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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NiDPr7ONx
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”
But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:
Dad — why don’t you talk to me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0qt2LAxgH
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9nn8tbMdX
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUT3oy6yj0D
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Why are you never proud of me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qP4PyXh2N
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENftid5z5I
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?
Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSFg5s0bur
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnUP8d7FbX
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWhC3xLQPm
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgEEoEZCCi
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwPEhzGRKb
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wvnrPLnD8
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?
Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxKPqQF0Bk
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6DAVE3yJL
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WAskbfKlk
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6t79vwglr
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xIflGDuIO
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Was your hatred really that deep?
Sister, little kid — even you joined in.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuf37iI5i7
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1txiqSemcF
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTglvk0D6xv
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So why did you help tear me apart?
Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpB3xqz9xK
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CztEBlyKx
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?
Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUg4Y88CZe
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFLzAWepQA
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?
My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaI3vbm0Q3
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrnNrDx4rr
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I tried to save you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdA4lxv12WG
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I told everyone what really happened.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcSiZVyn2r
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQQydrAyDZ
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Was it painful?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UqI60FXpv
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I should never have left you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZykVD3DRO
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They told me about your death 15 days later.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVVoedx5N4
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rGvU3TM9W
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Was poison really that brutal?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnbbdFNpzv
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTwZ8N1w6D
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I thought I’d see you again.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjWAYElbbb
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.
Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgciIZiStoU
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But not my pain?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhL5Kbgn2C
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?
Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi1SNnmWxD
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIx2aFMWQ4
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You chose silence. What could I do?
My 5th class classmate — you died.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFcdsprOci
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The only memory I have is scolding you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXjQYWnXv0
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But I also remember your last smile.
Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7AplRRdXA
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjS3Q4eaglT
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One month later, I attempted suicide.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgWFAT2Kqi
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You still don’t know.
To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWLHRZDzAG
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Why?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mefkxhc0p
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhBNBiIAB2
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfe7RW3bjm
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Why am I falling apart like this?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYOpDjZcGO
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?
So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.
Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBDwAVHZKo
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”
And remember:
Not everyone is remembered forever.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzy52oZrwjY
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People move on.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1SbsyyOa2
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Family is not the same for everyone.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcooe7hmqIo
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.
