「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42iK3cpnCj
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyj3P5aGed
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37ftwJNKlY
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幼小我的父母就離異，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFq8m6vyYI
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKW6fd6Qd1d
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對母親的記憶還是有，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJH6iZUAqZ
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記得她很常酗酒，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySiGW1wgxx
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後來的日子，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt36iBR4jeS
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUt4N13UXV
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忙於工作的他，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVE2sqU0JW1
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl73lf7ZpdL
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到了上課時間再直接上課，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw11ob6BvXc
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6k0oiYdw4
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vaJIDHZEN
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgjhZbmHvd
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE9uS6FeF9
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1ou69oiWB
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父親工作的地方不一定，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6YCYC5I9u
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輾轉的換了三所小學，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cIpovD5e0
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx76eOGfLV
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他開始會喜怒無常，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcLNVo0YRK
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWCfYrXDUY
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFfqY4oI6f
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很小我就與異性交往，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkneZcHpIfi
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob5ieEafFR
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL6sxmNwOB
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKFBS8NiQP
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我會睡在工地，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUdM2BXrlQ
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VzzQXN0ZE
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKTqxi8Ely
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCjXXr0S3g
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他開始會講貶低的話語，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSx6mj4w7cb
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那些原本用來工作的用具，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1V4vDaAVv
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7OuMXRogu
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4k4IES4GT
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobiDZOQrOi
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHYZE6P3rX
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要我轉告給老師，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHCawayLhh
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LujLQOgBC
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRByEU6MV2U
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs4VVArThj
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqzok3FBXq
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細細去回想每個片段，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndVz2ZnYR9
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4ZeQOXJ8J
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTAGpxXTzE
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrs73b0jEK
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME5F5ccsKl
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIeRBWfTDs
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOAeA9QgBm
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MWdACFQ1N
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmj1OE8yCc
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc1cnacDDF
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZp3hfNRwg
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3XbIAigCK
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正準備吃下第一口時，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwaJIFrD8y
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblqIp39QOZ
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。595Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9bi0ZERpG
