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Some of my colleagues 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMbgUvmalj
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB14LiJDSBN
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUtaDLf5wD
suggestion or hypnosis.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03hDuorQ02
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTsEvQF2dz
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2N8wuBzMPm
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjdmbPZcCA
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx9Ty26o1T
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfSV4Nnmik
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtE6igsjcNL
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lobZfMS90
capabilities.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33PZ7IFHpO
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOxMnbEmtQ
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David awakened. Not 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhspVfRy9Tg
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7x0dKNKoH
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xg8GetT8Z
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrsTxpV1zX
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3jNZe6esL
undamaged.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37o7fo9jgZ
"Only your physical body582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJqQsMnM34
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumWDIjwGpA
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HW5gWQXG3
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Tvxw3SiOu
A shadowy form appeared.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77tOtzEESR
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvcGgUxtph
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDht37oeS6o
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAkaeSDWOF
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQD1vKpSgf
"Am I in the...ether 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPspEAzeES
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciz21n1Sj5
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrECJDID3Hl
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIhTrfAapK
David was tired, too 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhkheMHuRo
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk4FEN65xR
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkLKRlIFZ6
The shadowy hood cocked 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOl2vKYcl95
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIm6XH8Qt7
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uqn1Mi4NW
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9KGLMnX6e
more grateful."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlmvukGCdf
"I..."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu77kaevyB3
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUSHb5nXiX
David groaned in 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz7IJnQYQ9
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrmylOXeZY
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJjifLsZfb
falling point, that'd be fly."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmTdjcqUlX
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaCyC8gwRu
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb10MDGFFMY
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGWk9F6zkm
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6XdyL7FfY
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSgMB28kfx
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH75SFzbdzR
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Uol1nmuKA
David shouted and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXeMujg7pf
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JehvmGhjA
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC8Pf9aLef
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlc9ptZL80
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCVpjnG79O
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHH0A17Snb
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlCfl2hsM4
mist.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy6tUrBb9Z
Jester's voice came from582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHySq1XmGAf
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxccgDkwj71
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2D4tuf0pmQ
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnQcP4J6hk
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINPmrGohzv
creating a circle around Jester and David.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYkrE5KZbY
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD8gnLr59q
"Shut up!" David 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxC0A29Buz
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyG7ntnvyV
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxEw1QJ4tJ
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOBwaY3FRy
Jester gave another 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc4BlGIGs5
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl17b88AR5h
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTQrBmmaZZ
afraid of the truth?" 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaClkscR2lZ
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuygCOQVYQ
"You're what? A 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2KQegRd76
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFufJHbza39
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTftp7wTFa3
you've done not matter." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpKXekkTxw
The shadows completely 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmqYOYUG5k
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IC7XVvQQE
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2ckxDMLBY
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ353Gpypt9m
eye and shadows swallowed him.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4r8NP015UG
Shadows parting, David 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRWVUvudTB
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADgwd8lCUz
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWbU7ZuKVG
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1RPZ6Jfyd
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAXds2Okmt
mother582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuLbm8u4bu
"This is my memory." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9oUq6SRA2
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzXsrbnaQ7
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BBdKrArxj
David didn't reply to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrROC3ld5BR
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLpQFtVIDu
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7IYAQerEm
Unaware of what was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsclSJEDHz
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2Hy0JqBiK
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQFU55iPMO
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZx636ehFaU
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6uF5Rc2xf
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdgzex32v9
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGlg3UCMTt
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzVd5QTUk3
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRZvrmQggj
Finally the screams of 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡippJNacPIO
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VWOSqRuet
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBh3vs856P
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXpbZR3SZl
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6kWeJpPG9
the baby's throat and squeezed.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQisqqlBbnM
David could feel his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6latNEbxY7
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyrr5DmFbU
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTmGJO95Qw
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHKccRf9Lh
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXSYGDPPUm
stopped.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEu8Esx5jxe
"Oh, nonononono." The 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySOrPQDKBz
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAJEVg6nZU
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMKxtFi8Z3
"You who were supposed 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetzJwik4sI
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwivm0T7OGv
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEN7ZVjrtMi
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPAcAHOo1n
Coughing David stood up 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vtQXO3Nt4
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLvpNptf5q
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFlDRQ1P7X
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGRWqP5Ose
"No, it was a small 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jP75jC2lW
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrcaMKI7D1
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvzFAl7kHx
He was staring at the 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk594KL1H7
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nmEpOaQbO
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8i9aliJPx
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK8BC13RRe
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC4zRthlnU
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4j98ohBEe
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUxqxawyxI
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi9Z5M2Fu4
"I will!" Came a squeaky582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOAO8zI2Tw
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGHvKNSifO
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kpsIsFr30
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWyOv7imJ9
was an adult.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAgAJ4ZBaK
A knock came from a door582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFpI0PVe4W
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWXX5K72Vz
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASWayzwvq3
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9UqqRUeyb
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxs1xQhBV3G
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE10ZqNzYpg
being a bad boy.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLkNtE3STl
That's why he didn't 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lTThhi4hH
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdiBEIzRiG
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0S3ckzxsA
"D..david" the answer 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡie79wvuGVZ
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3NoTnhW2e
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq95cRVwfLa
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrXefZpiVy
The man put his hands on582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48KeSvdPPw
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1cvq7Bqkj
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vLlC2NRo7
David meekly shook his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZH2P0BE79T
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rJv3fCm8J
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs69g9eOJfT
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMjm2gwErv
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSvoICUzP1
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjzInt7PHW
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMTABidPBX
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7cABOh3D6
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS9z8fjafS
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAUrLQcReE
Davids body.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Qh2qjfbjE
Please don't. Came adult David's voice582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xXhNCuinW
Young David was scared; 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvcM6VTLBe
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrrMUfo8uv
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq3vqlziH3
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcybfVSxqR5
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRIJ9pTW4Q
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aJqSohFOg
"Mummy, mummy!" David 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT44xOJV5O
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NJmQ0WMai
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6H6o15t9H
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE44WdgddrF
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XAhN6JrrY
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wcyorEEW3
David didn't even know 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRy6CX8FIS
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp40UqBPEcQ
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72W2dEufSu
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM297ygcSnJ
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq86li9L2Lo
David could barely hear 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iBjbdfGnk
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mk9a2GeKQ
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEY2HLXEsKR
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0RZS9RvQ8
anger. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7KY3p6TpA
"There are more 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAle57Aw4mP
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgfwENWcwK
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaYx0ZRKAH
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQt7K6Euum
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOEmRGSUrh
"What else is there to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k1YdipPH5
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla2REharo0
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gm0NtuMKh
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFdXFFtZbY
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4u2mjahds9
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDOIfvwXRt
floor. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8Z9ORAvSC
Even the pain didn't 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV0g4u58yp
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZT6NYraxr
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zMM9yZYC6
everything would be gone.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPmwDk5fkf
~Just like that, give up582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3FSeE6Dxt
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMKUwXXJAg
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02m4WVZnhw
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAcwWtiMzo
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnTTrnYRg1
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NyM4lM7vi
than this."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpDELj3CS5
~STOP! ~ David dropped 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWfkl0rb8Q
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkf4bWhOd
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sZlCHBlHW
survive. Survive and live.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhbbb9oFXA
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKfz8Byyuv
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpF0vmMUqp
"Indeed." Jester 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JpWQSr2rP
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvahBM1c13X
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8MoobTxF7
like his own did.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTXGytBbsd
"Why did you try 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDylMGlrRc
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGqukfdwRk
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmiQNZVXKq
process the influx of memories.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwIPVId52L
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1Ir5VsyvY
"You expect me to believe that?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AIOgx4N0C
"Believe what you want."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54i6v7E3IV
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9vTykALxB
Jester chuckled. "All of582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvcfDoASzo
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCwrgg3yTI
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4csa4IWBgZ
"That just 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtiU83WphL
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WJ8hAeJXm
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPQv3d9JOH
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDbWfb6bp3
David nodded. "Do it."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ucCGLdCBt
Everything shifted. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqD8o7uzNd
David was cleaning his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zAgRuRj4P
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhTx6tua8U
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuv5pVkqbg6
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVaHb2eJup
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmb8Yw5IVu
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1noDGM1VR
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytL8f4JTaO
His last one was just 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhUuILQE7W
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuK5l8Luha
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lZpgnKNbY
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXvQfh0g1N
Undamaged goods she loved to say.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlfto3LnbY
Right on cue, David 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMZibWbvCJ
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORnIBCXu8F
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GppSB79Qh
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NxXgbiWH9
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0sH0YZYYF
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3M0QVTwAE
Why was this his life? 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGGhHu4WDx
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tXQhsMDC3
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aein8lvOZ
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DsfU7hyLS
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kX3JAbtcN
vein trying to get his eyes. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnDDLGH6c0
~Enough David.~ A voice 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEvQpaYbuy
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP3DgeyG9r
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNaIckIgNy
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZmvNbfOXD
and met resistance.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cqTqTllZU
The scratching and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLCsAOfXiK
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpXzgceMzg
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4FkPZ2T1w
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5aqPAxlrg
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13tD9azdRP
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtQMKIGbbE
Oh god what did he do? 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSng5232wY
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIcP1teYoK
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm9h6ZUr0n
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsccBlyGM8
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRYnqLCVoj
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvW6ZCW6FH
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqvvvD1fSn
blood.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAb2uYMZY4
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2wyRqjvR3
There was a pause and everything quieted down.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYXaFlVaZO
A boy named David just 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLj8MwxEExJ
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAc6mYpN2Y6
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSFWWxKUUG
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OdGDwUFLQ
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9g0JLntJh
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQ6ieN7Pwu
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeC6oZSjtg
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSKdiMkQVM
silly of him.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3YAKUH2X2
Remembering his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGvpDliW0R
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGdiyrRlrQ
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbI2vXhGCbi
table preparing a meal. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlunJFky3mu
"There you are David!" 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmeEzGKD3O
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKogFaxpszs
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPO8egufALB
This isn't the truth.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3e5YYgLok
David obligingly sat 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6C9TagM86
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNnT0ACyjJ
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPybcxFmgQe
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ518MFx2ns7
A dream, nothing else.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJrfcP4Y96
They all thanked the 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhF1pRklOv
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKBYzlK0Na
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xjIiw1TIE
this lie.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKI6LyHa5e
A lie that has to end.582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbuUnJcx17
David was standing at 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipWTrIygLt
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP4aPzQ0R8
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvGufvNufH
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡss8hPcPqE5
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivMXZsbafp
Either way David hated 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G9MvILlKs
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPn6zEBBO7
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUw0rzgM9Sm
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqRbiH8OyG
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDn5SllScU
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8npNxGeGti
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiGm247W50
life this happy blissful life?582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT32MUkVP8a
The answer was so simple582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGhmUTTHOy
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAe8QDucgp
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1NhEo4O5v
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkH5PNofhj
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG1DwvlZBw
David decided to start 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0qjn7Xhju
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFemxuLBUT
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbMpA0LCep
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgELysdBSS
mother. "No more mercy."582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACjuxhbFIT
With the last stab 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMuAlYceAz
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufuq7Ha0TP
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv5qsUHeBv
emptiness.
582Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JQjlLEM6J
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