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Some of my colleagues 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0xz6J9m6n
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8LSA1LyiF
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnxs2O9dqg
suggestion or hypnosis.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVboKMUBaf1
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1b4l73mZz
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUMphBcgBN
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcWxVtjWHh
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z258s5Apu
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Seb3Mp55U
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7mlQry8y3
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBLUGqyjNk
capabilities.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJgWRjZ4wz
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xq92vIFwM
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David awakened. Not 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyICkFcGYwF
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrfQPvaCr0
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38UNq6Dtjz
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7tbB7oa3A
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZMsRShvd3
undamaged.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzG0c0ilM3
"Only your physical body531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL9DkBSECy
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAdqrgp3AP
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LHrPiTbBC
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM11Hk3cL5
A shadowy form appeared.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6NqZnnpLi
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfw0Jc0bic
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPulfnj3QM
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK77zbv7I9
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1JK0i3A8l
"Am I in the...ether 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2mcfGLjmS
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPne5EZa5i
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8IwBuN54B
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZlWWDin45
David was tired, too 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhk5eiSXMr
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffbjTeQxSr
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnixQg5wKz
The shadowy hood cocked 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkIyUvNcYX
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrZG8Ij6Xq
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b9dWO4kGp
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiPOhGHxYy
more grateful."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8S1vTi46jv
"I..."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0iGbGHUrx
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK5OBb9h1k
David groaned in 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQXx9zRUuD
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWKAUTOXlY
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5anl3JQN3d
falling point, that'd be fly."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD7eBSWGin
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0tQcesq8k
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcWhkBZxly
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9hwnwQaDq
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sCmJvCebW
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkL4flZsG0
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtwszV66i0
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3opgUIU5j
David shouted and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlu2jsgdsd
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVJ7kH67rX
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT09CMAYyw
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡter4EWFvWf
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eLWJkyv1F
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuapoCxPkTh
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEtU40SEHY
mist.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oKtdkGJ1A
Jester's voice came from531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUYu5n3ViI
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwPaAyUtKs
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4KV6M9PuE
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4C54nzkG4G
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaNJPF3bH3
creating a circle around Jester and David.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Iu9D7GPSD
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahuwoKtUkY
"Shut up!" David 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgg3YLqp24C
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQVTqkZaKt
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBB7CrAw0c5
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4k4ceEeKk
Jester gave another 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDqrmEbvnv
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5LJRPgnZ5
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuuzulIsCd
afraid of the truth?" 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCG8OTOg2O
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3mH23l3N6
"You're what? A 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbBLFXKpa0
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCafjP7Ubjx
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv1lHqXa5t
you've done not matter." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlHh2ixmKG
The shadows completely 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZli9hdvAwC
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3LEp9EwMH
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOgDM9V77W
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1URhMurBg
eye and shadows swallowed him.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzCLeyCPV7
Shadows parting, David 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylTfGk6Lr5
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlADCATdxj
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusVvhZ7yBv
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tAEeqJdaq
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLpmbst2DH
mother531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00MiBiQznj
"This is my memory." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt7Yq0HFvW
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeo803572zm
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA5gBLcjDi
David didn't reply to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1C6FXp841H
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDlgYms2e9
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsg6OlQc4w9
Unaware of what was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y2xcnXBGK
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z80s1iWEH
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNhnZ6f0QX
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqTRirewBR
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKArOe5fHp
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlhA3vL5pN
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPicqdb9mel
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdd2gnvNw0Q
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iHWUKXOOW
Finally the screams of 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIlB4tSefK
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAYXAaEFoh
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25Z3LsiKjZ
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ClG4XEUhj
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRygumpjF5j
the baby's throat and squeezed.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDeMhr25ub
David could feel his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6c8UPPz7x
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneoBDDmbrs
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ541glGEoAd
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RzHTDdC3x
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YzdBoz1BF
stopped.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZS1SH9tqy
"Oh, nonononono." The 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnQl16D9NV
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrS8yRIiDG
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoOTUjxYKp
"You who were supposed 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9d2fl1RaF
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMfQnwNWHU
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EyUeJFoQe
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypInMvz31j
Coughing David stood up 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeofFRn8TaV
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SJ93cpjLR
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IfllMaNfq
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQMPnZyKiu
"No, it was a small 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIRTO4zUSl
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPv0O7bwlsF
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyLv5MPWPE
He was staring at the 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4kJ8sdWDf
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdcsiioPTV
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8PZx4BRmC
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡql8hfbsOe1
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkvMDVzA9q
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ3xvkIbMu
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvhsp34xyv
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDv6Hwgb0r
"I will!" Came a squeaky531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh2rfKqKCi
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY9M2nFCSw
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukiQzJCyQ4
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vjXMmy0he
was an adult.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyytThQ0IvL
A knock came from a door531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aVLceHY8U
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkQZiMKQtG
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqooX7qgbtw
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXtpyy11VM
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn2voP4Wfr
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRlph1bnVZ
being a bad boy.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYgLSYDrGB
That's why he didn't 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5wQ3f2sk9
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpytYlBqY6
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2Jy8lQoNj
"D..david" the answer 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC2L57p602
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRJcw30rnz
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWbFZOYBcp
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3Dztn44ip
The man put his hands on531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7MfNy2a8q
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcYJAzyJWL
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Y5v1hlo5E
David meekly shook his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHSKZEkKDB
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcoXpB0Faa
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZQ2UfLnti
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIosbGERMT
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeGf2rt2aU
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ivAKzvxI7
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsgVrO3toE
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoqAjACqZi
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ44vWPQnp
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ94GfS6i4x
Davids body.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0VROQrobD
Please don't. Came adult David's voice531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOpJrRoVhe
Young David was scared; 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVVU1KrAD1
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHISOhgb4CA
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XZwHCGDia
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGnx3pVtCe
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht8FCFR35j
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52Oz3UgVDD
"Mummy, mummy!" David 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspUmVT9gko
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt2RIwLyhC
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3mZNiO160
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDz1YNtYDr
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUBNoioC6H
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk8K3BLJnE
David didn't even know 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OovxCZRy5
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvQmaOS0Iq
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRn2vqTsrT
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKReFW215O
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUz5hIQRFM
David could barely hear 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINjXvL1XZc
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8HpHjl7Q4
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzsuPgEkmq
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP4NplaIdP
anger. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfO9kAgEpSj
"There are more 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jEf8LxJ0W
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptrwKk0Ie6
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrDL2m5VPr
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdzOfIi6kQ
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHgCQC2VwT
"What else is there to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ5ej4ztwS
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniefe352A0
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTm9cGGJOu
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGdHjURIwq
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79L47cHW5k
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5siW42GDo
floor. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsx7JCjsZao
Even the pain didn't 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5HbVZzpAh
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39CKTq15tM
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIoCVZcGuS
everything would be gone.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlletBypC89
~Just like that, give up531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgBH0ak3Qj
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQBM112cKI
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvzQXYOgPn
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqYyGjZpqP
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhvYGjEgta
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz6W8xqGa5
than this."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYFZn7fWGR
~STOP! ~ David dropped 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIKLLxOrgJ
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSuCBAw42F
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRyJbdU7GS
survive. Survive and live.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ519RkkhhI1
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ANNBOWcLI
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgFSHjtm4o
"Indeed." Jester 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG9rckwik1
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6j9OBPVgA
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1O9Kk0jMZk
like his own did.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96JGsKBvSK
"Why did you try 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23tGwspWjT
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHGPwUYbuu
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNOKtY9kn1
process the influx of memories.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WLziKXZDK
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyl8lej11T
"You expect me to believe that?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPMwKTMBMZ
"Believe what you want."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUZk1XNOQo
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxnNHGGyGd
Jester chuckled. "All of531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNe96PMxvi3
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOUTY6aNAt
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU80aVRJaMT
"That just 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3GXCRYu0A
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQAztvDwX5
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsAsXnDgBH
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyg8TMR5fG
David nodded. "Do it."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QMvqY2WuW
Everything shifted. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuWlF41kJM
David was cleaning his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6iNl5wbe7
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGhBTP5rXa
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2T9AWlQ3A
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCq2Kz1TEW
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvEiZa1GiQ
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKGtcqV6aJ
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZhiVtEboT
His last one was just 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwEO5j93AI
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqRPehdKNs
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnp7UkV3S1c
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFl7oeMG69
Undamaged goods she loved to say.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eYgOklK0V
Right on cue, David 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z006W7P2p
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mZyVCX6Ap
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt86sW4rzAc
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrI6se5fYk4
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy3mthG6pt
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd0546eKG7
Why was this his life? 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiyoH1H7pj
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9jiTYABze
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9mmKprOi0
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheMwbFQpIh
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4dLrlVD4w
vein trying to get his eyes. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFObDrq9GXe
~Enough David.~ A voice 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpxalM5dvw
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJyLnkdIb2
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQQhum8NYu
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQv1eAaFOK
and met resistance.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuuFQkSTCd
The scratching and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUQC2t0RHV
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenheGhv1yG
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5xKKgeXwz
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7XGGb8N6J
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U2z4ymsZ7
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVzjLw1tXZ
Oh god what did he do? 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkjRRMgtEI
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMI1xV5vZL
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSfCF1Lepk
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTXQw46kCL
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvfBN9uqLg
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEqi0JuGX1
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5j8McouED
blood.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWe8KNJAUo
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBPKenQuUt
There was a pause and everything quieted down.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2gxEVx7fG
A boy named David just 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuQyX8nVs7
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOj2Y5eZ9l
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHENRxJw4R8
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKuVCrPYWv
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXFhF4er3I
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzVe3RxujL
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY7w9NsEPp
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UkWIa1tI8
silly of him.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8x43GagED
Remembering his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyZbqgpivB
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3KGeEivlq
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz5FTYNETC
table preparing a meal. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgcn7Y2d0o
"There you are David!" 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB72RuOC2o
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNxY5UDzGg
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTSi6LWpZT
This isn't the truth.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIKTNTxSpL
David obligingly sat 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3mCKg53zk
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0q0kyeNmDL
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuesUlUs4pE
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo1a9awemq
A dream, nothing else.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30LYMguRWS
They all thanked the 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmISNmYh5wa
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi2zr20lPo
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbO9DRcH93
this lie.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpnOndN9gT
A lie that has to end.531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrf3wy6JTN
David was standing at 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkhMZPk7VO
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7KFvWvEVZ
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBgen6IGT4
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7UxFUbrA5
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1tvCYpqUl
Either way David hated 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs6ubP7hHS
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10S8zuww6J
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtr8hHnv0RU
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTksR3ImqSJ
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpn7u1edlL
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4dAxFTaeQ
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCgR91Bjdl
life this happy blissful life?531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECLPmcrIka
The answer was so simple531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijbIe52zvw
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8729YQ1iu8
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp5naYwtws
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAAzOwOk1K
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHo0dkiuOX
David decided to start 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZkPPOl3uh
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpkgp80ppH
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qrrni7IP2
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbDWBeIupr
mother. "No more mercy."531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM50ijdIPLi
With the last stab 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyADDB0K1gA
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dv3iQ37I9
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiuklyX27u
emptiness.
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