「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIRiQhUWLt
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70aCv73ENO
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8zCauntgS
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幼小我的父母就離異，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TB9eZlDEd
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmo6yxIanJ
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對母親的記憶還是有，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb5kboU9OX
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記得她很常酗酒，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlfKb1h3uJ
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後來的日子，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXurcAPb4F
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFsSr6urbL
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忙於工作的他，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZtzpBu2bE
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9MWYNXJpt
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到了上課時間再直接上課，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSFKBCXy0T
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JziT6EAam
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVK7mXpYYxZ
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIAtcHYPbv
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0o8EGRXFs
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAn6hJQIG6
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父親工作的地方不一定，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkZzTRj4bS
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輾轉的換了三所小學，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0kFONetkT
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CKAP205KA
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他開始會喜怒無常，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxi70zpQaP
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzGHJCGR1w
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVXN6l16k6
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很小我就與異性交往，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ133EouBKZp
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nihMuLrcH
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbIlGZ6vXu
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEKwlECsT2
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我會睡在工地，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQilcZtyNtG
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbVTGFLKDj
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qirLUsNWi
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuleX5ulSs
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他開始會講貶低的話語，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKGacyaaaM
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那些原本用來工作的用具，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EFGoJ8tQt
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qsRW3iPbV
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR5eSgIgBa
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSWiYOJXFC
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjxz9Y09Gj
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要我轉告給老師，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZty1Ku627
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRCMj9mQAQ
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNcwmYPMpd
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMNJAuJ4qX
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVW6IQPHP8
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細細去回想每個片段，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDU4JOqCyz
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymlPQkF05R
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59wdC8ooNx
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZosAwE4VG
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MSe7OQqmF
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1dc9UwJHc
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvn0sCXKpmw
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarTFD25dui
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYjE8QwqMz
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhofKDk5qDM
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipz1tEPdPI
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bTCSI9lle
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正準備吃下第一口時，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzg4sB0WAY
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjdhqksEOS
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sV1BwJwfD
