29/5/2025
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Is my life like how it's suppose to be? Am i where my parents want me to be? Have i earned millions? no. Have i became a doctor? Have i passed medical school? university? Highschool? no.
Some times people expect me to do things i can't, accomplish things i never thought of, do stuff im not motivated enough to do or do stuff in my own life to complete their life and their wishes rather than mine.
People expect me to exceed my limits, to get amazing marks, to outshine others and to become something which will either earn me money or fame, they expect me to study day and night, they expect me to ignore my friends, delete my apps, throw away entertainment and too isolate myself to work, which is clearly working now.
People tell me to shut up when i talk too much, they tell me to speak when im too quiet. They tell me to study when i don't, and they tell me to stop studying and to spend time with them when i do. They tell me to smile when i don't and they tell me to stop smilling when i do it.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCWVuY9mSL
Why though? Why do they not care about someone else? Why don't they realize they're annoying a person, making them feel un-motivated when all they say is "why didn't you do better? the test wasn't hard, The other girl got good marks, what happened to you? You should've studied more."
They look at other people, and then they look at me. They think i haven't accomplished anything in life compared to others, but a thing they never understand, and a thing they never will is that their family let them do what they wanted to, and that they motivated them to do so.
Parents say they did a lot for us, and yes thats true, but what about the methods you used? what about the language? the tone? What about my social life? What about my mental health? my eyes, and about what u made me see, hear and feel?
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