I'm a horrible person.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQbfs7KDjg
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKouxpGbqw
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wxLz9rA7h
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq8hXf2hI4
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBI2liIJl7
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNYcHd4A9Y
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri56VnXS82
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCaRyS6uD7
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJfDgxIyvW
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt5NjMMng3
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBC5n7c3Dq
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fpyPZtMGs
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOkBKZJd2B
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKHSzIuLZk
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsivvfkgOA
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3reoSfkHXw
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWRDJllWor
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhkEJECvqo
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9JsbKpooU
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGwHS2R8WQ
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENUCWbB86R
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FqwXsiXuI
Of being lonely.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfpM8TcLG6
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnCTrGsqwz
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So I take comfort in my own world.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUYM98PwSK
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdRkskmqV7
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyKdDx2cnZ
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRL3Glgl4G
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvFR766Lpy
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttPlyi1jcZ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SePaV9VaX
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBfFF1XOZ3
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHRaRaYTJp
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdaZbEhk4v
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXOoYuinBr
I shouldn't even have been born.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTpvq3AOQR
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKf8koyYPA
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