Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeD8dftlmz
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqonoRCls84
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPQMkm9XOM
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPOkV4zaRK
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqr4Ka053A
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJR4Kt6qDAa
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj0N0ufjI3
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhLFjtCu46
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ujVYFiTiS
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zjKuhyqfY
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74qgcRSN8j
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yXOvriZB9
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPsJQBjjbA
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOwQtmXrwx
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYdkhjhcs4
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSQJasSJ6s
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGL2OduJ6U
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*•*•*•*933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYfG0LLisC
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC4xdqv8xS
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyp4cPoJOu
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpd2G5bYiX
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0fMekIlVc
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ja1NLxjGX
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdR6E9aXsJ2
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyhXQvGPJn
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTElkzWWIdI
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShVxtaaTQE
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb35BufxlRE
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIxSsrObsf
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"It won't be painful—"933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W1PloQb7q
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ocnWris6S
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaYAW8qey9
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWuIqTX5sO
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMccOGNHnLk
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyasIxPG2cn
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXzS7IzX5H
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SddRaO8kK
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0omisFSRSa
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This is it.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb7Wshfe71
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8fC9CQnxE
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtAt4iFctj
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSALfjB0JU
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MYQYO682J
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I freeze.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtKmWtl8di
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Then I breathe.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnzTf2WLej
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrj3dB2zgNg
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUMrloKaYg
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpTdWYDpOX
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj17CA1PtUS
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcxLjTSFff
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Something isn't right.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPxyaAUveE
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw1GbxMma0
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt5uVmz5c8
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0GyvgEgTQ
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC8WqJSob6
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhIvAgwXUB
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His lips twitch. 933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssqe2YO2yx
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7gzl1g2IQ
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vVff3zvan
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"Okay so what do I have?"933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xxfZpAnCf
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."933Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHiSActEOJ
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