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Some of my colleagues 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHevqEXgzS
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVSiEHRYI3
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVs7IkVzuD
suggestion or hypnosis.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwqAYqZZH9
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCcpbS9eCW
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOPfB5MUyE
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkvMxW2Mqm
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1SNkBhJ8B
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEN2fsZBIB4
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmex12tF2ao
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOn4nGK9pt
capabilities.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj4we478ia
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnpHKbJu4o
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David awakened. Not 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xLefXTjnP
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBg3Ytz4pZ
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQAv4bsAE7
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcpkHf3A20
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz1QoA71KH
undamaged.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4ICbLocai
"Only your physical body639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqFG8OxDtw
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOhH1FqEG5
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuYGRIiwLf
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKiFfKbN6b
A shadowy form appeared.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5CtnZDDxH
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEcaitnSl4
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps38ohgRmm
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolrspQTQyH
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYbGaiV09e
"Am I in the...ether 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY384ABTLU
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedD5AeeDy9
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPlECn6Y2J
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AgvIsNtuv
David was tired, too 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZESC3S10Pd
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkHUx1i391
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdJZdpSUM3
The shadowy hood cocked 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8DYe5lcei
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOa482Dw5M
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBi9qA4W2u
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquS7avNO1a
more grateful."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmES4x8vCK
"I..."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyIHZmzOwF
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYp17z9qSo
David groaned in 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjr5u4KegY0
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9KtVOSLf6
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWTWg54qdV
falling point, that'd be fly."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Gj7ZOQjxA
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnS9lxFPKX
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ra16pda8h
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1M5BDEzzb
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CujHNT6l4
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsR5xrL5yI
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM859mGvLqH
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1VDYPORtB
David shouted and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8PLSzzXY8
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq5MlXEfxq
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml6zbXRPzu
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRhOeQCNwk
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHd0YRGX5ub
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSJ1UlLJn8
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopIihIE3Kv
mist.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWmoxs2Vbo
Jester's voice came from639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtvG5LO5Ol
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxALivmPaB
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdMHIxViZP
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvEnf87ABi
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf9zFXYBMB
creating a circle around Jester and David.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiqcpZgBLG
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tedO5qYrl
"Shut up!" David 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIY3NZ6eLb
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYmb1tk1m8
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBE1xHsQRx
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQVOplyITs
Jester gave another 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWP65OY3umM
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmynnDzuWZn
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch2scVl0Te
afraid of the truth?" 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7iJJhHaAR
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZCjiVImJi
"You're what? A 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YplQo21rY
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJ4VcIsIc9
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6cbbEiNPg
you've done not matter." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XAoaqcvQf
The shadows completely 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf2P61zcCf
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJXnpjFSZR
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdbRisldLZ
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYCXNtR8TF
eye and shadows swallowed him.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFRTmPjuf9
Shadows parting, David 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0PRNiCMTQ
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtIuEm8144
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZADOYZECkx
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo4PBh1oRX
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKwMF4MY7g
mother639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzooEA32BW
"This is my memory." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2LUlqPiVE
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlm22MIPf3
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAI6NSmaAq
David didn't reply to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfWbzuCfLa
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQehduCCa1E
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvNYi4HM4Y
Unaware of what was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMP2PFMu1m
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhZsHHCEI7
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF87AR6Dvbb
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqKlnwSrow
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKpDAqiZPI
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2GVWGjcko
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTRB3FMIWV
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNrfvvOkXL
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtximjbUwcJ
Finally the screams of 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNIq8VsKD0
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFO2W8S2ZEE
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpWG8Jiyy3
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8cNeOnRvx
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRzdssrebz
the baby's throat and squeezed.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrmDuSVCrC
David could feel his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ttRgzqXKp
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoqH5X7DWb
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfab6X9MEe
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2CDoXIMxm
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rTN3pQDSU
stopped.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvafkGdupEq
"Oh, nonononono." The 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFLb8CPLSk
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4u7K8q2S5
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS2KmXMc2r
"You who were supposed 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl29ie4xkmL
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡns2Y0ALhaq
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyHREeAzr7
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDlJKPFRA5
Coughing David stood up 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2LBhCfOlR
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBLyE9jY1z
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIydLaxDNzW
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy0l4nBuWA
"No, it was a small 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiIl6ZT0o4
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOmQovy24u
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4Z39zbF6R
He was staring at the 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZIjUAGsY8
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEQ8qaH0dI
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8okvLd8cn
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHhwDUSBwL
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmhYRtq4If
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv6qh1OIuE
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmta8PxJI6w
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBSEWSlyKU
"I will!" Came a squeaky639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrd5QhmMbLX
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9QXXQJ37a
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPPWxXnDdk
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCdz0njeGA
was an adult.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WgeG5P4qn
A knock came from a door639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BNSOECnfi
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Wk8tHMlL9
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieoifl5U56
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznUMqqVlaA
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3x3cBkCilG
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KiN5djuxQ
being a bad boy.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXY2StaDyoJ
That's why he didn't 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwepADkjmY
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeA43qmEyiZ
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lo04OJPOo
"D..david" the answer 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ9LtwGfTa
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuHtXz8J2C
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujZTUekP7B
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCRVGn7RF3
The man put his hands on639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1aLS1Qcg4
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XN7DlAfu7
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRY0VflrRG
David meekly shook his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYoiAaNnsX
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcAL7GEvjv
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJkFiZL3nL
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGz8xHuwvLz
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12H7eGH4ep
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymV5AjmMLy
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzrJq7v5wH
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlizwuRWin
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDjIqqYRlj
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbugd6JKxEr
Davids body.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjacwZQ8wnB
Please don't. Came adult David's voice639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgetT33Tzz
Young David was scared; 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6oJuZVJ1F
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IKly9iw48
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF0babJDK2
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUZfG1c9cA
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWfyYC0Ia1
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV6WAG9x3l
"Mummy, mummy!" David 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gwSS2ZaIZ
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3N5vDv2IJ
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfZOBKFLCL
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dKuxYhEK5
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsxtKYuEWw
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvMyEZLFSj
David didn't even know 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxULNlo6dr
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJcap2xsY2
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8QmWPqedW
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozBoLi0xBC
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70x8Of040R
David could barely hear 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtljidNMZDn
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFEuBunMIu
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2kdKfEXH4
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuApjYOhXSn
anger. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCznDTd28B
"There are more 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSQv82SRyB
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwkvZbux8B
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNBFVzZxdP
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbds7BM3dqL
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlgUihwzSi
"What else is there to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5aDCQpBfT
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a22NEiimb
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtvumfqm7v
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ljsnzQcky
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFTLXJZgvW
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR25O7ySosr
floor. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6boHVJogRk
Even the pain didn't 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2QTsc1Ruc
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKW1rMBGSNP
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrYEzTWlGl
everything would be gone.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzOG5SHCnW
~Just like that, give up639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcw0dJMG7Me
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtuhpQKVRs
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYCjCm0L9Y
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7ON2z6TCQ
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJyDTtjeT2
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYoHeThuAl
than this."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJghueyyVZ
~STOP! ~ David dropped 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWd00IviqY
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztNrciomW0
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF63jd8hQ7i
survive. Survive and live.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZagxFXUuQ7
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9e1nZ5FDAm
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflH3iRQa7C
"Indeed." Jester 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ721j82Wdt6
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYF6EX0ih5
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa6lGCrYAx
like his own did.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17dRZJXIoc
"Why did you try 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AOg7XxQrW
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cZZNgR4uF
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4npzGyybq6
process the influx of memories.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡul4A2X3qMm
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLE4ddoMdMs
"You expect me to believe that?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwEH17xbic
"Believe what you want."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCNNArLxyQ
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMMX04Ke10
Jester chuckled. "All of639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKVrGErxzP
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrRLkjMOk8
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCkLWbrwPz
"That just 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa9MGDn1l3
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFbBb0CmUK
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DonRY150Y
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VncWbL2cu
David nodded. "Do it."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfBocRrLPJ
Everything shifted. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE7rifjgOq
David was cleaning his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3uPu7Ts95
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT5m9xfFKM
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaStuPgzMwi
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oGQzNv2jV
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtxlzTTMk6
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GBgwEivW3
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgW7hH04AX
His last one was just 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vdMlnfwZq
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzB5X2uim5
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcHYgiyddo
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vLXvNW67s
Undamaged goods she loved to say.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaf77M5XU8
Right on cue, David 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ67vkqxX2F
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48nbzDB9Tr
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyOt8Ypd8z
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMKSWYrV2D
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34GbQ0XLDo
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbGRI1LOwV
Why was this his life? 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhbtxSTiGN
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC23ZPNyJws
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hyxZ16zAT
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFz4BxiIKJ
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrdAoyuhuH
vein trying to get his eyes. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcJfYfmpUC
~Enough David.~ A voice 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc932LHaTE
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUKTIiSj1z
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyd7azEOlu
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt60Z6K8yJi
and met resistance.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLeuyT1zKv
The scratching and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojmJp5ZZNw
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUppreDnxv
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK6Yfp0XcX
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo15kIonsll
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQHHhMMaLa
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrzEHl3txJ
Oh god what did he do? 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftOIfzpjCz
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uABaX04lk
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhpwUEWWN4
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsKu7oU59d
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPYQWB7nrJ
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin8PlXHyvN
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV40jwQ2mig
blood.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXCvfE5fdL
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2gLRFBraG
There was a pause and everything quieted down.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvYIlANhHd
A boy named David just 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQleWldiHx
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy31foNWfG
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFLQ6Ix4c7
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjaafVq2JN
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjb5cEJiGf7
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJPSSJZ1hc
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfKPu2pwAh
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWD609vfPe
silly of him.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFECrk2Gdq0
Remembering his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEGRjCx6HN
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xPtCgXh0Z
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2qnbHlFd4
table preparing a meal. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNsAVhY7aR
"There you are David!" 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcUKZEbSQk
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvS1MI70Tu3
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOLXSjylUL
This isn't the truth.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBugHbgVO7
David obligingly sat 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28S5cWk0Ib
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzjJorrbYF
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjJO1FbIQM
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7jSbOWZyP
A dream, nothing else.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQP3mdmfUR
They all thanked the 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOUYuQIaT3
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeT0L7c3GR
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdE5kXzqPOL
this lie.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcTJklUG7D
A lie that has to end.639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSvTkS2HQI
David was standing at 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv2DNRoK6U
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZycmR9qY5
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPRB44ziBr
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98OWK843hy
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuHccK080V
Either way David hated 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSKGcWTJnX
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHqduHig8E
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOE4QaX2oQL
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIjVSQGpsW
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CVE5xkjHT
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQwoDoBsZg
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92cMtvkHP0
life this happy blissful life?639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMa14lDkch
The answer was so simple639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5Gn0FY12i
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmeHcjuP9F
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63wXR4wD2n
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx0J9CqaNS
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiszPK1Cuzi
David decided to start 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TDQXdZEWl
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bq4bmBwbK
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRGZdH5SFA
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx6HZXNWFt
mother. "No more mercy."639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqF0sOB4ek8
With the last stab 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodaZVTjGfR
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7XiMRIVBg
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bWPn75jVN
emptiness.
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