg
"Two."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01exbrAolT
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8FkqJhk5K
"Three."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2yMlJEr7Y
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs8EiL5xcC
"No, don't do it," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmIYENIh1K
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN19JQvtXRt
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0aZRsu0o0
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf49qdjnkr
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nenBpsUVK
I say "Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lsrjEqeiw
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHTRvFCNx4
"Yes," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZekKa0fgG
"Good girl," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNREMBnyiiq
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbR1wuzsBsR
"I won't," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFoB8QhsF2
I stay tied up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34NiP9z4rY
"Now," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA62tlqWBa
"Kneel."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YMhq4mLM4
"Please," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMC4qKTT36
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ076Qed0eOf
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaxo2eWQox
I just know it.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEXJyI7sum
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTUFw5dNVJ
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPC1rJFAKTE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0g5gE1mZe
I'm all alone in the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxCqblXKtT
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I hear the door open. I look up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8VYY11hnO
"Hello," a man says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vG7esIkNg
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzpqB1DVe8
"Hands behind your back," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGp0Ocyu2Q
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddC2vYeHn7
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaS1PYXZLG
"Stay there," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUmfLaMvjA
I stay on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vaCWWAgfV
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LsuVbaFeu
I say "No no no."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ib0hAqCjB
"Do it," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4G4KENiLn
I say no. He pushes harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPqQnpfzYt
"Do it!" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVd5HO5rhpY
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lVES0Ba5c
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8Yyq4L4P1
"Stay there," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoiHqQdA5c
I stay on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaMaqAKmSh
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkSUAnelF3
"Stop moving."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOd1cIGdwv
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVtm9Lu4n5
He pulls it out of my throat.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vjcTDLhz2
"What's wrong?" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMZc6ScopP
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeC3gpY0bP
"What?" he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseyzbxiHM3
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh6Iaz1lgO
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQBo0OQM5i
"Is this too big for you?" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwHd7vgGdL
I nod.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUOeCugbZY
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXZT6SyikA
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMcX2OpJvK
He shoves it back in.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOYMBeL6MQ
I decide that vomiting once is enough.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86Hb4v3nIl
He shoves it in deeper.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRZ4TxKIlX
I struggle and fight.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJqhsuuX5m
"Stop fighting me," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNopHwYX9t
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySQxXBnXY9
"Get dressed," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KoBU5uI2j
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMLtdkA1LW
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH4aW9ykAl
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonBl7iikyW
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY975CdC8yH
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi89mku98G
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ23JzewacA
I say, "Where's dad?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWGt9RZ9lU
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W4Gvjn2bD
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Q2YcHSmX
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnBk11gwgp
My father says, "Where have you been?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Aipn7Hvfd
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SSMpCAfGB
"Did they hurt you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MZ91theDP
"Yeah," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihXR69iaHY
"I'm sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡag4AKY8GVf
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRp2Neluyh
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwWgsuV9km
"Is Allie in here?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2aOBeVArU
My dad says, "Yes, why?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0mDBD7DlP
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFRH1FmmWR
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOICme5tLYl
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYWb0YF3uj
"No." I respond,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA4GCgv9EJ
"Can we come in?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxY0Zd8DUX
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KE3clwJpD
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnabRIQjWNx
I say, "I don't know."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlksw79vuj
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ445r9TXkjO
"No." I say,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTb5iMfSc0
"Are you sure?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjIcZtGlDF
"Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RK3eC9yf9
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSSmISiPOL
"Did he give you any food or water?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj4ly4RUnc
"No." I respond.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvPWuSv715
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabnaTMWK27
"No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcsDqel5x4
"What did he do to you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZzD5u0SY4
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcFGM9j6Mm
"Did you fight him?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPc88nJhZC8
"I tried."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQE8crazHF
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SGvRPDOgK
"I think I blacked out."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldLIgvsbUM
"I see."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xd6EjKvuP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgJvk8AujY
"And how long were you with him?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpZSLTKx8q
"I think about ten hours."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwkmDIM3gM
"And you only just managed to escape?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrYObhW3DG
"Yeah."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWxxyRQfD2
"Do you know where you were?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpRoqCPMfC
I say "No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzXJJlmJJT
"What is the last thing you remember?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwGvnAb9Rd
"I remember walking down the road."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8UBA9b8zd
"And then?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpxEK2Z57n
"I don't remember."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WQNFxMCJC
"Do you know how you got away?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvbLtfHw9X
I say, "I just ran,"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JTLmSJUMt
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsadgbxGDw9
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqU8ofPk7Eo
I say, "So that's how it all happened."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQduka3YFSY
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtxhBCXnzR
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QbH6Bh5Hf
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6nC3NZxsM
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUV45JTj9A
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g0UgoEZkr
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tcKgdyjit
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGzUmFtU3v
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojNIBcnXHZ
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqySi8j9Lbl
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7NMrAMTlo
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6I1LAe7Np
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2g6qUjwq6
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOey8wPOdp
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBYasjygkf
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8ZFxOwkfz
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW1OmwNV9B
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4SBrFuGMZ
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHM0t7H2dX
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjDQgDe0Bq
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirRmr5w9Ka
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjho0PNaK92
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRpSQwj6Dh
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvOebpWAsa
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgaffqh5ok
"Get up." he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T1OQ7jedG
"Why am I here?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUSwyxpJp2
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTY2kUgNQk
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoyASUof8T
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFxPE830Er
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDojUedqvmC
I sit down.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkhnhvoeGP
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkqq2ZlHwt
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWYuHqDHKu
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoIFALckgT
I say, "No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0gF0EqJfY
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMapzq0ZshV
I respond, "Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCJpx80wjE
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzJ6yIlEvr
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryDphYhuPA
"Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXh16dmQoE
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf3XGBRdYd
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpWYzKrrEf
I say, "Hi."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCFimaEDgq
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipWQ8k3jE4
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1fs3XUnF
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWReSW8Gls
"Right away," says the woman.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VqAlsZrPH
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrdUXQtKYm
I say, "Okay."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeNBrxo07C
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL1ogLYmDo
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlJ4un5dIk
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡep7F1eSyrI
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr2U532jbg
"He kidnapped me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2pOQlmEul
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkCUiSROTx
I say, "He tried to stab me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwBw6fOpK2
"Who was he?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGnFY6eaKS
"I don't know."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKd80tiPcqD
"Where did you get the knife?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gvB0SN0Fd
"He had it in his pocket."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv9JPegXjs
"Did he threaten you in any way?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3erspRbiK
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGryF1ONjh
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvngce3QwGh
"No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkxVgvJfUR
"You sure? Think hard."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3MEloedks
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM20pQtGC2
I say, "He killed my father."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqXgaYygwU
"What?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3Bagus0Mk
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLaIK58ynz
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7J9d5YLsw
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIx1H45sXr
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfkq3JGyd3
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24nFWcfKKy
I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbTVuR8xPi
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV21dveGX2X
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qo3lzV3xD
I follow him.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYj2scsXWU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTO47OIXijh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ2PWQCtR9
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviF0FtT3Vd
"Alright. Take a seat."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDeBVbCKkq
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw1UPxBGTt
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN9MPlwwzj
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOl3f4CkfRc
"Yes.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilXVnD4D53
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhekvRvvL69
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw42eyd6BL
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTDobSYe9G
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYs8jKbKjsn
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNhJmWNaFV
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq1obN06jy
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3O7xYivxJt
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC2vTayYP2
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACO0nSJukl
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccmzWXkeGX
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZIeh8hUIy
"What is it?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLrqyfeW6v
Doctor Kessel says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXgQcMABGJ
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbWhyLFPW9
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3VbnI6jdI
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS7qjsN5Ti
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSvTc6GFky
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiE71oJYs4
The nurse shakes her head, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAszaoQ7yni
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwewqnzFHfY
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJplJAK2wOL
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYdixiargu
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwfTE5lV0w
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnrOuJo5Q7
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNgoaEyjCy
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9FN9DTcT6
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfwxoZ6S5g
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyy4zCWxzO
I say "Where am I?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGmjTdQD8D
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbWn7j948C
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtz2asX8b0
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQjw6FziPF
I say, "I want to see my mom..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9l03x24WzB
The nurse interrupts me and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryEYMJTiBS
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwRuxW2pj3
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LQQHmhGo9
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1MC1BPVyr
"M-mom.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxIul6o59o
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwvIsebrHG
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXKexB2sET
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoOvnZRvks
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1hjcU1gjJ
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQ3XtYesIK
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fAGvkwkNc
"Yes.." I say quietly.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJCjDLLdXp
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfJsJSj25u
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7J5n2GXYo
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUt9MFEqP3
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra1Dc1mGQS
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK8MyqrkIc
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZXJpJbLiZ
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx5sKNWTbB
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWCb7ohZz3
I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNedvFtSJBB
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0dUXsgmDy
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJw6iCTSvb
I wipe the tears off my face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGSYpJKhSM
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60yN4KPVLS
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ255yqtTheh
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGVbrcvWjI
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELzXsfOrVS
I say, "Tell me!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV98qq7ZiCW
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet9mOh7Eqz
My heart drops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl7Kug2YKW
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtlexz9yMC
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In the morning, I get my visitors.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEIC7VGQAE
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbd6gHYACN
I say, "Wait!" She stops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwywWR7jLf
"What is it?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOGmR9c656
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulvexbmSUS
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmudWD8N54b
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYAoyzILDf
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR5FBkAMZg
I cry myself to sleep.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnuu9hDiBL
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCR0baC7TJ
"How are you doing, honey?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpGjmvxsjv
I say, "Horrible.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfvhXmjXOq
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpzon6ckXK
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcYrBwmdCJ
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80XnlMScan
"It's not your fault, honey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuZzwYAS48
I start crying again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS450DK8ph0
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2b6eYyYg2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyJcuFvZtU
Maybe I'm dead after all.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTGDxTT59X
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaW3YWiQJB
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeTdB3lPbu
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUlzR4kII7
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3yMwWKvl6
I say, "I still want to win this."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOedlnXSqr3
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDasJEtBrhO
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm55v6TvV2y
"Really?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNl9JrJ1C4
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6zPXykmf5
I start crying, and I can't stop.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLIYipjwng
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhuXwy122c
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8aR6mfGuG
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8adJHFimAv
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrjCbqcnoB
"I wanted to see the flowers."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwr18u1Jst
"Why are you out of your room?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTWR1DnlAy
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxSRPUWOfG
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga3PkTzzO0
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUNzYaOs0u
"Thank you for being you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQSfnte8lY
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucZTeyckGT
I make a decision.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtF1rV62zU
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc0SOueSS5
"What's your name?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmwFhQFEwb
"Allisa," I say, smiling.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjsQ2MtXER
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0biufyiTcr
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocRLqU4UpR
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vKlUELAq0
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMduz8tasws
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJawawHWm4i
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2MnfVcSiq
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT5sRJlJkT
"I just want to go home," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGQLMD4QE0
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDcykpBmZL
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU56vYwV5BO
Father sighs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ArAZoDOJA
I say "I don't want to stay here!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIxaGW3I5l
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVgiwG6Gdv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pRlFKxDuh
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHpNOAlZUu
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9CRmcAXmh
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsSAmiXZ4b
"Pet, come down from the tree."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrStgPyoHR
I stay silent.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Dz25FWnJM
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwslVSGDe20
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0WYlt6YwA
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ356pFF4yV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhyxz4JkNT
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUjmCzr3R3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHK1M3ktFqA
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVLtaweBT5
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLE7bjiSaH
I say, "Please don't hurt me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxArRZswvS
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXPGKEj5a3
I say, "Please don't!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgupfr7vHPL
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkN0mc1fs7
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5g4pIeB1u
"You'll find out soon enough, child."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZYXnRTNFW
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJukjSp24oT
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpbWhn7l6A
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc7FWEjbItI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ggMVdrTRZ
"Are you ready, child?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwON26C0ku
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zby0wFMNB
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetkwmgZdTB
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I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzW4XTDnZ9
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUJ1mqGiy7
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbSsx63CiA
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftTIZN0lGI
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBpSoFjMak
Father says "Good. Stay there."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvOSR8OOzD
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iBurnxeZV
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPMgw6ddxO
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrg01HFjkd
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8YpT2z72k
"Please!" I whisper.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHvCxfYy7b
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm7ymQ7PWm
I scream loudly.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Oh4d9pwa
My scream echoes throughout the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhRtCy4A5n
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkAnm0STPt
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1nGx2KGoq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LznNn79ie
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteioPjPPhz
I say "P-please s-stop.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhRiIzhydo
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk4j9uhbap
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7w51Dd5IU
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyCkaNmONj
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLelePKChP
"Look at her," another says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd1LlZ1EGX
I say "Please leave me alone."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3kMtpBQr2
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiWYtJIXoB
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtlgdKjltf
"We'll see. Let's see."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKg4nlGqqgV
I say "No no no.." They laugh.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWxLumM5eb
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwAkDOtUZS
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIXHpOJnEg
They untie me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR8uKgrVI9
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP5GhfYkZ3
"Ah... you're up," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElt3BIhqD3
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4
231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6A8Lt0l7G"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzMyY44DU0
"Where were you?" he asks,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmXbFqGLEe
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1uUy1KKbC
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyQmfn0AAK
Father smiles.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG09VIkR1f
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3igP7rrWxc
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMuwTC7rPu
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhecb5n6LJ
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5ivpNbX4T
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvvmxEYcbY
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPmjx4OF0M
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o1Ohmsm8W
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7oqO5U4kq
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXO5soBnUD
I say, "Please let me go!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIx50j9EWk
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV057NlJa7
"You will," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4nDRynO5O
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEtrrZUu8u
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4q4DyWYkW
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV3hT5y1ia
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55Rx5D6C6x
"Stop crying," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡws8XnSEoXV
"I can't!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiA6G2IUTm
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1lL5aiv8v
"Stop it!" I cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJSafmJ1Jo
"I said stop it!" he yells,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmK5sJU3Yq
"I can't," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgkpJ5FvOT
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8jkdkN4Di
"NO!" Father screams.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyNTgGaQba
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VifkeIELc
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKBP1j0GFP
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZiE7nQ2Un
"I would. I really would."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqAvlWb3Db
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgiAf4oNTA
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EBK74Ge5W
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwsgvIK7eH
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiO7TVv04e
I say, "No I'm not!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1pqVXbLLd
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3D2oYmqZTU
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyiYABtqx8
I say "No I won't!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTkLwxrMTR
"You will!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPBB0S9a7A
"I said NO!!!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n0gpqNmUv
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLwZ8udiPa
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi1GLGnMbJ
"I know you will," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEC6CL7bWw
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYv4agnLhR
He says "One."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdrEDRCMgw
I say, "I'll do anything.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6er9Ywrieg
"Two."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01exbrAolT
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8FkqJhk5K
"Three."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2yMlJEr7Y
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs8EiL5xcC
"No, don't do it," Father says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmIYENIh1K
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN19JQvtXRt
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0aZRsu0o0
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf49qdjnkr
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nenBpsUVK
I say "Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lsrjEqeiw
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHTRvFCNx4
"Yes," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZekKa0fgG
"Good girl," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNREMBnyiiq
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbR1wuzsBsR
"I won't," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFoB8QhsF2
I stay tied up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34NiP9z4rY
"Now," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA62tlqWBa
"Kneel."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YMhq4mLM4
"Please," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMC4qKTT36
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ076Qed0eOf
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaxo2eWQox
I just know it.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEXJyI7sum
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTUFw5dNVJ
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPC1rJFAKTE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0g5gE1mZe
I'm all alone in the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxCqblXKtT
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVezi6EvVrI hear the door open. I look up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8VYY11hnO
"Hello," a man says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vG7esIkNg
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzpqB1DVe8
"Hands behind your back," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGp0Ocyu2Q
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddC2vYeHn7
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaS1PYXZLG
"Stay there," he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUmfLaMvjA
I stay on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vaCWWAgfV
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LsuVbaFeu
I say "No no no."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ib0hAqCjB
"Do it," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4G4KENiLn
I say no. He pushes harder.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPqQnpfzYt
"Do it!" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVd5HO5rhpY
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lVES0Ba5c
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8Yyq4L4P1
"Stay there," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoiHqQdA5c
I stay on my knees.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaMaqAKmSh
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkSUAnelF3
"Stop moving."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOd1cIGdwv
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVtm9Lu4n5
He pulls it out of my throat.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vjcTDLhz2
"What's wrong?" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMZc6ScopP
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeC3gpY0bP
"What?" he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseyzbxiHM3
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh6Iaz1lgO
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQBo0OQM5i
"Is this too big for you?" he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwHd7vgGdL
I nod.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUOeCugbZY
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXZT6SyikA
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMcX2OpJvK
He shoves it back in.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOYMBeL6MQ
I decide that vomiting once is enough.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86Hb4v3nIl
He shoves it in deeper.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRZ4TxKIlX
I struggle and fight.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJqhsuuX5m
"Stop fighting me," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNopHwYX9t
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySQxXBnXY9
"Get dressed," he says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KoBU5uI2j
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMLtdkA1LW
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH4aW9ykAl
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nP1QzQHw4231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ043c3SKA5i
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonBl7iikyW
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY975CdC8yH
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi89mku98G
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ23JzewacA
I say, "Where's dad?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWGt9RZ9lU
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W4Gvjn2bD
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Q2YcHSmX
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnBk11gwgp
My father says, "Where have you been?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Aipn7Hvfd
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SSMpCAfGB
"Did they hurt you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MZ91theDP
"Yeah," I say.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihXR69iaHY
"I'm sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡag4AKY8GVf
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRp2Neluyh
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwWgsuV9km
"Is Allie in here?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2aOBeVArU
My dad says, "Yes, why?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0mDBD7DlP
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFRH1FmmWR
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOICme5tLYl
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYWb0YF3uj
"No." I respond,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA4GCgv9EJ
"Can we come in?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxY0Zd8DUX
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KE3clwJpD
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnabRIQjWNx
I say, "I don't know."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlksw79vuj
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ445r9TXkjO
"No." I say,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTb5iMfSc0
"Are you sure?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjIcZtGlDF
"Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RK3eC9yf9
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSSmISiPOL
"Did he give you any food or water?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj4ly4RUnc
"No." I respond.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvPWuSv715
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabnaTMWK27
"No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcsDqel5x4
"What did he do to you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZzD5u0SY4
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcFGM9j6Mm
"Did you fight him?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPc88nJhZC8
"I tried."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQE8crazHF
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SGvRPDOgK
"I think I blacked out."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldLIgvsbUM
"I see."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xd6EjKvuP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgJvk8AujY
"And how long were you with him?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpZSLTKx8q
"I think about ten hours."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwkmDIM3gM
"And you only just managed to escape?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrYObhW3DG
"Yeah."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWxxyRQfD2
"Do you know where you were?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpRoqCPMfC
I say "No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzXJJlmJJT
"What is the last thing you remember?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwGvnAb9Rd
"I remember walking down the road."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8UBA9b8zd
"And then?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpxEK2Z57n
"I don't remember."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WQNFxMCJC
"Do you know how you got away?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvbLtfHw9X
I say, "I just ran,"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JTLmSJUMt
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsadgbxGDw9
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqU8ofPk7Eo
I say, "So that's how it all happened."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQduka3YFSY
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtxhBCXnzR
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QbH6Bh5Hf
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6nC3NZxsM
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUV45JTj9A
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g0UgoEZkr
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tcKgdyjit
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGzUmFtU3v
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojNIBcnXHZ
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqySi8j9Lbl
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7NMrAMTlo
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6I1LAe7Np
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2g6qUjwq6
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOey8wPOdp
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBYasjygkf
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8ZFxOwkfz
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW1OmwNV9B
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rWvcWBxo3At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4SBrFuGMZ
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHM0t7H2dX
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjDQgDe0Bq
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirRmr5w9Ka
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjho0PNaK92
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRpSQwj6Dh
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvOebpWAsa
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgaffqh5ok
"Get up." he says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T1OQ7jedG
"Why am I here?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUSwyxpJp2
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTY2kUgNQk
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoyASUof8T
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFxPE830Er
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDojUedqvmC
I sit down.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkhnhvoeGP
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkqq2ZlHwt
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWYuHqDHKu
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoIFALckgT
I say, "No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0gF0EqJfY
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMapzq0ZshV
I respond, "Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCJpx80wjE
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzJ6yIlEvr
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryDphYhuPA
"Yes."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXh16dmQoE
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf3XGBRdYd
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpWYzKrrEf
I say, "Hi."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCFimaEDgq
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipWQ8k3jE4
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1fs3XUnF
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWReSW8Gls
"Right away," says the woman.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VqAlsZrPH
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrdUXQtKYm
I say, "Okay."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeNBrxo07C
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL1ogLYmDo
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlJ4un5dIk
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡep7F1eSyrI
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr2U532jbg
"He kidnapped me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2pOQlmEul
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkCUiSROTx
I say, "He tried to stab me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwBw6fOpK2
"Who was he?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGnFY6eaKS
"I don't know."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKd80tiPcqD
"Where did you get the knife?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gvB0SN0Fd
"He had it in his pocket."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv9JPegXjs
"Did he threaten you in any way?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3erspRbiK
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGryF1ONjh
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvngce3QwGh
"No."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkxVgvJfUR
"You sure? Think hard."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3MEloedks
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM20pQtGC2
I say, "He killed my father."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqXgaYygwU
"What?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3Bagus0Mk
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLaIK58ynz
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7J9d5YLsw
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIx1H45sXr
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfkq3JGyd3
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24nFWcfKKy
I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbTVuR8xPi
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV21dveGX2X
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qo3lzV3xD
I follow him.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYj2scsXWU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTO47OIXijh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ2PWQCtR9
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviF0FtT3Vd
"Alright. Take a seat."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDeBVbCKkq
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw1UPxBGTt
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN9MPlwwzj
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOl3f4CkfRc
"Yes.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilXVnD4D53
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhekvRvvL69
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw42eyd6BL
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTDobSYe9G
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYs8jKbKjsn
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNhJmWNaFV
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq1obN06jy
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3O7xYivxJt
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC2vTayYP2
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACO0nSJukl
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccmzWXkeGX
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZIeh8hUIy
"What is it?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLrqyfeW6v
Doctor Kessel says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXgQcMABGJ
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbWhyLFPW9
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3VbnI6jdI
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS7qjsN5Ti
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSvTc6GFky
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiE71oJYs4
The nurse shakes her head, and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAszaoQ7yni
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwewqnzFHfY
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJplJAK2wOL
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYdixiargu
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwfTE5lV0w
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnrOuJo5Q7
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNgoaEyjCy
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9FN9DTcT6
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfwxoZ6S5g
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyy4zCWxzO
I say "Where am I?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGmjTdQD8D
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbWn7j948C
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtz2asX8b0
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQjw6FziPF
I say, "I want to see my mom..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9l03x24WzB
The nurse interrupts me and says,231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryEYMJTiBS
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwRuxW2pj3
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LQQHmhGo9
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBakN2fg7LA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1MC1BPVyr
"M-mom.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxIul6o59o
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwvIsebrHG
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXKexB2sET
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoOvnZRvks
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1hjcU1gjJ
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQ3XtYesIK
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fAGvkwkNc
"Yes.." I say quietly.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJCjDLLdXp
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfJsJSj25u
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7J5n2GXYo
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUt9MFEqP3
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra1Dc1mGQS
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK8MyqrkIc
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZXJpJbLiZ
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx5sKNWTbB
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWCb7ohZz3
I say, "Okay.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNedvFtSJBB
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0dUXsgmDy
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJw6iCTSvb
I wipe the tears off my face.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGSYpJKhSM
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60yN4KPVLS
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ255yqtTheh
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGVbrcvWjI
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELzXsfOrVS
I say, "Tell me!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV98qq7ZiCW
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet9mOh7Eqz
My heart drops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl7Kug2YKW
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtlexz9yMC
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231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O1CkjVL8LIn the morning, I get my visitors.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEIC7VGQAE
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbd6gHYACN
I say, "Wait!" She stops.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwywWR7jLf
"What is it?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOGmR9c656
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulvexbmSUS
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmudWD8N54b
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYAoyzILDf
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR5FBkAMZg
I cry myself to sleep.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnuu9hDiBL
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCR0baC7TJ
"How are you doing, honey?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpGjmvxsjv
I say, "Horrible.."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfvhXmjXOq
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpzon6ckXK
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcYrBwmdCJ
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80XnlMScan
"It's not your fault, honey."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuZzwYAS48
I start crying again.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS450DK8ph0
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2b6eYyYg2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyJcuFvZtU
Maybe I'm dead after all.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTGDxTT59X
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaW3YWiQJB
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeTdB3lPbu
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUlzR4kII7
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3yMwWKvl6
I say, "I still want to win this."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOedlnXSqr3
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDasJEtBrhO
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm55v6TvV2y
"Really?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNl9JrJ1C4
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6zPXykmf5
I start crying, and I can't stop.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLIYipjwng
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhuXwy122c
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8aR6mfGuG
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8adJHFimAv
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrjCbqcnoB
"I wanted to see the flowers."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwr18u1Jst
"Why are you out of your room?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTWR1DnlAy
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxSRPUWOfG
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga3PkTzzO0
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUNzYaOs0u
"Thank you for being you."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQSfnte8lY
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucZTeyckGT
I make a decision.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtF1rV62zU
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc0SOueSS5
"What's your name?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmwFhQFEwb
"Allisa," I say, smiling.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjsQ2MtXER
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0biufyiTcr
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocRLqU4UpR
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vKlUELAq0
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.231Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMduz8tasws
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