You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR9nalNv9E
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6UL8zrIpW
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe9WxUgA8W
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJZqJLq5BB
"I just want to go home," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NkGtmkB0a
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM0V0Pi1fP
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1taX3Tat1
Father sighs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvBYWij5fW
I say "I don't want to stay here!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODkUMDbUut
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmlUgEZARU
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo29c2FeaYX
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo1FdL5sDd
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPAFTFg1Up
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCSvp3l6YG
"Pet, come down from the tree."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKQX1oHlsa
I stay silent.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7n5tT37IH
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD1BYYCtdD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLKcoHlEC1
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzGrglk5SN
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qN5F5UW5j
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcGcIA0uaC
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXzfTsKw7C
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXWZ7CvyAR
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTLjeQXo1u
I say, "Please don't hurt me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8qbK2afiG
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ683rZtQ9cd
I say, "Please don't!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUzdPOF5jr
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUZLlUah5W
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkNi3I3CuU
"You'll find out soon enough, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoEEiICWRL
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9F8jz9fuIo
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv40o3XIXn6
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ANQgylGCI
"Are you ready, child?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiJapCJ2dx
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZZi0GoPmH
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewuTvRI8cA
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I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFaW6OPHuO
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Yss8zaNo
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s9qu39FTN
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkMBzlIWPJ
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs9WSEnPzk
Father says "Good. Stay there."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSRScNKibT
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5xweMkKxs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNSOSjluqQ
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4XZtpdzIY
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxqb6hwfuA
"Please!" I whisper.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoc6foDTwE
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliLcmWeeTP
I scream loudly.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WxkjY5j3R
My scream echoes throughout the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgktFoU3Wx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6oRTfVzC5
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2Ww8qukkr
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaobtndg79r
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aAmiTlqVz
I say "P-please s-stop.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc228wSvGqY
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CBvIktinz
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX33y5g8ggO
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNnqsZjYFQ
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhcA5D2dpL
"Look at her," another says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv6iYcoLwI
I say "Please leave me alone."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yORtUflrJ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqkBCoJDQl
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6OGoWgWZZ
"We'll see. Let's see."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsZNf2UeAc
I say "No no no.." They laugh.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs3Vi3fH9s
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDX0XiwxX43
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgnMx5Q6B8
They untie me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxlKM2FZd9
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaJZ9Q9Mcw
"Ah... you're up," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFCOaAKOr0
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO7K8CWXJK
"Where were you?" he asks,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXUi6L4Bsj
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJ3hXj33zy
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q8jwwRUrZ
Father smiles.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fDf4ZiWXd
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjdIGpdrXO
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW14VIyUWT
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUbfnLfBft
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRhidoHgou
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1a4VFPd9Z
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbuPngGnza
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE35VICwQ2u
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsMB5bAdkn
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWUi1YH6pE
I say, "Please let me go!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJfhxYhMRa
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvcc1qDc2l
"You will," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsMK5gKg6k
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrjwM4xsgR
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0uRuMwXN5
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALt0o1eY94
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8LXpCo3CY
"Stop crying," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpU8vEuAR8
"I can't!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWZXd9z8TG
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrg6xL2pxsU
"Stop it!" I cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVL4UvNM0rk
"I said stop it!" he yells,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKeE8in090
"I can't," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlX9A9U3Iyf
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeA9Z2zSbB
"NO!" Father screams.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK3AZJwimi
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUJz7ExsrI
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLeSCM1pAP
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHIdrUU8VR
"I would. I really would."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBCGlhQDuq
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKpDEERycy
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfSLaOiqVk
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45iySobDe8
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYuXk2rcxX
I say, "No I'm not!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAb5v4yCrO
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENmSc5mki7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz66fp5q4tA
I say "No I won't!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaYiSQpYNE
"You will!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOarb6FXLc
"I said NO!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6w85tGGaR
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsldKGPJdLh
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXrCqN7v5p
"I know you will," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWpKLNwR5Y
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dZy8At5tc
He says "One."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxnmSt0IZB
I say, "I'll do anything.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX28xH8k9PE
"Two."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfiuFVWQix
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkmvxyx7id
"Three."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0XRlunGjT
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUBYHktOmc
"No, don't do it," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VpusE4IHG
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iMj40GqHs
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7gfGqNXqg
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsWVYHELG2
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWzZwZ16Qg
I say "Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IQImCSlEn
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEhYTYcczN
"Yes," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYhebguc3I
"Good girl," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFmg9rHZ18
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06906E6B1P
"I won't," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9M75cv6Ipl
I stay tied up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaQL3SzoG4
"Now," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTgmvJpW50
"Kneel."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa3eBTKp2O
"Please," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfps4hfM5mA
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SPaC7u2ft
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpnl460pfN
I just know it.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzA9UGiwla
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GcLrNPdL5
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2jPJ1PBcc
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD3kh3e9hd
I'm all alone in the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZk25HyB8G
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I hear the door open. I look up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtkQhQS1WI
"Hello," a man says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5hlrFvKZZ
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSlj55Tojd
"Hands behind your back," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImGuYIEuBD
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwq6GcPu1d
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AC0yXswgq
"Stay there," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDvOkPJPPt
I stay on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgXuPNQv57
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LH0Cs0URb
I say "No no no."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPskAGX2dcX
"Do it," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPssnTppkF
I say no. He pushes harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF1pgjRskS
"Do it!" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kERXbOKIh
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ7Ryxnbmr
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdQZfSXQmH
"Stay there," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dimcLMTcP
I stay on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEYiucNigr
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNMfHQpIgG
"Stop moving."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDVMrEXIZb
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoYzLlOlSj
He pulls it out of my throat.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrsswKghGa
"What's wrong?" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IjaEm8NHa
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpMWRaBrpr
"What?" he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMdbPcn175
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeJdWNpRIS
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDlawH1rUN
"Is this too big for you?" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqHjgbivmI
I nod.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaPgTryfja
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uim2k1HGY
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHb3Jeudi0
He shoves it back in.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hjnhaBLR6
I decide that vomiting once is enough.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qh7ajNdKg
He shoves it in deeper.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1XNTk1JtF
I struggle and fight.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGTUwC2iP6
"Stop fighting me," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlu0i6flfY
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnrVjaKySy
"Get dressed," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzkr9mOe78
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWe9DNm5qC
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UGZrSK7PQ
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh3rWwTj6m
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ebR2IrFTb
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7whoRnUQly
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBPsAPXLfq
I say, "Where's dad?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rl3kx58sN
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzT1FyZlm8
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAWYCtm392
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQViO0m5VKS
My father says, "Where have you been?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepJCFKGq9X
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSXqHqMwOO
"Did they hurt you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC6oLL0Pc3
"Yeah," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1r6Qjx0ND
"I'm sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIK6mDVvO3
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzlyi8megB
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGBmFb7R3m
"Is Allie in here?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMygWnZKhRa
My dad says, "Yes, why?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVkIdkfjUb
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpris2OMMAY
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs52EPwM0Qn
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWaoJcaxwT
"No." I respond,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT4NWkLROu
"Can we come in?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZbMGOqZkE
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGgCBCy7iQ
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4yBiI0L1K
I say, "I don't know."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FTW4483Pz
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDzHXxBgix
"No." I say,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3Ns4bwepa
"Are you sure?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO7w60WLLo
"Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnoX01bkXp
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7D7H1uuqE
"Did he give you any food or water?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yHSn9F2nj
"No." I respond.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNSrMsbasN
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4G6r6eIDC
"No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZt0nTKudje
"What did he do to you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMasj4gvoQ
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0CBO1vP34
"Did you fight him?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBmsTx9pba
"I tried."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72ePoTfs4B
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdew32dbRDQ
"I think I blacked out."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTh9v5fiaS
"I see."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvR6bud3gB
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NRMSpQoJx
"And how long were you with him?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhDEP1D1Yx
"I think about ten hours."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuGYdwld86
"And you only just managed to escape?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCxBW7dEdd
"Yeah."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iXhoXqXW6
"Do you know where you were?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7wutyNWPh
I say "No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzH5nZPI4xL
"What is the last thing you remember?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyEqrrvymy
"I remember walking down the road."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rLLO2ma2Z
"And then?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY0aN1bYaB
"I don't remember."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5U1PSJ7vTn
"Do you know how you got away?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7ICsUJsto
I say, "I just ran,"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0iVwRiQ8V
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlYLr4j21j
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBEq8ItSB3
I say, "So that's how it all happened."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4DiTGPdFt
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBUEV3I7Xj
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlMvc1Eq7q
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tabBXRNqH
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbQIEeasta
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfqIgbBtRJ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRJZbPUCW9
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPU9OAuveNm
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iKzDnKJD0
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSDFVFJ88S
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKrw9rkkG7
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVO9TSlEnM
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjM2QsWvpX
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EmZoD2E9U
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy2NxhtXf7
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb5PlnHqbK
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGIDwB86XK
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8lhvpc70z
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj3cdHKWfq
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9t6MNg8z6W
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKcxWSkcI5
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4VJR2cOgn
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaAd88JcA1
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhyHbx5Wdp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNJNP2HI0B
"Get up." he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqp1wIRwPZm
"Why am I here?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk236941Dm
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR4IAjYFQq
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjgahBMqm
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NQH8bKPpz
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfieseaeXk
I sit down.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1Swd3VzYi
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuHLUNDW4f
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx0RBIOkbW
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErFUQJkHk5
I say, "No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJOFkaNWBA
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchdCQo47X9
I respond, "Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClEw4H1Bvj
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0rNojIygd
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOeNSjGZMw
"Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrm54uvqUhL
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdnGLVGnz6
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchiEvLudRF
I say, "Hi."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEVnVScZDB
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3fp1qu0kN
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQijEYqIvGU
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JTPXWwFG5
"Right away," says the woman.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEhNVl1FNl
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBczS1Ug2Qs
I say, "Okay."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0Qxct59fh
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcLmSW3s2Q
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuutJ8dbTQ0
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBJP860Eor
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUVnAYB4eH
"He kidnapped me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyJIXrMI2o
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8akpt5k0N
I say, "He tried to stab me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxujJLECxFL
"Who was he?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCuCQL2WLX
"I don't know."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwyonQR366
"Where did you get the knife?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n9dC6HQzI
"He had it in his pocket."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS51fw91To
"Did he threaten you in any way?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdBipWyTM1
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs3xx4P6BT
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLFIBtk0tq
"No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig7Q1Pmz7L
"You sure? Think hard."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgJy1mk72r
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRu0gZVcuK
I say, "He killed my father."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HecBUalfR
"What?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TtiYTJXHq
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX5KtPh6Ht
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRw5JqK2HkT
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8nEMiARZq
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfGRFWTRKx
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8ABSoBmSD
I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu72zyNbzZY
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5Vixmx3zR
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXniqXF3t1
I follow him.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphR1BUijiF
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPyeNfUviN
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCo12io0VTT
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHeoD0mc6w
"Alright. Take a seat."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09hBof9Ixr
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUgNl3msKT
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmZEDN2DRT
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTxdK9iYGD
"Yes.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbnr7p8uFt
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtrw7U0DPD
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvxic5Mbu4
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSj1sqlEo7
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrnwbbCQ5w
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsthPEfrTtS
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqupOJpUcLn
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVphVAiyA9
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7eFdcc7qg
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxuWDk1UGq
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2lwOM6Tcv
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaF5IzR62R
"What is it?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeECLQtTgm
Doctor Kessel says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgewEdcEF9
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmtR8OvOo7
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdLFHCvJBg
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Sya5LapIk
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQssrRysexi
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqo5yc2hy5v
The nurse shakes her head, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIq6AswVIT
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ErymjgIuy
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBIHVyxMyn
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVosmO2lwjz
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yw2Jewyne
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtZZeGmWap
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZiNwX2foC
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzf71iUrBs
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7RRvRcYwg
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Jc5tBmtq
I say "Where am I?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFF5Nq7PkWx
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtXb7Lw8jE
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHBjQ9gS46
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXs8O0cjRq
I say, "I want to see my mom..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHasfDBp9M
The nurse interrupts me and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3bdHAa3hA
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKP0zzVH2IU
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUJW0CRA11
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNMaeeJso6
"M-mom.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSp6qpxPov7
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBNHfxWqf6
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzukgULaCgw
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJEHoSvIpu
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxPNsCWLAD
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZHfITSWuI
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI48aeaM8uI
"Yes.." I say quietly.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZmmv8im19
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B7zweHHnV
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUqiDQhsor
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VNs7QmeNV
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVpKoRW6qY
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HxLTs8ks5
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyz01k9PGn
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnACCkbMgd
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVdHaz1Fqt
I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkxcT8nRzH
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWBsS8cBsq
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MFJ0531qR
I wipe the tears off my face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfguSr3SPq
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFKI4Zs01U
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuScayIAEHb
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKlEbrGfcA
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpT3O0qmOJ7
I say, "Tell me!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwwLmwj63k
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65Uoai5tLA
My heart drops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkH1c52Son
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTYK7kNoV8
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In the morning, I get my visitors.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblKi87f6Lt
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb75CE3nlg
I say, "Wait!" She stops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjsRiXSFYw
"What is it?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDdMuI2knZ
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYBPezyA5l
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpFQIHXz1T
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGrHwL4Uy1
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1CJdP3X8A
I cry myself to sleep.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjfRKxXOah
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NpwZ8rwuw
"How are you doing, honey?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFzV5SuLIy
I say, "Horrible.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ3ETnCCMl
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4ofb2Ytub
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwseVP43vv
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzbiMvQSGb
"It's not your fault, honey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aCrC4NaU7
I start crying again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuT3lNaio2
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUYpGWcQkj
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme81bxESrx
Maybe I'm dead after all.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6Zt5pXIFg
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZQplrZuCJ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTVQkkm3d4
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs3SPTwVGD
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEhpjhq3zG
I say, "I still want to win this."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGhJpzbGF1
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXSw0ksWml
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnVeK9B3ks
"Really?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzZJ2XtwsD
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVAD2lCf5o
I start crying, and I can't stop.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh6EBYnbsO
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuciIDhc4v
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa12atL9e5
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MiXI4jCgs
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9t1YmJR5A
"I wanted to see the flowers."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVrXUR4L6j
"Why are you out of your room?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0anWZKWJ2H
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtwwvFd6ny
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdxe1lRlfm
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lbjynVfU2
"Thank you for being you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2AFFZPO9z
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1rt6l4sNZ
I make a decision.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLutnteqUBR
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3iuui5QMU
"What's your name?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFmZmLiCib
"Allisa," I say, smiling.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNu0NE7Vha
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMb3c0NRn9
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDAx4sVRLP
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9UIO48nxM
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYmRlDOf1E
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6UL8zrIpW
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe9WxUgA8W
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJZqJLq5BB
"I just want to go home," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NkGtmkB0a
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM0V0Pi1fP
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1taX3Tat1
Father sighs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvBYWij5fW
I say "I don't want to stay here!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODkUMDbUut
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmlUgEZARU
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo29c2FeaYX
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo1FdL5sDd
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPAFTFg1Up
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCSvp3l6YG
"Pet, come down from the tree."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKQX1oHlsa
I stay silent.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7n5tT37IH
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD1BYYCtdD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLKcoHlEC1
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzGrglk5SN
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qN5F5UW5j
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcGcIA0uaC
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXzfTsKw7C
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXWZ7CvyAR
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTLjeQXo1u
I say, "Please don't hurt me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8qbK2afiG
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ683rZtQ9cd
I say, "Please don't!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUzdPOF5jr
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUZLlUah5W
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkNi3I3CuU
"You'll find out soon enough, child."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoEEiICWRL
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9F8jz9fuIo
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv40o3XIXn6
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpvv2YcdXjI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ANQgylGCI
"Are you ready, child?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiJapCJ2dx
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZZi0GoPmH
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewuTvRI8cA
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I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFaW6OPHuO
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Yss8zaNo
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s9qu39FTN
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkMBzlIWPJ
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs9WSEnPzk
Father says "Good. Stay there."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSRScNKibT
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5xweMkKxs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNSOSjluqQ
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4XZtpdzIY
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxqb6hwfuA
"Please!" I whisper.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoc6foDTwE
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliLcmWeeTP
I scream loudly.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WxkjY5j3R
My scream echoes throughout the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgktFoU3Wx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6oRTfVzC5
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2Ww8qukkr
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaobtndg79r
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aAmiTlqVz
I say "P-please s-stop.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc228wSvGqY
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CBvIktinz
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX33y5g8ggO
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNnqsZjYFQ
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhcA5D2dpL
"Look at her," another says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv6iYcoLwI
I say "Please leave me alone."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yORtUflrJ
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqkBCoJDQl
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6OGoWgWZZ
"We'll see. Let's see."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsZNf2UeAc
I say "No no no.." They laugh.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs3Vi3fH9s
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDX0XiwxX43
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgnMx5Q6B8
They untie me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxlKM2FZd9
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaJZ9Q9Mcw
"Ah... you're up," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFCOaAKOr0
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4xXd2ZSVN"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO7K8CWXJK
"Where were you?" he asks,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXUi6L4Bsj
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJ3hXj33zy
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q8jwwRUrZ
Father smiles.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fDf4ZiWXd
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjdIGpdrXO
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW14VIyUWT
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUbfnLfBft
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRhidoHgou
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1a4VFPd9Z
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbuPngGnza
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE35VICwQ2u
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsMB5bAdkn
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWUi1YH6pE
I say, "Please let me go!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJfhxYhMRa
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvcc1qDc2l
"You will," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsMK5gKg6k
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrjwM4xsgR
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0uRuMwXN5
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALt0o1eY94
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8LXpCo3CY
"Stop crying," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpU8vEuAR8
"I can't!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWZXd9z8TG
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrg6xL2pxsU
"Stop it!" I cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVL4UvNM0rk
"I said stop it!" he yells,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKeE8in090
"I can't," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlX9A9U3Iyf
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeA9Z2zSbB
"NO!" Father screams.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK3AZJwimi
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUJz7ExsrI
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLeSCM1pAP
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHIdrUU8VR
"I would. I really would."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBCGlhQDuq
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKpDEERycy
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfSLaOiqVk
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45iySobDe8
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYuXk2rcxX
I say, "No I'm not!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAb5v4yCrO
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENmSc5mki7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz66fp5q4tA
I say "No I won't!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaYiSQpYNE
"You will!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOarb6FXLc
"I said NO!!!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6w85tGGaR
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsldKGPJdLh
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXrCqN7v5p
"I know you will," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWpKLNwR5Y
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dZy8At5tc
He says "One."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxnmSt0IZB
I say, "I'll do anything.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX28xH8k9PE
"Two."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfiuFVWQix
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkmvxyx7id
"Three."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0XRlunGjT
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUBYHktOmc
"No, don't do it," Father says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VpusE4IHG
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iMj40GqHs
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7gfGqNXqg
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsWVYHELG2
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWzZwZ16Qg
I say "Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IQImCSlEn
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEhYTYcczN
"Yes," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYhebguc3I
"Good girl," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFmg9rHZ18
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06906E6B1P
"I won't," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9M75cv6Ipl
I stay tied up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaQL3SzoG4
"Now," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTgmvJpW50
"Kneel."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa3eBTKp2O
"Please," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfps4hfM5mA
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SPaC7u2ft
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpnl460pfN
I just know it.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzA9UGiwla
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GcLrNPdL5
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2jPJ1PBcc
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD3kh3e9hd
I'm all alone in the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZk25HyB8G
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcAeSUDK0GI hear the door open. I look up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtkQhQS1WI
"Hello," a man says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5hlrFvKZZ
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSlj55Tojd
"Hands behind your back," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImGuYIEuBD
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwq6GcPu1d
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AC0yXswgq
"Stay there," he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDvOkPJPPt
I stay on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgXuPNQv57
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LH0Cs0URb
I say "No no no."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPskAGX2dcX
"Do it," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPssnTppkF
I say no. He pushes harder.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF1pgjRskS
"Do it!" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kERXbOKIh
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ7Ryxnbmr
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdQZfSXQmH
"Stay there," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dimcLMTcP
I stay on my knees.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEYiucNigr
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNMfHQpIgG
"Stop moving."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDVMrEXIZb
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoYzLlOlSj
He pulls it out of my throat.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrsswKghGa
"What's wrong?" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IjaEm8NHa
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpMWRaBrpr
"What?" he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMdbPcn175
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeJdWNpRIS
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDlawH1rUN
"Is this too big for you?" he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqHjgbivmI
I nod.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaPgTryfja
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uim2k1HGY
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHb3Jeudi0
He shoves it back in.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hjnhaBLR6
I decide that vomiting once is enough.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qh7ajNdKg
He shoves it in deeper.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1XNTk1JtF
I struggle and fight.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGTUwC2iP6
"Stop fighting me," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlu0i6flfY
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnrVjaKySy
"Get dressed," he says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzkr9mOe78
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWe9DNm5qC
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UGZrSK7PQ
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWT3m179hVJ224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsE7M7MJmU
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh3rWwTj6m
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ebR2IrFTb
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7whoRnUQly
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBPsAPXLfq
I say, "Where's dad?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rl3kx58sN
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzT1FyZlm8
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAWYCtm392
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQViO0m5VKS
My father says, "Where have you been?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepJCFKGq9X
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSXqHqMwOO
"Did they hurt you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC6oLL0Pc3
"Yeah," I say.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1r6Qjx0ND
"I'm sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIK6mDVvO3
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzlyi8megB
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGBmFb7R3m
"Is Allie in here?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMygWnZKhRa
My dad says, "Yes, why?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVkIdkfjUb
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpris2OMMAY
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs52EPwM0Qn
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWaoJcaxwT
"No." I respond,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT4NWkLROu
"Can we come in?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZbMGOqZkE
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGgCBCy7iQ
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4yBiI0L1K
I say, "I don't know."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FTW4483Pz
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDzHXxBgix
"No." I say,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3Ns4bwepa
"Are you sure?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO7w60WLLo
"Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnoX01bkXp
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7D7H1uuqE
"Did he give you any food or water?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yHSn9F2nj
"No." I respond.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNSrMsbasN
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4G6r6eIDC
"No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZt0nTKudje
"What did he do to you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMasj4gvoQ
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0CBO1vP34
"Did you fight him?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBmsTx9pba
"I tried."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72ePoTfs4B
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdew32dbRDQ
"I think I blacked out."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTh9v5fiaS
"I see."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvR6bud3gB
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NRMSpQoJx
"And how long were you with him?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhDEP1D1Yx
"I think about ten hours."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuGYdwld86
"And you only just managed to escape?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCxBW7dEdd
"Yeah."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iXhoXqXW6
"Do you know where you were?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7wutyNWPh
I say "No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzH5nZPI4xL
"What is the last thing you remember?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyEqrrvymy
"I remember walking down the road."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rLLO2ma2Z
"And then?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY0aN1bYaB
"I don't remember."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5U1PSJ7vTn
"Do you know how you got away?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7ICsUJsto
I say, "I just ran,"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0iVwRiQ8V
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlYLr4j21j
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBEq8ItSB3
I say, "So that's how it all happened."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4DiTGPdFt
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBUEV3I7Xj
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlMvc1Eq7q
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tabBXRNqH
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbQIEeasta
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfqIgbBtRJ
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRJZbPUCW9
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPU9OAuveNm
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iKzDnKJD0
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSDFVFJ88S
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKrw9rkkG7
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVO9TSlEnM
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjM2QsWvpX
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EmZoD2E9U
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy2NxhtXf7
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb5PlnHqbK
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGIDwB86XK
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoSiajyNfIAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8lhvpc70z
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj3cdHKWfq
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9t6MNg8z6W
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKcxWSkcI5
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4VJR2cOgn
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaAd88JcA1
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhyHbx5Wdp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNJNP2HI0B
"Get up." he says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqp1wIRwPZm
"Why am I here?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk236941Dm
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR4IAjYFQq
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjgahBMqm
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NQH8bKPpz
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfieseaeXk
I sit down.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1Swd3VzYi
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuHLUNDW4f
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx0RBIOkbW
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErFUQJkHk5
I say, "No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJOFkaNWBA
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchdCQo47X9
I respond, "Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClEw4H1Bvj
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0rNojIygd
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOeNSjGZMw
"Yes."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrm54uvqUhL
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdnGLVGnz6
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchiEvLudRF
I say, "Hi."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEVnVScZDB
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3fp1qu0kN
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQijEYqIvGU
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JTPXWwFG5
"Right away," says the woman.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEhNVl1FNl
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBczS1Ug2Qs
I say, "Okay."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0Qxct59fh
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcLmSW3s2Q
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuutJ8dbTQ0
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBJP860Eor
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUVnAYB4eH
"He kidnapped me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyJIXrMI2o
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8akpt5k0N
I say, "He tried to stab me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxujJLECxFL
"Who was he?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCuCQL2WLX
"I don't know."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwyonQR366
"Where did you get the knife?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n9dC6HQzI
"He had it in his pocket."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS51fw91To
"Did he threaten you in any way?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdBipWyTM1
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs3xx4P6BT
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLFIBtk0tq
"No."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig7Q1Pmz7L
"You sure? Think hard."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgJy1mk72r
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRu0gZVcuK
I say, "He killed my father."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HecBUalfR
"What?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TtiYTJXHq
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX5KtPh6Ht
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRw5JqK2HkT
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8nEMiARZq
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfGRFWTRKx
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8ABSoBmSD
I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu72zyNbzZY
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5Vixmx3zR
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXniqXF3t1
I follow him.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphR1BUijiF
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPyeNfUviN
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCo12io0VTT
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHeoD0mc6w
"Alright. Take a seat."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09hBof9Ixr
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUgNl3msKT
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmZEDN2DRT
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTxdK9iYGD
"Yes.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbnr7p8uFt
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtrw7U0DPD
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvxic5Mbu4
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSj1sqlEo7
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrnwbbCQ5w
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsthPEfrTtS
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqupOJpUcLn
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVphVAiyA9
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7eFdcc7qg
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxuWDk1UGq
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2lwOM6Tcv
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaF5IzR62R
"What is it?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeECLQtTgm
Doctor Kessel says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgewEdcEF9
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmtR8OvOo7
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdLFHCvJBg
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Sya5LapIk
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQssrRysexi
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqo5yc2hy5v
The nurse shakes her head, and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIq6AswVIT
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ErymjgIuy
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBIHVyxMyn
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVosmO2lwjz
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yw2Jewyne
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtZZeGmWap
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZiNwX2foC
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzf71iUrBs
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7RRvRcYwg
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Jc5tBmtq
I say "Where am I?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFF5Nq7PkWx
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtXb7Lw8jE
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHBjQ9gS46
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXs8O0cjRq
I say, "I want to see my mom..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHasfDBp9M
The nurse interrupts me and says,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3bdHAa3hA
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKP0zzVH2IU
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUJW0CRA11
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxzhb7tU77A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNMaeeJso6
"M-mom.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSp6qpxPov7
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBNHfxWqf6
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzukgULaCgw
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJEHoSvIpu
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxPNsCWLAD
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZHfITSWuI
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI48aeaM8uI
"Yes.." I say quietly.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZmmv8im19
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B7zweHHnV
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUqiDQhsor
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VNs7QmeNV
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVpKoRW6qY
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HxLTs8ks5
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyz01k9PGn
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnACCkbMgd
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVdHaz1Fqt
I say, "Okay.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkxcT8nRzH
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWBsS8cBsq
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MFJ0531qR
I wipe the tears off my face.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfguSr3SPq
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFKI4Zs01U
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuScayIAEHb
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKlEbrGfcA
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpT3O0qmOJ7
I say, "Tell me!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwwLmwj63k
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65Uoai5tLA
My heart drops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkH1c52Son
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTYK7kNoV8
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224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbnjHM2EhmIn the morning, I get my visitors.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblKi87f6Lt
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb75CE3nlg
I say, "Wait!" She stops.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjsRiXSFYw
"What is it?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDdMuI2knZ
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYBPezyA5l
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpFQIHXz1T
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGrHwL4Uy1
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1CJdP3X8A
I cry myself to sleep.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjfRKxXOah
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NpwZ8rwuw
"How are you doing, honey?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFzV5SuLIy
I say, "Horrible.."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ3ETnCCMl
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4ofb2Ytub
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwseVP43vv
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzbiMvQSGb
"It's not your fault, honey."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aCrC4NaU7
I start crying again.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuT3lNaio2
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUYpGWcQkj
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme81bxESrx
Maybe I'm dead after all.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6Zt5pXIFg
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZQplrZuCJ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTVQkkm3d4
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs3SPTwVGD
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEhpjhq3zG
I say, "I still want to win this."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGhJpzbGF1
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXSw0ksWml
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnVeK9B3ks
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"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVAD2lCf5o
I start crying, and I can't stop.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh6EBYnbsO
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuciIDhc4v
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa12atL9e5
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MiXI4jCgs
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9t1YmJR5A
"I wanted to see the flowers."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVrXUR4L6j
"Why are you out of your room?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0anWZKWJ2H
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtwwvFd6ny
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdxe1lRlfm
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lbjynVfU2
"Thank you for being you."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2AFFZPO9z
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1rt6l4sNZ
I make a decision.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLutnteqUBR
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3iuui5QMU
"What's your name?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFmZmLiCib
"Allisa," I say, smiling.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNu0NE7Vha
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMb3c0NRn9
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDAx4sVRLP
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9UIO48nxM
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYmRlDOf1E
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