I’m tired.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DtNfWoUYK
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnziv6vNIvJ
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyROKJPc9gb
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSy0a1yIGXv
to pick them up and set them back down.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGq7SLju9J
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS7zMKOOOj
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Hr1gjbf3u
like a normal person, thank you.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnTeMqTCHW
I try.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5DFQrg9jx
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gF5ikMlpI
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMoZs1g0a1
just barely making it from one place to another745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjug2UriMrK
without damage.
I’m tired.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3owNqBXE1o
Just this Wednesday I was driving home745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJOVfz3hgI
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ePGSWJ9x6
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5xhP6FWUb
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8yT5McWgE
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt2ytVhY2z
for those I’m not sure how to help745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtfNEeXBWS
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkWvx8afiI
And while I was driving down the highway745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTo571k8oL
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTfV1Z66mL
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c1TYPUEdx
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGGuFqBG0t
collide with the wall, break through and destroy745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQiMFnXVS6
the other side.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1RUpzfwtk
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWhbtt2Rsn
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlqSDLEv6q
harm anyone else in the process. But I745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIGlJAMjcs
didn’t do either, even though I745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYUoKl5hK5
got so scared for a minute745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiGkZYVbnF
that I would.
I’m tired.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwMvtT6OCF
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajbIBah5NP
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl5YmtITdO
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdYf6IR6NA
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReym9J2joa
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6oU5dbRx8
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnuHF7fecb
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPneaWfClC
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwA7S8tSLl
draw blood, but it was the first time745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AlS8RshKM
I had allowed myself to745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HPdW6j66N
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYb2VjADciQ
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmeah96Z7i
actually reach out and go through with it745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlFzd5WAoU
I think because I’m afraid of not existing745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpG56QKOsWT
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFktuztPLDZ
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1OfSNxORW
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFD2YqFPXs
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwYQm9nus6
and give up. I have thought about dying every day745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tF8suHuzJ
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCIDRfCiNe
go through with it.
I’m tired.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg0BIjb2ow
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN22T6ynKZa
for people to care about me when they should745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7iZxTjxa0
care about me on their own. I often think that745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbdSvV4Aso
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMankhxCnht
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSWwGmCMhI
She often hurts me more than she improves my life745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBHOvXYSu5
but I’m too afraid to say anything because745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnTjwXxX0I
I need her. I need her to exist745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHN65u9GOVw
in my existence, and I need her to745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKpNKX7mFI
be by my side.745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGcaRyemSr
But I’m tired.
I’m tired745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCuiMIyl6u
of being tired745Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkSJVFzLgp
in this tiring life.
