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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42ePbOU3l7
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”
But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:
Dad — why don’t you talk to me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JxIPwOxAw
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip3zIHa3dn
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1S9aPUMGF
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Why are you never proud of me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNDbVCsiYR
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyQ6vFelpO
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?
Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpLPAZedy0
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGkWH6bf3w
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT903x65oF
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4wTOfi28R
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxAelVGrkn
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMGxp39fDl
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?
Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUitqZiF4G
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8N89b19JlO
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RAvSTaWFt
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAnlZcUQc1
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTvWxETXIA
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Was your hatred really that deep?
Sister, little kid — even you joined in.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYT70q0gDMh
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdT7WQfbap
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaTUPZf2Dl
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So why did you help tear me apart?
Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv3YcNoNRH
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUgVABfSug
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?
Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tduuc8O0J
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM4sjozZ3z
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?
My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeiTp6jX6p
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1toOdRrOu
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I tried to save you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZs9XlPqT7
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I told everyone what really happened.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zqmRzCs70
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLevCHb5WQ
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Was it painful?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocY7A2HXF8
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I should never have left you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEOIwg9hpv
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They told me about your death 15 days later.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYvJOtbgWi
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMDS4aB4NZ
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Was poison really that brutal?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxtMC3YE8d
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrUJ7QGFb2
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I thought I’d see you again.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZMyIIwcut
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.
Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEA0d7Pslj
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But not my pain?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMFaB6ySVD
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?
Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC2jbw8WIw
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdf4il4C9vE
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You chose silence. What could I do?
My 5th class classmate — you died.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXrFLzFyBY
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The only memory I have is scolding you.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34kAUf10aa
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But I also remember your last smile.
Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX7ztnx7bz
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfduFjdwu2d
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One month later, I attempted suicide.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu678wv4JCO
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You still don’t know.
To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGApJF5W939
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Why?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1Fxv5Ezor
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2F2KpX7ju
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQdtE1sdWv
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Why am I falling apart like this?17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxzLt5Bmul
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?
So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.
Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vEaZziBvt
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”
And remember:
Not everyone is remembered forever.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcLQYFlPKX
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People move on.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksVqfawJLZ
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Family is not the same for everyone.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8OxM5rKX8
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.
