「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeMADFFFap
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB8g36Hj5R
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWuyCHtHdk
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幼小我的父母就離異，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1wKLQxv21
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9uu9wG7z0
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對母親的記憶還是有，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNnsSMgSxM
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記得她很常酗酒，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEob5toaT7
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後來的日子，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIBgThHrbv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MHnW6iZR3
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忙於工作的他，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJKBIP7PrR
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXvWrV5Nnb
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到了上課時間再直接上課，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMASDgntX0o
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM1qOiz3QE
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWORZshnT2
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92WYdtRwxr
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdGfiHNDNC
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1o4TZjL6E
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父親工作的地方不一定，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyFH1jHhWl
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輾轉的換了三所小學，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEt8elpJIq
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCLsUWz3lv
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他開始會喜怒無常，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0gGHQAzGg
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajQkEaIw0v
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNlEDzKjtf
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很小我就與異性交往，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJp26296IAg
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhEYeA1JGK
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXImmwfNp0s
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9uVXrI3lK
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我會睡在工地，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5VGf7PYjj
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUFfj0rbRw
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5xbqOQ3Yc
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzZCbLKxvP
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他開始會講貶低的話語，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVnrwLsLKS
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那些原本用來工作的用具，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPXzy3AJ6H
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6Zu98SojS
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyELT0e0ZNp
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzfuplmJt3
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22jr3DkFj5
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要我轉告給老師，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12GXIwypol
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2wdvtSyF8
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlym7dWD4Tj
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAuEdIuRPs
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWdPdG3Psu
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細細去回想每個片段，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtkSniVnN8
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyJiYHUBjL
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclMahZ771A
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBgCz0aK8x
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftDR654NIy
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQicVFuoAqA
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNk2ciIkaZx
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE70gN8zTY
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxIsASi4Hx
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnInRosTYYU
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7LV3oiYZD
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeGM8FOnAr
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正準備吃下第一口時，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9EwVag93a
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yScsnELwb
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。588Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxMTR8Wi1p
