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Some of my colleagues 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3wdmbvDKJ
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidufCV9IYp
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYMj7UFztk
suggestion or hypnosis.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgireptXtX
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNIFXIgUHi
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHU1fSyD0w
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6b1k8wslf
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9Usm6cngY
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3x5kJLd0Ag
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNs9Bj0h6Ai
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡif5SQDNbrf
capabilities.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyXarfDQKu
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYuXsb5bVr
_________________________________________________________________569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnD9J7EuIb
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David awakened. Not 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnH85uo842
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfS4XTLSjQ
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8Je40R8Qc
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fBpiRWYF0
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInlGrEjr7e
undamaged.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzxydVUhQZ
"Only your physical body569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsnXilbUEx
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CXmoTeSjb
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaPO6vNFbR
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSDH7T1nIx
A shadowy form appeared.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpQqTLehBb
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafqUSSF7j5
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9579ui5al
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsS6Kqvb2f6
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDHrXWu68n
"Am I in the...ether 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu84IBYAmFS
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrquXHdv0f
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBhf8Sb24G
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv4PMkcW94
David was tired, too 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNA9t957tz
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6CXpc6RiG
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mk9uNM0Rf
The shadowy hood cocked 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20yIUy0huT
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgiME2I6fn
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrQJrBadcP
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTD5vw51Ur
more grateful."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSUxrqKskd
"I..."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHEgN3kXFj
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpscuqfnCG
David groaned in 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yzZMULc9m
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWqvJox4jb
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYmIcUnjkF
falling point, that'd be fly."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdH1RYDpT1B
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhOtOOhJrs
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8TUMcq4m2
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzeXNdrHhf
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBPXUC1op5
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZtwjvwCjA
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SyBqza2dN
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHxc3TQU1G
David shouted and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aHLT4nyvS
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXJXihNce7
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsvHEY33Ni
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8amCLHJLA
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2allJ9TGw
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tuYH4AhOH
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvEJ3XaEFi
mist.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzCSkyLntH
Jester's voice came from569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaV6GIN8MX
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t19sHiezx
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT5QtF6XxC
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUZcxpZaL2
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QRa0rUVt9
creating a circle around Jester and David.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjCtQZrHpg
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5coYf67MOu
"Shut up!" David 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3P6uSp0X7
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqfq6KxSnj
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxCbnWtV0y
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1DP3i7uGU
Jester gave another 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rTEltqAf5
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BPwUne9zh
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb55SO6kV3J
afraid of the truth?" 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOsnbg8HvR
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3HyowxOtu
"You're what? A 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pQi12uGpO
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85XUQ82Ljs
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQH1mgJrUn
you've done not matter." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlhrB7ipag
The shadows completely 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEAMVyU8LL
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HSK1gMSHW
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJS47nFsGf
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40vcNKkjzj
eye and shadows swallowed him.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21rKtfClhY
Shadows parting, David 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oRcYcqFnM
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXwqSLfCF8
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e8jlPGbYO
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEBg4yN51K
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpBz0sSYEW
mother569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5S9pdXVFX6
"This is my memory." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqbGKXtnJ9
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc8kgMdbud
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jc8Iz4LB4
David didn't reply to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKXZbUQde7
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKLqTeDyhr
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡol9b14XgRZ
Unaware of what was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStnDXhllrn
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vnrm6ngEv
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2GG2PNQsF
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzgEVTNGpq
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUI2w6LlmYK
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYEAygtJKx
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhkmw0aeTm
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FkeYrqFiC
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW4Avr5Mpj
Finally the screams of 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1IIJxjNfM
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcRJoOVZqp
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98fk58Diia
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpR19Z0SKY6
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nj9lGz8u7
the baby's throat and squeezed.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwa8SzTyxr
David could feel his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWj1R0j99v
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVrY4KqCnX
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB7yvWd9wQ
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7B6tyRSXf
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcvJnFwuAD
stopped.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznegdVI4ng
"Oh, nonononono." The 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeKWrTgaTi
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW52nZXugg7
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iqJqHzcWH
"You who were supposed 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21AFczoam9
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNJ8XsmGwm
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT9ilb6X4t
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBOuzO2M0l
Coughing David stood up 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vc9b1BF83
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtSef4gtYg
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2upSVqC13
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74B525t9ja
"No, it was a small 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwI06bFyB7
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgaDG0LM2T
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbMbUPd3jS
He was staring at the 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMal8TEsNFt
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmjix1vDcV
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XuMJEJTHi
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYJjnIWF2V
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5JvCgdHYB
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJGdKJwReZ
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCS1gRlVka
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIar9ecc9Yd
"I will!" Came a squeaky569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx69E8JMu8
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZIlYIROEb
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYmMaP4j0p
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UdzLfaWnk
was an adult.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dyMhWLI9r
A knock came from a door569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWI2MZgY1z
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUoDI5zDVt
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyPb5Dq0eA
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWgzsM3BhO
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2mEYnkISf
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYsmVsgjwE
being a bad boy.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRMG3r2F7T
That's why he didn't 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfNlphGWmO
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M9JCrowQ6
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKhA1dFZeQ
"D..david" the answer 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4RZzmL6X5
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEiAELuo1x
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cW9p4uEKP
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3uWKQ50ou
The man put his hands on569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLdUSE5mKj
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTT5pj9aUY
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos6q1Za1Vu
David meekly shook his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnow5RT4Qr
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ503173JoCx
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4hIlJ7mbs
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96YQ7VHYwu
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAQwTrG4j8
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBimYd8q8Ac
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ertVpF5qH
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZ8KVh8enJ
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRXXfIyLmc
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0EvCoN6yy
Davids body.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNZ84nFdC1
Please don't. Came adult David's voice569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWRk4BAiDz
Young David was scared; 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uVLj44hGU
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOhe8CZ0qI
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0v7sPNBBR
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjB85ph3Nb
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvLjqIORuV
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIdto8Muq7
"Mummy, mummy!" David 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurTZew2fid
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GdP7qawS9
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfb3XKkTgL
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvJrkHNBRk
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BoYWdBRrt
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6i24AZ8Rts
David didn't even know 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqB9Bnbj5m
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRXyMgi888
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx6jO3ZrWh
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnSirWzdSe
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3Z6zZUomO
David could barely hear 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYder6kjR0
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx91kcGtbcA
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8jNfQVzW5
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBQ1F0j13d
anger. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxpHezlGGb
"There are more 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNyjRRMFS9
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytmuE1kXKm
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQiuVqq00O
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhkC5dUQup
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3ejLu01GN
"What else is there to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ofmzseuDe
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmiIJcEDuz
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLRhO4rsnR
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Wcx9tdkpX
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ846oDkJ741
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvKmOBabsx
floor. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGQo8C82jI
Even the pain didn't 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrLoWRGr5P
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUHjVEyI4g
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeEYDzBezc
everything would be gone.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wExdFYFUi
~Just like that, give up569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK7nZKI0sQ
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHU8ycazXw
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cVTkYQCNJ
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMqpQ3dJa9
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabDN548fYk
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGox02fIeM
than this."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6NglRPtvo
~STOP! ~ David dropped 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrOFpioU6j
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsitwYIbZu
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69VOYOrTJw
survive. Survive and live.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbz7F7Y4ySC
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0FYXpd5R8
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7iRiXAu4v
"Indeed." Jester 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMK24rMlrQ
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISilVNwgMe
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RjZVfyUR7
like his own did.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBObXbKwjii
"Why did you try 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeZZQYvy31
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj4HNhOe85
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HduzGsSF7
process the influx of memories.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3fseqyPMc
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCTyRocdDI
"You expect me to believe that?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ohWyRtbpU
"Believe what you want."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxALxqxIXgH
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZewKUp6NW
Jester chuckled. "All of569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41sotlSRFL
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3QxFtBT0k
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP2qbKqIlM
"That just 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqTgHrUWoM
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaF3AlBsRr
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgIAH79fMk
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVungtkaJN
David nodded. "Do it."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4vuEkVPwj
Everything shifted. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmInUj9a4wT
David was cleaning his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqrQNGS4rr
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPanu81IKO
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VS21PxNvZ
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcr1fM002f
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLXHu0ngcW
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5nQafdn5R
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEoAgTg1yX
His last one was just 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXKvpLFY99
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvKz9JfwkA
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlHuh8eiVs
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYEVEsxrUw
Undamaged goods she loved to say.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfLZb0eWbN
Right on cue, David 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiveppIJ8P
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLoMvUFC5I
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxlTOz0L60
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhm5pfxhIC
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmR7UOm7Ov
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrfE9ymnnL
Why was this his life? 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyhq6XcyT7
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡankCPvAUjN
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRcwbalO5R
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEZvbPDIZM
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeudgyICq6e
vein trying to get his eyes. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbmcKH1PTm
~Enough David.~ A voice 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TFH5gHrqX
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcdZRDlozu
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYUwHzDTlz
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KcYRXm9Sa
and met resistance.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mrptQ7U7E
The scratching and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fuMI1ZDbQ
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaBqMcmB2c
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMfcXYPb1g
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o4UvTBOaf
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUGMV78vHw
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QO4nIjji6
Oh god what did he do? 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurR0PiTup1
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQlM5gf498
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYhaYy7Wr8
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1oaTMhPMe
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs0E9Z7tNn
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrEadmsJjg
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9NuNAXkvV
blood.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEasONz8t6F
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7FDTANGH1
There was a pause and everything quieted down.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9UQcEekV3
A boy named David just 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRkzXeOc21
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c6HLO3B0y
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PLxi1Ijzt
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jI3TJAW3E
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn19wiX2ptK
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ5rkMEvGN
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYZWhA0uXU
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPoaC8byny
silly of him.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGbpfo0qwg
Remembering his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmDZoMYibK
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LmDLdlcpA
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5lUp2SCij
table preparing a meal. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfIE6UBDF0
"There you are David!" 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLXRBM22ov
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbwvtOAV9a
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmeY0q4Rgf
This isn't the truth.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmhn9dL7hT
David obligingly sat 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzovgfKvkz
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7UOE5xNnd
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WwBNKzFDQ
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoOFiVM3nh
A dream, nothing else.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qqSUnqVvt
They all thanked the 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePYupMHzBK
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nqTx1kEnl
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujP00ZrRnu
this lie.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt2Tfly35V
A lie that has to end.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8A3S3Sv1xu
David was standing at 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g4pX4eNBP
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzSL2Yasy6
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQnhaTYEhX
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHioYMYrk3
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJpe93msOm
Either way David hated 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA9AtrucuY
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhN5LIfUnJ
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNYBzhKPcK
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdNIpslAOV
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOjQ3zX8sx
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY62SiQwDs9
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxle1GAswk0
life this happy blissful life?569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tWq5C3O3i
The answer was so simple569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tlVKnmxf5
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYcFLV6E6P
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Dwq6GB7tZ
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3GGGPcun2
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Mc1BFyT0b
David decided to start 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Lod3zcR1q
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirbOOwdfnj
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGoqgV5mJN
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4ZpqXsYtr
mother. "No more mercy."569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31eMs8zDUa
With the last stab 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP757qQEUSo
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq2opMHhwj
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrXM4Mq5b4
emptiness.
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsgxAwdxDH
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