Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RYN2d0c6k
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSAWgb1vZw
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iof5Oqvl9
It's been four months since that day.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9SEgCyxvP
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6odgsKtm0
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ef59RY6Q1
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhPoidLw5p
Only loneliness.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW1HupE1c3
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6f6RbznkLe
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiEjyxyHhQ
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSPWotGuNO
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qtFJudkZa
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6db8CEC4Z7
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoY5nKXRYJz
They remind me of home. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmWerl1jvG
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSW8sonCD3
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3WDgCowUA
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnJFlQjW4Q
I don't want to be here. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jcjAPeVC2
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKwDkmc0IZ
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy8EaNyG8e
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPlOhwK7pz
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsIYzXLrGZ
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUpKuouaC6
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ocjUH4ewP
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1M3oPbkGlD
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O2ClpUMoM
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YyhhWBYRA
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRWYu6njwe
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Av222KsjG
I want it to make sense.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuahSUIhD8
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu8r0a5BNe
The PaperGarden.636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEH3QbgryaU
To be Continued...636Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM54KUuT1K
