Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xOts40Zdx
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbw9q50atWh
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUwnWpEHxJ
It's been four months since that day.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoriF8pKqK
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZpQf8HXgS
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RhX8dfzsx
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bEcOICFIz
Only loneliness.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLmapSULSl
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGOZQdsKON
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBO7oST7gF
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzO13VIJ0N3
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8s1WAbF0m
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJoYI9SvLY
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE2Qf4nnwx
They remind me of home. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT21r6NOMr
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSgXyHOO2c
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCErYMFJ5L
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg2nNyWeEt
I don't want to be here. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0RN7ePXk5
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIXTqt9xUr
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6GjfQeVu0
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF9suBFFv2
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4X7b6MMt7
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam8XeC51vN
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaNcHKG3X7
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3ZKYGTYbJ
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zv3ImrGZ3
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUf3mbIjdQu
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXW37rjerd9
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMkyZ3fqjj
I want it to make sense.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV3VxzNgDN
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPdACV45Pm
The PaperGarden.653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ALmaLROjM
To be Continued...653Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fSbKL0z3K
