I’m tired.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgezeltbic
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jp74oicVk
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQt4PBRnqx3
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfuxvjKfal
to pick them up and set them back down.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9tsakpO9T
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqjB5pjwED
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLzXBIvmJq
like a normal person, thank you.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSes8vDtXt
I try.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu7W8gAUv6
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6i9mJL6MJ
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrbfS6ZhNG
just barely making it from one place to another716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGxjxyopZB
without damage.
I’m tired.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTjZSEVzf2
Just this Wednesday I was driving home716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRV0aC1T09Q
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRX97MktVHG
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMb0IT0NKu
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWIN52RRJp
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZP9yVFWAS
for those I’m not sure how to help716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJ5HdzxZZW
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1HHKjhYSm
And while I was driving down the highway716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyxJO4us2m
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMANWhQvUv
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAc7Qd6iSY
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva1dvTIQtj
collide with the wall, break through and destroy716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tBU8XRDKV
the other side.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEpMc499i7
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67DdeHvLz1
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2gEKe70AA
harm anyone else in the process. But I716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiE7EtPso4
didn’t do either, even though I716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzY6Lrz8MP
got so scared for a minute716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxk6bZXpqTY
that I would.
I’m tired.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcePoG6P8sH
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpGhvlxKdD
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWQlNmao95
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRexcopMgJC
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbg79tla6Cu
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrT8OeQTym
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXTIFzVWqD
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBy5XcUmno
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwQGj71VAM
draw blood, but it was the first time716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeZwwODfzz
I had allowed myself to716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP77x9ZcQCo
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5TTOLJ18s
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMmQYJuiGL
actually reach out and go through with it716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKZ60eznK3
I think because I’m afraid of not existing716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYva6L7Knp
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnoxx06Y3A
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hABZWzsN0
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHkGIJD6Px
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlw9susnnj
and give up. I have thought about dying every day716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFfG0nmT14
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc28NwbiXj6
go through with it.
I’m tired.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoBE8GZKSs
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SkjxHDkqq
for people to care about me when they should716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXOW94rAyE
care about me on their own. I often think that716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh5MrtOCdP
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3gqdMDUYt
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yGOZu13k2
She often hurts me more than she improves my life716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2Kesk1Es2
but I’m too afraid to say anything because716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nCm7sPw1J
I need her. I need her to exist716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEFEy0tXaz
in my existence, and I need her to716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8z4KQ4oF35
be by my side.716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd4syzvwiv
But I’m tired.
I’m tired716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QyY3sboIq
of being tired716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlRQclhK3N
in this tiring life.
