#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1019Please respect copyright.PENANAS2ZyC6DnFX
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1019Please respect copyright.PENANA4B3Hap9omS
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAyziT2FMKiu
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1019Please respect copyright.PENANAXeCiLcoOyw
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAswLRMve0ea
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAx9cXN8n1AE
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANABFhfjFgyBV
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAmJL0kUZujp
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANA6hn6rUJeMM
...1019Please respect copyright.PENANAzLlkEY3CdW
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1019Please respect copyright.PENANAcez7lv0Tbb
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1019Please respect copyright.PENANAKkILr0IEih
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1019Please respect copyright.PENANAST7UE411bO
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANALxbHGplfbk
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANA9kkIfyMvXI
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1019Please respect copyright.PENANAX8hgwsEcZx
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAsXKKD9OW50
So calling it off, was it that bad?1019Please respect copyright.PENANA8bxA7dJxFZ
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAdwu6LrOQFw
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1019Please respect copyright.PENANA9naLpFWIr3
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAkTm31Ikiup
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAvX7tnOfyXj
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAschnysRoXR
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANA8djQQdL9Xa
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAKNyGx1L2ID
Henceforth, we have this. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAMrQpCJaqGa
Thanks for bearing with me. 1019Please respect copyright.PENANAFrVHpWfHUr
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