「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,588Please respect copyright.PENANAYeMADFFFap
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,588Please respect copyright.PENANAtB8g36Hj5R
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,588Please respect copyright.PENANASWuyCHtHdk
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幼小我的父母就離異,588Please respect copyright.PENANAI1wKLQxv21
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,588Please respect copyright.PENANAj9uu9wG7z0
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對母親的記憶還是有,588Please respect copyright.PENANAzNnsSMgSxM
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記得她很常酗酒,588Please respect copyright.PENANAwEob5toaT7
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後來的日子,588Please respect copyright.PENANAPIBgThHrbv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,588Please respect copyright.PENANA9MHnW6iZR3
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忙於工作的他,588Please respect copyright.PENANALJKBIP7PrR
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,588Please respect copyright.PENANAZXvWrV5Nnb
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到了上課時間再直接上課,588Please respect copyright.PENANAMASDgntX0o
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,588Please respect copyright.PENANAbM1qOiz3QE
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,588Please respect copyright.PENANAHWORZshnT2
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,588Please respect copyright.PENANA92WYdtRwxr
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,588Please respect copyright.PENANAWdGfiHNDNC
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,588Please respect copyright.PENANAF1o4TZjL6E
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父親工作的地方不一定,588Please respect copyright.PENANAHyFH1jHhWl
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輾轉的換了三所小學,588Please respect copyright.PENANACEt8elpJIq
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,588Please respect copyright.PENANAwCLsUWz3lv
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他開始會喜怒無常,588Please respect copyright.PENANAe0gGHQAzGg
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,588Please respect copyright.PENANAajQkEaIw0v
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,588Please respect copyright.PENANAHNlEDzKjtf
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很小我就與異性交往,588Please respect copyright.PENANAJp26296IAg
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,588Please respect copyright.PENANAhhEYeA1JGK
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,588Please respect copyright.PENANAXImmwfNp0s
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,588Please respect copyright.PENANAN9uVXrI3lK
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我會睡在工地,588Please respect copyright.PENANAe5VGf7PYjj
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,588Please respect copyright.PENANAeUFfj0rbRw
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,588Please respect copyright.PENANAE5xbqOQ3Yc
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,588Please respect copyright.PENANAOzZCbLKxvP
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他開始會講貶低的話語,588Please respect copyright.PENANAnVnrwLsLKS
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那些原本用來工作的用具,588Please respect copyright.PENANASPXzy3AJ6H
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,588Please respect copyright.PENANAA6Zu98SojS
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」588Please respect copyright.PENANAyELT0e0ZNp
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,588Please respect copyright.PENANAZzfuplmJt3
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,588Please respect copyright.PENANA22jr3DkFj5
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要我轉告給老師,588Please respect copyright.PENANA12GXIwypol
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」588Please respect copyright.PENANAg2wdvtSyF8
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,588Please respect copyright.PENANAlym7dWD4Tj
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,588Please respect copyright.PENANArAuEdIuRPs
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,588Please respect copyright.PENANADWdPdG3Psu
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細細去回想每個片段,588Please respect copyright.PENANAVtkSniVnN8
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,588Please respect copyright.PENANAuyJiYHUBjL
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,588Please respect copyright.PENANAclMahZ771A
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,588Please respect copyright.PENANAbBgCz0aK8x
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」588Please respect copyright.PENANAftDR654NIy
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,588Please respect copyright.PENANAQicVFuoAqA
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,588Please respect copyright.PENANANk2ciIkaZx
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,588Please respect copyright.PENANAJE70gN8zTY
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,588Please respect copyright.PENANAXxIsASi4Hx
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,588Please respect copyright.PENANAnInRosTYYU
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,588Please respect copyright.PENANAx7LV3oiYZD
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」588Please respect copyright.PENANAXeGM8FOnAr
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正準備吃下第一口時,588Please respect copyright.PENANAu9EwVag93a
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,588Please respect copyright.PENANA6yScsnELwb
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。588Please respect copyright.PENANAzxMTR8Wi1p