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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8RlbNWg1h
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDM15HkHNu
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLV31BEnToG
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4ZAKkhnPi
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWwFeHqM38
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjbtyTLTJi
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtivhzp1g2
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhcR8GX49N
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSI08gtpyv
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6S3KQUbxR
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOa3cES3cu
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mGApFk3qf
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQrz3w32ZF
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「硝子。」我叫住她。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqqAprPccD
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ro2p6aXsW
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBprSSzGT7e
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH1mKVnL4H
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Yd0KsFfev
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9Wtg7u9ch
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXTig5GB1u
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT3y8ZnDNj
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uZmm4si1U
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「你們都是。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBHLD5RQ9r
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD62so8TRd
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmCPHukCmu
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「……好吧，我是。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXxKlL0ASU
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIULqgnpUbQ
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPiH3jZcmA
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJ0kld7QgE
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkpxxNa2Kc
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcIPx2aTgZ
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「你不問嗎？」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezX4fhxakU
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLFr91FTEZ
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBFbaFJKXZ
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqZ4IFG7JP
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaUNu5I6Yp
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvqr4YEXZZ
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「──我不接受。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRq1J7qu0E
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20KsZmJbai
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIO1v1B6nC
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK21FWHdPRA
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUuro0IUyU
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0zofVsE7e
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0zvcuHZhe
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……我突然有種不好的預感。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRsXInoohp
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「硝子，等──」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1Wq8iCUm8
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4IgO1Z6ok
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmtB8BYwwH
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNrlZeqhRC
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygYfc2uU4P
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4ACHNYRLn
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「你別──」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhsEnsculy
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOr0GlWZsT
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我好想逃。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6k8gXWRyW
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvtf34wz6u
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQURYdFjCx2
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFR3zFVvBZ
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriEUvNl9fg
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想到這裡，我站起身。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXY4eNLCiOA
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWqFTg5bPV
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「對──不對、不對。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMsGJlpGEZ
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWY2E5vQDK
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilEfbGpxbR
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4dOEvDeBp
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOG3jvMlDL
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSgx5T7cvn
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祝閱讀愉快。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eVM3kDIYp
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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（一個後續）310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLPPwDDMvV
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YV5FlUIQO
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTfSt3ZVkO
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hgdBP4pyy
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNvYnbt3H2
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
