#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1018Please respect copyright.PENANAUv5UoJskLw
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1018Please respect copyright.PENANAlQd0plmaIL
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA34xUy8776o
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1018Please respect copyright.PENANAIws99M4DRZ
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAtJHdCA0dlu
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAH0yXVI6AfH
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAXAbT3cnlXT
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA2HdJea0pzQ
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA7uMgumb7QX
...1018Please respect copyright.PENANABAnEdKPeCL
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1018Please respect copyright.PENANA8hSOkyP8wm
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1018Please respect copyright.PENANAPgLQdTw2cB
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1018Please respect copyright.PENANAggoXmprI9x
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA3V7Z96oNX7
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAyMZShA3HeU
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1018Please respect copyright.PENANAU5LF68zjMq
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAznh5ayPjUM
So calling it off, was it that bad?1018Please respect copyright.PENANAhEM0kcHC3v
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANARc0niJXAO1
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1018Please respect copyright.PENANAlkJIFR0Drj
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAiOA5NbA38x
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA66HIVvFqV0
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAfyCphye2mJ
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAdzOWtrw4I3
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAo5Ccn3Af2r
Henceforth, we have this. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANAgqzmgoMgvc
Thanks for bearing with me. 1018Please respect copyright.PENANA6r1bg7RqUo
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