#1 Entry: Why I Started This.774Please respect copyright.PENANARQejTAvK8E
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.774Please respect copyright.PENANAYWTxkwpqqB
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAJRVB9Z5yCe
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.774Please respect copyright.PENANAmasA9KMnDY
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 774Please respect copyright.PENANAtytu1C6p3z
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAsHLmLAQyY2
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAkclbaGV5Bn
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAesZ2lDXI6e
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAvTV3hHGvna
...774Please respect copyright.PENANAHIbcznWiFb
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?774Please respect copyright.PENANAlrTj47YHxS
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.774Please respect copyright.PENANAwigLIbzW6g
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)774Please respect copyright.PENANA1RGs7VKYMR
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAnfmQ1TegcM
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 774Please respect copyright.PENANA6s4ZqlqlK7
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?774Please respect copyright.PENANAI6LKyy523e
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 774Please respect copyright.PENANA1rNlrQWGDT
So calling it off, was it that bad?774Please respect copyright.PENANApWFU94HXPd
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAQO0oP8SgYN
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)774Please respect copyright.PENANAd1zuZ0kv24
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAjokBqVLdzC
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 774Please respect copyright.PENANA82dkTQhKXo
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAFpZX2v88M8
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAYONUK6OhdM
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 774Please respect copyright.PENANA2Sc7luyr9w
Henceforth, we have this. 774Please respect copyright.PENANAwWKasgU71Y
Thanks for bearing with me. 774Please respect copyright.PENANA602uevuljB
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