As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnA9bhdqn7
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNEtOua4Vq
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5Hkelu2PE
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiW7ffZwUb
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBMjj8MIUw
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfJEaA1i6E
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzBkQSp4Bd
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblojFr8FQ8
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJA4KW6Zki
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDm5OilQkpP
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOogE1oEDb
'Uselessness'985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbvQvNgaFS
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CTFQOZaCc
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RUyW2qX7i
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvka3V41dnl
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2DZs1V7JY
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7uJvCOpWg
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOVpvkJGpm
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUopx8FfWH
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXWWvu5KtQ
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xlPvz1H9j
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOofc83MMS
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBwHyotQjA
And with that, I ran. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGXUuBNraj
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWiHezCj50
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM71qBoD5oT
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9nuPIgyQ4
See you next time!985Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHYdW9dORm
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