「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgipjHsU0vS
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3RBApGko2
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg0mBQg6DN
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幼小我的父母就離異，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp96tdW4De
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6wf8i9FiF
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對母親的記憶還是有，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65dm7FtD6u
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記得她很常酗酒，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPlwCoPv3X
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後來的日子，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHz9d9KheJy
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz36LurGZMK
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忙於工作的他，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjSkG1Hhjh
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSfzN8B9Uf
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到了上課時間再直接上課，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWVtrk7x4l
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dpiHrIrRK
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijs0tpRIj9
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4p3OrjAJU
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6zK2NjDF5
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjDHyznEo0
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父親工作的地方不一定，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKtSBdUVVN
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輾轉的換了三所小學，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFmGAtytXd
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKhYcZOL38
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他開始會喜怒無常，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1GdDhU773
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42ie9lsA1b
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf47KHEQsyB
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很小我就與異性交往，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrVeuTkPRA
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaeZ3m0Ogx
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuibB3b0F1h
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8FEzFRkbY
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我會睡在工地，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbSunEqmYC
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzL7INNwg9h
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjktPLQfeeo
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2C2FclWs1
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他開始會講貶低的話語，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX99UpVY9W
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那些原本用來工作的用具，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO4VELlwFv
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Lm7dkBBIn
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoB6RSyCfWs
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukUBgzf4QQ
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm4tZO7rVX
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要我轉告給老師，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZOMzkHnck
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYhbKN99OX
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJX5wNw9clk
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfG4it2pIX
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyW9FWsWDf
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細細去回想每個片段，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbc6SPSHc9B
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAvilLqPWR
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8EI4gZGcV
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzyLcO806h
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZCJGdHuDB
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CzeulsmTk
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8IWS85Zx7
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiEXV9rBqD
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSp19spOw1
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrqydvJ7o5
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpS7tpuMWD
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OiarC2SBx
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正準備吃下第一口時，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOy0Y6SzQE
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuQlLov89u
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpYskphQsX
