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Some of my colleagues 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQq5GcLRd8i
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE2jY0jMjS
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvnKnbermn
suggestion or hypnosis.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoWVxN58u7
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXXRF9yU4Y
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnNTxRVXTm
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMF3ddYf8u
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MIvt7ZAv9
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLFfRE0iVY
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLSf7pzgkL
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1inrTflkE
capabilities.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ml4o5FqrA
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdnGSvE5LA
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David awakened. Not 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpunMlYAKEX
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZgsYW3rh5
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRtNNr9NMW
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICRlPgbH3o
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hpuFFAzhE
undamaged.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoX9BG8h37
"Only your physical body609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdrvLDVeGC
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfzXM86JGW
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzWprwwPSq
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDNcyPd7SB
A shadowy form appeared.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzYAXizGm3
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9LYHFHkWF
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGT5H5KqR43
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B1LjEnWnz
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUR6mwAjD2o
"Am I in the...ether 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G3oLNfm7v
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9sdCQtSie
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOwN4Ost9y
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeglAIbmLc
David was tired, too 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBlDwjlx9e
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgssl4vSMQ6
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyv67UjhwB8
The shadowy hood cocked 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3V3Y5VOMFl
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCiczKHsDw
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bWwUWAWgB
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3efXWzI2b
more grateful."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyDUKp9nP3
"I..."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5eYzasi0g
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUNOWqxZ5b
David groaned in 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeyJzt3ydg
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmLRAo0i8c
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjdVHRSqvT
falling point, that'd be fly."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9UdAKKnVf
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOhte9reDO
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0zdNr7w7x
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTylyfP3Fa3
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbptynSmaE
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSLpWVA3sl
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn6SKiKIdZ
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKprKPa4p4p
David shouted and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIVkklTDqk
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoBefBc8vf
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrB3oTsAAz
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvPw6Y84i5
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8ySfdEjMi
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrvWiYMSUz
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvibiaYyTy
mist.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1iWXjnHuS
Jester's voice came from609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsGj4CBFbQ
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ110MFGlndZ
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXs0TVZSIY
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwB75NBiJ05
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BTVwaURiX
creating a circle around Jester and David.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKvVA00IEJ
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocqa81vACc
"Shut up!" David 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLZUuFGPWQ
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyW7inGZ0Q
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqNYhwU9HE
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZKEzd83Jp
Jester gave another 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RY5g8nw2Z
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vXUEbClSm
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQBxA19NsX
afraid of the truth?" 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDon09RDLj
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgefDoan0Mm
"You're what? A 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpwWXXTVu4
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFnCZi6oiZ
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zJQyu2qH0
you've done not matter." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIJ9Sp70ot
The shadows completely 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYsc4GkFfZ
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZDCkJ22iF
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTjH6xfDdq
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglrsq4GXla
eye and shadows swallowed him.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs2yIJxQFN
Shadows parting, David 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyxI6ZV22c
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7duJrWHDEn
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWxa1cxA9V
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDgFhLIliH
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5t7LLmaBY
mother609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU54y3QsN8
"This is my memory." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwpMwD60yp
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYINC3cn5f
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6YOj2Qi6N
David didn't reply to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhjTy2p8vT
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJrTS7uqGO
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fCfORHdBP
Unaware of what was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCUofEmtqo
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznm4FlHO4h
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL5O4EQFyV
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxmUnxEjM9
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79GCYrN2ft
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj2U9B8etf
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dvSJVkuJn
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzbmv4wvTQ
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLz74mZX39
Finally the screams of 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPElUUH65oB
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtKQkvpJJD
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusMVSvck4z
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj4526It18
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMmfyLh47Z
the baby's throat and squeezed.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczNyWzHIRV
David could feel his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQeOqNG6Cb
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzGY9tF0xa
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhmdqlqytZ
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNskgRe06gp
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8S13MFwguZ
stopped.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsywRldiFz
"Oh, nonononono." The 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4N6FKAA18J
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9sC3dGnDM
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbST5KUPPdw
"You who were supposed 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVpMvIyO7Y
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o7EIszdRh
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04iCc7mLxa
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy8EWjZIij
Coughing David stood up 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t3yrYKK4g
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J78mIVuah
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8NgeJC2fd
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACQPTw48dj
"No, it was a small 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXzSY6CDhV
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MfZ5Nu4CK
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNgiRdhwUK
He was staring at the 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JoM6fpz0a
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL17guW5M0
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQ2bOsVujH
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLG4lL09N9
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNFdhuRYR3
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlRVkoK8J2
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEScIJUzFKZ
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy1pZzeBRY
"I will!" Came a squeaky609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGJRU9eWke
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfWRmziZeZ
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxzIu490BB
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pM4joljJk
was an adult.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoomtzM2N4y
A knock came from a door609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgLr9rNIoG
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4otb2pcw7
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRZUWjsdwF
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpQYPCsQU4
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM6WBYS2ob
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgz5NLaAqr
being a bad boy.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5Dh8DmFMo
That's why he didn't 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3c0rQ5hF8
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPL05oZ8Tf
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CzRfLnrwz
"D..david" the answer 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLFn7ukGdG
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4S6NMFuhq
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO2hhulJy7
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3eQobNPHn
The man put his hands on609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYadXHIl7P
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt2WJBXGQB
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFydJ6loxBy
David meekly shook his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMk54WB048N
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7lVssaik1
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRBrxe3V61
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AY5mNlxcO
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JUgRjP59W
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1u0Vomx6M
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fuHZMTL6R
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMGHSSjQb2
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fbeMYuZrm
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY05jCN0Hxp
Davids body.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj09g6pzq8e
Please don't. Came adult David's voice609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbNSfwKo2u
Young David was scared; 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeAh8FmdnW
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfoTUVgAUx
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYT9rYmWzlb
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziyRkHxYi1
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcLbvEGUlQ
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJr1YX2xCP
"Mummy, mummy!" David 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwdi3bxUwR
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIoEXRq6Nr
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX1FUTmRcH
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcovepG4Xl
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJepnMZm17Q
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLpSiuqudZ
David didn't even know 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7M34OoR5a
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlKo41TUam
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8yS9gzy6q
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz92yLA979t
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DxCQ4G4Mg
David could barely hear 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5s8iFPu3s
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1tOUpsdpq
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0IgkLvFrf
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPPStDDtMk
anger. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1t508MAk5R
"There are more 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXixK0Ofvuv
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmOi6CyxTk
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W7BBEf7qp
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUKsxISuLX
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScOIHzi6NF
"What else is there to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxfa14fixA
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvlOdDCmBw
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3r4pvkBX4e
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMPP7CxPFf
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPqo3P5hhL
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8bWU6PtT6
floor. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHYVirck3X
Even the pain didn't 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRtwCBOAHY
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQVklhX5l0
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrePfPm4djK
everything would be gone.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWXZctu4d9
~Just like that, give up609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7GEtA0Q8S
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo7bOweuFz
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87V99HA3e8
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyjNAtKkqj
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlHhxBSJ4a
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz81oKF0NSE
than this."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeY3Dd99ER5
~STOP! ~ David dropped 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn8QQDWm9y
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfa6qIZJWoJ
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnMFdUcCC8
survive. Survive and live.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oZkh7UzMV
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZe0eZbMWWP
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4uhETRXxh
"Indeed." Jester 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadjF350P33
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHDxUChVS8
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2L4L1mn82
like his own did.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87r9n3IBuO
"Why did you try 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMKznmvtB0
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhzci9q6F5
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dyklw25Yw
process the influx of memories.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aPKwKpoBq
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V0T5uojce
"You expect me to believe that?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3IE4yZlei
"Believe what you want."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMYOaoPAUf
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDMZ0hjSAO
Jester chuckled. "All of609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ADJfLgG3m
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqduwCj1zL
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5etAjhSar
"That just 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7cnq8mbhk
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrkhzX7ckJ
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEgyWnnBYS
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqv8eVfcK8K
David nodded. "Do it."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡji6tErLbL2
Everything shifted. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHhJCv6izf
David was cleaning his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPzIA7Zpo0
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE9LdbWQXA
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRiAzcUjKU
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsayZT21Kg
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NH1TrFs2J
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Up30msnl3
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrv65IdHxtD
His last one was just 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIZNNn5m2M
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU96sETFht
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOJjAVZ0dC
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPfoHnWlsC
Undamaged goods she loved to say.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucAWeM4ECB
Right on cue, David 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8mpobB3EM
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt4AqFfqV5
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkN4HGdBUu
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHPU6YmiSj
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzEqcmyHIf
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6oDf52xwj
Why was this his life? 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJP1q7IzsN
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwxa8VwOik
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq6RnIk90C
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpjkMglTpK
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8siS5XRog
vein trying to get his eyes. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQznykMInC
~Enough David.~ A voice 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQF5e4Tase
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0iTItiNGr
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KnFhBUB4T
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8Rex60BFC
and met resistance.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzZIkRbh3B
The scratching and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxU2U5xori
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYWV0ApznP
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcJRUTvkFb
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbB5efqSsE
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Il1civOPj
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7xHCD6Qm2
Oh god what did he do? 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut0ev9m3xn
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEx0hZF0T6
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFPo3GmQmT
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhNMnKJ1zj
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2X6NU0Gua
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJb1WENpx4
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17DadPGL8s
blood.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPZBAJceQb
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJ7AkQPQrm
There was a pause and everything quieted down.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWwZeKdRUC
A boy named David just 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A0mKCNY3U
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNl66XiO7Y
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIbzsqhIz5
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcOOeHzDRz
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt27N5O5Acl
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkGO0xG1VJ
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZEjBrvxI4
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXHjNRHo7I
silly of him.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmUgMQSGUX
Remembering his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4D6IOBmIB
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4JHf1ES29
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCb5l4hmBiu
table preparing a meal. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwViFFaj4x8
"There you are David!" 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZCERdkAkf
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NJPv0xxCC
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2DKq3vibd
This isn't the truth.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLqESINraE
David obligingly sat 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNUbMoEQRQ
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEWCGxfRut
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn2JIvz3aH
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn94mD4e0Dk
A dream, nothing else.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBD8tXdqaOL
They all thanked the 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaph8cGdVut
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBZTMT2jYU
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3vdzlIlFR
this lie.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsAKZFRWGc
A lie that has to end.609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvqKzqiD0D
David was standing at 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWb9lOUrhH
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb4wZWhL6T
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOmQ7hUjzH
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTD3Lq9W4BS
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqcqQWmIMY
Either way David hated 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg87rA3p44N
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLaklL0Y0V
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRg5wF4Hwm
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03lQ9YxmsO
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9tpRyODrK
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42siqvAvGi
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCqN1t81rj
life this happy blissful life?609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHYhXddBDd
The answer was so simple609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizRmEjEPZ3
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltQqka13Vm
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYXf02rxlA
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5bfUJpdZf
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfGo4HATUU
David decided to start 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIENJ7JNKa
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2DhPZB34G
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwpkSXx5U1
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsHcDpvuAT
mother. "No more mercy."609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSHNBby9nt
With the last stab 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIqHL7aVui
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKaE7IRzrZ
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast609Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE4XxOZSeG
emptiness.
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