As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2DwmFenVX
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlB5LUlsMzt
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYRSzDogTv
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZet7tFp3h
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ887jIbUlPZ
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZzJabKiVz
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lhtQq4lph
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5iYyLjau5
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWusCGV0bXr
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswhmqQL755
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlwotIcjue
'Uselessness'953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPC0OSAwDU
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaB0p90cLm
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxdFaXjaNM
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFCGy2BcKP
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdiQ6HdhSz
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bjkrnBnED
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAz83mZ3JG
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJegpZGJlw0
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu1gl8EHgl
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4ysUJAgVZ
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ831NO5d13M
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6O3eLFZgj
And with that, I ran. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CCRzOYtVF
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7N9OFvVg1
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1of6TbJoS
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Paw6c0pWA
See you next time!953Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3wvTxwv9w
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