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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcuzMXOeki
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「嗡隆……」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiuZdhTyXl
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjPQm4tAcf
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錯過尾班車了…呢。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0UArk4PLm
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Hsuceqls7
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nDnruVtle
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjXyjT4KKn
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi5iO0FsWB
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心情壞透了。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9rzOxXfCR
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無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SxU61lEEv
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……抱歉，我也不知道。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CMoy4siOc
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTNf0Qt3H4
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mAcEmTJ3j
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「唉。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLj1EINhmy
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVLTHWdK3l
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjb9ZEwOMm
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTcIz7RfhW
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhI5xMdrEc
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SDlUKAnAm
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hxv7zRJTs
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jFJNPPbiV
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkDPQ3pbRs
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrrgFZ9Hh2
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcyCqjfxsI
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVX2bbjuDz
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGbCaa9ltC
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ef5Z9uR68
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMh6z27dGw2
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsh1zxpwzj
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaePY9MEEa
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaeoPOiwBA
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jD5cv3jDZ
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3nQLosGTh
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本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKli4oRCIJ
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「先生。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiKV97FR4o
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一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHR75qquw9
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww0BTbHWHh
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpviqD0US3
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「閂…站？」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTD2kgkciX
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「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfXFl2Lb2Y
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要不是這條命是借來的話……1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwrkR5pX7G
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9GtxQGNxp
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii5EpSxXDD
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「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5XuloCUMc
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他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIZnVDSOtU
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「咁……啊。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrfUJrxZJg
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHP3kpziPa
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSELwWsPWLr
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「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDKsBI4Fjd
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「我帶你行。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlopd16al6k
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領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlFDvqkzbq
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fVb1Nz1Ib
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCktmBkHhAc
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyronZBulu
「呃……算係。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8duP5VNHVu
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不再是了。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hVypH7Uzl
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBb6iSxcmht
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2cJ3dwWRO
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Pkt600Vi
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4m0Unt2H2
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgmSPgRSZW
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy15gJn88n
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUSIwwKH5z
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneQx44h2A6
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgWab8pnmG
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntosnzT5kP
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEjNT3GcmS
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDuyGkmvcL
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiouw0kmyvO
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLpRAUKeUx
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ6J8AdnVi
因為我沒有。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡousOLigK1H
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnM5UxE0Z11
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaYvmgKxXr
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKT3IaNmz8
活該。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K7xeSv4mu
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我活該。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpST7b0635n
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhC266BoVM
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg1cYCfC2l
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2l4an0a6B
不想。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqyNP2Qhs3
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc93LnnTPQ
我……我不想找她。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xDt8jdv9s
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不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE7x54YL2I
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZusmMCXDc3
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd0kVY2oda
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RuYDWSOYn
我不想。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qug3x5Z72
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalG2WCEkyo
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDieJuIZni6
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不就有了嗎？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1BsiGNMt0
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6IWRjua1k
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuMHs0feYM
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既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv3MJc0WUM
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而且，我連地圖都不用。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyiuMaJOvz
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys0qq16i7S
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR6bSjiFKp
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光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMuE3nBb0b
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykYjnyc97Z
出發吧。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDSMttSc0f
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnD91Ec9fP9
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff1uCvBR2Y
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMbMgh3gol
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtcRSHRHwf
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeVPLy9wov
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2Ng4ZasOQ
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamGhrxPwBC
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xFs0XhLuW
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「溫年柏。」1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHEFCAOh3E
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38mBuJm73w
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbptjfVZPCR
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByfb5TMQUp
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjJpesxd4k
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沒有人。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw04oWpZZTz
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZRGjxPGvb
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ3C3Wkejq
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWswrkdxoOk
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlQfzACpjf
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ljkQce9Ha
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyIv4b88p7
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkB5WuqrSV
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuqzOpVKnh
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這到底是……1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOHVNaNlPt
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我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFlZx3yUPq
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是…霧之類嗎……？1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1aSqaub46
1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvKdOdHxED
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrB2Vt9uxA
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但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LQq3A08Sx
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjO4JuSp6I6
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CaYSiJ1PC
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcthh6MVWRu
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHRS0mGrzW
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QegGpJe9y
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicUkyKNKNF
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。1018Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBFwPv5SGU
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