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No Plagiarism!HkAZ4pbUQk92JdbplCWpposted on PENANA 我一邊訴說著我獲贈心臟後的新人生,白醫生一邊問著我問題。8964 copyright protection494PENANACjlaIGe9me 維尼
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那些問題並非圍繞著現實,例如說我大學畢業典禮並沒有出席,證書也是事後郵寄到我家的。他就對典禮在哪兒舉行,隆重與否等等的「現實」全無興趣。8964 copyright protection494PENANAz9WnGsgEtx 維尼
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相反,他更想知道我在典禮前的心情,當天去了哪兒,事後看到社交平台上同學的照片有甚麼感想。8964 copyright protection494PENANAT6kj8AjVxh 維尼
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「唔知佢地有咩咁值得開心。」我坦然道。8964 copyright protection494PENANAWHayH4ziDu 維尼
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「大學畢業都唔開心?」白醫生反問。8964 copyright protection494PENANAMi7t9JfZxw 維尼
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「只係九流學店嘅九流文憑,張沙紙係我家姐面前同廁紙無咩分別。佢地明明都知道,但仲係咁開心去咩畢業典禮……呢張沙紙用嚟證明我地讀唔成書,係應該收落床下底,永世不見天日嘅嘢嚟。」8964 copyright protection494PENANARrAx0KjJzA 維尼
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「的確唔係咩名牌大學嘅畢業證書。」白醫生說。8964 copyright protection494PENANADkTM39S5xY 維尼
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「咁咪係……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAfwmOGEd1ff 維尼
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「但你班同學都笑得好開心,似乎感情好好,仲眼濕濕咁。」他看著我手機中展示的照片,都是我的同學們拿著那卷畢業證書,穿著租來的畢業袍和四方帽的合照。8964 copyright protection494PENANAaWdjlZ00sw 維尼
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「……嗯,隨佢地便。」我托著腮別過頭去。8964 copyright protection494PENANAK3lpooVEno 維尼
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「咁畢業典禮個日你去咗邊?」8964 copyright protection494PENANAkoECSEXJ9E 維尼
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「嗯……應該無去咗邊,唔記得,只係好普通一日。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAH3N4W3LmrN 維尼
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「其他人嘅大日子,對你嚟講只係普通一日啊。」白醫生嘆息道。8964 copyright protection494PENANAzix1yKFuDl 維尼
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「你係醫生,畢業梗係大日子,要大肆慶祝。但我呢啲人,呢種咁嘅學歷,真係無乜嘢值得高興。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAR52BrnOWIZ 維尼
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「咁,你覺得當日佢地開心啲,定係喺屋企鬱鬱寡歡嘅你開心?」8964 copyright protection494PENANAN4MjLPbmjr 維尼
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「……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAws6pO0ipkK 維尼
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「阿柏?」白醫生說。8964 copyright protection494PENANAOmpcGsIU7u 維尼
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的確我答應過會有問必答啦。8964 copyright protection494PENANADozrTFyjyT 維尼
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「佢地掛。」我遲疑了片刻才說。8964 copyright protection494PENANA3VwFFJxq2g 維尼
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「……」白醫生意味深長地看著我,不發一言。8964 copyright protection494PENANA4mF20VSInE 維尼
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「我知你想講咩,你想點諗就點諗!」我再別過頭去,不與他多費唇舌。8964 copyright protection494PENANA107x5LwOFR 維尼
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不知過了多久,不知了聊了多久,總算白醫生似乎心滿意足了。8964 copyright protection494PENANA2fDoGL2BJy 維尼
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他看著榻榻米平台外的斜陽,沉默了良久。8964 copyright protection494PENANAlsy7t8ur1v 維尼
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「多謝你同我講咁多,阿柏。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAa65ZpuAvLo 維尼
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他的語氣似乎有異,但我說不出個究竟。8964 copyright protection494PENANAny9YdCAtte 維尼
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「既然你話……咁做可以幫到鈴兒,我先至講俾你聽。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAOpBB6mmnXy 維尼
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「放心,我向你保證你向我坦白咁多,絕對係拯救鈴兒嘅關鍵。」白醫生道。8964 copyright protection494PENANAdJCp8B0qmg 維尼
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「咁依加要點做?我唔覺得自己可以追到佢,同你坦白咗又點?我始終係我……」8964 copyright protection494PENANACP3IWrqEii 維尼
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按先前所說,白醫生認為鈴兒會變成這樣是因為這兒所有人都是過客,每個人都來來往往,只有她永遠地被困在阡迴旅館之中。所以解決辦法就是由我與她建立情侶關係,陪著她,消除她的孤獨感。8964 copyright protection494PENANAe4UoS11W3y 維尼
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「你就係你,呢個就係重點。但係開始第三輪阡迴旅館前,我地必須要修正你嘅價值觀同自我評價,呢個計劃先有機會成功。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAwk8blwmAyi 維尼
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「修正我?」我冷笑一聲,「仲有咩好修正,我都已經變成……咁。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAlWIfjnAvcv 維尼
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已經不知該怎樣形容。8964 copyright protection494PENANANQlIyaOqSQ 維尼
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只能說……盡在不言中吧。8964 copyright protection494PENANAkywoozTCL8 維尼
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「阿柏,你嘅自我厭惡同孤獨非常非常地嚴重。」白醫生坦然道,「如果你繼續咁落去,唔好話救到鈴兒,連你自己都救唔到。」8964 copyright protection494PENANA34zoOCdgo1 維尼
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「乜鳩……我無啦啦要咩人救!?係渺渺為咗鈴兒先監硬拖入嚟阡迴旅館,我好有目標,我一啲都唔迷失。我唔係迷途者,而係解鈴人,你係咪搞錯咗啲咩?」8964 copyright protection494PENANA0KIuMteHLw 維尼
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「鈴兒都話過你係唔係反駁隊,果然無錯,只要你受到一絲挑戰或者質疑,你總會全力去還擊。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAP5WuWHB0op 維尼
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「鈴兒佢個時根本唔知頭唔知路……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAVfrOXZadXQ 維尼
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白醫生罕見地打斷我:「阿柏,堅強嘅人,事,物先唔需要咁強力嘅保護。自我保護越強烈,更顯得你內心嘅脆弱。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAOJfJKu1WTt 維尼
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「哈啊?!我脆弱?!我……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAFaXIZ2r2nW 維尼
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「你睇,你總係一言九頂,不過係頂返轉頭個頂。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAFbUIXmvpfo 維尼
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我閉嘴不言,但恐怕這正是白醫生故意為之。8964 copyright protection494PENANATpe0dNflwL 維尼
498Please respect copyright.PENANA67rCZnwSsF
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「換心手術拯救咗你,亦扭曲咗你。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAPeow1Rqgxp 維尼
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「……我唔明你講咩。」8964 copyright protection494PENANABo535UaD7P 維尼
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「為咗唔好辜負將心臟捐俾你嘅個個人,你似乎下定決心要做一個出色,傑出,堅強,無所畏懼嘅人。為咗佢,你渴望成為活出生命價值嘅成功者,亦因為咁,你對事與願違嘅自己覺得極度厭惡——」8964 copyright protection494PENANAECDm1wSCWE 維尼
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「自我厭惡……搞成咁,自我厭惡有錯咩?」我咚一下握拳捶到案上,杯中的褐茶泛起一陣波紋。8964 copyright protection494PENANAsskDH8cYsZ 維尼
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「你覺得無?」8964 copyright protection494PENANA75lzj3vGxj 維尼
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這混蛋,竟然用問題來回答我的問題。8964 copyright protection494PENANAkZGDW21CBT 維尼
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「我……我只係接受唔到佢嘅犧牲,孕育出咁失敗嘅人。」我低頭說。8964 copyright protection494PENANARgQNWzcKDS 維尼
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「失敗?你?」8964 copyright protection494PENANASQrS3VIh37 維尼
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「……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAc8SazlAtaM 維尼
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我不作聲別過臉去,用手胡亂往臉上一抹,擦去眼角的淚花。8964 copyright protection494PENANAgBb7w3dLwc 維尼
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「我認為,捐心俾你嘅佢一定唔想你畢生被咁重內疚感壓住,而佢捐心俾你個時,亦無要求你活到幾出色,幾有成就。只要你健康,開心咁生活到終老佢就會心滿意足。」8964 copyright protection494PENANALjBGhcgA7S 維尼
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我冷笑一聲:「講到你好似識佢咁。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAd3Z6ci0vHQ 維尼
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「……」白醫生只是淺淺一笑,不發一言。8964 copyright protection494PENANAJlZXMULaES 維尼
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然後他話鋒一轉。8964 copyright protection494PENANANkNtImRT8a 維尼
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「一件事有無價值,是否值得你驕傲,係取決於你嘅態度。你眼中一無是處嘅廁紙文憑,係你同學眼中係努力後嘅成果結晶。文憑如是,人生如是。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAj3AqL01Uk4 維尼
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「成果結晶?我間大學只要俾錢,係人都入得,係人都拎到呢張畢業證書,有咩價值可言?」8964 copyright protection494PENANAho3yK4idRk 維尼
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「即使係人都入到,拎到,呢段時間嘅經歷,同同學一齊努力嘅回憶,都係獨一無二,都係只屬於你……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAlCHxcoa5Z1 維尼
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「見工個時邊個理得你有咩回憶經歷?」我又一次反駁道。8964 copyright protection494PENANA1mf3uFSoRR 維尼
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「……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAk1beqMmL1v 維尼
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「我只係實話實說。」我雙手一攤,「你係醫科畢業,唔通因為我嘅畢業證書有回憶有經歷,我就可以做醫生收十幾萬蚊一個月?三姑六婆會因為有回憶又經歷覺得我好叻仔?」8964 copyright protection494PENANA5mLiK6ZMbC 維尼
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「的確你講嘅都係事實,我唔否定,但每一件事唔只得一種意義,對每一個人亦有唔同意義——仲記唔記得第二輪阡迴旅館,阿倫講嘅存在先於本質?」白醫生說。8964 copyright protection494PENANA2ibYysV4Gm 維尼
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「佢……係咁講過。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAPEkwWQKTK1 維尼
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「人啊,要喺存在之後,再定義出自己本質。而你嘅人生唔係毫無價值,只係你用學歷,用收入,用呢啲身外物嚟定義自己嘅價值。但人生唔應該俾呢啲野定義價值,就算你嘅學業,事業,愛情都失意,亦唔代表你嘅人生毫無價值,毫無意義。」8964 copyright protection494PENANAo4cfjxIXar 維尼
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「唔通我話我自己活得好成功,就代表我活得好成功?咁人生就好簡單啦,自己話咩就係咩。」8964 copyright protection494PENANA9kopDHt4kY 維尼
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白醫生搖搖頭:「唔係你話自己好成功,而係你要覺得自己已經成功——如果拯救到鈴兒嘅話,你應該就可以咁覺得啦?」8964 copyright protection494PENANA1p37QRSuhA 維尼
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說畢,他還俏皮地向我單眼,甚麼年代。8964 copyright protection494PENANAZw5q4IHUPb 維尼
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「覺得自己成功……」8964 copyright protection494PENANAKLNXcGOGEC 維尼
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「人嘅慾望無窮無盡,就算俾你讀到神科,月入幾十萬,然後你就會覺得自己要讀哈佛劍橋,要有私人飛機遊艇先夠算成功,再之後呢?唔會有盡頭。所以你一定有自己覺得自己成功嘅目標……鈴兒,佢可唔可以成為你呢個目標?」8964 copyright protection494PENANA8XX1f3AlFP 維尼
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鈴兒……8964 copyright protection494PENANArbWpemM6mJ 維尼
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成功與鈴兒成為情侶,並拯救她,中止阡迴旅館的時間輪迴。這樣的……成就嗎?8964 copyright protection494PENANAZHTfzyTeHH 維尼
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感覺還不賴。8964 copyright protection494PENANAevzJYx2yOo 維尼
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「你有咩方法?」8964 copyright protection494PENANAkahVpW8hP3 維尼
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看到我接受了這提案,白醫生滿意地仰後點頭微笑,還把手中的茶喝掉半杯。8964 copyright protection494PENANARhsSxohzeu 維尼
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枉我還期待他有甚麼神機妙算呢!8964 copyright protection494PENANA2MLmG6GK9Q 維尼
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白醫生站起來,拖著一如以往病厭厭的身體走向陽台,抬頭看看這一層以上阡迴旅館的屋頂,又探頭看看下方的飛簷懸樑。8964 copyright protection494PENANAw1hw1fYZTe 維尼
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當日被鈴兒愛上的白醫生,要提供予我,必能贏得鈴兒芳心的必殺技?8964 copyright protection494PENANA9vZrP4uqCs 維尼
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背著夕陽的白醫生,露出遊刃有餘卻著神秘的自信微笑,但是我卻沒有看出他眉宇之間的離愁別緒。8964 copyright protection494PENANAt7K1XDf9Qk 維尼
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