Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirXZB29ZZi
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mQGuzIrFZ
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciNJ9e14CB
It's been four months since that day.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDRjO8ksKt
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpBaSF58vW
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKSnmdF9vM
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMqv7EVbwH
Only loneliness.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8igRXmaRMV
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziFdaIzXsd
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH6Rcbg77i
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeRtq6TJpH
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVjTGrju1B
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡammdFcebfB
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ811D09ddnE
They remind me of home. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuLbTRrlp8
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdXEUQQUkv
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRCM2Dd1ZB
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIeohyJ2JT
I don't want to be here. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2f1JaeimDK
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH8Y45dUE6
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1qFVBAfGE
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsx3L3eL7pO
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO03AauqiZ
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGwflcNYXf
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4pBNJIW6s
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXlf3Mu4uf
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOFU4w8yj5
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5Q7xoYb0o
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHykMgXmemU
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJVAnqyXFX
I want it to make sense.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyJF5e8GTj
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmCCY9yc5A
The PaperGarden.759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1RKt2gVU9
To be Continued...759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTyGgroFBH
