Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0UjVnwVw7
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtuYS5vbN2
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdF4nnzpYn
It's been four months since that day.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyuWHrFp3z
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxoBGW8mJe
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvaWuVBUnH
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kTVnsBurx
Only loneliness.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmoxuUG4Gv
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWGW4CO44v
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1pI9iUt6C
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpbezfUWVV
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfezfiKsmB0
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuWRBpQ34r
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfvDDIMcmx
They remind me of home. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZYupfTQH0
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BEmLtkiws
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQnQ1KDEqi
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFEZnx8aRg
I don't want to be here. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQwvhyXhXt
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF4eEHiRAh
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxzJXzesAw
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDkxOjPhJv
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3qbxS7llF
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnUcsiw76y
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOOHrPstzc
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGYOUnDyZE
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6ghtAoosy
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA7b1TLN7r
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyKG7ZHwfL
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEQFZROg8s
I want it to make sense.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWylgj3Xka
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42bptN5OQ7
The PaperGarden.647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkUFaB8h90
To be Continued...647Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz74TKsXhi9
