Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9t732Jwfv
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Gg5m8IRL9
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCe8ZUqAKZ
It's been four months since that day.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmYtDtKEi8
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdurZNo1eO9
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiiI7B1iCl
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm7FTw1Uvg
Only loneliness.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhTpfPGeK8
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyuUcC6hKL
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCtmxfVbhf
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ44hNnw7RW
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkb5MJS2fd
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UnE0Tcm1r
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLr7UWTPX9
They remind me of home. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6mnEzggry
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXtAo7Wkmz
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIjlqEFjCD
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeqA4QEqwB
I don't want to be here. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHGWR7JqCd
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurQgcxmrKA
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiUeYeCZh5
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcCFcMMPoW
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGqwF95uGz
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEttop5ofzX
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1b4YIfdnK
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFWe88oOKO
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MBb0jGYnS
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VTcScJKCG
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlffDLqox2
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESaxL1vLnE
I want it to make sense.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpHwEMF9a4
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnUTk0OVKN
The PaperGarden.694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHabsIFK8W
To be Continued...694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJVpdOCtR2
