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Some of my colleagues 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWVVdvnLWY
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwxMVShjAF
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQNIarqWO6
suggestion or hypnosis.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvd1tshf1H
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2J4cM5vbst
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8oubH1Vls
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZf12YkbaP
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgCqBOsmjb
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo8KUoV1uy
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRsLB7SHHp
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5WLNF5ETo
capabilities.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Wxsc6LjTz
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUpTDwmBoO
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David awakened. Not 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUVcCJMhBw
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAAyb0O259
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjf9fYSNjj
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjitKcB012j
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJENp3s5wg
undamaged.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraMj8vHI32
"Only your physical body530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kHysFduGR
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2Eebfrf6h
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wLoYJbPaQ
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBU1wvgfEXO
A shadowy form appeared.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda4t4Y3cRk
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zJzd2sCnx
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZueWvux3u
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wnvQSQaFQ
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6MKtbOGv8
"Am I in the...ether 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlDYk3dUva
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcXOZsBrwc
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqmWTdZGxZ
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gwiwIAY3A
David was tired, too 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxpjU8jAeO
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY8DR78wxm
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKmzgFzscO
The shadowy hood cocked 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhT9uhefY7x
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2Qecr5Z2P
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljrUt2PtEY
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5kWnL7yYB
more grateful."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7UkELcyEY
"I..."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcpgchtPXt
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Du7sozlYw
David groaned in 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yevvI25k1
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYteVXXMMsC
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUobEERKSrv
falling point, that'd be fly."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6GOrNPsLF
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCbqYvgCoW
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7PMOBvN4V
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcw2ZTVpVD
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7phL5nNd33
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0xAYI35Pn
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3YPJ6STJB
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU60TnRCMP
David shouted and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaa00cOyd57
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrB0ZYWxNoH
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0moB4ZF2zZ
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c66jSYkDv
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFkCF0Q08W
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Xe0uoE6RQ
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtyJbX7GRL
mist.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRVifEVarZ
Jester's voice came from530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lBcX28Ren
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWYnNbkhoj
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ppXOxHCvw
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxUsw0KxY6
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB8NycQsvH
creating a circle around Jester and David.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRrN5XaCPv
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvdouM3ZMF
"Shut up!" David 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl4G8FZriy
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaE1ugZaec
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvnwBqcgG7
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUIx7cVwMb
Jester gave another 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8FgnpeYym
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDXiDPLKoC
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisKKNGu6bt
afraid of the truth?" 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyRQZ25wvq
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCsjWbi4Zl
"You're what? A 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW8kfIQ1lk
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQCRV2vm6C
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3muTZB8nJH
you've done not matter." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj0XoJUAPb
The shadows completely 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4MsRwa9Kw
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZEEcavZwa
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXJ11yLQWv
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsCja3Aabz
eye and shadows swallowed him.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNRVMol6gW
Shadows parting, David 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlPUGTWPhO
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW7Q8q3vfs
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQttBImCL7
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UIlYlCcx1
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKrEbSKsvt
mother530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70to19vYZe
"This is my memory." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzma7zvmTb
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8yDgSA5nk
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXw0Hknsjo5
David didn't reply to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaCsUkzLRl
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2i9JINEqj
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoNC1Fr2oy
Unaware of what was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaNvVh2Yk9
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLO8PVvUYme
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xC0aiKGru
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUabgoTR2E
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyPooK5M7a
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29GlKvvzaZ
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11c54ec20W
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H2QgEa6FX
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AJj3mLUez
Finally the screams of 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbd1nTDged
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplpCOJMkLv
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLL8yRNCye
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkmotVMtfX
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdvznHIgSz
the baby's throat and squeezed.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFWabhS3Gl
David could feel his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkO9sFU3QV
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdKacPFMFh
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEbRVWeCUy
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgC3cIYX1Z
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2mUVMR978
stopped.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLIjJfeT10
"Oh, nonononono." The 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ491auVVy6Q
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsXPlnWIOZ
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLNp0KYkju
"You who were supposed 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G1NQdxdkO
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyJCvBSjXb
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7v95o3HRd
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVln2gTQBfv
Coughing David stood up 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z8dD1EUG6
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iVV7ouTTe
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi248Nmul3
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmCejB0aTa
"No, it was a small 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1KpIVogiv
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKhp4EcouT
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5KxiSkW5g
He was staring at the 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CCdTrAq3K
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirMbby5mTI
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dRXBupyGM
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9IGhlRoSy
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpnXldYKJu
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbSuRkSzoQ
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaJNhU3ctd
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALJsgOXDMd
"I will!" Came a squeaky530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEjwHPSjH5
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWFj3qGdQm
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu2ofpqJwz
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjtvHfKYZd
was an adult.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6ObHxwqKZ
A knock came from a door530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE92X8LKPC
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxq7PX9bCi
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZTNEpb1ze
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GaUTlBKzj
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3RIJIJ1TJ
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtw5d5iOW4
being a bad boy.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWuL9oR9V3
That's why he didn't 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8HDd3NcrR
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuquIIrZcg
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbeB6TGNod
"D..david" the answer 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfKyKHWTmC
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbYS2aWu7r
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMY20qHgRRF
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhy51eTAyT
The man put his hands on530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rjvNZ6EaC
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX2w070bNY
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dzOBPDBIB
David meekly shook his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmqbpcIw03
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j74Fy9ByW
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqwTi2woAQ
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWVuqeFOtI
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbPcDsRvsp
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBRI38GSvp
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLY4NFomIB
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNycdotBEOY
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaP19tfsDV
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpvgIIfdHk
Davids body.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzNS2xeCso
Please don't. Came adult David's voice530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYelN9OnAQ9
Young David was scared; 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjuHhQDzWG
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxToPbIaFV1
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZ1I1DlhL1
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0MLMfZa38
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2FGIgzBpr
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggQzl30U7M
"Mummy, mummy!" David 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJoYfZwiJ8
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYFVijgXRI
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqz2pfMTcS
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9TXicRen4
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk5a8Gz39U
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NVdrqYtAO
David didn't even know 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRHJ3cPYKC
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCrGxJlGQN
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdN4Mb5ngyX
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvb00k1lhF
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibvnr9vFpi
David could barely hear 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmr83Xj2uAe
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IcXZAlx1v
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEJvABFW7I
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJi3sDhlMO
anger. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2Akr9xoz0
"There are more 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0QTsJYvL4
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJxIyxChAE
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG6mR1DIQm
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtUEMwsOM5
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLavsuRBsrj
"What else is there to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdq02lC3Van
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYre24lvgQT
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoQRZvnQQi
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3mr0awyTo
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2vPmYMtEk
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpmvS7bZg3
floor. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaFEdkyk41
Even the pain didn't 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAtb7GtRiU
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTaNXcqEyh
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsTfB5RGkr
everything would be gone.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0FcHEHz5g
~Just like that, give up530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGvQ1XESjD
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6KCfAhAE2
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYGwMvk8On
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraYWZGELn5
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWE4gxOlPh
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemklxj6Lfc
than this."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iljYFeaMW
~STOP! ~ David dropped 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL3FeUKv9p
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdAPdWN6Vf
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kcccEzr5d
survive. Survive and live.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW1yU9Oocy
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdQHzSpsD8
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSNkeiwSoH
"Indeed." Jester 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pyRohJ8AR
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwo6Sh7zj8
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcEzDpkn7v
like his own did.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyHsoSQKs8
"Why did you try 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRwMOl6wsV
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOq0CnlXId
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoz4eDpBCUK
process the influx of memories.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ67QjJPej
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKaSWDdb6v
"You expect me to believe that?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgS1t2vh2ay
"Believe what you want."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG8XgMWEqX
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuBDyPYWxw
Jester chuckled. "All of530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPl16DuwCm
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDig9WWd44
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt004UA2nfT
"That just 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlRy2g5N9z
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TdeUS8Hzq
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m2SlacANa
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsTCok7opc
David nodded. "Do it."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1b1xsvWAf
Everything shifted. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJZmgoJlHQ
David was cleaning his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5REcbEN1dh
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBj3l83N6Xq
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDywkUHve76
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSa95Lyzum
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GcLvq2k85
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoruY6L75f
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFNkbNkLA0
His last one was just 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhP8vu2BWx
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMhpm38Kxy
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHux3psqXsC
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9RLJc6OI0
Undamaged goods she loved to say.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrsoreYXNF
Right on cue, David 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbOHYWCQ3M
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe01K1edXGr
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAKxvty0Lf
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeYoXZ0j6Y
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4SOar8qYJ
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmWrUv7W0j
Why was this his life? 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOmY8IqzkK
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6BgXOBXaa
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQnB7gKssU
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMEzfhCNzy
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVesX5ewrnb
vein trying to get his eyes. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoDQWXbIvq
~Enough David.~ A voice 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrXYN0FICP
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLw0ta16DE
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAoFIeyyu3
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ54ZxWZhod
and met resistance.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9A0JNGCzm
The scratching and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT6AXmFZY4
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnLsrpqqxo
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43EVP7CLvf
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr12qVC0flN
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMUcSwkUEx
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWRhHpjbet
Oh god what did he do? 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmU7X9vxF9W
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg7toPy1Jd
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3XYBuGsbX
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoRJx9JWlD
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIATQa9iQ4
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFiWhISXKf
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPssa7ZUvvZ
blood.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINxfDekaY4
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pTE82aRcO
There was a pause and everything quieted down.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqKx6Gunol
A boy named David just 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3HJZIeF0W
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe65lzi05wO
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq80r5F94t
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsxFOOAWwz
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBpwgJbqHT
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduwO2FhF38
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP3C7LA6Cz
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbonvNOIux
silly of him.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMG8pcOUGL
Remembering his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS0NPhJlm0
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQprPuirjw6
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZDzBRhBbZ
table preparing a meal. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsEVCvPTCt
"There you are David!" 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVThDLJhxgG
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWimXfoqZqH
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwflm8kCFjU
This isn't the truth.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbM5E1kWMr
David obligingly sat 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpc9PsDim7
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidxFiBUXN1
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdZ0qAAjSR
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFMhQP9mZl
A dream, nothing else.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qCFfzFcNn
They all thanked the 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFrEbi2HJW
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QKstPWQGX
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3iMD8Bjv4
this lie.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFc1r3fVWA
A lie that has to end.530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkUdzsNUUR
David was standing at 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOgNmyHWLY
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZz7ZIYZOq
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJKcC1xQ3E
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUEwwRu3IG
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ik2IyIFc8
Either way David hated 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZaZFzY95O
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJYMmodcUz
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSmmNkd4xm
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEqkLOZ3Xv
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAilPn9kgD
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBJSgB2e0Z
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hSOvV4GME
life this happy blissful life?530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPgvNt7Ty6
The answer was so simple530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbV4J96rwJS
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tCKMfnLsF
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXRSJ55Hnp
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V7zWdwphc
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHXY1d4YdE
David decided to start 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2K2Xs7EFrv
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOkX2GPIBH
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHb9sZPR0n4
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGgD9xIkD6
mother. "No more mercy."530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0VPcj1zMu
With the last stab 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibmEJ9DYwE
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVZB4cHQ3h
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxvrmJpPcN
emptiness.
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