Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt81atlfYyL
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnvUeEfidL
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrJBOHfJEh
I saw what I saw.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LuijGm0VQ
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ354KAzTsP3
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY7ZcKCWUU
But by speaking in tongues.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuJiqvJaUb
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUP042c3vj
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcq8nwRqkUl
Not out of fear—but purpose.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFpiSYXLVA
I didn’t want safety.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqc7CO1E7dU
I wanted power.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaAqTgcz0E
The kind that stops nightmares.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJhQLWjz0J
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskKJ0bnw0l
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr5WP2Eeeg
El.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AhmqsCr2z
The Eternal Light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5kt4upxVY
The Presence behind all things.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLElzEioqd
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzc6BaYLbqp
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPYxL8tGXj
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8UplKTEn9
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKH56Nttcu
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF7YceOqP2
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJMBRKKZH6
And suddenly, without warning—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpvqev1ub0
I was lifted. Thrown.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliyGJAernx
Not by violence. By presence.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GffQlNxNs
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZEuD0ebTI
I flew across the room.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghzT5CLfAC
Light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTwvr3q4LG
White.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFgmTP6Ukf
Blinding.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WT4o9xwU0
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmQxBmXlYm
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4slHAeip7
It was activation.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3anIGrqSa
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpDTGgZQPV
I left different.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtBaH98nm6
More open.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrFTqlX5Uj
More haunted.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEcLQ4rzQp
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYMmSr6j0x
Not as fire. Not as light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUY4Ubt8YT
But as spectrum.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0lP0RqQOd
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiR388wyEd
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurLH8SQtHx
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVjKrR6b5x
Not with thunder.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAMV0mYKwf
But with Prism.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvV5cK9mcLl
Color so rich it sang.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbcrp4GBNz
Light broken only so it could become everything.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vnWaWz5Jb
It wasn’t God the Judge.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bW7CnadKr
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60FZ9Qh6bm
The Harmonic Source.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTBzC82S3L
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOd0Dz3vYw
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgyuYsNKad
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2g36RFQVn
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe54Qmalhlt
Before I had safety.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSCjf50oJR
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuaFBT4wSL
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RNhcgtNBh
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQlcsFDTEg
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAnhgs7PFT
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DPDztebLl
We were Witnesses.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtirSaGNIc
Builders.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5OGa5oitO
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5ytBwCFgV
some of us volunteered to descend.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYve9zROW2c
To fall through the light and the blood.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoShGPiMXR
To wake up inside the chaos,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5TZ4RjPwS
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mIvi9koEJ
Not to dominate. Not to convert.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0cc8iFWe3
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWC1o0Il5S
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zoHkNgwe9
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYYYjRRc1O
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFK4kBaXq8
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSVJ9aXB21
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXACah6lYP
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6VTCJV9m9
that turns temples into weapons,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKyjUfdQcH
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcO5lNXPyNG
It honors difference without division,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KNpvHYWcf
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJBkrkQehJ
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTvyFC4u9Q
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PM0IDIEQc
When crosses were wielded like blades…35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcayzriRyr
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiBksIPxT7
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ1LjhMtvD
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yeCHzP0vd
It’s a movement,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq62elj8Kym
a remembrance,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda4UrO0Sor
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu0L9asMxs
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRoMu67SQb
“No system owns the Spirit.”35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcV74peb3dl
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFsMHruot7
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhzPg42rhD
Not to a temple or tradition,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9owD4FdrO
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sNfZMnI3W
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94a5nv21RQ
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7m1m5wWdj
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweYxY7rePD
You rise within.
You remember your name.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCp4uhgNlI
Your soul.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpSXlild9b
Your origin.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLKQOJWhJD
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGQEHw3ml8
A beacon for the scattered.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV6VYWjV3w
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UKOpnys9H
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8K1DzpOpn
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc79KDtry6
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnBw3GiA3V
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypxiHUioyn
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoncHqztXL
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT0J47dxaw
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueUnoaFHl1
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkVDwGG2lr
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhVgwrc8AZ
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByomC6dYBg
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVnf069X9Z
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFrHbbxboH
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcixqadoQRT
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsjjweVxC2
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjI1uakzxA
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly6JlQlDUo
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVy7RJOfEMz
