Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ500DEqfUef
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmTRj6VKP1
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1QbFRSGjO
It's been four months since that day.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpumPllouww
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0Qegu5zUK
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjO4kldGLMV
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OW4fpm68G
Only loneliness.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkInklXNswU
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72qITMSIjb
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPSZHGfp27
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCJ2n2LKuw
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXXY8rKe1H
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRydaPdUR6S
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3tyrglBYF
They remind me of home. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFeRbijKb6
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdQP0UZvxy
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL86smeKlR
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi5mf2vACz
I don't want to be here. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIb7ELVqSk
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAAFehWS8F
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEgPbtoZBA
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxdT4j5WgX
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak7VPmA9ud
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2TiB3vEvf
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ346L0KjFhA
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LnPQFwNq9
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxTlXdgu9G
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmU8iVRxZqB
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUd3IEkYYv
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEWooh9qQ3
I want it to make sense.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyYqj8ILY2
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9vlYNFSUA
The PaperGarden.762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrq99J7XgL5
To be Continued...762Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDviFJiaQW
