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believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHpSxVsOza
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrfQEPUHAm
suggestion or hypnosis.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqf2YAZz9t
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3yXaw51zh
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ACBLuenuF
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgGJKUvxo1
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rzNnDAIXz
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuIofnNLTH
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwtK632Am6
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9Ii2RC7Tq
capabilities.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2P6M74m7G4
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsfdNSUsPx
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David awakened. Not 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuT5PiAjrpr
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwXPhspxHA
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5vDAdpMtQ
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7RY50WRnS
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtr7OGnetkr
undamaged.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF7e0re9fd
"Only your physical body561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YLI9CXihj
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9APGp3NZ4C
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbF3i6K312
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RPfFf6pSP
A shadowy form appeared.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5EIQp5taH
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFaMUrznh6
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWrpwINQ4U
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZPNQ71Z94
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tuJBWaMLH
"Am I in the...ether 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmqQRnWwbz
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLQxCHhY3h
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX8TQjIYGf
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHm908qa3g
David was tired, too 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKuzwwVfIu
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X6y5I7h6H
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5V85SA8II
The shadowy hood cocked 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdd1sXgiki
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtL6TlML1w
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvZdRkBf7a
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KrGaSWCQm
more grateful."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GBy0Pbc9k
"I..."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPvSenJmzo
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhU7fe1BB0
David groaned in 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9zI5U2bfa
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOXaXj2fWC
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTnvFoqWim
falling point, that'd be fly."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMmgB8xrk4
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjmktFTqS9
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2txjMC7kO
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfQRHRr6fv
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTE4LSkvwk
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpkvBl7sAu
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkOreyzG4p
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaExYWx083
David shouted and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStoNEjuCvL
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgOYB0KkWX
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQBRaKVFBw
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8hPDwPotR
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQIptwmbpS
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqZCcnVe1H
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9ndo0e2fR
mist.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLBBTXbIJc
Jester's voice came from561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuK4VLe7zA
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XysLUeQeg
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B8QMENovB
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nDpUSAIDO
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95dS9txYZq
creating a circle around Jester and David.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1I65CT8Ewz
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iYlXnraBS
"Shut up!" David 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9eyWkMZ57
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzypXkqsOU
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwrLPz0iqT
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVZRiXoRws
Jester gave another 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdmGEr1Cs4
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUPnDwneDr
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDjPzEiThi
afraid of the truth?" 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjWXuQ0Ctg
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVzzjYmd0S
"You're what? A 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttYLFrSOZo
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSYvW2fqM6
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXenyyY2HVZ
you've done not matter." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ5KrwHfCz
The shadows completely 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EqCKAccT8
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2yTjU2Xjq
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRsdogMxj8
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1wwPNkMEk
eye and shadows swallowed him.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12ezfEHoS9
Shadows parting, David 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdhw8jMU0a
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz99U8LCj2U
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxj3MWcth9
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWptsvhyETA
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuZzQ4Vcgv
mother561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIm1yZ0JZf
"This is my memory." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczl0R5pR9q
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcSszWKo3c
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwDf6T7gxv
David didn't reply to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pAAbyWLCK
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFHnOfw1No
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b0m1sER0w
Unaware of what was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUk7pvAomE
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fGZROJsC8
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooitMIwhqe
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFeeWaBzPR
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7SPgvYvrR
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqPz1yNBjH
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWepiaRHS8
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJat0rnILTj
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcltPHXtmE
Finally the screams of 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfS2F8BcUv
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgtbHPsNfx
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqFp5u97BR
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxstd1Ax07
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwr7ClLJ7e
the baby's throat and squeezed.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBrDQCmYXX
David could feel his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QXsQots54
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvyFEX1JRz
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuLDqmq12K
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcRTURvJco
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGALTX1xV8q
stopped.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gLckIaTxk
"Oh, nonononono." The 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22PHwAFwVA
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2u2B6R8bx
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN67IjkRmss
"You who were supposed 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M1qWCyUXq
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEdqESYunq
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee3wqIqbhJ
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJYy1ZEdMe
Coughing David stood up 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lOBu32vMK
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOKqvNZotU
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGRy5VoAlf
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47LwCBmm12
"No, it was a small 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDrZXxfuMJ
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBtj3if86x
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwmeP0X0qT
He was staring at the 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4HNZOAC23
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM925jtakJ
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpqhPUTa3M
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8UHDEmz6V
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R8yxsNPek
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCX7gM9wBS
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYm3VnSNEo
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT7anPI21U
"I will!" Came a squeaky561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmL8k3jLJv
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjQiNyNWXY
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXLukXpmlP
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeDFP4xsZJ
was an adult.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5CZP2R5Nx
A knock came from a door561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHT0Vo7yrr
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagYRbDucbO
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhYZanBPtc
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmzYcjj3rW
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZWmm7lhWp
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQ3gVi7ZfD
being a bad boy.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2qKizg19E
That's why he didn't 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3cNaaJJyk
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg6zqNT5eh
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbETw8AWXXy
"D..david" the answer 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3jNazEcAt
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16JXmlobuI
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTt3Td2CyL
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVmqbsk6y8
The man put his hands on561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQg75mfQPMZ
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8xieVC8X7
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSMucWdlGV
David meekly shook his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKikwW5Lpf
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPqsHXc1j1
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8ltEsFHM1
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xaPo3Hbqw
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSG1k2tcIo
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQSobEaplc
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV35UX4Q09F
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB6LXt8vAT
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5KYFIFDV8
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVn1PT70By
Davids body.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHsfBfoml9
Please don't. Came adult David's voice561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFewgKmZuZg
Young David was scared; 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEpAfoz7tJ
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdUnozspSQ
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8eGYr4R9j
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SpG91HKXg
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4okuKQFo9B
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO6J3pIg75
"Mummy, mummy!" David 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh1fWcoY7E
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVytxWPbiNi
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT4JTe882b
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTdSUW4rU1
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHn1xOBniR
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yDQ1jeymw
David didn't even know 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6Ue5RrTLF
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDSu6M20rt
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxaY87XBWu
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ69VgVJ7D
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu5q5ot1kO
David could barely hear 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiPWEIBHrW
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvm1LD0ib8
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ai1S0Hwk9
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i33X0WeGh
anger. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro2ermakzH
"There are more 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDsyGziTUF
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmUWHheoHZ
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFNob895M0
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfTKlHMGvy
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvesOPetuN
"What else is there to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVncsvQ1fgR
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF4qdffL3h
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvphoAZiVq
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQhK5CUEFH
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0D8rY728XO
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uJyyNK9X1
floor. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtN9hEl5Z3
Even the pain didn't 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ced9brQhy
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OUx5fVtAT
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6agGUbSqJq
everything would be gone.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9UM6LHJi6
~Just like that, give up561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JYwgMOUR6
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxQ8LKWstt
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU0nP2m9El
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryIQy92Omy
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBHuuE1u0u
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBC9WjqiI1
than this."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yT5co8CGv
~STOP! ~ David dropped 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEIsuhyQI7
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWThccpNKE
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEbx5Yv68D
survive. Survive and live.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeFOimm5gW
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4mM3bbQfZ
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFp0H70qUd
"Indeed." Jester 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69uVW4SP8P
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mS7uDevyx
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzoAS3gRYW
like his own did.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyNodRrYIU
"Why did you try 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ71xGsbUD0
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt5nk4xivy
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXueS8GW5c
process the influx of memories.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSONyDpsoX
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ORP1DUXQv
"You expect me to believe that?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIit1FgsSQ
"Believe what you want."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlQQWJABf1
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsYTIQl88H
Jester chuckled. "All of561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqcXnQJmkD
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvAgRlDIWB
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Y7VB3tkHx
"That just 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRPcAk43eO
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUZLQZhL3L
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauJ5Z3XyKo
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmgiO83v3R
David nodded. "Do it."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6dwiQ20d0
Everything shifted. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaSjWKgIot
David was cleaning his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhkFJYRQyb
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC18PGG4I90
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iDmU5YO23
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpqpg3steg
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAehwjzlpA0
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYYbbI7ZXr
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ28NVXU4yv
His last one was just 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUn9hFSkw2W
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XBJQ7pram
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6yWFrHxJ2
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW2cpWV2HG
Undamaged goods she loved to say.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfWctwIYXh
Right on cue, David 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ikXPxb5qE
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6i13ewjMQ
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz90bqOEYe
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1NhzR1Xjr
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdAS7iU1aI
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6krXLnPR0E
Why was this his life? 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbBa3Kcf6j
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BJKQPtFIC
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSShQ7Ui0wR
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvNG9f9g4j
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOMhfUIDe0
vein trying to get his eyes. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9rZe85lrR
~Enough David.~ A voice 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78B3q5tiDh
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHropm5A9y
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3MiLBtKTH
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzCKY2Hhnd
and met resistance.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC97NxwLPoL
The scratching and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6k6mgDRq6
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSvdgzuk9l
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7mclHk1mO
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAAVHGtssD
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ElflRLL4U
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepzxDYKGLN
Oh god what did he do? 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HuQa5TvdX
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfmnabvPc4
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiKtc5NjcT
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y599dXcnV
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIOLiJGRjn
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vsTcYTMja
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCc1fs8ZNQE
blood.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr8vSXMtZV
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZJvEFei7z
There was a pause and everything quieted down.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUFCoSQEF6
A boy named David just 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcitElLRyU6
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufUIyfK4rc
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQnQ6aqWU4
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uoaHL7lCV
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtbAXauukH
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREe3dtq038
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZycQy19KNV
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhr7yUM83fd
silly of him.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggOAUwoB0m
Remembering his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡome0LG4fg3
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU9AX3aCg7
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom4GHPUpkk
table preparing a meal. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnNI2Zq0Wj
"There you are David!" 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQyEHecrwL
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYp8cvGInV
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdev2rOvlru
This isn't the truth.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNl4UnTWHny
David obligingly sat 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWeHp1WhWW
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFec0h8ugFu
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8N2jaPl5Z
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WU498gW8l
A dream, nothing else.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nmffJpWTg
They all thanked the 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4A9P7LevZ
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvhcZkYgLT
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkrS4Dfs1Q
this lie.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnugVlUOZRq
A lie that has to end.561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDonn6ros2z
David was standing at 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqdyM1yLZE
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3XcWin77I
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1di7NrHVLG
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQiNmj2Cs0
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskzFbRqExU
Either way David hated 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf0YkoaXYI
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkj39tult7
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrWEdsDYd8
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWnh6A6IZM
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhu4lQfGO0
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3saEdqy3K
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRgwsr7RlO
life this happy blissful life?561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN4iFk8tEo
The answer was so simple561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i0oeCkI35
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMibqSqbb5
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjP0UPXLu4a
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZZR6mzqCG
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXFNua8a6V
David decided to start 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9x86IE2Mg
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnYWFQC79P
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrb9uxsB2SD
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ06jKj2cJq
mother. "No more mercy."561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR0j3rnp38
With the last stab 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskrqgjgUeE
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rkZ9vXAyA
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast561Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66btMpS7l2
emptiness.
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