6/8/2026
dear diary,
I am sorry. I am sorry for swearing. I am sorry bumping into you. I am sorry for talking back. I am sorry for showing emotions. I am sorry for breathing, for raising my hand, for telling the truth, for starting a fight, for grabbing a knife and killing my parents. I am sorry.
Why? Why do we have to say 'sorry' for the tiniest things? It won't cause a war if we didn't..... Right? I never understood why, I just got a habit of saying it. Whenever i would bump into someone, i would say sorry. Again and again until i knew i didn't harm them, mentally, physically, and emotionally, so that i couldn't feel guilty, and so that i could sleep peacefully at night.
It got so bad i would say sorry for every mistake i made. Now? i just get irritated. I realized that it's not always my fault, and that i shouldn't be the only one saying 'sorry', neither should other people, not if its their fault.
People force the rivalries to say sorry, just so they could end the fight, but do they even realize what a person is feeling inside? I was forced to keep quiet in moments i wanted to scream. They blame the innocent for the bad things, and let the guilty free.
Why? i know its not just me, it's other people too. Tons of them, and even with that many people knowing, They still charge the innocent people as guilty. Just because we are smiling, laughing, crying, rich or poor, doesn't mean we are guilty. People buy their way out of society, Why.....?
I don't think i'll ever know the answer to my questions.. Not until i escape from the mental asylum.
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