I’m tired.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SV3s8WyBJ
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeLUKPRkZZ
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdbuDMKSlX
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdbRZou8nR
to pick them up and set them back down.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZDu5CDgcM
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbbyFgghpp
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgIIy0XLzu
like a normal person, thank you.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgytiC02Xtz
I try.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftgV7seCW8
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLPlYPbH2C
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUfC25ITJz
just barely making it from one place to another741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdouIeUwILn
without damage.
I’m tired.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MQRq21yFu
Just this Wednesday I was driving home741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ230bbamYRO
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24P8JtLp0f
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckfTFqYTW2
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1FUUrCjRC
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JHqEE63FU
for those I’m not sure how to help741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOmSdCaVnl
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS6Z3glSWA
And while I was driving down the highway741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFHL6r2Lo9
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt74jKFhzSj
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMAfSGvKGX
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLc4aQi3hI
collide with the wall, break through and destroy741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2j8J4slMhw
the other side.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIpXxWB6fK
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Cxvxulnis
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK5FFLk9ZH
harm anyone else in the process. But I741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8goBDv6XB
didn’t do either, even though I741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOAmRL9WgM
got so scared for a minute741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFlEZbLA5t
that I would.
I’m tired.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgit2NOc1NY
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMygFNFNj1
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVasUi9Cdu
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vtUHo2wFm
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8p3Ez5DWM
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT5UiNwEUn
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzXJwOfCd8
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYojfYTEbZ4
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Nup2ne1hj
draw blood, but it was the first time741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkLe1MKnpG
I had allowed myself to741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdP7LUwPxV
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsle5OyMJ9
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY63p5z2uv2
actually reach out and go through with it741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxPsGnbDvH
I think because I’m afraid of not existing741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYM5IIwAFN
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcq9iB142b
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFawJVoNXVw
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt3oLZPGhb
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNOyLIJvVw
and give up. I have thought about dying every day741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5btmtEGlp
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbWUKAdSJk
go through with it.
I’m tired.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj6jXBMc7Z
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGklqV2qjfK
for people to care about me when they should741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusjYOMxilF
care about me on their own. I often think that741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuo5yofynOu
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsRk2S8uWq
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLStfumu0yF
She often hurts me more than she improves my life741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HcMRcelOE
but I’m too afraid to say anything because741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKY6RF3b3u
I need her. I need her to exist741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tBJGHUEAT
in my existence, and I need her to741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLFIG2u2c6
be by my side.741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQWfkeZ5ll
But I’m tired.
I’m tired741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqXNM4cDnd
of being tired741Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzJ0BBQAfy
in this tiring life.
