#1 Entry: Why I Started This.771Please respect copyright.PENANAA2wQhTmC2L
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.771Please respect copyright.PENANAUC7VnjDPP3
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAZY0FQNWjfI
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.771Please respect copyright.PENANAnbNDxxeDWt
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 771Please respect copyright.PENANA6aS12KhcuH
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAwAAC9sGH5T
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAsCylD3QwCd
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAWmGh7ASdcw
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAsPx3BYBRoL
...771Please respect copyright.PENANAUULZwSRbED
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?771Please respect copyright.PENANANhqja501cu
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.771Please respect copyright.PENANAUU73TqBCrW
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)771Please respect copyright.PENANAX0wR8g4HDa
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAnKabURpC28
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAaMWJc26uV2
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?771Please respect copyright.PENANAT3hsNO8jvh
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAQSb91hP2dY
So calling it off, was it that bad?771Please respect copyright.PENANAwafLrrLyBS
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 771Please respect copyright.PENANApYRqD9N0MV
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)771Please respect copyright.PENANA2idfB3bHGk
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAxiELGSj4lQ
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 771Please respect copyright.PENANATKuThulYks
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 771Please respect copyright.PENANANtikBGqxHw
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAPCoGrrPGU1
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAFOLbUpkmb0
Henceforth, we have this. 771Please respect copyright.PENANArTCZHY49rm
Thanks for bearing with me. 771Please respect copyright.PENANAzHVcHqfneb
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