「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWf4FB7ubsM
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWwkEOLpIu
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yjaHIZaWU
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幼小我的父母就離異，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLEVuKQeYn
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4na3UeVMm
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對母親的記憶還是有，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8XCL86qn3
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記得她很常酗酒，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTN3rGFFGh
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後來的日子，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFZRvhpin9
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuVoMJJwnq
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忙於工作的他，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5fxQsWlf7
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc02RC5imlh
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到了上課時間再直接上課，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUJDt0JCZF
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ481ANF9Hzh
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7aSFYCM3N
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoT51MFXMVp
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqEKw43KlY
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj20ANsa4pe
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父親工作的地方不一定，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFhmnCvrk3
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輾轉的換了三所小學，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLovieWTuk
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNc83XKxUy
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他開始會喜怒無常，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PG24QfgQM
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULQcr7qi0Z
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AzyHm9Jko
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很小我就與異性交往，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaREwMeYyP
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKJVL4B6i3
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w8lmTe9AA
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdksJ1BDRd
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我會睡在工地，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLg9V0ebh3a
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhrnI69qxr
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksbd5FZoLA
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFUwDIe6cC
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他開始會講貶低的話語，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoK2enXqiE
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那些原本用來工作的用具，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tFitzqfQb
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7BskiCB5o
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEYp8vUw4j
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DXhHgKjpZ
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlWbFBtMv4
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要我轉告給老師，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7kTXK0UEF
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡji6kICmzp0
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEd0TMlzrE
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Oh3epiyHQ
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnylNSAK3qG
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細細去回想每個片段，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQF33G6iXT
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTQBV6gDR3
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6v9yWVCRQ
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLPReSfAMT
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt9H3D8gqf
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CuyQvT19A
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPj9IrWEj2
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFoyAgrzaX
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6nYUye1No
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIG73RapRt
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUlGmW9599
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3AjuKSnu5
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正準備吃下第一口時，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Sa7KftiXZ
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9h46mcGdr
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCUqQzlMzT
