Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAirXZB29ZZi
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 759Please respect copyright.PENANA7mQGuzIrFZ
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.759Please respect copyright.PENANAciNJ9e14CB
It's been four months since that day.759Please respect copyright.PENANALDRjO8ksKt
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAFpBaSF58vW
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAAKSnmdF9vM
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAbMqv7EVbwH
Only loneliness.759Please respect copyright.PENANA8igRXmaRMV
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.759Please respect copyright.PENANAziFdaIzXsd
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAYH6Rcbg77i
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAJeRtq6TJpH
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAOVjTGrju1B
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAammdFcebfB
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.759Please respect copyright.PENANA811D09ddnE
They remind me of home. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAUuLbTRrlp8
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.759Please respect copyright.PENANAGdXEUQQUkv
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAyRCM2Dd1ZB
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAkIeohyJ2JT
I don't want to be here. 759Please respect copyright.PENANA2f1JaeimDK
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAtH8Y45dUE6
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAX1qFVBAfGE
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.759Please respect copyright.PENANAsx3L3eL7pO
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAYO03AauqiZ
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAVGwflcNYXf
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.759Please respect copyright.PENANAV4pBNJIW6s
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAcXlf3Mu4uf
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 759Please respect copyright.PENANABOFU4w8yj5
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAK5Q7xoYb0o
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.759Please respect copyright.PENANAHykMgXmemU
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 759Please respect copyright.PENANAaJVAnqyXFX
I want it to make sense.759Please respect copyright.PENANAqyJF5e8GTj
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.759Please respect copyright.PENANAwmCCY9yc5A
The PaperGarden.759Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1RKt2gVU9
To be Continued...759Please respect copyright.PENANAfTyGgroFBH