#1 Entry: Why I Started This.775Please respect copyright.PENANAw0CoCLk5Ve
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.775Please respect copyright.PENANAIgW6DwdWiT
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 775Please respect copyright.PENANApqhG5cLT6m
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.775Please respect copyright.PENANAKSZLV5PGV6
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 775Please respect copyright.PENANAiRq0dmKTNI
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAJSEc9ECdSO
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 775Please respect copyright.PENANASZwbD3Vwj1
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAi7cMvVlOqy
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAAP5U4S5V5T
...775Please respect copyright.PENANAru0veCb06f
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?775Please respect copyright.PENANATiguLSmGkF
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.775Please respect copyright.PENANA6EHwdfCood
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)775Please respect copyright.PENANAjXzz2QSKSw
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAOz3fSoH3j0
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAg8XnC9spmI
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?775Please respect copyright.PENANAKfVzvvWVlv
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAoBdRJA22Qt
So calling it off, was it that bad?775Please respect copyright.PENANAANuqZ8Oab5
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAvfY15PCw5O
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)775Please respect copyright.PENANACmX0P9AxtQ
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAetMhCRD3KH
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 775Please respect copyright.PENANA51ZcKSXvb3
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAUyaT1b26Q2
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAriVjjPxA6q
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 775Please respect copyright.PENANACUdxjUzXHp
Henceforth, we have this. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAl4EvLdDeQt
Thanks for bearing with me. 775Please respect copyright.PENANAnpcG4cW0j0
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