「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjIjP4iuzA
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5D6FonZrt
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygmRI2m1It
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幼小我的父母就離異，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzKAgzg4un
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrvsF9u8MK
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對母親的記憶還是有，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsUpctNiy4
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記得她很常酗酒，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua5tjvfdJs
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後來的日子，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJvNummOpc
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDlOGGH6aV
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忙於工作的他，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUYuzIiVnV
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnciURJUJO5
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到了上課時間再直接上課，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD9HKNqtzu
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOtfoX10lM
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFryGjNGmlk
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCD6AaWBAGN
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFkMvWk6GI
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0j87puqeU
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父親工作的地方不一定，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHcexkrEpi
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輾轉的換了三所小學，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXwTmrFjGi
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUD6RbdK20C
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他開始會喜怒無常，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRF1CgCaKR
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6NtPRDPcC
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpbqYbsEA1
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很小我就與異性交往，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOszMWCCcm
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1P5MFt4og
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkkvt7fGkT
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgn91b1YT9S
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我會睡在工地，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60bW80O5hf
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBnNrqJE9s
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJOxWJDK6u
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6vh7zqwW2
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他開始會講貶低的話語，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2J4jhfAUz
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那些原本用來工作的用具，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb41ywmBTqQ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHfsCQH3zR
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJONB0yD6VV
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQ0PttjUn5
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17mCpbBlv5
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要我轉告給老師，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LKb8zF2XW
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY1uwkOeCK
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkobLyejNX5
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wjSbQUS5k
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K35Qll7uO
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細細去回想每個片段，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MOS6OrNY0
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtkVI9PQ6j
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFPsjN3jAg
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn9pvaxDhE
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHfkGTvnQL
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucDe6meBuA
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7MJcnDpBv
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTn77OOyafu
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMZGlkFTiy
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv27E6SLj81
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWhz0MqHq7
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjdEejw7rT
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正準備吃下第一口時，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSprcXPkaGN
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVIHLbTYsn
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。584Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUnGA7KfNF
