As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxamtp88aL
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcgqKLrbEX
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ7luhhLZr
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2aWihrGpX
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXqTc3rVaI
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8KiSIglB4
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Tm3HpKL8k
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6T2Rk59fc
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhN38rFHKh
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj18a81JEVc
Knives923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvDVe6Ruy8
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOyT6rzN7P
'Uselessness'923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeWVsIdBd0
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1j0o0KhG1
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64d1aVOQPt
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrCYhdOpr7
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T4x9cTDgC
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG7ju2K4YK
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u2nf62f6A
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyfZvqKs5U
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIUKFhnqsi
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCMaTy7MSE
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yhfM4uvrq
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLAXDvJm9L
And with that, I ran. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWECc1Y3eT
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aWsiBn1UQ
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNpwkFsvRj
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUd6ak3U7l
Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucRC8bRZwr
See you next time!923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPJeSHn0W6
SushiPrincess
