「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9xx8OY7eK
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfewoZSZvs
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOhSUUnMjY
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幼小我的父母就離異，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgfNTz2hDL
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cuN5GaNoh
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對母親的記憶還是有，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R1B8Ua1au
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記得她很常酗酒，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw6BpLJqd9
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後來的日子，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5bJwIixeH
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHoL9Zz027
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忙於工作的他，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡae3fikU3R1
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwApOsdbHEi
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到了上課時間再直接上課，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzIQ9JD6uZ
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uxks5C7vD
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4A4UNvSkn0
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubtXdpHkjV
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOw9iMwwe4h
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUH6ehjCSR
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父親工作的地方不一定，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RNT0dhMNP
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輾轉的換了三所小學，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7gxSmjRgo
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbizrfK8Ay
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他開始會喜怒無常，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjV94MHCofH
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT1rmIg3cy
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRSdKXg69S
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很小我就與異性交往，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZhkQVLDa7
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGZGqxpJNX
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppw7nc0BxE
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD6KiPtruy
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我會睡在工地，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxl5AB4zeR6
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRVSKM0mEc
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFJPmyEsBB
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasU64ObWlf
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他開始會講貶低的話語，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R5jbarQ9H
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那些原本用來工作的用具，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8UCtTESvZ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAs2fdLJJmX
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA4zaJEFvL
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvvTQ4wyDz
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRFpZX4Y48
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要我轉告給老師，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdywDZZv5o
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ406nxlJAE3
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYacaew6h75
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg9JuVR03H
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllTMNDscxW
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細細去回想每個片段，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyo2dNU9IBs
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdWueUS2TY
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRTV4Pfftl
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7U3hRIjdH
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcz9WTDRy7
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjTQBvrVBX
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSHztElltE
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5i64fmWbC
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyh9Z8AegMT
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5Am1BMuLy
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWaYxHiTgq
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWutT794sMi
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正準備吃下第一口時，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZtt6V1iZY
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXfNBvPpTh
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpXN1iLtPp
