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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQ7hkjWNBo
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvIPzJghz6
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMnm8D9aRq
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wwc3JsxRS
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6liSLkcbX
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaVwj7xV2D
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QgxHtQ5LZ
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrBtDfZTM0
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfAvMW5JMD
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjNHXUv9rj
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKYOd1CMrq
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk9rdyaNhV
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQkVAdgfpb
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「硝子。」我叫住她。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rh7IXzClC
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WHM4v5zVO
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheNf7h0G6c
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNFuhL827v
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7udILJWNAE
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2jm0f9YQC
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjEuzTsPaA
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3Ax6bwcpU
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFlse1rkEU
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「你們都是。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxOuJU7Pt8
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLQMONx5Oo
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SF11jk0oe
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「……好吧，我是。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwf7PXLHyk
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKDZIc2SsO
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHP1okq9fFw
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsLOyQP35v
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqKOSXkUs2
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX1lXbxSAx
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「你不問嗎？」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1hpXtQfUm
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaDYf2WIcv
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCdSZR9t1Y
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9kSWzCECC
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNvYdrj3GI
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtBvvomc5B
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「──我不接受。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2A63ZpIGR
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDGiuKQlvN
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK11ti8PAjk
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkzudrgaVX
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtiGmeZedd
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPQb9hGhfJ
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOCeJNovrV
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……我突然有種不好的預感。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbZxDPKsBL
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「硝子，等──」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hgS3ZRqQI
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgnAiwTxIP
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG3vbCiVfS
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYhyZOpw4o
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuanRgRHzZ
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtObzFmUahI
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「你別──」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkPav2YzYy
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUIDnCeUBD
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我好想逃。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOweZ0dkV1
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKYgI3rkTX
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80MRntLMnV
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHrqIsi8M5
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IYK4eh2fq
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想到這裡，我站起身。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHc1TnufxM
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeQ0AxH7g7
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「對──不對、不對。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZOwLE5wsK
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCY7WvrjjA
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG17M3rt1S
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaE4Aylz4F
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSHIpcYGDd
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qlbxYzxyC
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祝閱讀愉快。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHZdOVAC0y
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKk3fM6fTI
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHBacVW42L
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw4O6Z7Kk4
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）325Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmA7PtUIDyn
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
