You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfcu95BEyj
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2ocKTK81E
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jhH0x7ma9
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkiSQ5e8LN
"I just want to go home," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSoBBJi1nq
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjfrE0R2R0
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK2kC7flds
Father sighs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaA0qr1hcB
I say "I don't want to stay here!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnH3mGw8Kl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KOa05xhgm
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuWH4p2YE3
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2qOWnxHEq
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OVjSLbYZF
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6uYbXdGcX
"Pet, come down from the tree."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDCYncrnEC
I stay silent.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5u9xT9YQS
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzm1gjVutF
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpVIqxP8p1
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMFglxe59f
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKbDxV4hxN
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5pEAZhjHv
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAnsr9ofMC
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpof7x7pBH9
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpig0zmnIrW
I say, "Please don't hurt me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsrk3afoFA
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hYMhfZzcZ
I say, "Please don't!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bJIORiArE
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2DOlFG9Om
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH0YCiaxuk
"You'll find out soon enough, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpzDG0ogXn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdiLGVmCt6
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXojiBEiqW
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JX8VVBOaa
"Are you ready, child?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgzxytPils
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxichTTXGv
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDlZ4ovmdG
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I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYuQobJbv2
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnA9pDUSoR
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCcEImxCoK
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ovWWb2pC9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡait5rBBruc
Father says "Good. Stay there."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocmv93o3I
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuZnmjQuSj
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gw0Gye8yF
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDM1zvCIVS
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNV4Nqh9oN
"Please!" I whisper.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMnvY3Hs7Q
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblXozKI27A
I scream loudly.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XB71rcqFv
My scream echoes throughout the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzWoItPlra
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqjIhQomED
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVrpZkEbwo
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbgIjXiXJR
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡth2sUjkLOc
I say "P-please s-stop.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CCmsAffdm
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIoYmWTFZd
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKYqOoVz8n
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6CaTsZnyt
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswnuZ8noL3
"Look at her," another says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQlFnPOPiY
I say "Please leave me alone."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzEOyUDj97
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS25vDho3j
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5LFzUeSqg
"We'll see. Let's see."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToOhej3aE0
I say "No no no.." They laugh.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxM4sw2L5wW
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2vufv2ToG
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4My53lMfb
They untie me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjFtOAqpp
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96hjlJ0XSX
"Ah... you're up," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5ExoPF84e
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzvGkif0Zf
"Where were you?" he asks,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHvK42FUjb
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs383151fd
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmzCQo7TLN
Father smiles.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dgqvDkYXb
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZT3Ndbmy0
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXtPYOjuL0
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kn0DCekk5
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoQ27qwqRJ
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0zq4M9w8u
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0imKSWAJzN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0VKc7DACe
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmUNmhETrh
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFM92zP6eY
I say, "Please let me go!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHk4VGdyeT
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HRScr0csR
"You will," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYutFMwqIl
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gR31wYvT2
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbxh3YEJ6J
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6kRXcbKJC
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNJFrAGmbv
"Stop crying," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE6h5L3O4g
"I can't!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCFbl8MLok
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UClpmXXGo
"Stop it!" I cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK29xpDIS0G
"I said stop it!" he yells,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hsLn9RN0S
"I can't," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwTZ1veDTm
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf69y9jcaF
"NO!" Father screams.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6ras1kyEb
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hETLXlA6B
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx2vfEOd8z
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5T8YmnHW4
"I would. I really would."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGckZVkEwv2
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinp4lydLvF
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmAQJXIBUH
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rFeDmtAgm
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIXQgjuxAc
I say, "No I'm not!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gAM8B1Mpv
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcNUZHS839
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AsXMLpM6W
I say "No I won't!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ISY9k6tyE
"You will!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe1eWTG9LH
"I said NO!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmO6locfag
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNI4PdzZ3KZ
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPAVnzdeWB
"I know you will," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVESwegwmzv
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6OIMqujKQ
He says "One."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YmT37XRP8
I say, "I'll do anything.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVhVBLllBW
"Two."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0M9xdcoPV
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0fZqJBUDu
"Three."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNhChciSYf
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXKRFQgKPy
"No, don't do it," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuOyjN6Opw
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo6lihseJZ
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xfBcUzmIZ
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ196J3NNSFs
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JiKbr1IiN
I say "Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUD8VkbPM7
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOuNBTxnsY
"Yes," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVe1XTpsUWv
"Good girl," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EafzVaUMj
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj4t2plix2
"I won't," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27XVooIxfd
I stay tied up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7dPVsdeOt
"Now," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmkV1oWcHb
"Kneel."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfsEkRjMIm
"Please," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlyS5UUNMg
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg9ppqWJBv
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM9cXgZR61
I just know it.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8M0E1ikJm
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66vQ2TpFhW
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH0raanIPW
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRboPN4gAo
I'm all alone in the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyri4HWgl43
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I hear the door open. I look up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0zFg3pJFl
"Hello," a man says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctlafa5kVL
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK16fayitSg
"Hands behind your back," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7offlSNp8
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxllimNm2kv
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWxOy9z35J
"Stay there," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAroYvqIRz
I stay on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK8f9xrHfN
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jvW3IajDv
I say "No no no."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKdXyTRhvQ
"Do it," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbaoXDTUDe
I say no. He pushes harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYrbGJ40jV
"Do it!" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeou1H2ehm
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6sfVXAPGf
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZmn5NosZD
"Stay there," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c6w9DMjJv
I stay on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJx409naPQ
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0mOD82SVN
"Stop moving."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSWNGIJ2rT
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Myz1f7D14
He pulls it out of my throat.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkR3rywEiC
"What's wrong?" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSmfj2TMB4
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNSrg5yU81
"What?" he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6hlO4lfzz
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iQEChyqlo
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX9G2QZcd1
"Is this too big for you?" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAWsZ7S7uN
I nod.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdNsLFiB3i
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSIkWGUjSf
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwng7gEKnL8
He shoves it back in.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBbzV8aiVD
I decide that vomiting once is enough.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOQiGbhysV
He shoves it in deeper.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhNDF59zSs
I struggle and fight.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6lYXbTKW2
"Stop fighting me," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GJDzpuHTd
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78j1mVLSfs
"Get dressed," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkjcLOGtPa
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2glZEn1FVj
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFNNTJRv5q
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdonUZZu7bn
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRBTAqHCQQ
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMElRbaDafE
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6lKE1Rvdc
I say, "Where's dad?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSAF5U4MtA
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kf4GHoVhe
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUaUR5qzqj
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHNUhsWQdL
My father says, "Where have you been?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HXJsMn9kK
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUyQFSIlb2
"Did they hurt you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVDEVD58tQ
"Yeah," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqxfdTXmZO
"I'm sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpk3eT5uPUO
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLphG4KwuEJ
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJkizuaqCw
"Is Allie in here?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4fYlbPvPK
My dad says, "Yes, why?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GAN9LA49Y
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBH96xvVme
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3s4otCiFq
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnupqXYpBey
"No." I respond,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KrAgRYXDw
"Can we come in?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJYBLYNVcr
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QXCDbZw3a
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzWTWzYo9N
I say, "I don't know."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkpA3Vrhep
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldAG5iEnaX
"No." I say,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWR1MqULWZ
"Are you sure?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm2iBNQJ2n
"Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MDBnGYDWR
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylt0H8uCyQ
"Did he give you any food or water?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jMObt8rfU
"No." I respond.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjATV6WxxM
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPEC26PC83
"No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm8EnJ6MPe
"What did he do to you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEdI8YQ0iL
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1szths7KMu
"Did you fight him?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA9SS62vFy
"I tried."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAxM8sPgDy
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs1pyNoAgX
"I think I blacked out."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmzwyb0t7s
"I see."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEib01ghYG2
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzlAMrf0O7
"And how long were you with him?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kLE7P0Y1c
"I think about ten hours."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3vtevEgnP
"And you only just managed to escape?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TCikt6tY1
"Yeah."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZblSJatiJX
"Do you know where you were?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42OrgMPkT1
I say "No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSnLkevW5d
"What is the last thing you remember?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9hbsbq8xg
"I remember walking down the road."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwIja8mI8B
"And then?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdba9cbFxOx
"I don't remember."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NBzDjLRHw
"Do you know how you got away?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNgWJtDFPg
I say, "I just ran,"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkOoL2hBSf
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCemjSXW7n
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr92BqH5I9v
I say, "So that's how it all happened."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbsQ19bKwl
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHH0oc8vOb
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDyE3HqJD4
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OBJP9f2bV
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZKvtXASHp
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVJdx1xxRG
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINEqoQl5W7
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgFYAx4yx2
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa85V4vWfv5
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXgyiCJnFp
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5HnwESlXj
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigKHzH1BOf
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7zqHPPzoF
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQotVYQBWe
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYnFJWDimJ
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspfVJjkakG
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzTNCB7ErA
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoeoQAxON6
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsfEoAGkgh
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjVzzQhG5w
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxpA5pFSSn
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l9jcGBViA
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInhPoqbc8L
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUFyoP8ghu
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBYC2a4B66
"Get up." he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpXSpRQTsl
"Why am I here?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmVBPSQ2lj
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN12rrnA7pN
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMtMkOuMwP
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DRchRBQWv
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRVtLASrgH
I sit down.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BHusPF5cv
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHnqlqxdUq
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeAV0B0owo
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFwyh5nqo6
I say, "No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X05IfACFM
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmifEJpLVb9
I respond, "Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkioQ0hHNeH
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbVVhNAJGS
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfDPwLK4gc
"Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlQi2uFoH5
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUiP5s3U71
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGnitIGEyN
I say, "Hi."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9siJQUSj3
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfwedSM1mE
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzlPVxQgJ2
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgWdME0wKR
"Right away," says the woman.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKOvcDfmhE
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc4N2Qx7jV
I say, "Okay."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmnNu8z8Q0
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTt4FsscjJ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡariXqr9vKw
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmWporLZRr
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡondC6lZbHu
"He kidnapped me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAZc4XREFw
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8iJiZtpCu
I say, "He tried to stab me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfjMVAvytK
"Who was he?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8exDxtDepw
"I don't know."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7Xtebi5Zb
"Where did you get the knife?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu94ypp6jWa
"He had it in his pocket."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcnNOf9hSP
"Did he threaten you in any way?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cEXgjiVSo
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtocVDrzByZ
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0ibUBB85W
"No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EPIsXbXYv
"You sure? Think hard."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14meHbAj9e
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqjBJaPX1N
I say, "He killed my father."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnZ3oK1fdX
"What?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVGvFSIWfj
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8JnZDKV9A
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqgy0cal3m
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmM4nDPGqk
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVYN88tu77
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qA4je3DgD
I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubZNQerjkU
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVpVcSb33f
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3klItuskf
I follow him.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwHpKLdUhR
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSNNxA0fWi
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GcBTOEHHx
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobsGHOGCaw
"Alright. Take a seat."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8MiNc3B8Y
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVrKY8Ta19
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Csf37Xhu0
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcZsb7SY3W
"Yes.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCDTInx8SC
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ5CtpU7Nc
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgz57nEkAH
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITvmVMdXsQ
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRewgALkxm9
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNQpQgz3TL
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tDLRw0jlm
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxVoOgaKLE
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsATwoDSfS
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseuPRLKBrK
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE18bLFRzC
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNCbT2n4Fn
"What is it?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz68kiDzRTA
Doctor Kessel says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstuqPgyjBG
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cQQGRw6OR
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHnedhkfzz
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPajbZsz1e
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPTgVmo5Yh
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsn4uXCgYt
The nurse shakes her head, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1phH5SYhlE
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zpfD2aex8
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIveIT3wAI
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ11ILoP3L
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvjAb6fN01
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu4eNLQxYz
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusPVPlIKxx
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAgTSLUHlr
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi0QaZ5ARQ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldvRLutzov
I say "Where am I?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXT8OODwpCq
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKP6lAXXUP
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hEqBzp2MN
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgFU63JfBn
I say, "I want to see my mom..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoad1RqRsaL
The nurse interrupts me and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPx7LAXisb
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSufQDIlkAp
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznycMhL5cX
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykF5R1pvzs
"M-mom.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXStbkbZ56
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiBjdNZrSS
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdqjwFSRYO
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIknV82miL
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXowx4VvDP
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOppjP4gIy
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCArSO0HDQ
"Yes.." I say quietly.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg5ta2kQC6
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsp5dQFfOt
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqDBZSx0wW
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoVPMjqWDv
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIFYGvccph
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTFyiJR83p
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyjZ5UHJye
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED4XY0GrLI
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYhpeawTkx
I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPTa3K4tMW
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2Zo950tIs
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzxhBvx9VD
I wipe the tears off my face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdbb5zGyUD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjS3M3B4Upu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m8jDpDKk4
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p2siz9JJo
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXu2pecooA
I say, "Tell me!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKyZqXVtKU
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUVDmGRfzs
My heart drops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9SCIB7sNy
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSahiNdxn4
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In the morning, I get my visitors.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lM8UUg08q
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdWrJ336BL
I say, "Wait!" She stops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKU6taDXd9
"What is it?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18Z9SRy7Dk
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdma8SHr31B
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpK2Q8P9tj8
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqkJkVc0W8
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghIiWTEbcM
I cry myself to sleep.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvx3zZjyxi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJdHlX19oV
"How are you doing, honey?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUABi1kOTr9
I say, "Horrible.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJihMr6vcEi
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPqEQ5tkKd
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwkyJ4r3az
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHfVBtVUTZ
"It's not your fault, honey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMvKh9zF6C
I start crying again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGc7aEZlZw
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXkg6mECVG
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKqZYfBcoS
Maybe I'm dead after all.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnQf83Z7Jm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3DT2nEj6A
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEpAQBGYnm
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2s6q13irY
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0row0dGQp
I say, "I still want to win this."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mD5SBUmL0
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EbXMWS8eC
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1zP0zxu5T
"Really?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlL0dW544k
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tZz1S8IuV
I start crying, and I can't stop.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwHEfPhH3Y
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfbqgIRjI6
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgW4ogo8Sl
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx2OjcrSqT
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQWV4b2jkK
"I wanted to see the flowers."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvGwKGeQoN
"Why are you out of your room?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTJz8E6lCd
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P6ltWKGsj
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNP9g6sG5kL
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9g8gz9Z5V
"Thank you for being you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxKNorFXf5
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf8HFXeda1
I make a decision.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyb4loXFuk
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vtKN9NW72
"What's your name?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLfYFkzxDS
"Allisa," I say, smiling.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtRjSHl4gZ
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Nw9NxzRKP
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafOEIqBe5N
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCa6AhZ21s
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLBzFxiuu2
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2ocKTK81E
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jhH0x7ma9
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkiSQ5e8LN
"I just want to go home," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSoBBJi1nq
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjfrE0R2R0
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK2kC7flds
Father sighs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaA0qr1hcB
I say "I don't want to stay here!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnH3mGw8Kl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KOa05xhgm
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuWH4p2YE3
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2qOWnxHEq
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OVjSLbYZF
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6uYbXdGcX
"Pet, come down from the tree."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDCYncrnEC
I stay silent.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5u9xT9YQS
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzm1gjVutF
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpVIqxP8p1
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMFglxe59f
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKbDxV4hxN
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5pEAZhjHv
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAnsr9ofMC
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpof7x7pBH9
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpig0zmnIrW
I say, "Please don't hurt me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsrk3afoFA
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hYMhfZzcZ
I say, "Please don't!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bJIORiArE
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2DOlFG9Om
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH0YCiaxuk
"You'll find out soon enough, child."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpzDG0ogXn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdiLGVmCt6
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXojiBEiqW
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfW5SvbwBEI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JX8VVBOaa
"Are you ready, child?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgzxytPils
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxichTTXGv
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDlZ4ovmdG
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I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYuQobJbv2
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnA9pDUSoR
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCcEImxCoK
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ovWWb2pC9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡait5rBBruc
Father says "Good. Stay there."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocmv93o3I
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuZnmjQuSj
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gw0Gye8yF
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDM1zvCIVS
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNV4Nqh9oN
"Please!" I whisper.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMnvY3Hs7Q
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblXozKI27A
I scream loudly.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XB71rcqFv
My scream echoes throughout the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzWoItPlra
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqjIhQomED
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVrpZkEbwo
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbgIjXiXJR
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡth2sUjkLOc
I say "P-please s-stop.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CCmsAffdm
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIoYmWTFZd
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKYqOoVz8n
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6CaTsZnyt
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswnuZ8noL3
"Look at her," another says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQlFnPOPiY
I say "Please leave me alone."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzEOyUDj97
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS25vDho3j
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5LFzUeSqg
"We'll see. Let's see."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToOhej3aE0
I say "No no no.." They laugh.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxM4sw2L5wW
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2vufv2ToG
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4My53lMfb
They untie me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjFtOAqpp
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96hjlJ0XSX
"Ah... you're up," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5ExoPF84e
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1qnR3zmyo"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzvGkif0Zf
"Where were you?" he asks,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHvK42FUjb
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs383151fd
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmzCQo7TLN
Father smiles.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dgqvDkYXb
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZT3Ndbmy0
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXtPYOjuL0
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kn0DCekk5
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoQ27qwqRJ
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0zq4M9w8u
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0imKSWAJzN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0VKc7DACe
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmUNmhETrh
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFM92zP6eY
I say, "Please let me go!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHk4VGdyeT
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HRScr0csR
"You will," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYutFMwqIl
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gR31wYvT2
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbxh3YEJ6J
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6kRXcbKJC
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNJFrAGmbv
"Stop crying," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE6h5L3O4g
"I can't!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCFbl8MLok
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UClpmXXGo
"Stop it!" I cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK29xpDIS0G
"I said stop it!" he yells,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hsLn9RN0S
"I can't," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwTZ1veDTm
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf69y9jcaF
"NO!" Father screams.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6ras1kyEb
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hETLXlA6B
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx2vfEOd8z
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5T8YmnHW4
"I would. I really would."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGckZVkEwv2
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinp4lydLvF
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmAQJXIBUH
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rFeDmtAgm
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIXQgjuxAc
I say, "No I'm not!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gAM8B1Mpv
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcNUZHS839
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AsXMLpM6W
I say "No I won't!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ISY9k6tyE
"You will!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe1eWTG9LH
"I said NO!!!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmO6locfag
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNI4PdzZ3KZ
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPAVnzdeWB
"I know you will," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVESwegwmzv
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6OIMqujKQ
He says "One."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YmT37XRP8
I say, "I'll do anything.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVhVBLllBW
"Two."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0M9xdcoPV
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0fZqJBUDu
"Three."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNhChciSYf
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXKRFQgKPy
"No, don't do it," Father says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuOyjN6Opw
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo6lihseJZ
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xfBcUzmIZ
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ196J3NNSFs
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JiKbr1IiN
I say "Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUD8VkbPM7
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOuNBTxnsY
"Yes," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVe1XTpsUWv
"Good girl," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EafzVaUMj
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj4t2plix2
"I won't," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27XVooIxfd
I stay tied up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7dPVsdeOt
"Now," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmkV1oWcHb
"Kneel."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfsEkRjMIm
"Please," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlyS5UUNMg
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg9ppqWJBv
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM9cXgZR61
I just know it.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8M0E1ikJm
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66vQ2TpFhW
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH0raanIPW
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRboPN4gAo
I'm all alone in the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyri4HWgl43
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSu84aVVdEI hear the door open. I look up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0zFg3pJFl
"Hello," a man says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctlafa5kVL
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK16fayitSg
"Hands behind your back," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7offlSNp8
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxllimNm2kv
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWxOy9z35J
"Stay there," he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAroYvqIRz
I stay on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK8f9xrHfN
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jvW3IajDv
I say "No no no."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKdXyTRhvQ
"Do it," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbaoXDTUDe
I say no. He pushes harder.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYrbGJ40jV
"Do it!" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeou1H2ehm
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6sfVXAPGf
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZmn5NosZD
"Stay there," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c6w9DMjJv
I stay on my knees.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJx409naPQ
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0mOD82SVN
"Stop moving."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSWNGIJ2rT
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Myz1f7D14
He pulls it out of my throat.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkR3rywEiC
"What's wrong?" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSmfj2TMB4
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNSrg5yU81
"What?" he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6hlO4lfzz
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iQEChyqlo
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX9G2QZcd1
"Is this too big for you?" he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAWsZ7S7uN
I nod.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdNsLFiB3i
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSIkWGUjSf
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwng7gEKnL8
He shoves it back in.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBbzV8aiVD
I decide that vomiting once is enough.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOQiGbhysV
He shoves it in deeper.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhNDF59zSs
I struggle and fight.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6lYXbTKW2
"Stop fighting me," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GJDzpuHTd
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78j1mVLSfs
"Get dressed," he says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkjcLOGtPa
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2glZEn1FVj
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFNNTJRv5q
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42MFDDv09k223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzOHJuW6j7
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdonUZZu7bn
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRBTAqHCQQ
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMElRbaDafE
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6lKE1Rvdc
I say, "Where's dad?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSAF5U4MtA
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kf4GHoVhe
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUaUR5qzqj
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHNUhsWQdL
My father says, "Where have you been?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HXJsMn9kK
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUyQFSIlb2
"Did they hurt you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVDEVD58tQ
"Yeah," I say.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqxfdTXmZO
"I'm sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpk3eT5uPUO
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLphG4KwuEJ
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJkizuaqCw
"Is Allie in here?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4fYlbPvPK
My dad says, "Yes, why?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GAN9LA49Y
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBH96xvVme
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3s4otCiFq
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnupqXYpBey
"No." I respond,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KrAgRYXDw
"Can we come in?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJYBLYNVcr
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QXCDbZw3a
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzWTWzYo9N
I say, "I don't know."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkpA3Vrhep
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldAG5iEnaX
"No." I say,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWR1MqULWZ
"Are you sure?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm2iBNQJ2n
"Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MDBnGYDWR
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylt0H8uCyQ
"Did he give you any food or water?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jMObt8rfU
"No." I respond.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjATV6WxxM
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPEC26PC83
"No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm8EnJ6MPe
"What did he do to you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEdI8YQ0iL
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1szths7KMu
"Did you fight him?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA9SS62vFy
"I tried."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAxM8sPgDy
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs1pyNoAgX
"I think I blacked out."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmzwyb0t7s
"I see."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEib01ghYG2
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzlAMrf0O7
"And how long were you with him?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kLE7P0Y1c
"I think about ten hours."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3vtevEgnP
"And you only just managed to escape?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TCikt6tY1
"Yeah."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZblSJatiJX
"Do you know where you were?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42OrgMPkT1
I say "No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSnLkevW5d
"What is the last thing you remember?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9hbsbq8xg
"I remember walking down the road."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwIja8mI8B
"And then?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdba9cbFxOx
"I don't remember."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NBzDjLRHw
"Do you know how you got away?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNgWJtDFPg
I say, "I just ran,"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkOoL2hBSf
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCemjSXW7n
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr92BqH5I9v
I say, "So that's how it all happened."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbsQ19bKwl
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHH0oc8vOb
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDyE3HqJD4
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OBJP9f2bV
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZKvtXASHp
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVJdx1xxRG
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINEqoQl5W7
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgFYAx4yx2
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa85V4vWfv5
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXgyiCJnFp
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5HnwESlXj
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigKHzH1BOf
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7zqHPPzoF
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQotVYQBWe
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYnFJWDimJ
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspfVJjkakG
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzTNCB7ErA
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoHx0gdea2At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoeoQAxON6
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsfEoAGkgh
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjVzzQhG5w
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxpA5pFSSn
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l9jcGBViA
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInhPoqbc8L
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUFyoP8ghu
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBYC2a4B66
"Get up." he says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpXSpRQTsl
"Why am I here?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmVBPSQ2lj
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN12rrnA7pN
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMtMkOuMwP
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DRchRBQWv
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRVtLASrgH
I sit down.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BHusPF5cv
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHnqlqxdUq
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeAV0B0owo
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFwyh5nqo6
I say, "No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X05IfACFM
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmifEJpLVb9
I respond, "Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkioQ0hHNeH
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbVVhNAJGS
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfDPwLK4gc
"Yes."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlQi2uFoH5
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUiP5s3U71
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGnitIGEyN
I say, "Hi."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9siJQUSj3
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfwedSM1mE
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzlPVxQgJ2
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgWdME0wKR
"Right away," says the woman.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKOvcDfmhE
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc4N2Qx7jV
I say, "Okay."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmnNu8z8Q0
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTt4FsscjJ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡariXqr9vKw
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmWporLZRr
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡondC6lZbHu
"He kidnapped me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAZc4XREFw
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8iJiZtpCu
I say, "He tried to stab me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfjMVAvytK
"Who was he?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8exDxtDepw
"I don't know."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7Xtebi5Zb
"Where did you get the knife?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu94ypp6jWa
"He had it in his pocket."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcnNOf9hSP
"Did he threaten you in any way?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cEXgjiVSo
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtocVDrzByZ
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0ibUBB85W
"No."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EPIsXbXYv
"You sure? Think hard."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14meHbAj9e
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqjBJaPX1N
I say, "He killed my father."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnZ3oK1fdX
"What?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVGvFSIWfj
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8JnZDKV9A
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqgy0cal3m
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmM4nDPGqk
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVYN88tu77
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qA4je3DgD
I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubZNQerjkU
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVpVcSb33f
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3klItuskf
I follow him.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwHpKLdUhR
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSNNxA0fWi
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GcBTOEHHx
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobsGHOGCaw
"Alright. Take a seat."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8MiNc3B8Y
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVrKY8Ta19
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Csf37Xhu0
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcZsb7SY3W
"Yes.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCDTInx8SC
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ5CtpU7Nc
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgz57nEkAH
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITvmVMdXsQ
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRewgALkxm9
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNQpQgz3TL
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tDLRw0jlm
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxVoOgaKLE
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsATwoDSfS
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseuPRLKBrK
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE18bLFRzC
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNCbT2n4Fn
"What is it?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz68kiDzRTA
Doctor Kessel says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstuqPgyjBG
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cQQGRw6OR
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHnedhkfzz
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPajbZsz1e
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPTgVmo5Yh
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsn4uXCgYt
The nurse shakes her head, and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1phH5SYhlE
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zpfD2aex8
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIveIT3wAI
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ11ILoP3L
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvjAb6fN01
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu4eNLQxYz
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusPVPlIKxx
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAgTSLUHlr
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi0QaZ5ARQ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldvRLutzov
I say "Where am I?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXT8OODwpCq
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKP6lAXXUP
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hEqBzp2MN
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgFU63JfBn
I say, "I want to see my mom..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoad1RqRsaL
The nurse interrupts me and says,223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPx7LAXisb
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSufQDIlkAp
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznycMhL5cX
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELMqZwdPl3A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykF5R1pvzs
"M-mom.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXStbkbZ56
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiBjdNZrSS
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdqjwFSRYO
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIknV82miL
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXowx4VvDP
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOppjP4gIy
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCArSO0HDQ
"Yes.." I say quietly.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg5ta2kQC6
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsp5dQFfOt
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqDBZSx0wW
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoVPMjqWDv
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIFYGvccph
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTFyiJR83p
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyjZ5UHJye
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED4XY0GrLI
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYhpeawTkx
I say, "Okay.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPTa3K4tMW
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2Zo950tIs
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzxhBvx9VD
I wipe the tears off my face.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdbb5zGyUD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjS3M3B4Upu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m8jDpDKk4
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p2siz9JJo
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXu2pecooA
I say, "Tell me!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKyZqXVtKU
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUVDmGRfzs
My heart drops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9SCIB7sNy
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSahiNdxn4
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223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8iiIo1P1aIn the morning, I get my visitors.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lM8UUg08q
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdWrJ336BL
I say, "Wait!" She stops.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKU6taDXd9
"What is it?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18Z9SRy7Dk
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdma8SHr31B
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpK2Q8P9tj8
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqkJkVc0W8
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghIiWTEbcM
I cry myself to sleep.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvx3zZjyxi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJdHlX19oV
"How are you doing, honey?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUABi1kOTr9
I say, "Horrible.."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJihMr6vcEi
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPqEQ5tkKd
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwkyJ4r3az
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHfVBtVUTZ
"It's not your fault, honey."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMvKh9zF6C
I start crying again.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGc7aEZlZw
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXkg6mECVG
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKqZYfBcoS
Maybe I'm dead after all.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnQf83Z7Jm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3DT2nEj6A
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEpAQBGYnm
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2s6q13irY
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0row0dGQp
I say, "I still want to win this."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mD5SBUmL0
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EbXMWS8eC
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1zP0zxu5T
"Really?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlL0dW544k
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tZz1S8IuV
I start crying, and I can't stop.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwHEfPhH3Y
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfbqgIRjI6
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgW4ogo8Sl
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx2OjcrSqT
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQWV4b2jkK
"I wanted to see the flowers."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvGwKGeQoN
"Why are you out of your room?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTJz8E6lCd
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P6ltWKGsj
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNP9g6sG5kL
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9g8gz9Z5V
"Thank you for being you."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxKNorFXf5
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf8HFXeda1
I make a decision.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyb4loXFuk
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vtKN9NW72
"What's your name?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLfYFkzxDS
"Allisa," I say, smiling.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtRjSHl4gZ
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Nw9NxzRKP
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafOEIqBe5N
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCa6AhZ21s
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLBzFxiuu2
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