Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrntAylGU29
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lygr5Le0h
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdMXGGGtWB
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttlXg2EUWS
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUPlEjKbIz
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEvq4iWWrS
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOP4ZZ1rXx
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z2zLWNCbg
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz0J7Hcdnt
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXHoPjojAK
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTpbyqxmRd
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Qhqkw8BG9
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXXt0kScM4
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7BAvR3ZBP
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxHgqc2ZCz
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYYIczpr4g
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsohRHzTcq
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*•*•*•*932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHvftpVQnL
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfUWMnPhsM
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuLNeif9BX
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh243LGaWKU
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7N6ziwJt2
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8PHNYM2tj
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t3LgycLcD
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wGuLZ2eM7
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm3AVlSXwr
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku3wFpLDtA
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwNhQ7TVhf
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5sDgEWSyQ
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"It won't be painful—"932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXxABMBL5Y
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE5HNVohU2
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T1OHYA5Cv
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxtLbKisFv
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU593zsM2iB
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3qeqgNyII
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDG01UYg6G
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLrPIPUWJb
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIvOVz051I
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This is it.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbidQu6mC8
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9XxfklvS5
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhdluLIhNM
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YAzhKAl4g
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbcp4oh0w1
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I freeze.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eIwCcnPos
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Then I breathe.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8YPXvc00q
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2OWT3nGrW
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EHbwTZK6K
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4cDZeOO3j
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cP39Wx61I
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1Hj1NxyYG
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Something isn't right.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk7epX7uJ5
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XHuE1GkEa
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7Z3ILaro6
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcl0oqs1de
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF34Al9UEf
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISzVzNMOY4
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His lips twitch. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvdv29HFg6
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5d8plgrut
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaaBU0mdL3
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"Okay so what do I have?"932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWM6wdWRIz
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPJdvGH5gU
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