#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1079Please respect copyright.PENANADo2iONUwRR
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1079Please respect copyright.PENANAIyM428w7i8
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANALoSZHM1fCi
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1079Please respect copyright.PENANACzc2wHItnM
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAJIrXj5Jig3
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAtD4BdWFweg
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAs2UbcahsgW
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAyz8O0oog0q
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAbe5Md1819K
...1079Please respect copyright.PENANAoS8CUS4cfD
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1079Please respect copyright.PENANA18bDg3ioc0
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1079Please respect copyright.PENANArwh0DJbx3H
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1079Please respect copyright.PENANAo7iMZiBw1Q
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAhhmzRbXyB0
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAiGS6X9VDzB
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1079Please respect copyright.PENANABR9SWptS4v
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAidYtWXE3wn
So calling it off, was it that bad?1079Please respect copyright.PENANAvhIvgOnNK0
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAmOlNvB8qBX
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1079Please respect copyright.PENANAYGu2SO8PnA
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAoZmHmyPf7D
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAEipsYvEv9O
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAQKqrRoYcVy
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAR57DKlOhiS
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAVXw9j9URXC
Henceforth, we have this. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANAS7P0UaJrMR
Thanks for bearing with me. 1079Please respect copyright.PENANA2ymoctb5G1
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