As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCOtf0vSwc
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCYvcbkWXd
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9GF8kRBMP
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pclNvtA3n
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl6kvjYylR
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip8fIU6HEn
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdh28DXnpT
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KILmujJ8d
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWQ84hgnYS
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9rmyL8X3b
Knives908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGHwCRNVLC
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56eviQC7jV
'Uselessness'908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv0zhucjro
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvs5enckPj
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgkIifhIQ4
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUrM9XwnST
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn32ROFDP0p
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS0Cg4OzPG
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0E4mHjDnOn
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R3llXdF30
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RspkmGZA9
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Sssr4rmMS
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGTEg05Rrd
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W0ej5B7c4
And with that, I ran. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmTCPWi517
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmECb2s5pV
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlcsU8PSJd
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUvJaTaON1
See you next time!908Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EmtcLyx8b
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