You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0R5b7q72mx
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL6uwS4Sm5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIGBkzh0Hn
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kdCRmQat5
"I just want to go home," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLRkrOuuHD
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIe7yDCG1P
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4dCL14urB
Father sighs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsNClsX6ex
I say "I don't want to stay here!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTBuoltQjD
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrIGbOM5qU
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PYvlDfd5w
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTvSEDdf41
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FYKRybqXm
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX9XkzzLv7
"Pet, come down from the tree."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwLJ3CusrN
I stay silent.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Bh3CrhKAD
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoofCAFOtN
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVHGPWotOd
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcjn0ne1n8
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYWGVDbPUT
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNfAQOICXB
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE8pmxpKhN
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHOcbnaQaq
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTFg1Iq89l
I say, "Please don't hurt me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOc1mnk2uLG
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1QH0Y90Q6
I say, "Please don't!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2gf0YTIQj
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsZJYFn5Qt
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXGNUbg1UL
"You'll find out soon enough, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCKJQtrYUT
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Re00pJ0Ye
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTvu3bnZVI
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmPHt0Q9he
"Are you ready, child?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBezZwatHNC
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcaXXgjnuB
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61ti5H3vkb
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I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVhOUfXMgO
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwpLayUuUw
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ0OnGzUqp
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QakW2jXJo
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnFgdZeRjI
Father says "Good. Stay there."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFFDsBe6PF
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrchZdmpuCs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0LqZcKAQ2
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOgFafszLu
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1lE19RTFq
"Please!" I whisper.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSVtAlAmdk
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjWGv8Ycvc
I scream loudly.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopv4UuFmLS
My scream echoes throughout the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER9BQfPffs
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8fS18mGv5
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQe0imWiiq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvg2wUJwn2
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubmc9CvzJA
I say "P-please s-stop.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBBcZSS8CI
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zg8X9udAX
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhYtRbJ1lD
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVAVTB4uip
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvUnWBDWJq
"Look at her," another says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRH2Q44AH4
I say "Please leave me alone."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vAiN8x4po
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGIsyZI1Gg
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI92uwjMiS
"We'll see. Let's see."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBVJn0rHy0
I say "No no no.." They laugh.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WUyHWVRpj
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIJQEGE02X
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jivnNkB7m
They untie me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXBlI3ka9Y
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1Lw2fF69C
"Ah... you're up," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5gdUcV5Pu
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJctMyv4oD
"Where were you?" he asks,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWgrsKY1ka
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwaMUj9BrC
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfCd9J2Qsc
Father smiles.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ957cLlR8VM
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaWU1Gc4So
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRiLZGq18P
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHire5zmbn0
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF04UF0OlCA
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VKtR9zdgq
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDJ3xMbitF
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVKDHTV0Vc
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOcdPI5fUA
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOObaedMq1r
I say, "Please let me go!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk4fnk7K03
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4JU7xSo4Y
"You will," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0xBI83toz
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQPgOExIwQ
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs09LllicJQ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM5F6khmLP
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFklKi30Cs
"Stop crying," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xCoMo7cZe
"I can't!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tMobo0FiI
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaxq4wQaYc
"Stop it!" I cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipzEmS9n3N
"I said stop it!" he yells,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VvYiEl0MN
"I can't," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBhR3G07L8
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVWzpJmLK7
"NO!" Father screams.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnK4xpHAYH9
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FtZffy4SS
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2sF5D75mI
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn3CA0Wuaj
"I would. I really would."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2BssOvPBo
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoJhd5Xr3q
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iSjGa6v0D
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUUNuL8H8X
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡye4WY1xmSt
I say, "No I'm not!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweF6i2vKc8
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOuhgnQEs3
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKGiQqW36f
I say "No I won't!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC2pqKpLqu
"You will!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6aIqe2Tve
"I said NO!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqfKzHjNQ4
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyewzl7g6S
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoosEJSPFL
"I know you will," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CwZptgj3Y
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4wNIKLFI4
He says "One."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBqUtbuGUB
I say, "I'll do anything.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdJwILUF40
"Two."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszAhMCz6QH
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijvzU5IVDx
"Three."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqjldxhUi0
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZQv08aFgi
"No, don't do it," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cSx8s81Pl
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOpIQW6S88
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKN3z9C6kz
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xN1KQ88FH
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjeZe8qumQ
I say "Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OYl70VCeC
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNWwuNZccL
"Yes," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyjZbnXegG
"Good girl," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa2F7eND6D
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOzp9mdLxD
"I won't," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ1n8QrR8c
I stay tied up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RfPUevWvx
"Now," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmIOeOLohU
"Kneel."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoLDtGFL07
"Please," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGdiX4Fjcl
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQPtseI1hv
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6OJUoOHRX
I just know it.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b4B9waPYv
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB5ePnp8Vy
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtnKbZNFNY
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYBQxh8kZ8
I'm all alone in the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqOFYVoRAa
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I hear the door open. I look up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TuqJACDGR
"Hello," a man says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUIUakL2YK
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU2B0s6Owz
"Hands behind your back," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQswo5kJwrA
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItqIfFYZRr
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjv5aTlPg2
"Stay there," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIMmaHXP8u
I stay on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrqXSab52K
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL4HWJhR8a
I say "No no no."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2bRXswnMy
"Do it," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUkVSwr4mJ
I say no. He pushes harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMJD4TEHJ7
"Do it!" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBfyuAWO9W
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxOF1dDXtE
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZLhb9EH36
"Stay there," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEERQgGynWj
I stay on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zLibIcIno
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebMCsb7rH4
"Stop moving."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAWf2ceuDf
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAE9jLmOUG
He pulls it out of my throat.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmPxuNdK9B
"What's wrong?" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyj0oj4IYt
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZD5YGGhIB
"What?" he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri07kMzyTw
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rNm0zkrVR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6H0QDdzBo
"Is this too big for you?" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUATNDgQ4hy
I nod.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNNzUJ8g6Y
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfz5Wi5SvD
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKNnpMID66
He shoves it back in.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXkTjesPEX
I decide that vomiting once is enough.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT3NKN40xX
He shoves it in deeper.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7DXFEEBeN
I struggle and fight.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh3phnhf6w
"Stop fighting me," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd7vxUXGeD
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89LeTMWf1T
"Get dressed," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I9GhlttMG
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqtbMlTfBQ
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgdgNpvbT3
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvae1rHnaDh
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfzcvInIBM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BLDDBmpWk
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsa914NSRr
I say, "Where's dad?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0WbLt6J8X
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FuIDb6PKz
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rrCGZmFY0
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEnz3g8uYZ
My father says, "Where have you been?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDy7o05ht9
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiRIhB79L
"Did they hurt you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSS6sCJ1A2
"Yeah," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS2w0Z48V6
"I'm sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmV1ejVGX2
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DrQZJ90qf
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R2w3h9UNp
"Is Allie in here?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mbw8Qlone
My dad says, "Yes, why?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0h7LKGc13
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMBVYRAunR
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmh56Ctq35
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgZhrD1eyK
"No." I respond,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdROdMgAmpp
"Can we come in?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QzIXZldoL
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkZkbH1dFt
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxV0jF1sBw
I say, "I don't know."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKGE4Lqdqu
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydna6p8nYW
"No." I say,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQsks4xr8t
"Are you sure?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoMYCk65Qc
"Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEbX89KOVg
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeKXikqkOO
"Did he give you any food or water?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFiPekvM4q
"No." I respond.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1Vat764QO
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAXqtUbQ3g
"No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg9RNL8fdy
"What did he do to you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0r7FTfUOg
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5mhU7ijKm
"Did you fight him?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHgg1IWVdn
"I tried."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwsKQnNVNT
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpIJuDsMjO
"I think I blacked out."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2tOAcYI1O
"I see."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t4NE7PgJc
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUMSi04YYH
"And how long were you with him?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTevxGS1x4
"I think about ten hours."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLzUC7myk8
"And you only just managed to escape?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujBxhDz0OO
"Yeah."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZC8OgpqvY
"Do you know where you were?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX6P33NL1A
I say "No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfChG1uI3u
"What is the last thing you remember?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMrQXG3Ucn
"I remember walking down the road."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E8I5Oyfow
"And then?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNTRqzjLqN
"I don't remember."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKwtLsWVwM
"Do you know how you got away?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl85FVrBudO
I say, "I just ran,"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vToCwJ4jz
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBtoh24iWy
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacOUD0SbpY
I say, "So that's how it all happened."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NaNX1rJBE
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYIPmybtfi
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPdVVpaEZP
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDBNt8Z4K6
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZTmgUPCYS
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAucsx2agri
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeuXCtdWqw
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8geC6WKbVu
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbpBfUCqzO
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIlHKkst6T
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHKAUsIFYG
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjrFwzQFZU
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBaa3ymIJy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf0aaX4k4P
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkemJVqiBBt
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nZxaDdxPW
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrDJobIjSm
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa6i6s7zJK
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxySBG12RU
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOQJhit5do
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAp2yQgjfl
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WPZ0Bh6q6
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUiSsDxsEg
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5PZ4NfyP2
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T01aOOKOX
"Get up." he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgAoup3DqV
"Why am I here?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43SR06478d
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkW8HQFWUIo
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHbsyrFqL5
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQDbRW9jbx
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZRWIA3U1T
I sit down.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vxHIMWXVE
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiAqA6bwVs
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ6teazFVW
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpas6UcZQXR
I say, "No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWoTPSuoZ4
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj5LEIrQxU
I respond, "Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo2oLNOGZD
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuMGGOLGWo
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQRS1MZeGv
"Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwB0kLVSEKv
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDAmGqdfC7
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFEsmqnFOZ
I say, "Hi."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAaKURJdFh
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAnS0rhNrQ
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxAAcoV6CG
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUdcXvDR3m
"Right away," says the woman.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTOS2hSHXk
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDNTTZQeN0
I say, "Okay."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkUoStHtNR
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfJ6lFSN1L
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIcIZwErtI
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00rD5LtgF1
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVoNvxO9jr
"He kidnapped me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkicLzrNCGm
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkprVmgNDiz
I say, "He tried to stab me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw67378y0Ui
"Who was he?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwCOHncLOv
"I don't know."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMZfP17hYU
"Where did you get the knife?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBAPQESqWe
"He had it in his pocket."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7m4qy33QK
"Did he threaten you in any way?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOheROeXTB
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGaNqNA9OX
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TwVaLp9P1
"No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2PstCN6Ci
"You sure? Think hard."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARigSvu9q7
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7TOmEwVWQ
I say, "He killed my father."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnzqYd8ywV
"What?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCkEJsgn5f
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1XZchtGUz
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNTmqF6VI2
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOEiffhjdy
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9yZxJk4FH
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrPiXkEGzT
I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMlYKZvWC9
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRkPHG4M97
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHJ6ZZHDwN
I follow him.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhk6OiRN5Z
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOXPZ5RWnR
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuuKSJddOW
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyffZhNWsI6
"Alright. Take a seat."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZMGrpPAOq
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSk9V8e7ye
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaF44KcRLn
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcHHEp9dBT
"Yes.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ221pUL0sg1
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRFfQsfPqk
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VVnui2JlN
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G9DJSxehH
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRTBHn0Z13
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4MzFCrleU
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUrlEMe6Vw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UXRzivZG0
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO3NREvmKQ
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrevfBb6RL
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXS4tQcUjx
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ626QnCXW1S
"What is it?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlttE1lonir
Doctor Kessel says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QkHLEayzF
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebuKq2dPxm
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbElB9jC40
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oMtMUOJin
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NwqN4fBMu
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mUq6ss1Pn
The nurse shakes her head, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LM1XTCEuF
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGnpcV8DOn
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWiyu53WCg
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyL49ldds0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hp2Rt7SEH
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXglm4bpw0
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8Itxyvjsf
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz03x0cImS
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd4oF9B1ve
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC16lCSWET9
I say "Where am I?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP72sLtJtk
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXCLrEc9qm
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmXznaHgnh
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrLGvD7DvP
I say, "I want to see my mom..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2lPsjCGSS
The nurse interrupts me and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn2NZn6uFW
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuWrem3ro9
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXfg6XpvGo
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRSgdbjoEQ
"M-mom.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SnyotYK7y
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBX8xsZGTm
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAfUMI0O4R
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw98NGIimZ4
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjLiESSoMX
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUE4E82MSk
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcstk2vNsa
"Yes.." I say quietly.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkPUvB9P4s
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFrbBhdCbJ
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsf4oLQfP9
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxDS0CD2QA
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ1zhAiVhw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD1uiwLZoI
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99YDVJ6eJH
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PSp8lniez
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXWlIQkDzw
I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvksrBACT6N
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2rSJyiyOG
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEtcPmaCGk
I wipe the tears off my face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtUzGIn7do
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuEu5awXhz
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrmaCiULRV
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWY8v0K2NGL
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3bI7KtZBn
I say, "Tell me!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKVT2c0Yp2
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsPOFE0AWQ
My heart drops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkVEu94ed
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed9kuhkmlk
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In the morning, I get my visitors.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAexquPAjM
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTq7oWI9bE
I say, "Wait!" She stops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU5GDF7vcP
"What is it?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c26Sjl8Vs
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlbD3FhiaJ
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro5Ne96wH1
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCAU2hNVf5
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSBG4EcYdZ
I cry myself to sleep.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HfZVetHyw
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJCzNcoPIh
"How are you doing, honey?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3NKvXQ9vf
I say, "Horrible.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocuR8Xg9L5
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWxpjCR0Dn
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNkV9o66l1
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7KY9WK0aW
"It's not your fault, honey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfNWpg0nOp
I start crying again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PEVqJzGP1
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLQN8fPnwa
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD0TVni0mM
Maybe I'm dead after all.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7HXr1q6ho
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs4YYZwNQL
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmt67Eh743
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaqinyJEiI
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Slbbi1uO1
I say, "I still want to win this."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4l49QuPKV
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVxPI4CP9N
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsATsQS46aC
"Really?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix2Yv6Zy2j
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUHLyxwXde
I start crying, and I can't stop.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEydpoUZ3QR
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw17NNJJDNs
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWZNuDBWUD
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuEYVKtsyP
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDlEirk7uO
"I wanted to see the flowers."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYrW5qiTUw
"Why are you out of your room?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4ZDD8Ra8Q
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRN8bttP0e
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonVGeGBWV0
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01zeYWySvs
"Thank you for being you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFo4rtOM9a
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoRUeo30fP
I make a decision.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaRg0Xq3Ua
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj7M2eU9g1
"What's your name?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5nu1q5ibL
"Allisa," I say, smiling.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugozNHo1MB
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhEuep8j72
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOXnmyfNgE
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkL6PH02KPR
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNvscn2nMO
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL6uwS4Sm5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIGBkzh0Hn
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kdCRmQat5
"I just want to go home," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLRkrOuuHD
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIe7yDCG1P
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4dCL14urB
Father sighs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsNClsX6ex
I say "I don't want to stay here!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTBuoltQjD
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrIGbOM5qU
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PYvlDfd5w
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTvSEDdf41
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FYKRybqXm
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX9XkzzLv7
"Pet, come down from the tree."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwLJ3CusrN
I stay silent.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Bh3CrhKAD
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoofCAFOtN
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVHGPWotOd
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcjn0ne1n8
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYWGVDbPUT
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNfAQOICXB
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE8pmxpKhN
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHOcbnaQaq
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTFg1Iq89l
I say, "Please don't hurt me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOc1mnk2uLG
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1QH0Y90Q6
I say, "Please don't!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2gf0YTIQj
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsZJYFn5Qt
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXGNUbg1UL
"You'll find out soon enough, child."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCKJQtrYUT
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Re00pJ0Ye
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTvu3bnZVI
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77sfr5DZcHI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmPHt0Q9he
"Are you ready, child?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBezZwatHNC
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcaXXgjnuB
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61ti5H3vkb
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I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVhOUfXMgO
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwpLayUuUw
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ0OnGzUqp
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QakW2jXJo
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnFgdZeRjI
Father says "Good. Stay there."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFFDsBe6PF
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrchZdmpuCs
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0LqZcKAQ2
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOgFafszLu
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1lE19RTFq
"Please!" I whisper.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSVtAlAmdk
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjWGv8Ycvc
I scream loudly.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopv4UuFmLS
My scream echoes throughout the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER9BQfPffs
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8fS18mGv5
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQe0imWiiq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvg2wUJwn2
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubmc9CvzJA
I say "P-please s-stop.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBBcZSS8CI
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zg8X9udAX
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhYtRbJ1lD
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVAVTB4uip
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvUnWBDWJq
"Look at her," another says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRH2Q44AH4
I say "Please leave me alone."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vAiN8x4po
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGIsyZI1Gg
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI92uwjMiS
"We'll see. Let's see."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBVJn0rHy0
I say "No no no.." They laugh.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WUyHWVRpj
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIJQEGE02X
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jivnNkB7m
They untie me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXBlI3ka9Y
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1Lw2fF69C
"Ah... you're up," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5gdUcV5Pu
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofkOCo1BiJ"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJctMyv4oD
"Where were you?" he asks,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWgrsKY1ka
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwaMUj9BrC
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfCd9J2Qsc
Father smiles.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ957cLlR8VM
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaWU1Gc4So
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRiLZGq18P
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHire5zmbn0
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF04UF0OlCA
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VKtR9zdgq
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDJ3xMbitF
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVKDHTV0Vc
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOcdPI5fUA
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOObaedMq1r
I say, "Please let me go!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk4fnk7K03
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4JU7xSo4Y
"You will," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0xBI83toz
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQPgOExIwQ
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs09LllicJQ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM5F6khmLP
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFklKi30Cs
"Stop crying," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xCoMo7cZe
"I can't!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tMobo0FiI
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaxq4wQaYc
"Stop it!" I cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipzEmS9n3N
"I said stop it!" he yells,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VvYiEl0MN
"I can't," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBhR3G07L8
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVWzpJmLK7
"NO!" Father screams.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnK4xpHAYH9
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FtZffy4SS
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2sF5D75mI
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn3CA0Wuaj
"I would. I really would."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2BssOvPBo
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoJhd5Xr3q
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iSjGa6v0D
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUUNuL8H8X
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡye4WY1xmSt
I say, "No I'm not!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweF6i2vKc8
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOuhgnQEs3
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKGiQqW36f
I say "No I won't!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC2pqKpLqu
"You will!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6aIqe2Tve
"I said NO!!!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqfKzHjNQ4
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyewzl7g6S
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoosEJSPFL
"I know you will," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CwZptgj3Y
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4wNIKLFI4
He says "One."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBqUtbuGUB
I say, "I'll do anything.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdJwILUF40
"Two."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszAhMCz6QH
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijvzU5IVDx
"Three."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqjldxhUi0
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZQv08aFgi
"No, don't do it," Father says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cSx8s81Pl
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOpIQW6S88
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKN3z9C6kz
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xN1KQ88FH
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjeZe8qumQ
I say "Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OYl70VCeC
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNWwuNZccL
"Yes," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyjZbnXegG
"Good girl," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa2F7eND6D
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOzp9mdLxD
"I won't," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ1n8QrR8c
I stay tied up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RfPUevWvx
"Now," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmIOeOLohU
"Kneel."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoLDtGFL07
"Please," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGdiX4Fjcl
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQPtseI1hv
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6OJUoOHRX
I just know it.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b4B9waPYv
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB5ePnp8Vy
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtnKbZNFNY
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYBQxh8kZ8
I'm all alone in the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqOFYVoRAa
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjDYMyPr6BI hear the door open. I look up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TuqJACDGR
"Hello," a man says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUIUakL2YK
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU2B0s6Owz
"Hands behind your back," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQswo5kJwrA
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItqIfFYZRr
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjv5aTlPg2
"Stay there," he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIMmaHXP8u
I stay on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrqXSab52K
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL4HWJhR8a
I say "No no no."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2bRXswnMy
"Do it," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUkVSwr4mJ
I say no. He pushes harder.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMJD4TEHJ7
"Do it!" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBfyuAWO9W
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxOF1dDXtE
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZLhb9EH36
"Stay there," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEERQgGynWj
I stay on my knees.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zLibIcIno
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebMCsb7rH4
"Stop moving."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAWf2ceuDf
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAE9jLmOUG
He pulls it out of my throat.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmPxuNdK9B
"What's wrong?" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyj0oj4IYt
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZD5YGGhIB
"What?" he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri07kMzyTw
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rNm0zkrVR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6H0QDdzBo
"Is this too big for you?" he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUATNDgQ4hy
I nod.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNNzUJ8g6Y
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfz5Wi5SvD
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKNnpMID66
He shoves it back in.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXkTjesPEX
I decide that vomiting once is enough.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT3NKN40xX
He shoves it in deeper.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7DXFEEBeN
I struggle and fight.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh3phnhf6w
"Stop fighting me," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd7vxUXGeD
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89LeTMWf1T
"Get dressed," he says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I9GhlttMG
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqtbMlTfBQ
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgdgNpvbT3
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMAd6zpwMQ178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoroP1nPso
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvae1rHnaDh
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfzcvInIBM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BLDDBmpWk
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsa914NSRr
I say, "Where's dad?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0WbLt6J8X
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FuIDb6PKz
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rrCGZmFY0
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEnz3g8uYZ
My father says, "Where have you been?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDy7o05ht9
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiRIhB79L
"Did they hurt you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSS6sCJ1A2
"Yeah," I say.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS2w0Z48V6
"I'm sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmV1ejVGX2
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DrQZJ90qf
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R2w3h9UNp
"Is Allie in here?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mbw8Qlone
My dad says, "Yes, why?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0h7LKGc13
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMBVYRAunR
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmh56Ctq35
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgZhrD1eyK
"No." I respond,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdROdMgAmpp
"Can we come in?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QzIXZldoL
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkZkbH1dFt
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxV0jF1sBw
I say, "I don't know."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKGE4Lqdqu
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydna6p8nYW
"No." I say,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQsks4xr8t
"Are you sure?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoMYCk65Qc
"Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEbX89KOVg
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeKXikqkOO
"Did he give you any food or water?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFiPekvM4q
"No." I respond.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1Vat764QO
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAXqtUbQ3g
"No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg9RNL8fdy
"What did he do to you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0r7FTfUOg
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5mhU7ijKm
"Did you fight him?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHgg1IWVdn
"I tried."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwsKQnNVNT
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpIJuDsMjO
"I think I blacked out."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2tOAcYI1O
"I see."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t4NE7PgJc
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUMSi04YYH
"And how long were you with him?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTevxGS1x4
"I think about ten hours."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLzUC7myk8
"And you only just managed to escape?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujBxhDz0OO
"Yeah."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZC8OgpqvY
"Do you know where you were?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX6P33NL1A
I say "No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfChG1uI3u
"What is the last thing you remember?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMrQXG3Ucn
"I remember walking down the road."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E8I5Oyfow
"And then?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNTRqzjLqN
"I don't remember."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKwtLsWVwM
"Do you know how you got away?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl85FVrBudO
I say, "I just ran,"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vToCwJ4jz
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBtoh24iWy
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacOUD0SbpY
I say, "So that's how it all happened."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NaNX1rJBE
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYIPmybtfi
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPdVVpaEZP
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDBNt8Z4K6
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZTmgUPCYS
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAucsx2agri
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeuXCtdWqw
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8geC6WKbVu
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbpBfUCqzO
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIlHKkst6T
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHKAUsIFYG
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjrFwzQFZU
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBaa3ymIJy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf0aaX4k4P
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkemJVqiBBt
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nZxaDdxPW
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrDJobIjSm
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUima5cWDKAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa6i6s7zJK
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxySBG12RU
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOQJhit5do
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAp2yQgjfl
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WPZ0Bh6q6
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUiSsDxsEg
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5PZ4NfyP2
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T01aOOKOX
"Get up." he says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgAoup3DqV
"Why am I here?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43SR06478d
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkW8HQFWUIo
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHbsyrFqL5
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQDbRW9jbx
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZRWIA3U1T
I sit down.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vxHIMWXVE
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiAqA6bwVs
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ6teazFVW
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpas6UcZQXR
I say, "No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWoTPSuoZ4
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj5LEIrQxU
I respond, "Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo2oLNOGZD
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuMGGOLGWo
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQRS1MZeGv
"Yes."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwB0kLVSEKv
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDAmGqdfC7
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFEsmqnFOZ
I say, "Hi."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAaKURJdFh
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAnS0rhNrQ
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxAAcoV6CG
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUdcXvDR3m
"Right away," says the woman.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTOS2hSHXk
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDNTTZQeN0
I say, "Okay."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkUoStHtNR
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfJ6lFSN1L
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIcIZwErtI
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00rD5LtgF1
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVoNvxO9jr
"He kidnapped me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkicLzrNCGm
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkprVmgNDiz
I say, "He tried to stab me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw67378y0Ui
"Who was he?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwCOHncLOv
"I don't know."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMZfP17hYU
"Where did you get the knife?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBAPQESqWe
"He had it in his pocket."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7m4qy33QK
"Did he threaten you in any way?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOheROeXTB
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGaNqNA9OX
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TwVaLp9P1
"No."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2PstCN6Ci
"You sure? Think hard."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARigSvu9q7
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7TOmEwVWQ
I say, "He killed my father."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnzqYd8ywV
"What?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCkEJsgn5f
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1XZchtGUz
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNTmqF6VI2
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOEiffhjdy
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9yZxJk4FH
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrPiXkEGzT
I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMlYKZvWC9
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRkPHG4M97
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHJ6ZZHDwN
I follow him.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhk6OiRN5Z
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOXPZ5RWnR
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuuKSJddOW
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyffZhNWsI6
"Alright. Take a seat."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZMGrpPAOq
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSk9V8e7ye
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaF44KcRLn
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcHHEp9dBT
"Yes.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ221pUL0sg1
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRFfQsfPqk
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VVnui2JlN
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G9DJSxehH
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRTBHn0Z13
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4MzFCrleU
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUrlEMe6Vw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UXRzivZG0
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO3NREvmKQ
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrevfBb6RL
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXS4tQcUjx
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ626QnCXW1S
"What is it?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlttE1lonir
Doctor Kessel says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QkHLEayzF
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebuKq2dPxm
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbElB9jC40
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oMtMUOJin
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NwqN4fBMu
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mUq6ss1Pn
The nurse shakes her head, and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LM1XTCEuF
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGnpcV8DOn
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWiyu53WCg
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyL49ldds0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hp2Rt7SEH
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXglm4bpw0
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8Itxyvjsf
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz03x0cImS
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd4oF9B1ve
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC16lCSWET9
I say "Where am I?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP72sLtJtk
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXCLrEc9qm
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmXznaHgnh
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrLGvD7DvP
I say, "I want to see my mom..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2lPsjCGSS
The nurse interrupts me and says,178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn2NZn6uFW
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuWrem3ro9
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXfg6XpvGo
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGggQj5UkQA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRSgdbjoEQ
"M-mom.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SnyotYK7y
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBX8xsZGTm
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAfUMI0O4R
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw98NGIimZ4
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjLiESSoMX
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUE4E82MSk
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcstk2vNsa
"Yes.." I say quietly.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkPUvB9P4s
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFrbBhdCbJ
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsf4oLQfP9
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxDS0CD2QA
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ1zhAiVhw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD1uiwLZoI
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99YDVJ6eJH
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PSp8lniez
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXWlIQkDzw
I say, "Okay.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvksrBACT6N
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2rSJyiyOG
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEtcPmaCGk
I wipe the tears off my face.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtUzGIn7do
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuEu5awXhz
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrmaCiULRV
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWY8v0K2NGL
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3bI7KtZBn
I say, "Tell me!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKVT2c0Yp2
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsPOFE0AWQ
My heart drops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkVEu94ed
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed9kuhkmlk
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178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXICdZCumsIn the morning, I get my visitors.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAexquPAjM
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTq7oWI9bE
I say, "Wait!" She stops.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU5GDF7vcP
"What is it?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c26Sjl8Vs
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlbD3FhiaJ
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro5Ne96wH1
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCAU2hNVf5
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSBG4EcYdZ
I cry myself to sleep.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HfZVetHyw
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJCzNcoPIh
"How are you doing, honey?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3NKvXQ9vf
I say, "Horrible.."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocuR8Xg9L5
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWxpjCR0Dn
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNkV9o66l1
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7KY9WK0aW
"It's not your fault, honey."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfNWpg0nOp
I start crying again.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PEVqJzGP1
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLQN8fPnwa
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD0TVni0mM
Maybe I'm dead after all.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7HXr1q6ho
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs4YYZwNQL
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmt67Eh743
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaqinyJEiI
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Slbbi1uO1
I say, "I still want to win this."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4l49QuPKV
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVxPI4CP9N
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsATsQS46aC
"Really?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix2Yv6Zy2j
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUHLyxwXde
I start crying, and I can't stop.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEydpoUZ3QR
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw17NNJJDNs
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWZNuDBWUD
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuEYVKtsyP
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDlEirk7uO
"I wanted to see the flowers."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYrW5qiTUw
"Why are you out of your room?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4ZDD8Ra8Q
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRN8bttP0e
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonVGeGBWV0
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01zeYWySvs
"Thank you for being you."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFo4rtOM9a
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoRUeo30fP
I make a decision.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaRg0Xq3Ua
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj7M2eU9g1
"What's your name?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5nu1q5ibL
"Allisa," I say, smiling.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugozNHo1MB
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhEuep8j72
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOXnmyfNgE
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkL6PH02KPR
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNvscn2nMO
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