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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的,但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。87Please respect copyright.PENANAWVVVUgHtrv
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著,聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。87Please respect copyright.PENANABUKzh4OnZO
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後,她像是想到什麼似的,問:你……打算怎麼辦?87Please respect copyright.PENANAsjc21kEiwK
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。87Please respect copyright.PENANAbDOC7aokG9
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她看著我的眼睛,說,不想當咒術師了嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANAE3ebsQHpPJ
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口,「我不知道該不該放棄。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAmj5bVY8hbA
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「為什麼不?」理所當然地反問的同時,她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我,就像是想探究什麼似的。87Please respect copyright.PENANAZosdHleLOL
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情;於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖,最後又重新咽回腹中。87Please respect copyright.PENANAh1hz2WuXsJ
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。87Please respect copyright.PENANA6DTM1t3L0q
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。87Please respect copyright.PENANAU9izbTSbDL
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體,雙手插進白大褂中。87Please respect copyright.PENANABHCwc9zTXu
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAT9Yl3Eak3k
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句;態度平和,一切尋常,就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。87Please respect copyright.PENANAvYVq8XBQdw
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「硝子。」我叫住她。87Please respect copyright.PENANAx4qA5CFb99
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我,視線於空氣中交會,表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。87Please respect copyright.PENANAqj0pqK9tii
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAFdzmTNnw8Q
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌,然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。87Please respect copyright.PENANAMRbyv4kk8S
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下一秒,熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的,柔軟的身軀,緊緊地擁住我。87Please respect copyright.PENANAAeeOyPpaUO
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下巴擱在我肩上,她什麼也沒說,只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。87Please respect copyright.PENANAr10cIjlsWm
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。87Please respect copyright.PENANAbir6EA9elk
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。87Please respect copyright.PENANAgN01MmezIt
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「對,我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭,我好脾氣地應和。87Please respect copyright.PENANA0hqvqAclyh
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「你們都是。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAENRFtMAfFt
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「……他們是,我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來,只能勉強開口否認。87Please respect copyright.PENANAgc88P5R54U
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAd4iKcZdD95
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「……好吧,我是。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAsk2Rstabf2
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和;我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手,試著學習硝子的動作,輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。87Please respect copyright.PENANAGCx3jgV3IV
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。87Please respect copyright.PENANA06c3fl9eRv
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偌大的醫療室裡,只餘她小小的啜泣聲,和衣肩上暈染的濕意。87Please respect copyright.PENANA8hLPy51W4S
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯,很快就止住眼淚。87Please respect copyright.PENANA3jfLn8YoM0
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因,反倒是我自己先按捺不住。87Please respect copyright.PENANAiKyfhqX3ss
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「你不問嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAWI0hMrj2xW
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角,反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味,一副「你看,這不就自己說了嗎?」的樣子。87Please respect copyright.PENANAThvaNKADgg
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。87Please respect copyright.PENANArwnZMFPvgi
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「好吧,我只是覺得……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAf6DdG2TO5Z
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望,我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話,大概就要變成陌生人了。87Please respect copyright.PENANARvfHKOK8qZ
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合,而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。87Please respect copyright.PENANAWok2dKF1LS
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「──我不接受。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAaQOFlhodNi
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硝子沉默幾秒,無奈地笑了笑。87Please respect copyright.PENANAGT6WtuITPn
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」87Please respect copyright.PENANA67NjJSS9Le
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「欸……欸?」什麼意思?為什麼突然扯到他?87Please respect copyright.PENANAh8I7rQJIKe
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象,這你清楚吧?硝子問。87Please respect copyright.PENANAR59yv0wgUT
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我點頭,疑惑地反問,「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAAQKCROb9KY
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「是也沒什麼,都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過,「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事,把五條嚇壞了。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAjfu4UTmgf1
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……我突然有種不好的預感。87Please respect copyright.PENANA249m4AcL26
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「硝子,等──」87Please respect copyright.PENANAnw8B0bunqV
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAxuHciznfaH
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。87Please respect copyright.PENANAG0lTyViC2v
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「你幹麼?」硝子問。87Please respect copyright.PENANAqbHPzHxqcw
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「退學。」我要退學,就現在,立刻,馬上。87Please respect copyright.PENANAHQj6Ey3H4y
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。87Please respect copyright.PENANAnFi8itGAwD
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「你別──」87Please respect copyright.PENANAyUb2umgYjE
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她把我按在床上坐好,強迫我繼續聽。87Please respect copyright.PENANAMHt6b2yAem
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我好想逃。87Please respect copyright.PENANAsU4lwa2XeK
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手,說『好可愛的貓!』,然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦,他頭一歪閃掉了,變成親頭髮;還有一次是抱住他,用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAnZqL9nM4Dd
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事,最後如此總結:「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」87Please respect copyright.PENANA4Iw4Ap2sza
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道,感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來,聽見這話直接反射性問:那他幹麼不跑?87Please respect copyright.PENANAHTMy4cgifa
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……問完的時候才意識到,這種事情好像也不是他要跑,是我要離他遠點才對吧?哪有檢討受害者的道理。87Please respect copyright.PENANAjLvjpjjFPn
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想到這裡,我站起身。87Please respect copyright.PENANAZvFdFcru8M
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「你要退學了嗎?」硝子饒有興致地問。87Please respect copyright.PENANAtZJJ18qNgR
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「對──不對、不對。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAtaf6Q4v0pL
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面對她疑惑的表情,我語氣平靜地說──87Please respect copyright.PENANAe8w137x8RU
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」87Please respect copyright.PENANARZGF65RvCt
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。87Please respect copyright.PENANArSkYc0qrkD
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很想大修,但是這篇已經兩萬多字了,不太好改,大概要等之後比較有空吧(還在忙考試ing)……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。87Please respect copyright.PENANA1kHeu9Dqnr
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結(好難),可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。87Please respect copyright.PENANABr0gdNJDy2
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祝閱讀愉快。87Please respect copyright.PENANAU13LFfvizv
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240306 梔涼|匿名交流單
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(一個後續)87Please respect copyright.PENANABIZMSRxnyd
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問題:請問兩位現在的感想是?(高舉麥克風)87Please respect copyright.PENANAKL3sTQ5mDE
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主角(臉上打馬賽克+變聲處理):不想活了。87Please respect copyright.PENANAKCBpEA8eCv
五條悟(離線中):(還在躲貓貓)87Please respect copyright.PENANA1F3VbJNqqI
路過的家入硝子:沒差吧反正是夢遊啊(無情嘲笑)87Please respect copyright.PENANAktr0qakY66
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。