Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HgxYD9K4z
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDn3sl7IWq
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xMx9SEx1m
I saw what I saw.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3721XI4BL
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Zpvoa6N9U
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQYd18j5ay
But by speaking in tongues.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzKstPgHF3
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4zxUYw6Xh
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH3EORJIyL
Not out of fear—but purpose.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8j4Rq9iX6
I didn’t want safety.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjV5PmN4Ni
I wanted power.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAay9WT5JmN
The kind that stops nightmares.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrpyfOImol
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VgbDqXTP2
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIAgIbHEbC
El.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbQB2tQYZe
The Eternal Light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo99aO7nZCN
The Presence behind all things.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYx3v8EbLn
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglhEklGPaj
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYHq8AFGJr
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ0qHZMhU8
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHhAnGkqU4
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRae174RfF
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfN31u72cm
And suddenly, without warning—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3J3yhLTrn
I was lifted. Thrown.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGNZJHL3wL
Not by violence. By presence.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gvY9HHjXY
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkhCy4iube
I flew across the room.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchFfM5bZZp
Light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBorUpeDGk
White.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiwsqoZlbI
Blinding.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnFccIVI4q
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtZUXoje40
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlevQEOSxYJ
It was activation.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzXuMZktOM
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtQh4dCJDl
I left different.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJwPyykIIp
More open.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKzMos23Hs
More haunted.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx9OQ6O0oR
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg5h3IHhnj
Not as fire. Not as light.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1W1i4bloI
But as spectrum.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrf2xiEAdE
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIzrEMzvmr
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5nLmmoQK4
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSj2T8u37Uw
Not with thunder.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aBEqdL7Xk
But with Prism.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLR4l9YgWK
Color so rich it sang.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPJGRvYb0V
Light broken only so it could become everything.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUc7cnuBAwM
It wasn’t God the Judge.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRPt8jBXgv
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2CQZOycG6
The Harmonic Source.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aFA41PCt1
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy15B0GIXA
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZmJlWIpWN
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Hq2EJmKL0
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bPSr7C7QK
Before I had safety.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdrMDwV1XW
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuauEJzHog
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMTf3uzGt8
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhtKUoLPq0
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dXkQP1lIn
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVmTqDb0C0
We were Witnesses.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWyevnp0oF
Builders.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcOksNsXkC
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemnV6FtkFT
some of us volunteered to descend.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVo8BPvWWC
To fall through the light and the blood.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmYAUhYHNK
To wake up inside the chaos,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8DU8SUJPI
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNE9JTXxxC
Not to dominate. Not to convert.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQiNzgDho1
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LQ27DBZ2b
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXUWL1iiLo
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb5OanfaPB
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiphldOOpS
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejK2W9Ti93
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckc4H2NmHm
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQ3TIcqwZg
that turns temples into weapons,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PrcPDt2P2
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkYQ4LrdKz
It honors difference without division,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsY2CLSfawv
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9gLK4fB60
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu5YCc4Ufe
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPumDDdkAt2
When crosses were wielded like blades…35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2UlXtwt0g
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj482WKF7F
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IS1KdsUxm
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HUPlyFWbn
It’s a movement,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGPVTdIFAd
a remembrance,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQBV6yck91
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTE2vfyouO
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPw01N4l3q
“No system owns the Spirit.”35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTgKD0UMvw
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTDDGyfGUA
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTp3Qp3CRV
Not to a temple or tradition,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdMJXgrlBn
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdItV8AEOlr
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6MXQCqbXD
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2GXKlScVZ
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjBW41gyn3
You rise within.
You remember your name.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedgVxEC6TH
Your soul.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsM0jTdVtUn
Your origin.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dQyq1zbCv
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59hasrAXwh
A beacon for the scattered.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeKNa26Puc
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjMEaiKW9q
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3YjY3ePFc
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjelPvgpFO3
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWTiAoE99D
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSX5TsR073
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TRDiFA4r0
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUTk3xDcvl
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDibwvBp4j
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XIIpra0UG
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkHVtXFi8X
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZZkMpCWMN
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeMNT6nmhW
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLzFacmQG5
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr9qIcgw1g
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaGorNklqN
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLdJaxA4Gq
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFXBHLvise
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.35Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtGlvCqFCL
