You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwOtAdze4M
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG71QB1Ux7
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtcURlRaA3
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv3IyDTdOO
"I just want to go home," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nSULHs9CP
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvxBZmFJ9n
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAGxJDvPNw
Father sighs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgmuNcegv
I say "I don't want to stay here!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjxW18uryj
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboHAJb8Ulv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GqAFLj0Qu
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGiezMoDgh
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCERqDOKLr
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUtORw1XSo
"Pet, come down from the tree."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqzt9d6ylv
I stay silent.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9gMg44nrJ
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhieVEPtAT
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMM3HEKxrfU
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlciW8DtCGG
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8ISXKnHPf
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0JYSbWxXG
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSReq31vHh
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0LHP0y9Yj
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjBsRB75Nz
I say, "Please don't hurt me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmlVe6vwt2
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKwIDj5QaG
I say, "Please don't!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS6GGiEMXV
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFJy4iLZwb
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4z23YYPjI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlMTAfjRVT
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdpjL8Qi4m
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcAUlg45zN
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC1DEizbuy
"Are you ready, child?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOb5zLAOgo
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UCBYcJC4X
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE7j4W2fws
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I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalpUUyPgHX
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUmrrOFgm0
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzoL8NTFqK
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B4OaZNvBB
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFO0HJPdAV
Father says "Good. Stay there."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLNcqFVJD
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny95C8bFzj
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSZxsXpPn9
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC17vi08vU
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0KK7PFK8G
"Please!" I whisper.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclF2k5XS6c
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4JJoE1wvG
I scream loudly.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1akbh05Bye
My scream echoes throughout the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSbbdUdSUc
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYStC7fcdGI
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvytkYEIn4
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0tz9gbI6G
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rjhFIWrVU
I say "P-please s-stop.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOz6uG5ONg
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1f4tI6kCUn
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTYPZWpD0u
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT7fGx1sXH
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0ekRmH9OU
"Look at her," another says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTCfzmCBKv
I say "Please leave me alone."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHrF4xT3tV
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnFHG2ZkMp
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj5SEvFvff
"We'll see. Let's see."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxad6e5pf2V
I say "No no no.." They laugh.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvekE1C8FQz
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5FduQWyRa
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaU1Ayc2Nys
They untie me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWPDvJlwSN
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggBQzizT9Q
"Ah... you're up," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbOySvko9e
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHkjnH7Fop
"Where were you?" he asks,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX4OQJytsi
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngbcDf3Vr9
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNo4n6BAIC
Father smiles.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgchYvRqw1
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNCHa9VQXi
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOtzxh9OTw
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yIgnthnoT
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qAGjbSknD
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkjfzrKZp0
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZcRFTpdVn
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2MyQIoKMP
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbuzqNadgI
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIwcD2GTaG
I say, "Please let me go!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU39hGYhr4
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc4ubCNCz9
"You will," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAy7Eg5SFy
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4t1TgAcQ1k
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7SH5NCmLF
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmVU8Xd7sB
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLYFH3pNXb
"Stop crying," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw0hJ0T4OX
"I can't!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgJNRxwZTO
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiWoczQOPM
"Stop it!" I cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbVnhMJW8i
"I said stop it!" he yells,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqhKUhXnIp
"I can't," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT27KWR4sV4
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEdLUWjNZa
"NO!" Father screams.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNfnLJ7DcN
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuRawBp5Qa
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb942q03wp
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJz6TlyxrE
"I would. I really would."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBzCYGWG7s
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgn10KCVFJ
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4sMxicgJc
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNq1muEo1o
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYGx26zzXq
I say, "No I'm not!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61wtf2SrRL
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqufiM34St
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Rzy4D1A5t
I say "No I won't!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopzLNWmzlm
"You will!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm758Ic7iN
"I said NO!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuhZkp8RP5
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhbhnbzW7H
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G4ZPApHcH
"I know you will," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uF6nshG2m
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOM09PHRah
He says "One."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hMx5Wr2Os
I say, "I'll do anything.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvEaoPJkdo
"Two."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDIO7yb4rT
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kJmV9rtmX
"Three."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OWgECGOk5
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3c75QF1rs
"No, don't do it," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiGmRAYs4s
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgkDkTc8xl
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr9D4lVTqE
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdVIYMyHIF
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ234ok69XoN
I say "Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJbVfkdruj
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sxJd1UK2q
"Yes," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsS461sRO0F
"Good girl," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREX908Lhq2
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxox3SsJw2p
"I won't," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoeEbuJ7DI
I stay tied up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ15PvH9mmV
"Now," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0scX0z7Dw
"Kneel."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaiE7MONuP
"Please," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGC9tXEWlv
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgxlU9SHSM
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AoLZa4wXP
I just know it.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwntWLhzoOQ
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu2VdufjZ7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZurdVVKamE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvfWXcs7cm
I'm all alone in the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXQ4WTr9ZS
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I hear the door open. I look up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwXNSq5rps
"Hello," a man says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmkWVSHy48
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2h9oYOvDD
"Hands behind your back," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNcXAuLLkN
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PtIvy8X6D
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbmJDRBK19
"Stay there," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlUU6wXI0Z
I stay on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9UNPfIIzu
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcvyq8AAvw
I say "No no no."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkcqmyPu7Q
"Do it," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXvyGtx0Uq
I say no. He pushes harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECFMRDCbX5
"Do it!" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6pxlFKp74
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8qvR2H0Cw
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjtBN6BRIh
"Stay there," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ2svvOWaK
I stay on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCE8eYd2oc
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZV1yyY62a
"Stop moving."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBAWsuDeQW
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3IAtljMB4
He pulls it out of my throat.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoq8gbeCirW
"What's wrong?" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYaTdbOgSP
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHJIEP9V8n
"What?" he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8AFOigwuX
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMFCUuUr5m
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLPrccyrcH
"Is this too big for you?" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbP3uipJk1I
I nod.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYz1oddzG2
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8YWkTnQS5
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBlOHLc10k
He shoves it back in.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneUgxBI8kC
I decide that vomiting once is enough.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcItoP5QRmE
He shoves it in deeper.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzW4Wpqrw5
I struggle and fight.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxuUOPnLz
"Stop fighting me," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6HdjjxQtZ
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoEW7eKSnP
"Get dressed," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WSypp35Vd
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5gt8b3BDL
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDN5jB8VTg
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWd7kbqf7w
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoVrRAhUlB
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0kL8UpbvM
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7Ejn9q5Wa
I say, "Where's dad?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpsXoiIYdH
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9cvSEH4JT
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgHR9b0Yid
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1p3F7hKY4
My father says, "Where have you been?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm4mJLexZl
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNIZDK8tLp
"Did they hurt you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gEvjD5SWI
"Yeah," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53NfozNTiY
"I'm sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd0xcYB0iy
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6jYlZVMjX
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKn9pcZcd6
"Is Allie in here?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6IjUTj1Cn
My dad says, "Yes, why?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVKSJt79go
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODrHJW6lSk
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutIBKZk7CG
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3EUmBsUIw
"No." I respond,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RBvAB97Ca
"Can we come in?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeYfjghJIr
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYEQMaTRLQ
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarsJffVky6
I say, "I don't know."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzgQOfNvUo
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeApncRqHd
"No." I say,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXO29Wgt5c
"Are you sure?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W4ptzm4wC
"Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mzf7KaGT1
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELwEjAL7O4
"Did he give you any food or water?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGEsPtIUHW
"No." I respond.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJTjlsGJQY
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGSH5Dh6Vr
"No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVEKx8ReK6
"What did he do to you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIyGwmXJrI
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJQ4YJ7olY
"Did you fight him?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn5JYTdouN
"I tried."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mEwZhZAFh
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAbxZQDvsR
"I think I blacked out."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZk7iqMCZO
"I see."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUDg39E1JU
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgbdapEHSB
"And how long were you with him?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9IIeygy1g
"I think about ten hours."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc21Zm5cU95
"And you only just managed to escape?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPW3x7HCHs
"Yeah."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGToz69SFn
"Do you know where you were?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwQp6beRvY
I say "No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW19s1EKwB
"What is the last thing you remember?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4kNMBDzXT
"I remember walking down the road."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWhdCakG7O
"And then?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4ai5HMcTw
"I don't remember."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83be2jEpHN
"Do you know how you got away?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTve01cmCKx
I say, "I just ran,"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrz35ctmQo
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjlsEhvg7d
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHAlyKmfNK
I say, "So that's how it all happened."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkUfmqdi6d
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD9JYwSs35
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡris4LhX0pY
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMg54BBtDD
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkUAFhMSyJ
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BPVIVFZqf
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisRXW8P8Z4
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIOBjBwWOL
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ej3DOePQr
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdTeORPFCL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBe9OnsDcWF
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjIDuha03G
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBmYfmAms8
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhMgeKosZf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Lxv78MX7t
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvy9CdjKHP
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TIUomL1M2
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOCGJ740hx
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQEPEAQ0Zv
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo76eUbTVjT
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbQbXxbNsd
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a2EquOm53
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0sqEqACuf
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Coolgr7bS
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3XBkwrPCX
"Get up." he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY9TlZBA9b
"Why am I here?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdAaPGqS6V
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2oYXJ1ZAt
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzriBrNcfh
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLKGZwkLVP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaflQj0njO
I sit down.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV2DyKZzBx
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8KRwGkJbj
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvD4yurOsx
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivsr9k7wq3
I say, "No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPeRjbjBPS
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEDrOluxin
I respond, "Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEHY9afSdD
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMulPkqSH5c
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6E14t7TIS
"Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkpywUKRXc
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy2hBQKYiK
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sd8so59dG
I say, "Hi."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHRKekjC45
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOGLtPEJWU
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOT4E638WD
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTejnmeepZC
"Right away," says the woman.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx8q6wjNmJ
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMfuxr82TI
I say, "Okay."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZJf28GgzH
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U0tURKKaQ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrBzRxVPnb
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05L4zSB7P8
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA4OZlClM0
"He kidnapped me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeMOPUOqbH
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14678B2aC2
I say, "He tried to stab me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQLl94XJWi
"Who was he?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTZRguZ77o
"I don't know."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduaKTSmKwL
"Where did you get the knife?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm2y1bGL0o
"He had it in his pocket."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU58rAESLdj
"Did he threaten you in any way?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLCkBGofun
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVY0DaAJyZ2
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQY5EiXH4p
"No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lQ0hlTEn9
"You sure? Think hard."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvblOZIx2E
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvWjZoiHC8
I say, "He killed my father."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs76huOCB1
"What?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziSHzMDRs3
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYcdpZoesF
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEeVAmD01I
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43WpJRK1UP
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlLTXIFNNq
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPg6i9WEcq
I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWYFxZT8ZF
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiYvgBfIRM
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bYXyQGHqD
I follow him.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJX4yxIhxb
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvy8LOlk1P
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50a9pLoOTc
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLd4WdtjF9
"Alright. Take a seat."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJImi7jJY8
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFkpDMPU1N
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkyIrQyOmL
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve4cPNet39
"Yes.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVH1lCEXFIv
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkXmlVev3x
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZQGFjISKD
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQsfVhl4Er
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZLadTsBb1
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrYgl49I5L
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFq44akHpLp
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngwxHQRDtb
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzlYQXcNrV
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfyb9unh25
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUiVac5Y2C
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCSwAO6LJG
"What is it?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXRfke4nCC
Doctor Kessel says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNDpg6KaVo
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty4whgmEJH
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6cXIi4gl4
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2rKLgK40T
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTaZ2nqDIx
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh9g56GQu1
The nurse shakes her head, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTaB80dgED
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoqp5dfVxG
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJbkWIDEIX
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyfWSWiQ31
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5txaVwQei
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKtIxQzl9J
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvQVGzEjrP
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4GZnloWm5
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hHeW5rang
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Kb3RK6olX
I say "Where am I?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLGjLP9EUN
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmyew6S8cq
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WZP5n7eI9
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRIMwZCb6N
I say, "I want to see my mom..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqGXjZ6yjd
The nurse interrupts me and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZRtpYBgmS
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OU9gyOPaK
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlihmDRZn7r
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXLMPAFZ2v
"M-mom.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLiRXXTJzH
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLq2fnE71x
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbfU6JGlAH
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4Zp3UzbkU
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fiXnbEFrE
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdUrCsA4Lj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcO38skOgw
"Yes.." I say quietly.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAxI2TInTd
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrSTcNjPiF
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fnNPqYHsm
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfIV3Duxp5
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTt6PAR1JJW
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxK0X0vaWb
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz05n32hapj
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSHFi0aZfD
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I7emWpz2L
I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiaXickQKO
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoBx77cJr2
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevLBujl0T9
I wipe the tears off my face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuY8aieHdy
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLpSChUbAd
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NO8CE2MgB
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0ftJi9g22
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgbq3g35mP
I say, "Tell me!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl12wZvf5cc
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTUOP3AvWc
My heart drops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFuOy9KRer
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI4kzDN65p
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In the morning, I get my visitors.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WEYkJG8MJ
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdzBSGXBcP
I say, "Wait!" She stops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ii7X2mafq
"What is it?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzUuXqvQYs
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1mkg4CgOW
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EKE1uJIZT
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV0WvTU8iK
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lRjDO6kGS
I cry myself to sleep.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLlke98Rpi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSWVZBt7CH
"How are you doing, honey?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wL7yOELpg
I say, "Horrible.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMTwISDu0G
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZnuZgsL4t
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP79VPYc1a
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjURdHlau3k
"It's not your fault, honey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXXAfNK3YY
I start crying again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHp3HjyTZ4
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUm7u0NhHY
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewytjamXvX
Maybe I'm dead after all.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos7LzcJdCM
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVradX8oze
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ETWp4ERo6
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHmhGvNHsv
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfhwYl8HvN
I say, "I still want to win this."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qwc0aAPok
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdmmDr1quR
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1FDLUzs3y
"Really?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylk5yLJq25
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAo7bgSzb3
I start crying, and I can't stop.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GbIYjzWR5
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGs6b7Yqnk
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6HEarFp9i
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclGzAvss9W
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw35j9fe55
"I wanted to see the flowers."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxwT4wOznC
"Why are you out of your room?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHlJnGwmCg
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbhKhalWIp
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YHjtC4PRx
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQMRFeciRw
"Thank you for being you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek0SFZuRwY
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rPyTCAy1a
I make a decision.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmmlO6Iyqb
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z2av2DKPE
"What's your name?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynL479ifw5
"Allisa," I say, smiling.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXC0isal92
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPTaZDRXtD
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncb6UtCPFw
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVNstAtmSQ
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXCLrDaN5h
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG71QB1Ux7
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtcURlRaA3
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv3IyDTdOO
"I just want to go home," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nSULHs9CP
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvxBZmFJ9n
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAGxJDvPNw
Father sighs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgmuNcegv
I say "I don't want to stay here!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjxW18uryj
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboHAJb8Ulv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GqAFLj0Qu
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGiezMoDgh
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCERqDOKLr
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUtORw1XSo
"Pet, come down from the tree."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqzt9d6ylv
I stay silent.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9gMg44nrJ
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhieVEPtAT
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMM3HEKxrfU
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlciW8DtCGG
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8ISXKnHPf
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0JYSbWxXG
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSReq31vHh
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0LHP0y9Yj
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjBsRB75Nz
I say, "Please don't hurt me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmlVe6vwt2
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKwIDj5QaG
I say, "Please don't!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS6GGiEMXV
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFJy4iLZwb
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4z23YYPjI
"You'll find out soon enough, child."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlMTAfjRVT
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdpjL8Qi4m
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcAUlg45zN
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh3ZQ164g3I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC1DEizbuy
"Are you ready, child?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOb5zLAOgo
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UCBYcJC4X
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE7j4W2fws
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I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalpUUyPgHX
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUmrrOFgm0
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzoL8NTFqK
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B4OaZNvBB
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFO0HJPdAV
Father says "Good. Stay there."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLNcqFVJD
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny95C8bFzj
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSZxsXpPn9
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC17vi08vU
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0KK7PFK8G
"Please!" I whisper.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclF2k5XS6c
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4JJoE1wvG
I scream loudly.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1akbh05Bye
My scream echoes throughout the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSbbdUdSUc
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYStC7fcdGI
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvytkYEIn4
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0tz9gbI6G
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rjhFIWrVU
I say "P-please s-stop.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOz6uG5ONg
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1f4tI6kCUn
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTYPZWpD0u
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT7fGx1sXH
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0ekRmH9OU
"Look at her," another says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTCfzmCBKv
I say "Please leave me alone."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHrF4xT3tV
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnFHG2ZkMp
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj5SEvFvff
"We'll see. Let's see."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxad6e5pf2V
I say "No no no.." They laugh.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvekE1C8FQz
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5FduQWyRa
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaU1Ayc2Nys
They untie me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWPDvJlwSN
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggBQzizT9Q
"Ah... you're up," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbOySvko9e
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1Xuj8NmGj"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHkjnH7Fop
"Where were you?" he asks,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX4OQJytsi
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngbcDf3Vr9
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNo4n6BAIC
Father smiles.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgchYvRqw1
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNCHa9VQXi
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOtzxh9OTw
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yIgnthnoT
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qAGjbSknD
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkjfzrKZp0
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZcRFTpdVn
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2MyQIoKMP
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbuzqNadgI
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIwcD2GTaG
I say, "Please let me go!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU39hGYhr4
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc4ubCNCz9
"You will," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAy7Eg5SFy
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4t1TgAcQ1k
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7SH5NCmLF
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmVU8Xd7sB
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLYFH3pNXb
"Stop crying," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw0hJ0T4OX
"I can't!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgJNRxwZTO
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiWoczQOPM
"Stop it!" I cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbVnhMJW8i
"I said stop it!" he yells,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqhKUhXnIp
"I can't," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT27KWR4sV4
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEdLUWjNZa
"NO!" Father screams.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNfnLJ7DcN
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuRawBp5Qa
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb942q03wp
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJz6TlyxrE
"I would. I really would."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBzCYGWG7s
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgn10KCVFJ
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4sMxicgJc
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNq1muEo1o
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYGx26zzXq
I say, "No I'm not!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61wtf2SrRL
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqufiM34St
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Rzy4D1A5t
I say "No I won't!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopzLNWmzlm
"You will!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm758Ic7iN
"I said NO!!!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuhZkp8RP5
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhbhnbzW7H
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G4ZPApHcH
"I know you will," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uF6nshG2m
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOM09PHRah
He says "One."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hMx5Wr2Os
I say, "I'll do anything.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvEaoPJkdo
"Two."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDIO7yb4rT
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kJmV9rtmX
"Three."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OWgECGOk5
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3c75QF1rs
"No, don't do it," Father says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiGmRAYs4s
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgkDkTc8xl
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr9D4lVTqE
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdVIYMyHIF
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ234ok69XoN
I say "Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJbVfkdruj
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sxJd1UK2q
"Yes," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsS461sRO0F
"Good girl," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREX908Lhq2
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxox3SsJw2p
"I won't," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoeEbuJ7DI
I stay tied up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ15PvH9mmV
"Now," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0scX0z7Dw
"Kneel."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaiE7MONuP
"Please," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGC9tXEWlv
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgxlU9SHSM
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AoLZa4wXP
I just know it.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwntWLhzoOQ
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu2VdufjZ7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZurdVVKamE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvfWXcs7cm
I'm all alone in the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXQ4WTr9ZS
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY7nSS97r0I hear the door open. I look up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwXNSq5rps
"Hello," a man says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmkWVSHy48
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2h9oYOvDD
"Hands behind your back," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNcXAuLLkN
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PtIvy8X6D
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbmJDRBK19
"Stay there," he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlUU6wXI0Z
I stay on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9UNPfIIzu
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcvyq8AAvw
I say "No no no."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkcqmyPu7Q
"Do it," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXvyGtx0Uq
I say no. He pushes harder.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECFMRDCbX5
"Do it!" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6pxlFKp74
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8qvR2H0Cw
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjtBN6BRIh
"Stay there," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ2svvOWaK
I stay on my knees.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCE8eYd2oc
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZV1yyY62a
"Stop moving."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBAWsuDeQW
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3IAtljMB4
He pulls it out of my throat.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoq8gbeCirW
"What's wrong?" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYaTdbOgSP
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHJIEP9V8n
"What?" he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8AFOigwuX
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMFCUuUr5m
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLPrccyrcH
"Is this too big for you?" he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbP3uipJk1I
I nod.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYz1oddzG2
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8YWkTnQS5
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBlOHLc10k
He shoves it back in.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneUgxBI8kC
I decide that vomiting once is enough.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcItoP5QRmE
He shoves it in deeper.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzW4Wpqrw5
I struggle and fight.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxuUOPnLz
"Stop fighting me," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6HdjjxQtZ
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoEW7eKSnP
"Get dressed," he says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WSypp35Vd
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5gt8b3BDL
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDN5jB8VTg
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb5wj2KVWI191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6Xf9vT1vk
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWd7kbqf7w
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoVrRAhUlB
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0kL8UpbvM
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7Ejn9q5Wa
I say, "Where's dad?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpsXoiIYdH
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9cvSEH4JT
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgHR9b0Yid
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1p3F7hKY4
My father says, "Where have you been?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm4mJLexZl
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNIZDK8tLp
"Did they hurt you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gEvjD5SWI
"Yeah," I say.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53NfozNTiY
"I'm sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd0xcYB0iy
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6jYlZVMjX
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKn9pcZcd6
"Is Allie in here?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6IjUTj1Cn
My dad says, "Yes, why?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVKSJt79go
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODrHJW6lSk
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutIBKZk7CG
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3EUmBsUIw
"No." I respond,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RBvAB97Ca
"Can we come in?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeYfjghJIr
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYEQMaTRLQ
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarsJffVky6
I say, "I don't know."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzgQOfNvUo
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeApncRqHd
"No." I say,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXO29Wgt5c
"Are you sure?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W4ptzm4wC
"Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mzf7KaGT1
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELwEjAL7O4
"Did he give you any food or water?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGEsPtIUHW
"No." I respond.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJTjlsGJQY
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGSH5Dh6Vr
"No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVEKx8ReK6
"What did he do to you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIyGwmXJrI
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJQ4YJ7olY
"Did you fight him?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn5JYTdouN
"I tried."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mEwZhZAFh
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAbxZQDvsR
"I think I blacked out."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZk7iqMCZO
"I see."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUDg39E1JU
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgbdapEHSB
"And how long were you with him?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9IIeygy1g
"I think about ten hours."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc21Zm5cU95
"And you only just managed to escape?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPW3x7HCHs
"Yeah."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGToz69SFn
"Do you know where you were?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwQp6beRvY
I say "No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW19s1EKwB
"What is the last thing you remember?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4kNMBDzXT
"I remember walking down the road."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWhdCakG7O
"And then?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4ai5HMcTw
"I don't remember."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83be2jEpHN
"Do you know how you got away?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTve01cmCKx
I say, "I just ran,"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrz35ctmQo
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjlsEhvg7d
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHAlyKmfNK
I say, "So that's how it all happened."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkUfmqdi6d
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD9JYwSs35
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡris4LhX0pY
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMg54BBtDD
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkUAFhMSyJ
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BPVIVFZqf
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisRXW8P8Z4
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIOBjBwWOL
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ej3DOePQr
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdTeORPFCL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBe9OnsDcWF
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjIDuha03G
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBmYfmAms8
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhMgeKosZf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Lxv78MX7t
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvy9CdjKHP
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TIUomL1M2
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9Z7G2hoDyAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOCGJ740hx
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQEPEAQ0Zv
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo76eUbTVjT
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbQbXxbNsd
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a2EquOm53
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0sqEqACuf
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Coolgr7bS
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3XBkwrPCX
"Get up." he says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY9TlZBA9b
"Why am I here?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdAaPGqS6V
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2oYXJ1ZAt
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzriBrNcfh
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLKGZwkLVP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaflQj0njO
I sit down.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV2DyKZzBx
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8KRwGkJbj
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvD4yurOsx
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivsr9k7wq3
I say, "No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPeRjbjBPS
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEDrOluxin
I respond, "Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEHY9afSdD
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMulPkqSH5c
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6E14t7TIS
"Yes."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkpywUKRXc
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy2hBQKYiK
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sd8so59dG
I say, "Hi."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHRKekjC45
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOGLtPEJWU
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOT4E638WD
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTejnmeepZC
"Right away," says the woman.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx8q6wjNmJ
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMfuxr82TI
I say, "Okay."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZJf28GgzH
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U0tURKKaQ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrBzRxVPnb
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05L4zSB7P8
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA4OZlClM0
"He kidnapped me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeMOPUOqbH
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14678B2aC2
I say, "He tried to stab me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQLl94XJWi
"Who was he?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTZRguZ77o
"I don't know."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduaKTSmKwL
"Where did you get the knife?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm2y1bGL0o
"He had it in his pocket."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU58rAESLdj
"Did he threaten you in any way?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLCkBGofun
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVY0DaAJyZ2
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQY5EiXH4p
"No."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lQ0hlTEn9
"You sure? Think hard."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvblOZIx2E
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvWjZoiHC8
I say, "He killed my father."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs76huOCB1
"What?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziSHzMDRs3
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYcdpZoesF
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEeVAmD01I
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43WpJRK1UP
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlLTXIFNNq
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPg6i9WEcq
I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWYFxZT8ZF
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiYvgBfIRM
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bYXyQGHqD
I follow him.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJX4yxIhxb
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvy8LOlk1P
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50a9pLoOTc
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLd4WdtjF9
"Alright. Take a seat."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJImi7jJY8
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFkpDMPU1N
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkyIrQyOmL
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve4cPNet39
"Yes.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVH1lCEXFIv
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkXmlVev3x
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZQGFjISKD
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQsfVhl4Er
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZLadTsBb1
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrYgl49I5L
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFq44akHpLp
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngwxHQRDtb
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzlYQXcNrV
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfyb9unh25
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUiVac5Y2C
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCSwAO6LJG
"What is it?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXRfke4nCC
Doctor Kessel says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNDpg6KaVo
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty4whgmEJH
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6cXIi4gl4
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2rKLgK40T
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTaZ2nqDIx
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh9g56GQu1
The nurse shakes her head, and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTaB80dgED
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoqp5dfVxG
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJbkWIDEIX
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyfWSWiQ31
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5txaVwQei
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKtIxQzl9J
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvQVGzEjrP
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4GZnloWm5
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hHeW5rang
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Kb3RK6olX
I say "Where am I?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLGjLP9EUN
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmyew6S8cq
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WZP5n7eI9
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRIMwZCb6N
I say, "I want to see my mom..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqGXjZ6yjd
The nurse interrupts me and says,191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZRtpYBgmS
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OU9gyOPaK
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlihmDRZn7r
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6itsrb7PrTA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXLMPAFZ2v
"M-mom.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLiRXXTJzH
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLq2fnE71x
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbfU6JGlAH
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4Zp3UzbkU
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fiXnbEFrE
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdUrCsA4Lj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcO38skOgw
"Yes.." I say quietly.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAxI2TInTd
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrSTcNjPiF
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fnNPqYHsm
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfIV3Duxp5
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTt6PAR1JJW
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxK0X0vaWb
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz05n32hapj
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSHFi0aZfD
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I7emWpz2L
I say, "Okay.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiaXickQKO
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoBx77cJr2
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevLBujl0T9
I wipe the tears off my face.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuY8aieHdy
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLpSChUbAd
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NO8CE2MgB
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0ftJi9g22
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgbq3g35mP
I say, "Tell me!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl12wZvf5cc
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTUOP3AvWc
My heart drops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFuOy9KRer
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI4kzDN65p
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191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4d5yZPX2jIn the morning, I get my visitors.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WEYkJG8MJ
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdzBSGXBcP
I say, "Wait!" She stops.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ii7X2mafq
"What is it?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzUuXqvQYs
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1mkg4CgOW
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EKE1uJIZT
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV0WvTU8iK
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lRjDO6kGS
I cry myself to sleep.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLlke98Rpi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSWVZBt7CH
"How are you doing, honey?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wL7yOELpg
I say, "Horrible.."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMTwISDu0G
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZnuZgsL4t
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP79VPYc1a
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjURdHlau3k
"It's not your fault, honey."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXXAfNK3YY
I start crying again.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHp3HjyTZ4
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUm7u0NhHY
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewytjamXvX
Maybe I'm dead after all.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos7LzcJdCM
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVradX8oze
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ETWp4ERo6
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHmhGvNHsv
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfhwYl8HvN
I say, "I still want to win this."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qwc0aAPok
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdmmDr1quR
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1FDLUzs3y
"Really?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylk5yLJq25
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAo7bgSzb3
I start crying, and I can't stop.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GbIYjzWR5
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGs6b7Yqnk
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6HEarFp9i
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclGzAvss9W
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw35j9fe55
"I wanted to see the flowers."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxwT4wOznC
"Why are you out of your room?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHlJnGwmCg
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbhKhalWIp
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YHjtC4PRx
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQMRFeciRw
"Thank you for being you."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek0SFZuRwY
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rPyTCAy1a
I make a decision.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmmlO6Iyqb
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z2av2DKPE
"What's your name?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynL479ifw5
"Allisa," I say, smiling.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXC0isal92
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPTaZDRXtD
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncb6UtCPFw
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVNstAtmSQ
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXCLrDaN5h
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