I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK7vYrf8Rv
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuTLAOmOyU
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVqOFhpoAM
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclqwAKoyYK
to pick them up and set them back down.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tJde2lLpa
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7Pfjc0n5C
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2r7xJ0VHH
like a normal person, thank you.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdlUrBIol1
I try.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FNHGClbtP
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsJWPZln2R
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnPbe2gaFp
just barely making it from one place to another717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW47fH0oZx7
without damage.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOOwCSLD8a
Just this Wednesday I was driving home717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPeU2yE2TR
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEUZlfRiei
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTeBZHaWby
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZTt511vKp
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRlbXMN0o2
for those I’m not sure how to help717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1FtqiCvEP
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBHG9bGeur
And while I was driving down the highway717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSm7XaREbK
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7s8UEIve5
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXGuxZjJGx
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0MMardtw4
collide with the wall, break through and destroy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBHRa3E2ea
the other side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jQp4JNGTr
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog0pFveIQu
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObobTYPNgh
harm anyone else in the process. But I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQy783Mx27
didn’t do either, even though I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4tD1Ym8GO
got so scared for a minute717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kxLPfzqOk
that I would.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBGeeCddl3
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSLmrBh40j
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pcdHDtSjl
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0JVylArnK
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmEU9NgXOo
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscF6X1yp9R
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcbefMqTYx
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡId5tkpUhLz
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJ0MZKaaBL
draw blood, but it was the first time717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQZNJ2AKCJ
I had allowed myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1p2eb2liIJ
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjQ1OJjiw8
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqpdWlLUc1
actually reach out and go through with it717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7HzpadGm6
I think because I’m afraid of not existing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4HDBEiXBf
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡji5aOyokuo
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eATXUTwUw
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLxlzPErUX
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvptf4mROP
and give up. I have thought about dying every day717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgK2DzCdV6
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMo6tY9lzQ
go through with it.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ564ep5Abtd
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmBtdEaGvx
for people to care about me when they should717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnf5SL3crDs
care about me on their own. I often think that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWU1OMXefoZ
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd8kWf0pj6
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6o4qNI7OU
She often hurts me more than she improves my life717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5KTT02qK3
but I’m too afraid to say anything because717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD5wIqnCzG
I need her. I need her to exist717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIiYZXXQb2
in my existence, and I need her to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoyJqPw6j8
be by my side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJC2YoyzLN
But I’m tired.
I’m tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVB1KZ5Ahq0
of being tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKIfpCVljk
in this tiring life.
