「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBDPL389SY
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNknAB2BeE8
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jMB5JLM2J
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幼小我的父母就離異，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHoQRrivAH
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XvXVvkAYz
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對母親的記憶還是有，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ6NE5db3R
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記得她很常酗酒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzYKb2ZKcI
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後來的日子，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6GWZ6SYDJ
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHhmtZy5Y7
我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTuHzQcmaD
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忙於工作的他，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVthOl5F71n
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsyFTx6BGM
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到了上課時間再直接上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fwpyyEmeX
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3owjur6YQw
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMk6FH1loT
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTAyDWdBtW
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZvYUGoSkz
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsm5bp0Z0it
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwf8SWcJmRN
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAZ1M9Od1c
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ7Unqv6PM
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj76Yf4iYdi
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnY6WdsFUE
父親工作的地方不一定，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2KglYYML1
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輾轉的換了三所小學，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSbLojUuDx
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInUCGkREaM
以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqUEcSI46n
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HMItKQd2e
他開始會喜怒無常，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMVyHnpLjy
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1zxdu6unl
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OclhpgNFs
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QJ1CotCnD
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很小我就與異性交往，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a0xMcWEiM
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPigSEuu1l
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RTKQfU7ro
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrVkKdRysW
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我會睡在工地，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3rkYrFXXs
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQrwryg5jE
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQrtzK3e6V
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyUZO1qS3G
父親在工作上十分認真敬業，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFYo8awApz
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HDOYwWAih
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GegbMR9Wz
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQh6wfXNYl
他開始會講貶低的話語，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu1Zadvisa
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那些原本用來工作的用具，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sEK3kPFBF
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKfLc3ixRY
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZQCqgQHbW
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MaTZHZqi9
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFiODmsLIW
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdCxcVHgGs
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTN5yJS5qv
要我轉告給老師，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVMIW77LGg
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhV2qtfwpK
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINC39mnsVP
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxvaOMELLo
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkIABjRLWa
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdnDtMnUUN
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChoXmH0FnN
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVPDHGNWi5
細細去回想每個片段，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jI2toFbti
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4xfIDcfMZ
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEGeFQHMMu
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAg79XrOIT
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2fD6emFsO
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VmUCaLgqv
對他一個大男孩很不容易，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyf8tzhWQw
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxZQwbU4Nh
所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLfJfepmRE
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7zunEZ2Mm
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPFtalem4D
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOArk1BH2a
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGBggFipLS
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGsaAyQObG
我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qRRs5UB5y
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp38mHJT3Q
打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qUPzO5iOB
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJ7QHPheJb
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5cyTrAy7f
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOmQxol9LD
還是有很多屬於他的回憶，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OjnPIo01Y
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NndqYGYaK
我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6YQvCvY0c
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaEMZCuggn
正準備吃下第一口時，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwtjK2hoHG
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXug7cV584K
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ155iH6nqwZ
