Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M2MQNGp0H
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMwOCq6m7w
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPX08UrIWQ
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7rKnchpgW
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XA7H76yN3
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1nK846BFb
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7TynNUqiO
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcMpwnfXRb
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaDdz9sk7W
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj8ZtEjTvP
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2sHJXUBKJ
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfYYoeFhWJ
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMn3lB0Dbem
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVcWjyGbPP
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BqD3cPV9q
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhvsvpLTUI
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2nuE3PG4n
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*•*•*•*966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhclKhHrsOp
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2s5SSNRF4
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDg9GxZMBs
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hBpB6Qfks
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQXyc0YBTx
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhWBNWCOcC
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2bnwQibs0
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSqoIBmT64
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd16HAMtKVX
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKzLigAtbn
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO2WIq3PHj
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfXId6ZNja
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"It won't be painful—"966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhEJ2gH21N
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOr1mGY43m
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vWhoEGkJ2
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TtSJmRXdr
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJQ6ESMZRe
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp38AIWe802
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89BWdJIO3p
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggxLuWGsXX
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvS6o3nxKBs
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This is it.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLQ5acUQwY
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbA1lEoTSIc
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmw9ELxIcW
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wtwj9vsw7
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8WrAUwH8m
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I freeze.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRsLE3OK5Z
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Then I breathe.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwP23Gxb7D
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y3qCd4EZ9
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3vcUimchD
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRoBnsgNbV
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZpTcIU8AK
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0chv2DTquO
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Something isn't right.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡastMtyTx8N
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPmIEsfAEH
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLZeRQTuaq
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhyXJf1MFW
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnXkXOcuIZ
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifOhghHvz1
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His lips twitch. 966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CckeU8e9y
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT0xXPWIuc
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXZUb3GQoX
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"Okay so what do I have?"966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixokBGoG9N
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."966Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZMaXkUam8
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