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Some of my colleagues 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROBebu6r5Y
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwITDF7AULk
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb75mjwdJrH
suggestion or hypnosis.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DNWsIgRef
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oC7KoNtAu
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TNCPbKhEE
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm52PKIQNiv
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vu3FGgFBI
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5DQdPEvnK
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXNLGMmaIg
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4GOiM04lh
capabilities.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiqSxI3Mpq
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvye6F8UlBr
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David awakened. Not 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZdSuno4zJ
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLNVeAMjGB
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kwZsaT9oZ
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRo7Q7oMaT
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEa0oM75U6
undamaged.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsOnTdE4wD
"Only your physical body678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz8NDUQCs6
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjyvXjktMI
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIfE3D8Rh1
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK09R125n2g
A shadowy form appeared.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ097DL7WUyB
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy1imUbTmP
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxSQmA14pa
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dnl8NkN2o
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37By8bv3d9
"Am I in the...ether 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnRwdKYeJ9
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgQoEMdSCX
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNfJ4w7ysx
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6X8ZNodWqC
David was tired, too 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xOgYfRF8p
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJncwr4g6FP
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8utbIpQWv
The shadowy hood cocked 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4OTE5Qt2b
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYP64AUvz9
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpuZGyjS7Y
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpxIrneltk
more grateful."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtz1Nt44WY
"I..."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKndcAB4PAT
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67JEJoCwF8
David groaned in 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKa1JDTjZOf
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKuZCoBn7P
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ0Ryc7QNv
falling point, that'd be fly."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvpKvsr8RW
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54iGY6ijRw
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegSB2G1C3i
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SRq7boDId
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfldlADQZrM
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv3Q2p1IGw
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxOg6jaeFt
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Bky3sJ9dk
David shouted and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMAsqTMF3E
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKUSb2UDPd
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP8RgWZUN7
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLfqJ1vgbG
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhNrlEaXXf
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8u8gVnNOv
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngCqmrJuRt
mist.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszqs6m7u3E
Jester's voice came from678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUHDiWN7RR
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36KiI8dYjE
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dRz8ljDbW
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qVFdv6p2K
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRr4BDQT59f
creating a circle around Jester and David.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTQL27TzHB
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCizjaJPKJA
"Shut up!" David 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIrYSotAiG
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxELPCH6jVo
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrS1vPfTAL
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDdcuBDpZ6
Jester gave another 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2OpQFuYmF
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXeKRbkKbw
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKEOyGoPfN
afraid of the truth?" 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rW6Pnwoni
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy9Wix6quW
"You're what? A 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlySxG7bbYi
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuYreJFHx6
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfy0cKchsG
you've done not matter." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8w3y5kpU3p
The shadows completely 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXezoUGXve
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAUK9FDnN6
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGgfF0lYZ8
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lZtvgELjT
eye and shadows swallowed him.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeEfoWpMva
Shadows parting, David 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9v6gupkxl
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1IkkI6mnR
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTtR9yQL8b
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt60JVJYBOo
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZweQPMBOM0
mother678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfD80PKWj5P
"This is my memory." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Il90LRhR1
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5fIZbYxWf
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2n1VD2Zbco
David didn't reply to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEnoc9wkuS
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRrLQYxeCt
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshA9vOJZLW
Unaware of what was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f9XS1nGwE
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKseEDIARi
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI5afGIxre
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwWnYxaCgc
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZl3LqezKi
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZarz3tIh3
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz15eQfFA1M
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSOEA5tNgP
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2teKjyhKcT
Finally the screams of 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOk7UoMQyg
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsMC3BQZa3
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJG8dvR4mS9
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgUq3DAW4j
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ARh8u2dda
the baby's throat and squeezed.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDGHpHbc7X
David could feel his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zwUqjClzn
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6re9l6JIL
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekyYTbTCbj
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yYo41NEcV
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjDj9czSkO
stopped.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTGEyA8fNh
"Oh, nonononono." The 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQxTALT3Zh
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOoP9VcOcr
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFF9a20fQd
"You who were supposed 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8J9HXlMXL
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxa3ZuOpIQ
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHdJ3Mmnku
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpT9iefIsb
Coughing David stood up 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOAPUVGms0
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB2CKPmRiP
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67LMrAxGYl
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX0GRX2qpe
"No, it was a small 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uDfs87JjJ
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T6CENoyiB
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUx2lPKTRfS
He was staring at the 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHUattLKkY
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofJfIELQQe
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxn5keOsPuJ
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZ4rCD8BPY
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c8ww2XEcj
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3UrxEzbU9
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZLaFSCsOh
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuEvghWmGf
"I will!" Came a squeaky678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDatpy4MLN
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBkW0DD5Ww
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx5PIAZEQz
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcByNVKehe
was an adult.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThuOXmIPju
A knock came from a door678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bXHnQIXRa
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteFYqk2ev4
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJa4pcLn4Q
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhj9InaZCmx
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qqUeD5284
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0Ja2vfCTN
being a bad boy.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VGlUHtmZw
That's why he didn't 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRLc5trOYQ
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAMokzCXL4
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39B0TKCv8W
"D..david" the answer 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdnUCSHtNn
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDREMuVx5nZ
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2AsFglZzF
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ouQBoxDZk
The man put his hands on678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hu3SWn0fC
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLM6ZgFBgm8
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp17X3YihU
David meekly shook his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1umjfk8YhO
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA2uZWFAZQ
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1xYwqMlyk
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNdqgcHy2O
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqbVFwnglU
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8Hk8i9h7z
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaA3Yq8EgJ
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVj2ylazqEB
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtiR8ermNl
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UySlAZvQt
Davids body.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5AmHgRWnm
Please don't. Came adult David's voice678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2SGUDMy7X
Young David was scared; 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xnJWYv7PL
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGg4pr6f3Y8
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NX3Vq07Zu
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKu1dU8yUq
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pKnAmDxaZ
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkCjOBPja5
"Mummy, mummy!" David 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv6Mpz31kf
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACz3hIpXdd
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6vdmt6A8m
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8dIcIfRGh
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcyEeLNaY9
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnWb7x9hjr
David didn't even know 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUlQYQ9mtf
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4tQZvcVom
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2PqpkOEqm
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZT76Wnx5M
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5V5ealBB1Z
David could barely hear 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yDJadjBuS
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIJTRdnVxM
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKwSOAILkE
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTD3onxcUZ
anger. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qtoAosXVC
"There are more 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfk6Fcx39f
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FW6t7Ktiy
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcvsyKp8EL
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCUcZoQOnV
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXCQx8VA00
"What else is there to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7DJMUKbGK
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Gem4FAK9D
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY3PKSNWc1
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdsGxgXCf6
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVObbiF7No6
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwxOqhtmby
floor. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9BEafVuqT
Even the pain didn't 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxjM7QjYuP
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxecZOgfd4Q
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKFp0Rw4O7
everything would be gone.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c8It7TZEk
~Just like that, give up678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfs6bbfnhLh
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe1zfQehdO
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2av8tnGIwO
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71eQi0D9RZ
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BpKDBukeu
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwUTJZAWmY
than this."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uyQ2GMWqR
~STOP! ~ David dropped 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeCHEhOqBM
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiBi1BHkpw
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmknBPVYtK
survive. Survive and live.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqtVDEHgI6
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JiCyYLKTB
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7zWRLgIYs
"Indeed." Jester 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4SMG5cr6T
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZ6RFYyaFj
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS2sHRfRpc
like his own did.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV99oIyrmv
"Why did you try 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hlG8RxD84
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrmnPeMow1
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavCIbBwjQq
process the influx of memories.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNfsH7hoA1
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlAaiwGQ6f
"You expect me to believe that?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfBZy0zNPK
"Believe what you want."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHScZFDoMM
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28SArA7JYb
Jester chuckled. "All of678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5bESbjqTX
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2U1ngqClvR
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsappubmCs
"That just 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSNJI3nSOW
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamhYaQMkVo
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlHGKYxkY6
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsfy8O3cY3
David nodded. "Do it."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuNSRqNSq7
Everything shifted. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxhyighXjC
David was cleaning his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHn9IW4rECt
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPz004SQtA7
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAp508mgrzT
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTB7O52tnj
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJYfQcqgLK
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwZgZnQYsF
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs8VCrajhX
His last one was just 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDNVtLdw0t
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHaKPPZt9M
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9JMdaIDqz
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKSPmXKghE
Undamaged goods she loved to say.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4PCqhp5Ha
Right on cue, David 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KGrafADr2
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRhMt2ULkl
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfnGPXOgfZ
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDn60HEa7S
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZS1JMUwLs
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbkDaCA9yK
Why was this his life? 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZfuWYhaPB
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm8e5oylfU
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE9pYFthqg
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwscZUExIS
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLCGnDgVxY
vein trying to get his eyes. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatXUOQBNJX
~Enough David.~ A voice 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmOOsSrvjk
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z0UfYzrY6
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFxQovDT2q
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjb2HOCUVZN
and met resistance.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUuAcPKmkM
The scratching and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQjT4GD8Qw
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygE8aiGcqU
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2M7sPcf5Y
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSq98391Ep
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOVyRz0Shg
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBpSD4J0Q4
Oh god what did he do? 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAKPusaQpc
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgx58j6tzFX
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUsLq8SoES
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO47R5s8dV
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4TtUqGvk0
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9agC2SBo5
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLPU6s4XMn
blood.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK35Z3D8jC8
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cuoMt9uor
There was a pause and everything quieted down.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ek7NkPFBa
A boy named David just 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrMvCi7EMx
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje9Fwc2bMI
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwQgxrgGNp
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsB770w6Wp
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYTzEvrtiP
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdsb8ybEUC
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKuQDoRgGR
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9sG47VtWc
silly of him.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgyeaHa4P0
Remembering his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lWFQHyYc0
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAROFC3Oh9e
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmIWgntXAZ
table preparing a meal. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23Jayt9OBH
"There you are David!" 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQjCGGie2y
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z6NU194NE
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGozICXF2b
This isn't the truth.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfup6Y32GHd
David obligingly sat 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FKpcJF3rM
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeh7aXj5Ig
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinqwI1QEHN
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3vpwCIOzZ
A dream, nothing else.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINX1ZB5iyT
They all thanked the 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6MHOBLgF5
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53adecfOte
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2gFEhpyM7
this lie.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXjN3ulDHU
A lie that has to end.678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8045faGX7
David was standing at 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAATwZ0tjey
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDVAhzhaU9
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso6i2CXb52
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOeIRbdbhf
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bDS62LDZp
Either way David hated 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43xYW3kzLt
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHzTp0tNtP
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpe2Jf1UFNJ
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73c1UqYAKW
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5c9dS7EuO
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlenZGqQbX
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0EQJoAa1w
life this happy blissful life?678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXP4fNL32N
The answer was so simple678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NORCzVLO3
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlb4iA4n8L
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM4e0I51vj
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4SCsmp666
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzNLR7xgK2
David decided to start 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0HdkA5moL
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlReFCaxW4
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD2ljNIY5y
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQhYEYNPM8
mother. "No more mercy."678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDBBhuI14a
With the last stab 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzuohyd7fp
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUchEOTdGt
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLcuzbMvjj
emptiness.
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