Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7EEIhQnZx
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEUfMHHkhZ
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtcdfWe7pJ
It's been four months since that day.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtim2MYv8e
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNabutrYBb4
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTzLsoRU6O
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr1obCDe9j
Only loneliness.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgAPDW0ajm
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAUxiqcxJH
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MB52lPc0z
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxkd0ZL8vY
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59g0uWJ8gs
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UxeLquKNs
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJRL0KmvN8
They remind me of home. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHeMuwD0qR
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfT3ZEJBh5Q
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5HGYfXh9q
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW60ReMeUG
I don't want to be here. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqllq3Dn7rY
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3Pe5IMD9s
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0YdzbWFtB
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Pu4gI7nid
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2tB2XT1n4
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemJh71ptgu
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91CTIVRGKu
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYxCz9yvaf
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn8CKqyNgY
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxh4ZP1S9i
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtIvOcS4mw
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc5ESIyXW2
I want it to make sense.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXMY4EEADS
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNHecAGe7W
The PaperGarden.799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqG30en4jR
To be Continued...799Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT0SaEmjfr
