You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfC8BTyFzf
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetH31QyuB4
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWrR5lnJAP
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhJWLz0pI0
"I just want to go home," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTC3jmOMtf
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUlZT5H2LR
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8KRDVIfyS
Father sighs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkq0umm0Vp
I say "I don't want to stay here!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyROhJI8SIH
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LC9R6qbQq
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGRZ75ZTgQ
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNC6ZE4vrG
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3OD1SXPdR
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsMFw8yxt4
"Pet, come down from the tree."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJCn5IUrzv
I stay silent.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU49tSBJX6O
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQfnR4ZobK
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRLKdqNoVJ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kMlXWLErM
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMYDKdpKLV
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7irm8hnVC0
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdGb1lAYmj
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhX4L0CmQ0
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoTVjn7GGc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCe1UF4TvS
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5MPVFZe6v
I say, "Please don't!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Y9b7UX9nU
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlnJ0w7c4N
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vtxffiizw
"You'll find out soon enough, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx77OLU2e2
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UAOITyCJI
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmyZYo32hZ
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAMyY2OZBh
"Are you ready, child?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpWoEqcQzh
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVMoUQLlC5
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8ygIa4Z9K
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I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ELW3gndBb
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFP8aXHb3a
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQr3R4IzLe
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW10ZNaPeIQ
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbUkXFXxAY
Father says "Good. Stay there."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeym1fSYiUI
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRqK1bzY8S
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs5KZT85A1
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutGnK4LnuM
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvOEftK3La
"Please!" I whisper.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EhzyNR5po
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK92A4tvue3
I scream loudly.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBhVm0ef2i
My scream echoes throughout the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLZ4GLeP68
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNuaL9Fmns
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIoLgeevRW
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItNX5uDE1h
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKNph1NKNf
I say "P-please s-stop.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdO4R6K6iM
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZJTlIOTPm
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BFCBrd7HL
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxjHFgCN5b
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScEDm81i0t
"Look at her," another says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu9EAJVidl
I say "Please leave me alone."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexMDkZUy1A
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJnl03SmFC
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR0xDQx9o6
"We'll see. Let's see."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmy47xUvA7
I say "No no no.." They laugh.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLmlq4FInt
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoMd34VTyV
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ogeBqYFI5
They untie me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywQP6CmpP8
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bC9rodFEK
"Ah... you're up," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJB1uJW8GC
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0qj35nHub
"Where were you?" he asks,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTTv19g9Id
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYE52EIiNe
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuusndsaTO
Father smiles.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNCEemzVCy
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLCl2FT8iq
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjfdhCmjAf
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QrNzRb8nv
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPj4QdjfQlN
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0yPV0hPwN
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobc9q7qx57
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjU4vcTf5a
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECjxiu3KgP
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRPROc8HrE
I say, "Please let me go!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQOLmH32XS
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NKG0N1rKE
"You will," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYymCDeOP45
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiDLuz5KTW
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QQN0SNZ9d
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMGLtBjdhI
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxX4TOSElL
"Stop crying," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo5RULykpd
"I can't!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO3gds6cPB
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDrkvoW4Lg
"Stop it!" I cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHG6OwZnD2G
"I said stop it!" he yells,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo513rX1gvm
"I can't," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwVKDGM0h4
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqu8djt29d
"NO!" Father screams.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8E2tcv0cr
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5v2846jnh
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxlMmpAzXN
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQ6lGSHGJe
"I would. I really would."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEbGmx89XE
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e5TDVxj6m
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7lI2nHg2g
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQKXRCHyde
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4IyHxhYpY
I say, "No I'm not!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5njy2rpr5
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc45WITxgOl
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSymhmVgjim
I say "No I won't!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBVNt7KEz9
"You will!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6q7JoMRZw1
"I said NO!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEodLtEDWO
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qjRklVNGN
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcUHl0B2F3
"I know you will," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMuxprxCJo
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUjNbKRfJb
He says "One."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz3b0v57pi
I say, "I'll do anything.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6L3e7da5I
"Two."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrv5WH1m0S1
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAWrT5wWqV
"Three."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeLyrmfrSk
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPd6KNv0X5Q
"No, don't do it," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oAIPETUlq
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ9CzfqEnP
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjZy3grmeV
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vTb7ibaQB
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4DDy2VYal
I say "Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrFLlvR6ig
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp2UnN1sQn
"Yes," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL5J9fUpnS
"Good girl," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwtOeIlOwp
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9wHasgJVE
"I won't," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqJDXBUCLo
I stay tied up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdr75Y1suj
"Now," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttxTM3YWhK
"Kneel."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zNH4t1Z9G
"Please," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpemqTtJwF
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5bIIeARK0
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ36HQiW3Sg
I just know it.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDabt5j2aA
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9n05xLC8g
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lUBQC90ty
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgubRI2mff
I'm all alone in the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQHtJ82RZd
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I hear the door open. I look up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8rLUB4icl
"Hello," a man says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdCt4K9WDX
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI95Ykn9buJ
"Hands behind your back," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4CW4gQWBi
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ7ctwvYpt
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDGbJ4z1DX
"Stay there," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawatqSdzd1
I stay on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6ZAyeylyd
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIO7TqZAN5
I say "No no no."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6ZhZiaZKe
"Do it," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxO0wySwYY
I say no. He pushes harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fcEpMTIZO
"Do it!" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0lmysyGMe
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDT61PiQlj
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1j4RYZqKg
"Stay there," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHJYUhh9ZO
I stay on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3h4lyZtk7
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG8ajxW4Vk
"Stop moving."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Kg9k0OtXI
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9GNEdVcy4
He pulls it out of my throat.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBRxb95m9x
"What's wrong?" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzubLHIeoV
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lFZXcgUOn
"What?" he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxp9hZHbqC
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0xGqXQe1L
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlgu4QZsdz
"Is this too big for you?" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ6wlzMWUn
I nod.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmZnz0sdc0
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96OZWv0OGN
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAfbJhwiQr
He shoves it back in.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRwmHK3yAQ
I decide that vomiting once is enough.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RJl59QCYC
He shoves it in deeper.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2pF4VOY4D
I struggle and fight.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4eic5AGSx
"Stop fighting me," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxULyZSQVv7
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18M5HR42QD
"Get dressed," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbZxLiNy4F
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhf2g5e2PB5
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPshpeqy89q
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcGLzam8a7
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbn9fVxQHM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTE28ReDcK
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8UxuSYHr7
I say, "Where's dad?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuxxai4y0w
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFJqECNPSw
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mAwsk8IJN
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqlU0LNaHd
My father says, "Where have you been?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAzkbPCjHQ
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyw89GxVF4
"Did they hurt you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgNkQHzvHw
"Yeah," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RrvYUuZjg
"I'm sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0utKZ2dym
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgR2yZLY2F
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnWRpzSA6i
"Is Allie in here?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavjXdgpnQt
My dad says, "Yes, why?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1nXLALR1V
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniV9kK8kHN
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi78MAbXyE
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VDJix8iNe
"No." I respond,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWrHP248qg
"Can we come in?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiXvH1fJN1
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGND2qRfET
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF0Cla28mL
I say, "I don't know."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEpGePHuUp
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XLhN6Z8th
"No." I say,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUlorDBKJe
"Are you sure?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JUis11WBO
"Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwchD1fB4Lo
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1yTeMLJTQ
"Did he give you any food or water?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzq96Trab9
"No." I respond.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStjj9Jl8n2
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5PmwHO0JN
"No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHmqM6Ud3V
"What did he do to you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xHTemVAzS
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMEZMMQS4J
"Did you fight him?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdMmXnxTUp
"I tried."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNuSkGpBSQ
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIeY69KTBk
"I think I blacked out."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVTTN1d8Sn
"I see."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd2byAGeIw
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGl0ACKhLM
"And how long were you with him?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75aMpavgPi
"I think about ten hours."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd46VIUxelo
"And you only just managed to escape?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFSWBuIKPW
"Yeah."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViXfuuhi4u
"Do you know where you were?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgBlM8Tz4Y
I say "No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc7BM1fTRf
"What is the last thing you remember?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41EvQan6Yc
"I remember walking down the road."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuiZvyy6kW
"And then?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptyy6LW8Cw
"I don't remember."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwav1XClWc
"Do you know how you got away?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoXfY3Fsyu
I say, "I just ran,"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZoXu18Tno
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqetr6ImxwB
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXNukHgS9J
I say, "So that's how it all happened."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMAVZUiPeG
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzc6Bqab4Kl
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkH6v6MqlLw
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqC4n8AXOn
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuq7QGpgid
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9Nu1s27O0
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfEjivTstQ
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2koXSgujOi
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54xMjfpyxj
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3lvrsK9hj
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCawWTuZ3r
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5IyCzyWlg
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6wTDUqqtj
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe40Yp7S8X
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0CVqh1JKO
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz7GvjewFG
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdbQAvSjlj
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT2G9sFj4E
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16lAj3w3aS
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYaDzvg3K3
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGL3O6ddmmJ
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZSBcmzxoT
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFASpkFfrS
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYUUk8DADp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSilIPhc0E9
"Get up." he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSu1YYQ5ph
"Why am I here?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVZBb0Jty8
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZJmB0njSh
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbrkwVeV0j
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioCxYdAOLi
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYqoKp7CBE
I sit down.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBn2Tf3LzL
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZadFJrigFG
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7NyK7nzSd
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5vJCJCTCk
I say, "No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh5AxmTU7r
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7xcCROHwI
I respond, "Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS9CA5dEcq
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3L49BP1sq
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaDFhMiXc3
"Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiWLq1hlS0
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco2Sa0l0kv
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNbsKH9EHC
I say, "Hi."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FqT04DAWa
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Ow3GBjwU
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLpjUtE9QQ
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywpvGBa2eR
"Right away," says the woman.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmD32km2hC
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYnhkaHr0U
I say, "Okay."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJe7iD4K4O
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp4nYMFnT2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSo1uSaLAc
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R1pSI9L4d
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5zyHyRaFt
"He kidnapped me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8JJDQsREI
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLgVXQQ04p
I say, "He tried to stab me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrb4CWXvxs7
"Who was he?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB3bNMHEkM
"I don't know."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOTkCxJRqB
"Where did you get the knife?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzGMI1mVag
"He had it in his pocket."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXNpqct9B5
"Did he threaten you in any way?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRpVuEnXpZ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB103ymVye
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNvo3MfYk9
"No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayG6oT8kMA
"You sure? Think hard."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8PUdyDKQF
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYUop0p3bG
I say, "He killed my father."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIMgriPwgm
"What?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfooesXk3J
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqNBXJEt7w
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrvVVQxwkx
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUs5tytJfcT
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnTH7gZEl8
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4O0v3juqq
I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ4V1tzLXr
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqF7RIETe7
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwdYqzJa8t
I follow him.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi64km5JmR
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLzmjgnJKW
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbYJAS5h2V
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qmi0E0MIP
"Alright. Take a seat."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJRacE3WPw
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaz7mN4n7o
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrxDJJEKTs
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChsQz0byxH
"Yes.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhozpd3QmVz
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0VjSTQpBT
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVNYJaE7w2
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuCYKpA3vf
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsm31sUfB7M
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKJqpNSitd
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMzjEIzFOg
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VLsZK0GNh
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiqIe7tEHs
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTx7wZMIs0
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCgxDllKMe
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDDEXq3zoX
"What is it?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IibryWpYQ
Doctor Kessel says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o9vQZQNsj
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI0fCh7k3G
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFijbeUIllz
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TnVqVti1n
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58WzSbq9Fw
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvMecZsXM3
The nurse shakes her head, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOArxaswf9p
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVYIMXJNUz
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fy2vT2gfm
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHvdB5EYN0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSXtwpnZPt
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlONphKauf
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFBXtcBpmt
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZrGupDu4R
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuHZ5zKikV
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7tSY73O5P
I say "Where am I?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLOHQkBNuB
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL5VmKfVAz
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWVcDdJQS2
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijiFtmdJ3f
I say, "I want to see my mom..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdncfPad9Qu
The nurse interrupts me and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmB9K9lGxv
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSYr6hatGM
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhBMKDrMiM
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3lRtkm5XD
"M-mom.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHe7a1czLT
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxsmJbtAsA
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTxxLnkpeu
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXx9stn1LR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqITTx9w2b
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTG7Q5PRdj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpCmekd6Ok
"Yes.." I say quietly.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7TY0GBX8S
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMdJFglQ4m
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsXiJSc0qA
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoY5aTtP9hB
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1Db6F5Uuy
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwAX5cTAmH
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0hWJZoj1F
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdAr7RT7aJ
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjUyLFg4B5
I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHN1LQvSGT
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNivohGA3P4
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbofqwddr1N
I wipe the tears off my face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFwYOJIZem
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE2JH4IRHa
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa30SPLXzR
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xBbOim9nB
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzEU7SjZ8h
I say, "Tell me!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGetWKsZbD
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RrSySuk61
My heart drops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMelIvpX54
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bqkp1zudP
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In the morning, I get my visitors.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExJlfcwy92
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoBhHQcju4
I say, "Wait!" She stops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdzAO4kkS2
"What is it?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDuj5fJ3l0
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxhTPICiWu
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFrnXHfknJ
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOvkD9JIFu
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBXpXAOLuU
I cry myself to sleep.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOVgqjnDtQ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUcGK0aXyX
"How are you doing, honey?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERte3BA5Qn
I say, "Horrible.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9VWuC5fw1
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9ZE97VjuH
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaHEmzFfis
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbfDuJQDbU
"It's not your fault, honey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQ1aziH8he
I start crying again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5bbyBEQ3p
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu7Bji8eoq
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrm7vRVZ9h
Maybe I'm dead after all.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2yamDAbqz
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdXgnIyXK0
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDBOAQbsWe
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnZt8XWfMO
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfiXbn6sBQ
I say, "I still want to win this."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4EJeTXa2o
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvgw1r0mjO
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmD6Hpsoxp
"Really?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVImzGBbCwB
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRdXSUdbe9
I start crying, and I can't stop.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLQ8yB742g
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOPcIT6KGQ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsd6DSiS3d
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJE19iAgeY
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvpwTj2Kuj
"I wanted to see the flowers."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi1JcU8CZm
"Why are you out of your room?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtysCxkg4t
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpuiM3HC91
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2ojyArUn6
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI6GyQg4H9
"Thank you for being you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOLOIuzETn
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzVxINv8h6
I make a decision.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLXDdfTsCa
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHJmsoOI2D
"What's your name?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpokDGc0dN4
"Allisa," I say, smiling.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8axoTM1TQM
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteMObHtg9i
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrit64av0IX
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyiiTqMnPG
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmbuIw70BO
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetH31QyuB4
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWrR5lnJAP
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhJWLz0pI0
"I just want to go home," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTC3jmOMtf
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUlZT5H2LR
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8KRDVIfyS
Father sighs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkq0umm0Vp
I say "I don't want to stay here!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyROhJI8SIH
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LC9R6qbQq
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGRZ75ZTgQ
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNC6ZE4vrG
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3OD1SXPdR
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsMFw8yxt4
"Pet, come down from the tree."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJCn5IUrzv
I stay silent.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU49tSBJX6O
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQfnR4ZobK
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRLKdqNoVJ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kMlXWLErM
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMYDKdpKLV
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7irm8hnVC0
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdGb1lAYmj
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhX4L0CmQ0
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoTVjn7GGc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCe1UF4TvS
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5MPVFZe6v
I say, "Please don't!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Y9b7UX9nU
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlnJ0w7c4N
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vtxffiizw
"You'll find out soon enough, child."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx77OLU2e2
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UAOITyCJI
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmyZYo32hZ
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF1l2ftibsI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAMyY2OZBh
"Are you ready, child?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpWoEqcQzh
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVMoUQLlC5
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8ygIa4Z9K
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I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ELW3gndBb
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFP8aXHb3a
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQr3R4IzLe
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW10ZNaPeIQ
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbUkXFXxAY
Father says "Good. Stay there."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeym1fSYiUI
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRqK1bzY8S
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs5KZT85A1
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutGnK4LnuM
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvOEftK3La
"Please!" I whisper.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EhzyNR5po
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK92A4tvue3
I scream loudly.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBhVm0ef2i
My scream echoes throughout the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLZ4GLeP68
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNuaL9Fmns
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIoLgeevRW
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItNX5uDE1h
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKNph1NKNf
I say "P-please s-stop.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdO4R6K6iM
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZJTlIOTPm
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BFCBrd7HL
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxjHFgCN5b
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScEDm81i0t
"Look at her," another says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu9EAJVidl
I say "Please leave me alone."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexMDkZUy1A
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJnl03SmFC
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR0xDQx9o6
"We'll see. Let's see."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmy47xUvA7
I say "No no no.." They laugh.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLmlq4FInt
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoMd34VTyV
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ogeBqYFI5
They untie me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywQP6CmpP8
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bC9rodFEK
"Ah... you're up," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJB1uJW8GC
269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c29I0oNV5
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfXwbdfx54"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0qj35nHub
"Where were you?" he asks,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTTv19g9Id
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYE52EIiNe
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuusndsaTO
Father smiles.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNCEemzVCy
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLCl2FT8iq
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjfdhCmjAf
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QrNzRb8nv
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPj4QdjfQlN
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0yPV0hPwN
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobc9q7qx57
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjU4vcTf5a
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECjxiu3KgP
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRPROc8HrE
I say, "Please let me go!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQOLmH32XS
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NKG0N1rKE
"You will," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYymCDeOP45
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiDLuz5KTW
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QQN0SNZ9d
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMGLtBjdhI
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxX4TOSElL
"Stop crying," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo5RULykpd
"I can't!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO3gds6cPB
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDrkvoW4Lg
"Stop it!" I cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHG6OwZnD2G
"I said stop it!" he yells,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo513rX1gvm
"I can't," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwVKDGM0h4
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqu8djt29d
"NO!" Father screams.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8E2tcv0cr
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5v2846jnh
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxlMmpAzXN
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQ6lGSHGJe
"I would. I really would."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEbGmx89XE
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e5TDVxj6m
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7lI2nHg2g
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQKXRCHyde
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4IyHxhYpY
I say, "No I'm not!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5njy2rpr5
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc45WITxgOl
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSymhmVgjim
I say "No I won't!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBVNt7KEz9
"You will!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6q7JoMRZw1
"I said NO!!!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEodLtEDWO
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qjRklVNGN
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcUHl0B2F3
"I know you will," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMuxprxCJo
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUjNbKRfJb
He says "One."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz3b0v57pi
I say, "I'll do anything.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6L3e7da5I
"Two."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrv5WH1m0S1
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAWrT5wWqV
"Three."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeLyrmfrSk
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPd6KNv0X5Q
"No, don't do it," Father says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oAIPETUlq
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ9CzfqEnP
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjZy3grmeV
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vTb7ibaQB
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4DDy2VYal
I say "Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrFLlvR6ig
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp2UnN1sQn
"Yes," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL5J9fUpnS
"Good girl," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwtOeIlOwp
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9wHasgJVE
"I won't," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqJDXBUCLo
I stay tied up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdr75Y1suj
"Now," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttxTM3YWhK
"Kneel."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zNH4t1Z9G
"Please," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpemqTtJwF
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5bIIeARK0
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ36HQiW3Sg
I just know it.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDabt5j2aA
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9n05xLC8g
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lUBQC90ty
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgubRI2mff
I'm all alone in the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQHtJ82RZd
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdTuNZEqwaI hear the door open. I look up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8rLUB4icl
"Hello," a man says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdCt4K9WDX
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI95Ykn9buJ
"Hands behind your back," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4CW4gQWBi
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ7ctwvYpt
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDGbJ4z1DX
"Stay there," he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawatqSdzd1
I stay on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6ZAyeylyd
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIO7TqZAN5
I say "No no no."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6ZhZiaZKe
"Do it," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxO0wySwYY
I say no. He pushes harder.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fcEpMTIZO
"Do it!" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0lmysyGMe
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDT61PiQlj
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1j4RYZqKg
"Stay there," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHJYUhh9ZO
I stay on my knees.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3h4lyZtk7
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG8ajxW4Vk
"Stop moving."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Kg9k0OtXI
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9GNEdVcy4
He pulls it out of my throat.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBRxb95m9x
"What's wrong?" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzubLHIeoV
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lFZXcgUOn
"What?" he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxp9hZHbqC
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0xGqXQe1L
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlgu4QZsdz
"Is this too big for you?" he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ6wlzMWUn
I nod.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmZnz0sdc0
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96OZWv0OGN
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAfbJhwiQr
He shoves it back in.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRwmHK3yAQ
I decide that vomiting once is enough.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RJl59QCYC
He shoves it in deeper.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2pF4VOY4D
I struggle and fight.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4eic5AGSx
"Stop fighting me," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxULyZSQVv7
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18M5HR42QD
"Get dressed," he says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbZxLiNy4F
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhf2g5e2PB5
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPshpeqy89q
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvrQ4af78w269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2Ncz46T54
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcGLzam8a7
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbn9fVxQHM
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTE28ReDcK
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8UxuSYHr7
I say, "Where's dad?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuxxai4y0w
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFJqECNPSw
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mAwsk8IJN
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqlU0LNaHd
My father says, "Where have you been?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAzkbPCjHQ
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyw89GxVF4
"Did they hurt you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgNkQHzvHw
"Yeah," I say.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RrvYUuZjg
"I'm sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0utKZ2dym
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgR2yZLY2F
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnWRpzSA6i
"Is Allie in here?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavjXdgpnQt
My dad says, "Yes, why?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1nXLALR1V
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniV9kK8kHN
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi78MAbXyE
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VDJix8iNe
"No." I respond,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWrHP248qg
"Can we come in?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiXvH1fJN1
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGND2qRfET
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF0Cla28mL
I say, "I don't know."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEpGePHuUp
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XLhN6Z8th
"No." I say,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUlorDBKJe
"Are you sure?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JUis11WBO
"Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwchD1fB4Lo
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1yTeMLJTQ
"Did he give you any food or water?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzq96Trab9
"No." I respond.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStjj9Jl8n2
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5PmwHO0JN
"No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHmqM6Ud3V
"What did he do to you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xHTemVAzS
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMEZMMQS4J
"Did you fight him?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdMmXnxTUp
"I tried."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNuSkGpBSQ
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIeY69KTBk
"I think I blacked out."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVTTN1d8Sn
"I see."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd2byAGeIw
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGl0ACKhLM
"And how long were you with him?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75aMpavgPi
"I think about ten hours."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd46VIUxelo
"And you only just managed to escape?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFSWBuIKPW
"Yeah."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViXfuuhi4u
"Do you know where you were?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgBlM8Tz4Y
I say "No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc7BM1fTRf
"What is the last thing you remember?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41EvQan6Yc
"I remember walking down the road."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuiZvyy6kW
"And then?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptyy6LW8Cw
"I don't remember."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwav1XClWc
"Do you know how you got away?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoXfY3Fsyu
I say, "I just ran,"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZoXu18Tno
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqetr6ImxwB
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXNukHgS9J
I say, "So that's how it all happened."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMAVZUiPeG
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzc6Bqab4Kl
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkH6v6MqlLw
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqC4n8AXOn
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuq7QGpgid
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9Nu1s27O0
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfEjivTstQ
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2koXSgujOi
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54xMjfpyxj
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3lvrsK9hj
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCawWTuZ3r
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5IyCzyWlg
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6wTDUqqtj
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe40Yp7S8X
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0CVqh1JKO
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz7GvjewFG
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdbQAvSjlj
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOhqEcT4u0At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT2G9sFj4E
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16lAj3w3aS
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYaDzvg3K3
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGL3O6ddmmJ
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZSBcmzxoT
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFASpkFfrS
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYUUk8DADp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSilIPhc0E9
"Get up." he says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSu1YYQ5ph
"Why am I here?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVZBb0Jty8
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZJmB0njSh
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbrkwVeV0j
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioCxYdAOLi
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYqoKp7CBE
I sit down.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBn2Tf3LzL
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZadFJrigFG
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7NyK7nzSd
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5vJCJCTCk
I say, "No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh5AxmTU7r
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7xcCROHwI
I respond, "Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS9CA5dEcq
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3L49BP1sq
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaDFhMiXc3
"Yes."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiWLq1hlS0
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco2Sa0l0kv
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNbsKH9EHC
I say, "Hi."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FqT04DAWa
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Ow3GBjwU
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLpjUtE9QQ
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywpvGBa2eR
"Right away," says the woman.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmD32km2hC
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYnhkaHr0U
I say, "Okay."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJe7iD4K4O
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp4nYMFnT2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSo1uSaLAc
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R1pSI9L4d
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5zyHyRaFt
"He kidnapped me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8JJDQsREI
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLgVXQQ04p
I say, "He tried to stab me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrb4CWXvxs7
"Who was he?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB3bNMHEkM
"I don't know."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOTkCxJRqB
"Where did you get the knife?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzGMI1mVag
"He had it in his pocket."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXNpqct9B5
"Did he threaten you in any way?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRpVuEnXpZ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB103ymVye
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNvo3MfYk9
"No."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayG6oT8kMA
"You sure? Think hard."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8PUdyDKQF
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYUop0p3bG
I say, "He killed my father."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIMgriPwgm
"What?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfooesXk3J
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqNBXJEt7w
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrvVVQxwkx
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUs5tytJfcT
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnTH7gZEl8
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4O0v3juqq
I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ4V1tzLXr
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqF7RIETe7
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwdYqzJa8t
I follow him.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi64km5JmR
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLzmjgnJKW
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbYJAS5h2V
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qmi0E0MIP
"Alright. Take a seat."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJRacE3WPw
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaz7mN4n7o
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrxDJJEKTs
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChsQz0byxH
"Yes.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhozpd3QmVz
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0VjSTQpBT
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVNYJaE7w2
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuCYKpA3vf
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsm31sUfB7M
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKJqpNSitd
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMzjEIzFOg
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VLsZK0GNh
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiqIe7tEHs
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTx7wZMIs0
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCgxDllKMe
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDDEXq3zoX
"What is it?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IibryWpYQ
Doctor Kessel says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o9vQZQNsj
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI0fCh7k3G
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFijbeUIllz
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TnVqVti1n
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58WzSbq9Fw
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvMecZsXM3
The nurse shakes her head, and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOArxaswf9p
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVYIMXJNUz
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fy2vT2gfm
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHvdB5EYN0
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSXtwpnZPt
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlONphKauf
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFBXtcBpmt
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZrGupDu4R
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuHZ5zKikV
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7tSY73O5P
I say "Where am I?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLOHQkBNuB
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL5VmKfVAz
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWVcDdJQS2
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijiFtmdJ3f
I say, "I want to see my mom..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdncfPad9Qu
The nurse interrupts me and says,269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmB9K9lGxv
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSYr6hatGM
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhBMKDrMiM
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx0BJyCjwjA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3lRtkm5XD
"M-mom.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHe7a1czLT
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxsmJbtAsA
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTxxLnkpeu
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXx9stn1LR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqITTx9w2b
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTG7Q5PRdj
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpCmekd6Ok
"Yes.." I say quietly.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7TY0GBX8S
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMdJFglQ4m
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsXiJSc0qA
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoY5aTtP9hB
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1Db6F5Uuy
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwAX5cTAmH
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0hWJZoj1F
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdAr7RT7aJ
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjUyLFg4B5
I say, "Okay.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHN1LQvSGT
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNivohGA3P4
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbofqwddr1N
I wipe the tears off my face.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFwYOJIZem
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE2JH4IRHa
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa30SPLXzR
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xBbOim9nB
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzEU7SjZ8h
I say, "Tell me!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGetWKsZbD
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RrSySuk61
My heart drops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMelIvpX54
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bqkp1zudP
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269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHqv0NJNZEIn the morning, I get my visitors.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExJlfcwy92
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoBhHQcju4
I say, "Wait!" She stops.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdzAO4kkS2
"What is it?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDuj5fJ3l0
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxhTPICiWu
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFrnXHfknJ
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOvkD9JIFu
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBXpXAOLuU
I cry myself to sleep.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOVgqjnDtQ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUcGK0aXyX
"How are you doing, honey?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERte3BA5Qn
I say, "Horrible.."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9VWuC5fw1
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9ZE97VjuH
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaHEmzFfis
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbfDuJQDbU
"It's not your fault, honey."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQ1aziH8he
I start crying again.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5bbyBEQ3p
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu7Bji8eoq
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrm7vRVZ9h
Maybe I'm dead after all.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2yamDAbqz
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdXgnIyXK0
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDBOAQbsWe
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnZt8XWfMO
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfiXbn6sBQ
I say, "I still want to win this."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4EJeTXa2o
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvgw1r0mjO
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmD6Hpsoxp
"Really?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVImzGBbCwB
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRdXSUdbe9
I start crying, and I can't stop.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLQ8yB742g
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOPcIT6KGQ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsd6DSiS3d
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJE19iAgeY
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvpwTj2Kuj
"I wanted to see the flowers."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi1JcU8CZm
"Why are you out of your room?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtysCxkg4t
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpuiM3HC91
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2ojyArUn6
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI6GyQg4H9
"Thank you for being you."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOLOIuzETn
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzVxINv8h6
I make a decision.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLXDdfTsCa
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHJmsoOI2D
"What's your name?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpokDGc0dN4
"Allisa," I say, smiling.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8axoTM1TQM
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteMObHtg9i
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrit64av0IX
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyiiTqMnPG
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmbuIw70BO
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